So... this is half-way to end. There are more 5 chapters (I hope) to come. Things might get slow from now on, I'm a month and a half away from my finals so I won't have much time, but I'll update the story whenever I can. So please, keep on reading it. I appreciate every and each review. So thank you for keeping on reading it. And I am seriously sorry, work has been building up and I just had time today, also because I'm trying to relax from my math test. Anyway, sorry again.

Chapter 5: Drowning in oxygen

Seto rocked Jounouchi a bit trying to wake him up, he finally did.

"Katsuya, what was it? What were you dreaming about?"

"Nothing important..." – Jou looked away trying to avoid the conversation

Seto sat up dragging Jounouchi with him. He pulled the blonde to his chest.

"Tell me what was it? Why were you scared? Who was pointing you a gun?" – Seto was drawing soothing circles on Jounouchi's back

"How do you know? Did I say something while I was sleeping?" – Jounouchi didn't know how to answer; he was scared what would come if Seto knew the truth

"You were talking about a gun in your dream."

"I... it's... I... It was just a nightmare..." – Jounouchi was still clearly avoiding the conversation

"Tell me. Didn't I say I love you? You have to trust me. Please, tell me..."

"I don't want you to leave if you discover everything about me..."

"Who said I didn't know already?" – Seto started to draw lines down Jounouchi's spine.

Jou backed away and looked at Set, uneasiness was written all over his eyes.

"What do you mean by that?"

Set didn't thought about what he said until the moment Jounouchi pushed him away, so he just corrected himself and made everything clear.

"I didn't spy on you or researched your background or anything... I mean, I did, but I didn't got too inside your personal affairs, I just know you have an abusive father, beside that I just know some things about your friends and I overheard some other things about your sister, besides that I don't know anything else. I swear." – Seto did regret starting this conversation, but he did love Jounouchi more than anything, more than his brother. He wasn't going to hide anything else from him.

"Why?" – Jounouchi wasn't so nervous but it was enough, because he was afraid Seto discovered his ugly side.

"Because I care about you, but I don't want to scare you."

Jounouchi breathe in and leaned into Seto again, being embraced lovingly.

"Will you tell me about your dream now?"

"It was my father. I dreamt he was pointing me a gun and he said I wasn't his son anymore and that I shouldn't have been born." – tears started to roll down his cheeks, it hurt him more than any other type of pain

"Hey... Calm down. Please... I don't want you to cry. Why does he hit you?"

"I don't know. It all started when I entered junior high, first he insulted me and then he started to injure me psychologically with everything he could. Until one day, he hit me for the first on my last year of junior high. And from then on the beating and the psychological damages got heavier and then I joined the gang but left soon after I turned Yugi's friend. Some months ago..." – Jou was sobbing all the way he was talking, but his voice came to a halt, fear filled his being, he didn't know if he should continue

"Katsuya, what is it?" – Seto began to worry seriously about what was going to be coming next

"And some month ago..." – Jounouchi tried again – "my father... he..."

"What did he do?"

"He tried to sell me up! But I always putted on a fight and got away. They didn't got to touch me. Not even with a finger. I'm quite strong. And that's the reason why I survived up until now." – Jounouchi feared for the worst

"Oh, Katsuya. I'm so sorry about what he did to you. But you are safe now. I assure you. I won't let him touch you again." – Seto rocked Jounouchi back and forth with him, in a steady pace

"I just want him to be who he was when I was a kid. I just want my real dad back..."

Jou shared his most deep secrets with Seto in that moment.

"Hey, don't cry anymore I promise I'll do everything I can to get him back. I'll do whatever it's needed for him to turn back to what he was."

"Thank you... I just want my dad..."

Some time went by and Jounouchi finally relaxed, all the pain that was piled up inside of him didn't hurt so much anymore. It felt lighter. Bearable even. Even thought he knew clearly it won't be bearable.

"Katsuya, were you suffering alone all this time?"

"How could I rely on others with something like this?"

"Why shouldn't you?"

"Because they have their own problems."

"But they rely on you. Or am I wrong?"

"It's different. This will make them back away from me."

"What will?"

