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'Cause everything inside, it never comes out right.

And when I see you cry, it makes me want to die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry your blue.

I'm sorry 'bout all the things I said to you.

And I know, I can't take it back.

I love how you care, I love all your sounds,

And baby the way you make my world go round.

And I just wanted to say,

I'm sorry.

Chapter 14: I Missed You

Alice POV

I was Bella's aunt. I had a home. I found where I belonged. I rushed at her and hugged her with everything I had. If I could, I'd be crying until I had nothing left.

"Bella! I knew I felt too strong of a connection to you! I knew there had to be a reason!" I finally found family…true…blood family. This almost never happens for vampires. I had gone so long with nothing…not even the slightest bit of information as to where I came from. I woke up in Texas after my change, so James must have moved me.

"Alice she does need to breathe." Emmett told me with a laugh. I looked to him and I could see the happiness dancing in his eyes. I then looked to Bella and felt a wave of horror.

"Bella…he used you to get to me…I put you in danger! Oh my God this was because of some sick game?" She smiled sadly and shrugged.

"I'd say I didn't mind if this didn't involve my dad…but it does." I nodded. I didn't want her to forgive me, I shouldn't have put her in this kind of danger.

"Oh Bella…I'm so sorry… I can't be more sorry…but I wish I could be. I love you so much and I can't believe you were ever put in his hands. I will never let anything hurt you again. I promise you." I hugged her as tight as I could without hurting her. I would never let her be put in danger again. Her or Charlie. I needed to look after my family.

"We're…family! Oh my God…I can't believe I found blood family… Bella, you're my niece!" She laughed.

"My mom would be…so happy to know you. She missed you a lot when you disappeared. She looked up to you. You were like a mom to her." I felt tears spring to my eyes and got frustrated and huffed.

"I wish I could just cry!" I laughed and Bella looked to me confused.

"You can't cry?" I shook my head.

"No, we can't cry. Well, we can, but with no tears. They well up in our eyes, but we will never again shed a tear…sometimes it's frustrating." I told her with a laugh.

"I can imagine…Alice I'm really sorry about what happened to you…" She told me but I silenced her with a smile.

"Bella, what's done is done…it happened a long time ago. I got my answers and a real family member. I could only be happier if James hadn't gotten to you. Bella I'm so sorry." I told her sadly. I looked around the room to see everyone still in shock. One person looked worse than us all though. Emmett.

Emmett POV

Watching that asshole man handle Bella was single handedly one of the hardest things I have ever done. I looked at Bella sitting beside me in the chair and I felt sick. She was so banged up that it sparked a hate in me I had never felt before. I only wished I had have gotten to tear off a few limbs. I needed to focus on Bella now though. I listened to her heartbeat and breathing and knew it would all be okay. She was alive and safe here with us.

"Emmett? Are you alright?" Alice asked me and I opened my eyes. I nodded quietly and linked an arm with Bella's good arm, putting my head on her shoulder.

"I just don't know what I would have done if we lost you." I whispered and I heard Bella sigh, putting her head on mine. I looked to Alice who was wearing a big smile. I was so happy for her. She finally has a past. She has blood family…she deserved it. I could feel my dead heart swell at the thought of Alice finally unlocking her past.

"Hey…guys? What did you mean by 'She's changing.' Before Alice did her…thing to my arm?" Bella asked us. I could smell her and it seemed off. She hadn't showered at home so she didn't smell like her…

"Well when the venom James put into you began to spread through your bloodstream you began the change. It started to infect your blood supply and you began to change into one of us. But by Alice sucking the venom out of you it halted the change." Carlisle told her. She nodded and leaned her body into mine.

"Wait. I heard Alice say 'not the right time.' What was that supposed to mean?" She asked and I felt her stiffen. Something told me this would not go over well. I looked to Alice and she seemed guilty. She hadn't told any of us that she had seen Bella becoming one of us. I sat up straight and watched Alice.

