Supernatural Ficlet: 066. Anger
Pairings/Characters: Sam/Dean implied
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Do not own, no money made
Comments: Early season 1 – pre Shadows
Except for the monomaniacal thought of 'Find Dad', he's empty inside.
No, he's burned up like a tree struck by lightning, hollowed out, blackened and dead. There's nothing left of him except hopelessly burning rage.
He knows Dean wants to save him with the hunt and himself, but he knows the hunt will destroy him – begs for it – and Dean…all that love and he can't have it.
He hurts Dean but he can't give his brother what he so yearns for because he can't feel anything but hate and despair; he doesn't want to feel and he doesn't want Dean's love because it feels too much of a betrayal of Jess.
People who love him die. If he lost Dean now, nothing would keep him from going out in the darkness, unarmed and howling.
He can still feel her blood on his face; he doesn't want to feel Dean's.
No, it's much better to hate and despair and Find Dad until his rage devours him.