"It will make you back away too..."

"What?"

"You still ask what?" – Jounouchi was exasperated and he felt fear building up inside

"Yes. I don't know what would make me want to push you away." – Seto was calm waiting for an answer

"I was sold up. I'm not pure. I'm dirty." – Jou felt his heart aching

Yes, it was obvious that Seto was jealous, but it wasn't Jou's fault.

"Did any of them ever gone all the way through?" – Seto asked

"No! But I don't feel good enough..." – Jou was aching, he loved this man more than anyone in the world, still he just didn't feel he was worth him, and needed to clear things up so Seto understood why

Seto touched Jounouchi's chin with his finger lifting his head so he could look into the others eyes.

"I am the one who has to decide that. And I don't think like that. I love you. You are perfect. If they didn't touch you, then yes, you are clean."

Jou let some tears fall.

"You didn't let them touch you for a reason." – Seto continued – "I want you to tell me what reason."

Jounouchi turned bright red and tried to look away but Seto's hands held him in place.

"I have my reasons..."

Seto chuckled a bit.

"I believe you do. But I want you to tell me what reasons." – the blue eyed man smirked at the scene before him

Jounouchi took Seto's hands off his face and turned away from him, with his back facing the older one

"I don't like men touching me!" – Jou babbled gesturing every word robotically trying to hide his massive blush

Seto, silently, crawled to Jou sitting behind him, hugging his waist so he won't go away. He felt the blonde jump and hiding his face even more exposing the back of his neck. Seto kissed him there, again and again as he listened Jou whimper. He moved his face so his mouth would be close to the chocolate eyed boy ear and then Seto whispered:

"Tell me... Why didn't you let them touch you?" – as he finished the question he bitted softly Jounouchi's earlobe

Jounouchi moaned and closed his eyes, but then covered his mouth to stop any other weird sound to escape from it. Seto was pleased with the results, but he really wanted to know what Jounouchi was hiding. The older on held the blonde tighter and kissed his cheek.

"Please Katsuya, tell me why."

"It's... I... It's just that... I-I... how do I say this... I wanted it to be different... I wanted it to be special..." – Jounouchi was ready to pass out as he tried to build up a reasonable sentence

"I didn't do anything with anyone because I could only desire you. I always wanted you to be my first and only lover." – Seto whispered softly in Jounouchi's ear – "Katsuya, you are the one I want."

The blonde tried to put on a good sentence and turned backwards to face Seto.

"Could you repeat that?" – Jounouchi's eyes sparkled

"You are the one I want. You are my one and only desire." – Seto knew he was getting somewhere

And then Jounouchi blushed again, with Seto doing the same.

"I didn't let them touch me because I only could think about you. You always filled up my mind. I always dreamt of you touching me and no one else. But I always thought you wouldn't ever touch me, ever."

"But I am touching you." – Seto cupped Jou's face in his hands and locked their lips, then without moving away he whispered as he leaned his forehead against Jounouchi's – "And I don't feel like ever stopping."

Jounouchi smiled beautifully with his eyes closed.

"I didn't ever felt this happy before."

"Neither did I." – Seto smiled a small smile

Then the blonde turned into a serious expression

"What is going to happen when we get out of here? To us, I mean..."

"We are going to get seriously together." – Seto answered as seriously as Jounouchi asked

"You mean it?"

"I do."

"I love you." – Jounouchi caught Seto off guard making him blush a lot

"I love you too." – he said feeling his heart trying to jump out of his chest and confine itself next to Jounouchi's – "We should eat and sleep so we can search for a way out of here." – Seto smiled softly

"You know, you really look beautiful when you smile." – Jounouchi smiled widely with the blush he got for an answer

"Don't say nonsense of that sort." – Seto covered his face trying to hide it and looked to the side

"Don't hide yourself. It's true." – Jounouchi grabbed his hands entwining their fingers now with a more serious expression, light whatsoever – "Thank you."

"For what?" – Seto was confused

"For showing me who you really are." – the smile was back – "And to not have pushed me away when I told you the truth."

Sorry about the late update, but I have lots of work and my time isn't that great. D=