"Well…I guess there is something else you should know about vampires Bella, some of us have gifts. My gift is that I can see the future. It's not always accurate, but it's based on people's choices." I chanced a look at Bella and could see her trying to put pieces together. A look of pure betrayal crossed her face.

"You were going to turn me into a vampire?" Uh oh.

"Bella, no. I could see it happening yes but-"

"You were going to change me! How could you do this to me? I trusted you Alice! I trusted all of you!" She looked into my eyes and I just knew there was no way to fix this.

"Bella none of them knew… only I knew. Please don't be mad." Alice told her sadly.

"Don't be mad? You all kept this huge secret from me! You think I didn't deserve to know this? Did you not trust me enough to tell me? No, instead you decide to wait until my dad and I almost die and someone else brings this to my attention!" She looked at me.

"I have been nothing but honest with you." She looked to everyone else. "To all of you. And this is how you repay me." I felt so low. She was right. With all the time her and I spent talking, I should have told her. She should have been filled in.

"You all kept me in the dark like a fool. And Alice. Fine. Let's say you were the only one that knew I was 'to become a vampire'. You know how much I hate secrets. You know what secrets have done to me and my dad and you still kept this from me. How could you possibly think I would be alright with this? How could you plan to take me away from my dad?... I can't believe you would do this to me." She finished in a whisper. I looked to my hands feeling guilty. I felt bad for Alice too. She only tried to do what she thought was best. I felt the chair shift and looked to see Bella trying to stand up.

"Bella, you can't be up and moving around." Carlisle told her and she stood there looking down at Alice, who was knelt in front of her, dry sobbing. I stood up, reaching for Bella's hand.

"Bella, please. Let me help you?" I whispered, the pain in my voice evident. She wouldn't look at me. After a few moments she gave in and raised her arm so I could pick her up newlywed style. I was very careful with her and carried her gently up the stairs to her room. I placed her on the bed and put the covers up over her. She still wouldn't look at me.

"Bella…I'm so sorry." I whispered, kneeling beside the bed. No answer.

"Alice didn't know she was hurting you. She thought she was protecting you by keeping you in the dark. None of us want you to lose your mortality. I'm not sure I could get through the day without hearing your heartbeat. Please don't push us away. I just want you in my life…we all do." I saw tears begin to roll down her cream coloured cheeks. They were slightly rose coloured with emotion.

"I'm sorry Emmett. I…I can't." She whispered. I felt a sob rising in my chest, but wouldn't let it go. I sat there for a moment watching her. I couldn't explain it. I just knew I needed her in my life. It physically hurt that she was mad at me. I didn't want to force her, she needed to come around on her own. I just hoped she would soon.

Bella POV

It had been four weeks since I moved in with the Cullen's. I had gotten my leg cast off a week ago, only to be replaced with an air cast, which I could at least take off for showers and I could walk on it. I had gotten my stitches all out two and a half weeks ago, my stomach had healed nicely, though I had a pretty nasty scar. My wrist was almost healed, I would get that cast off in another week and a half, and be rid of my air cast in another two weeks. I was happy to be rid of the awful reminders of that night. Going to school had been a nightmare. I hated attention, and people gave me lots of it. My dad and I were "celebrities" in Forks as of late, what with surviving our "vicious bear attack". I scoffed at it. All those poor people…kept in the dark. I knew it was what needed to be done though, my dad and I would probably be committed to a mental institution if we let out what really happened.

My dad was healing up really well as well. His wounds were no longer stitched either, though both of his legs were still casted. The doctor, aka Carlisle, said my dad should be rid of his one cast within a few days, and be released. My dad still didn't know the Cullen's secret, though he did know something was up. He knew they weren't normal, but he didn't ask and never held it against them. Me on the other hand…well I hadn't spoken to them since that night. The only time I ever spoke was to Angela, in class, or to my dad. I didn't want to deal with people's questions, so I avoided it. And I didn't want to speak to the Cullen's, so I avoided them too.

