8. Change

I opened the door quietly so no one besides my family could hear. Of course they would, but they ignored me and kept their eyes on Jacob. He was shouting at them

"What's going on!?!" He demanded. He looked into everyone's eyes again and again, demanding an explanation. Edward had such a puzzled look on his face, Bella too. I guess Edward told everyone what happened, just not Jacob.

He ran over to me with the most disgusted, annoying, pleading look on his face that I really couldn't bear it, but I controlled myself.

"Nessie, what's wrong, are you hurt, is someone else hurt. Whats going on?!" he exclaimed.

"I…I-" I had no idea what to tell him. I couldn't stand to give him more pain. Edward took my hand in seconds, running with me out of the house and into the forest with Bella straight on our heels, to our cottage, where Jacob was never allowed. He took us into the cottage and we sat down in the living room.

Our cottage was a small perfect little fairy tale, according to Bella. I loved it; it was the perfect place for my parents and I just to be a little family for once, to get away form life and vampire ways.

"I was perfectly aligned with myself, not listening to your thoughts..." He began.

"But then I heard your thoughts about Matt, I'm sorry but they hit me like a wrecking ball."

UGH! I groaned.

"Whats wrong Nessie?" asked Bella

"Now you're going to tell me to stop, and get all up in my business now aren't you?"

Edward and Bella exchanged a puzzled glance.

"Of course not." Said Bella

"We just wanted to talk to you to try and help you with this situation sweetheart." Said Edward

I sighed a huge sigh of relief.

"But why haven't you told Jacob?" I asked

"Do you think we'll put him in that kind of pain again?" Bella sighed, and thought about all the ways she's hurt Jake from relishing her shield accidentally. Edward and I both heard, and Edward went over to comfort her.

"He needs to know." I added

They both sighed, and took my hands as we bolted out of our cottage and across the river to the big white house.

"Will somebody please tell me what's going on?!" Jacob demanded right when we entered the door. I could easily feel Jasper's effects on the mood in the room, but I didn't feel calm, and neither did anyone else, he gave up eventually. Jacob was right at my side, looking right at my eyes in a pleading expression. What was I going to tell him?

Thank god this time that Edward stepped in with Bella. Bella led Jake and Edward into the living room with Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie, Emmett, and Alice…Jasper stayed behind. I watched him curiously as he walked up the 3 story house with me.

"I don't think I can control anyone downstairs when they hear the news." He said casually.

I sighed.

"No one blames you Nessie, we all knew that it might happen sooner or later, even Jacob knows that."

"I know, but it kills me to see him this way."

"You are exactly like your mom you know. Always caring for others around her, and always calm and in control."

"I know that, and I'm happy for her and myself. But sometimes it can be just plain annoying."

He chuckled and led us into his and Alice's room.

I have never taken the time to look into anyone's room in the house of all the time I've lived here and in the cottage. I've only seen Carlisle and Esme's room, and Carlisle's office, and a quick glimpse of Emmett and Rose's room. Edward's was pretty much my room to hang out and relax while I stayed in the house away from the cottage. My cottage room eventually became too small, and Alice and Esme had to reconstruct for a few days. But they enjoyed their work, and Esme always made every room special with every detail so unique. But since my condition started a few weeks ago, I've been staying here a lot more than usual; the cottage was my real home.

Jasper went into his closet and changed clothes in a few seconds. I hadn't noticed that they were all covered in mud from wrestling outside with Emmett. He changed into a dark gray sweater, and kakis. Everyone always looked like a supermodel in this family, but now I was starting to really see it.

We talked a lot of past memories and listened to music. I had learned Jasper's story through himself and Bella, but it was not as convincing as others. I mainly wanted to know how he and Alice clicked, it was so interesting. The same story was told over and over again…that Alice saw Jasper coming in one of her visions, and knew they'd be together forever. If it were me instead of Alice, I'd be looking to change the future. How can anyone just meet their soul mate and fall madly in love over a vision in the future without even meeting or getting to know them first?

Other than all the vampire stuff about Jasper, he was clam and casual, and very easy to talk to. I asked him to have more talks like this just to get away from reality, and he agreed that that would be a nice break for him too.

We both could easily tell when the meeting downstairs was over. I knew immediately from hearing everyone's thoughts except Bella… and Jacob. I tried to drown out his thoughts until he was ready to talk to me. Jasper could read the expression on my face, and began calming me at once.

"Thanks" I murmed as we walked down the stairs, I hugged him and thanked him again. Everyone was outside the living room except for Jake. Everyone went off to do other things except for Jasper, just incase I was ready to rip Jake's throat out.

I sat down next to Jake while Jasper was leaning against the wall, and looked up at Jake to read his face. He looked pretty calm and ready to talk, so I started.

"Did they tell you everything?" I began; hopefully he wouldn't be in such pain.

He sighed, and than smiled.

"Yes." He breathed.

Why wasn't he mad? Did Edward leave out the big part of me and Matt?

"It's okay; I knew this would happen sooner or later."

So he did know.

"I'm so sorry Jake." I said and nestled into his chest.

"Remember what I said to Bella when she first found out that I imprinted on you." He asked

I went straight into my memories, re-living the conversation.

"Oh….I remember now."

He smiled again, "I said, I just want her safe and happy, nothing else."

I sighed again.

"All I want is for you to be happy."

"I am happy with you Jake, don't you know that."

"Yes I know, but that doesn't give me the right to keep you away from other choices and other experiences they give you."

He was in pain now, I could see it.

"Oh Jake." And I threw myself at him

"I love you, and I always will, this will probably pass soon enough. I don't even know if I want Matt instead of you. How on earth will I be able to be with him will all of this magic."

"You don't know that, Edward and Bella said the same about each other…and look at them now. Happy go-lucky couple."

I touched his cheek.

"Jake, don't worry about a thing. I will always be happy with whoever I chose. I will always love you no matter what happens." I said,

"You'll always be my best man."

And with that he smiled and carried me off the couch and out the door to the woods.

"Let's do something together today, and all night if you want to."

"Anything" I said, and he put me down as we both broke off into a bolting run.