Song: Winner At A Losing Game. Rascal Flats.
I watched for signs that Sadie and Seth's relationship failing, but none came. I rubbed my belly thoughtfully. I had been trying to think of a name for my baby since I had found out the sex of it. I wanted Seth to know he would always be a part of the baby.
For the time being her last name would be the same as mine. I had tried out several names, but none of them seemed to fit. I didn't want to name her something plain like Jane, Sally, or Sarah. Not that there's anything wrong with those names. I just want my baby to be her own individual and not classified as the girl next door because of her name.
I sat across from Cash playing the name game. " Stacie, Carolee, Petrina." I said in quick succession. He shook his head. "Jade, Lily, Calypso." I shook my head. "I don't know. I haven't ever been able to name anything. Not even my pets!" I sat there for a moment thinking." What do you think of Sophia Sue?" I asked him carefully. He shrugged. "It's okay." I sat there saying it.
"No it doesn't flow. I want her to have a part of Seth in her name. Sue Elizabeth is his mother's name, and Seth James is his." I sat there. "How about Elizabeth Jade looked at Cash and he nodded. "I think calling her Jade will be sufficient." I beamed and touched my belly. I felt a small flutter there and placed my hand over it. You couldn't quite feel it outside of my stomach.
I walked into the room I had slowly turned into a nursery. After many arguments and my face being carefully covered in a surgical mask I was allowed to paint the nursery myself. I had put the running wolf wallpaper around the middle of the room. The top half of the room was black and I had painted intricate stars all around it with a full moon overlooking the room from a corner.
The bottom half was green to match the décor I had bought. I walked from the room and grabbed my car keys. We were headed over to the Cullen's to practice fighting moves. The last few sessions though Jamye, Jayson, Darius, Cash, and Zakree had been getting all the practice while I hung out with Chase.
He was quite fascinated that his first name and my last name were exactly the same. The only thing I couldn't understand is why he hadn't changed into a wolf yet. In our pack we are taught to shift when we turn three. Chase was three and still walking about all the time as human.
I walked up to Jacob. "Jake I hope you don't mind me asking, but why haven't you taught Chase how to shift yet?" He studied me. "What do you mean?" I looked at him a little funny. "You know teach him to embrace his inner wolf and ask it to come out and play so he can learn to shift at will. If you don't teach them when they are young the teenage hormones coursing through them will upset the wolf and it will be very painful and difficult for them to control themselves."
I looked into his eyes before continuing, "Have you ever seen a shifter who didn't learn to turn until they were sixteen? They go crazy and will hurt people. Not on purpose, but they just can't control so many emotions." He laughed. "All of us in Sam's pack didn't know anything about shifting as you call it until we turned sixteen and ripped into our wolf forms." I gasped.
"Then we must teach Chase. That would be awful for him." I paused then gasped. "Emily. That's what happened to her isn't it? Who did it?" His eyes held sorrow. "Sam." I felt a tear run down my face knowing Sam probably went through all kinds of pain everyday seeing her the way she was and knowing it was his fault. He harmed his mate.
Jacob looked around. "I don't know. I need to talk to Renesmee about it first." I nodded. "When, you reach a decision let me know." He smiled and touched my stomach. "Do you know what you're having?" I smiled.
" A girl. Elizabeth Jade." He smiled. "Seth and Sadie are having a girl to. Sara Louise. Seth says he doesn't care whom the baby belongs to. As far as he's concerned she's his." Jacob eyes carefully searched my face. I knew then that he knew. I growled.
"Not a word to anybody or I will see your head on a platter. He obviously doesn't want my baby." I got in my car sped off leaving Cash. He could run home. The only reason he had rode with me was so I wouldn't be lonely. I love Seth. Our love is going to be forever, and I'm a winner at a losing game.
I pulled into Sam's driveway and went into the forest and found a rock to sit on. I closed my eyes taking calming breaths until I could finally get my emotions under control. I was walking back towards Sam's house, when I heard a howl.
Darius found me and shifted back to human. "Alice said they'll be here any moment." He shifted back and I climbed on his back. We ran for the Cullen Mansion at top speed.