"Bella! Baby how was school?" My dad asked me when I hobbled into his room after school on a Thursday. This was just a typical day. Sometimes Angela came with me and we would hang out with my dad, doing our homework, and sometimes I would come alone and do my homework while spending the evening with my dad. I would be dropped off by a Cullen, and picked up by a Cullen, but they never stayed. They would always come up to say hello to my dad when they dropped me off and picked me up, but they knew better than to stay.

"It was fine, I missed you though." I told him with a hug and kiss to the cheek.

"Awe I missed you too Bells. The nurses come and keep me company, but it's just not the same. I smiled and sat next to his bed in my usual spot.

"So, any word on when you get this thing off?" I asked, patting his casted "good" leg. One had been broken in seven places. The good one had only suffered one break and was almost fully healed. He nodded.

"Tomorrow! You know what that means?" I looked to him and I was sure my face was one of pure joy.

"You're getting out of here!" I squealed and jumped up to hug him. He laughed. A nurse came in smiling.

"Heard the good news then I'm guessing?" I nodded and couldn't keep the smile from my face.

"I'm so excited dad!" He smiled.

"Me too Bells. We both get to stay with Dr. Cullen now!" My face blanked.

"What?"

"Well, it is the reason we are both getting out early. He is a doctor, we will never be doing anything too strenuous. We aren't alone to fend for ourselves, he insists it is no problem sweetheart, don't worry." I nodded glumly. More time with the Cullen's. We stayed silent until the nurse left, and my dad whispered.

"I insisted they come clean with us about what is going on here though." I sighed, leaning back in my chair with a plop.

"I already know dad." He looked at me surprised.

"Oh?" I nodded.

"It's a shocker alright, but that's not what bothers me. They kept a secret from us dad…I'm so tired of secrets. I haven't spoken to them in four weeks." He nodded to me in understanding, taking my hand in his.

"Bells, they kept a secret yes, but you have to be polite. I'm sure it doesn't deserve that kind of treatment." I sighed deeply.

"Yeah, just you wait." He chuckled.

"Stubborn, stubborn, stubborn. You get that from your mother." I smiled and let out a laugh.

"No way! I get it from you." I said, poking him. He always knew when to lighten the mood. I smiled knowing I would never let them take me away from my dad. I did my homework and chatted with my dad until it got dark. All too soon, Emmett came into the room with Carlisle. I didn't look up from my textbook.

"Hey Emmett! It's been a while since I've seen you in here, how have you been?" It had been a while, and I knew why. The night Emmett and I last spoke, not even he could keep the pain from his voice. It had been weeks since we spoke, did homework, even made eye contact. It hurt him. I had overheard Alice speaking to Jasper saying that it hurt him to be around me when he knew I didn't want to be near any of them. I was amazed he came to get me tonight.

"Yeah, well my dad told me you were getting out of here tomorrow! I'll be the one to come get you, so I just wanted to know if there is anything I can do for you, get for you, bring for you…" He trailed off. I could feel his eyes on me but I didn't look to him. I looked to my dad instead. He was looking from Emmett to me. His eyes settled on me and he smiled.

"No, thanks. I just need my baby girl and I'll be fine." I smiled and stood up, hugging him again.

"Alright. You will be getting your cast off tomorrow morning, and will be kept here until the afternoon when we will sign all the release forms. I will be fitting you for a leg brace just as a precaution." Carlisle told him and dad nodded. I smiled at him and he smiled back.

"Dad I can't wait for you to be out of this hospital bed." I told him and he nodded. I packed up my books and gave my dad one more kiss on the cheek and a hug.

"Goodnight dad, I love you." I whispered. He whispered it back.

The ride home was silent, as it is with all the Cullen's. Emmett opened the doors for me and I muttered a thanks. Thank you was the only two words any Cullen got from me. I couldn't be rude. It was lonely, it was always lonely. I wanted nothing more than to welcome them all back in, but I didn't know if I could trust them. If I had to pick between them and my dad, I would not choose them. I went up to my room but stopped at the room before mine.

"That's where your dad will be staying." I heard from behind me. I saw Jasper. I nodded to him and opened the door to take a look inside. I looked around, deciding that I would go to my house before dad was brought here to fill it with some of his things. I didn't even notice Jasper had come into the room behind me until he spoke, making me jump.

"There is a private bathroom right through that door, just like in your room. I assume you might want to grab some stuff for him tomorrow, that isn't a problem." I nodded and turned to look around the room again.

"I don't mean to pry Bella, but why are you lonely?" My head snapped around to look at him. How the hell did he know that? My confusion must have shown on my face.

"Remember when Alice said some of us have gifts? Well I'm an empath. I can feel the emotions of others and alter them." My silence was broken. Damn curiosity!

"Really?" He smiled, probably for getting me to speak. I felt like a traitor. If only my dad knew they were going to take me from him…

"Yes, sometimes it's a curse, sometimes it's helpful. Like when you needed to be calmed after your run in with the wolves." I remembered feeling significantly more calm instantly that night, keeping me from having an episode.

"You…you did that?" He walked over to the bed and sat down, smiling at me.

"I did darlin'." I couldn't stop the small smile that graced my lips.

"Thank you." I whispered. I dropped my head, for some reason I felt bad for shutting them all out.

"What's the matter Bella? Why do you feel guilty?" I looked to him. This would take some getting used to. I sighed and sat on the bed beside him.

"Well…you have all done things that have helped me significantly. I feel bad for shutting you guys out." He nodded.

"And is that why you feel lonely?" I thought for a moment.

"Well…I miss old habits. Homework with Emmett…bedtime with Alice. Edward in biology…talking to you guys in class and at lunch. You guys became my everyday up until the accident. All through March I saw you all everyday. April hit…and I felt betrayed…its been a whole month Jasper and I haven't spoken to any of you. Yet you all still seem to do anything for me. You lost two members of your family. Yet you guys take care of me." I looked to my hands.

"Then, why not talk if you feel bad and are lonely?" He asked me.

"I can't let you take me from my dad." I whispered. I couldn't even stand the thought of not seeing my dad anymore. I couldn't lose him, and he couldn't lose me.

"Bella, I promise you. If you make the choice that you don't want to be one of us, it could change in Alice's visions. They are always subject to change." I nodded.

"Yes, but I still feel betrayed. I deserved to know…" He sighed.

"I know Bella, we all feel really bad about that. We understand why you are upset with us, so don't feel guilty. We all know we should have trusted you enough and respected you enough to tell you. It is just something we have never had to deal with before. Take the time you need, but remember, our doors are always open. We would do anything for you and your dad." He told me. He put his cold arm around my shoulders and pulled me into his side for a quick hug, and got up. With a small smile, he left, leaving the door open. I sat there with my head in my hands thinking. I missed them so much…but I didn't know if it was time to make nice yet. I sighed lifting my head to see Emmett in the doorway looking at me sadly. I just watched him, we locked eyes for the first time in a month. I didn't need to feel anybody's emotions to see all the pain in his eyes. I didn't know what to say…if I should say anything…or how I would say it if I knew. We stayed that way for at least a minute until he sighed, lowering his gaze to the floor. His shoulders slumped and he turned and walked back down the stairs. I felt tears slipping down my cheeks and I got up, ready to lock myself in my room like I do every night, except tonight I cried myself to sleep, scared of my dad's reaction to what the Cullen's are…afraid of losing what I had with Alice and Emmett…and feeling immensely lonely.

Emmett POV

I sat outside Bella's door like I did every night for the last month. I missed her so much. It hurt that she didn't want to be around me. I wasn't sure what it was that made me so drawn to her, but I just couldn't bring myself to be happy knowing she was miserable. It broke my dead heart hearing her cry herself to sleep, knowing there was nothing I could do about it. I had heard he speaking to Jasper tonight, and it killed me that she felt guilty. She had nothing to feel guilty for, we all agreed. But, that was Bella. She was so selfless that she would let herself suffer knowing she was doing right by someone else, and she thought she was doing right by her dad. You couldn't fault her for that.

This last month had been so hard. Rosalie had moved out while Bella was in her coma, leaving my room a mess. I still couldn't be bothered to clean it up, my mind always elsewhere. It felt so strange to be without Rose, it hurt. But for some reason, Bella being mad at me hurt more. I had been feeling small feelings for her…I was happy around her…but that couldn't mean anything. I am a vampire, she is a human. There could never be anything between us, and I knew that…but it hurt to know it.

"Hey, doing your nightly babysitting?" Alice asked me with a sad smile, sitting beside me. By the sound of Bella's even, slowed breathing, I knew she was asleep.

"Yeah…" Was my brilliant reply.

"I don't think anything could drag you from this spot at night." She whispered. I nodded, I didn't think anything could.

"I miss her Alice." She put her head on my shoulder and I tossed an arm around my sister.

"I miss her too Emmett." We sat there for at least two hours just listening to her breath…her heartbeat.

"We should hunt before school, join me?" She asked me. It was four in the morning and I knew that for Bella and Charlie's sake, I should peel myself away from Bella's door. I nodded. Everyone else was already out, except Esme, who always waited to go with Carlisle. It was the closest thing to a dinner date they would get. Soon it would be time for school and I would have to deal with watching Bella from afar again. In gym, she has been excused, so I have gone back to no partner. I just watch her sit on the sidelines doing her homework. I missed doing homework with her…I missed everything about her.

"Emmett…can we go to my house to get some of my dad's stuff?" I heard from behind me. It was the smallest, most hesitant whisper I have ever heard. But it was one of the most beautiful sounds I have heard in my 103 years. I turned to see Bella standing beside my jeep still, we had just pulled up to my house and I had begun walking up to the house when her voice stopped me. She hadn't spoken to me in a month. I looked at her for a few seconds until I snapped out of my shock.

"Uh…yes, of course we can. Here, I'll help you back into the-"

"I got it." She told me, making me pull back a bit. She wasn't ready, I wouldn't push her. I waited for her to get settled in and let her hand me the seatbelt to click into the holder. We headed to her house and she let me unbuckle her once we stopped. She hopped out of the jeep and we headed into the house.

"Take your time, we can grab as much as you'd like. If you want some more stuff of yours we can grab that too." She nodded and let me steady her up the stairs. I missed the contact as soon as it was gone. I missed her so much…she brought the real me out…and I missed me too.

We gathered a few boxes of stuff and headed back to my house to drop it off. Bella spent around an hour in her dad's room setting it up. Around six, I knocked on the door and called to Bella.

"We can go and get your dad now, Bella." No answer came, though I didn't expect one. I went back downstairs and waited for Bella to come down. We were setting off to the hospital to get Charlie very quickly, as Bella couldn't wait to get him out of there. She hated hospitals.

I have never seen anyone more proud than Bella watching her dad move his leg around, out of the cast. He could put weight on it and hobble with one crutch. She beamed to him, and even though I missed her, it made me happy to see her smile.

"You're…" Charlie said. We waited. We had just told him about our kind and he had been quiet for a good three and a half minutes. Bella was sitting beside him, holding his hand.

"You eat people?"

"No, no, Charlie of course not. We only hunt animals, that's why our eyes are gold. The three that attacked you and Bella were human drinkers, their eyes were red." He nodded and took a deep breath.

"You kept this from us. You didn't give myself or Bella the chance to send you away, or accept you. That was our choice, and we should have been informed, what with you maintaining a close friendship with us." We nodded. I was sure I felt as horrible as Alice looked. I didn't want to lose them.

"That being said, you protected us. You saved us in the woods, and you never left our sides. We owe you our lives, and as long as we maintain respect and honesty, I want to thank you for all you have done for us, and thank you for letting us stay here with you." I couldn't have smiled any bigger. Charlie wasn't mad! Bella's head shot up and she looked at her dad like he was crazy.

"Charlie there is one thing you should know." Alice began. He nodded, motioning for her to continue.

"I had a vision back when I met Bella, I have sort of…visions of the future based on people's choices. But…my vision was of her being one of us eventually. Now…I would never take her from you. Never…not unless we had to in order to save her life or you two asked for it. It is based wholly on what you two decide, and if that is not the case, it will not be. But I just wanted you to know. Bella is upset we didn't tell her this…so I need everything to be out in the open now." She sounded so sad. Charlie looked shocked for a moment, and Bella looked expectant. Charlie took a deep breath, as I held mine.

"That sounds…fair." Bella looked at him confused.

"Dad…you aren't mad?" He shook his head.

"No, Bella. They have done nothing but keep us together. They kept us alive for each other, and I owe them nothing but gratitude." I watched Bella's head fall to look at her hands but she stayed silent. Soon, Charlie was talking to Alice about her gift and asking all sorts of questions about vampires. He seemed skeptical, but very interested. Alice had to prove a few things to him, like our strength. I watched as Bella was still disengaged from us and sighed. I decided to just retreat to my room, like I usually do. The last thing I heard before I shut them all out was Alice laughing.

"No, Charlie really! I'll even let you shoot me later. I'm completely bulletproof!"

I wasn't sure how long I lay in bed looking at the ceiling, thinking. I was lost in thought about the night it all went wrong when I heard a small voice. I looked over and saw Bella standing in my door.

"I knocked…but you didn't answer." She told me hesitantly. I sat up and watched her, I'm sure looking hopeful. I waited for her to move or speak, I needed her to make that step of inviting us back into her life…inviting me back. She looked uncomfortable standing in the doorway, looking around.

"So…why is your room so messy?" I rubbed the back of my head and looked around.

"Uh…Rose kind of trashed the place when she moved out." She nodded, her mouth forming an 'oh'. I nodded and looked back to her. She walked into the room, continuing her inspection.

"Would you…like some help cleaning it up?" I watched her in shock. Was she opening back up? I wasn't sure.

"Well, I don't want you doing much, but I wouldn't be opposed to some company while I cleaned it?" She nodded, still not showing any expression on her face. She seemed to be unsure of herself. I got up off the bed motioning for her to sit on it, and I busied myself with cleaning up the pieces of chair and dresser Rosalie had broken. She had busted up the closet door, threw my clothes everywhere, cracked the footboard right off the bed, wrote 'I hate you' in lipstick on the mirror…the place was trashed. We stayed like this for what felt like hours, but looking at the alarm clock I could see that it had only been twenty minutes. I was working very slowly, trying to prolong the time I got to spend listening to her breath in and out…in and out… watching the way she fiddled with the pillow she had placed on her lap. The way she massaged her leg absentmindedly. The little human habits she had like biting her lip…picking at her nails…I missed it all.

"So, do you have a gift like Alice and Jasper?" I was surprised to hear her break the silence. I turned to her and shook my head. She was picking at the cast on her left wrist.

"No, I don't have a gift. I am bigger than the average…vampire…and stronger…but I don't do anything cool." She smiled softly.

"You make yourself sound like a toy." I had to chuckle at this. To be honest, I was just thrilled to just be talking to her.

"So…do the rest of the Cullen's have gifts?" I nodded.

"Edward could read minds." Her eyes widened. I smiled.

"Just not yours. You irritated the hell out of him. You are the only mind he could never read." She smiled big at this. I missed seeing that smile.

"Anyone else?" I shook my head picking up a chunk of dresser.

"No. Rest of us are just boring toys." She laughed at this and I stopped to watch her. She stopped laughing and looked up at me with a smile on her face.

"What?" I locked eyes with her.

"I missed you Bella." Her big smiled turned soft. She looked down at the pillow again and sighed.

"I missed you too Emmett."

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