Disclaimer- I do not own Twilight, or these characters, except Jesse, Emmett Anthony and Luke.

Chap 4

At graduation he asked me to marry him, and I said yes. We got married a few weeks later, with only our families and Angela and Ben there. It was small and beautiful, with Ean trying to run around when he could barely stand making our smiles that much wider.

I really had a family now, and even if it was not the family I had planned on, it was just as amazing. We didn't go on a honeymoon, but we did move into an apartment that was not too far away from Renee. We had a great time painting Ean's room while he toddled around his play pen. We let him put some yellow washable paint on his hand and put it on the bottom of his bright green walls, and got it all over ourselves in the process. Renee walked in and laughed so hard that she had to take a picture of our little family sitting on the floor while Ean smacked his hands on the walls.

I put that picture in a three picture frame I found, along with copies of the two pictures from my old room, and those hung above his bed. Luke understood why I needed Ean to see Jesse and Edward, and he was a lot better about it then I deserved.

One day while we were putting Ean to bed for the 5th time that night, Luke was staring at the picture of Edward, and when I looked at him questioningly, he pulled on my hand and led me into our room. "Bella, why did you hang up that picture of Edward, and not one of the pictures of both of you from your album?" I thought about this, and realized that I did have my album from Alice, filled with pictures of Edward, myself and the other Cullens in the apartment. I looked at the floor for a moment, and then sat down on our bed, pulling him down with me. "Well, back when Ean was born, I decided that everyday I wanted him to see Edward as I remember him. That one picture wasn't posed, and that is how I like to think of Edward. At the time it was also a good reminder for me." Luke thought for a moment, then nodded once and got into bed.

That fall Luke and I started college with Angela and Ben. They were our best friends, and double dating was a favorite of ours. We always brought Ean, and as he got older he reminded me more and more of his namesake. But he had inherited a strange mix of my clumsiness and Edward's inhuman grace, Ean stumbled constantly but did it so gracefully it went unnoticied to everyone who wasn't used to him. I spent as much time as possible with Luke, but on certain days, like my 20th birthday, and a seemingly insignificant day halfway through one of the semesters, I went to visit Charlie.

I never brought anyone on my sudden and short visits, and I am pretty sure Charlie saw right through them, but he allowed me to think otherwise. I would visit with Charlie, without entering my old bedroom, and then drive around Forks for a while, then return home. A part of me knew it was silly but I had never managed to be completely over the Cullens. Any small reminder of them now and again was welcome.

Another year came and went, and my life was just as blissful as it had been a long time ago in a tiny town, but now with sunshine instead of rain. Luke was my bestfriend, my husband, and everything I could ever hope for. Ean was my light, and his toddler version of rough housing always brought a smile to my face.

My nightmares came less frequently, as I was spending the majority of nights in Luke's arms, but nevertheless, any night I was without Luke I got heartbreaking glances of the family I once knew and the daughter I still would have gladly traded places with so she could get her fair chance.

Ean's first word was "Da," but he calls Luke "Lu." Great, I know, my little boy's first word is somehow a word that he doesn't relate to anyone. In fact, he was in his crib looking at the picture of Edward when he said it. The first time he said "Ma" my heart stopped I was so proud. His first steps are on a video camera that Luke keeps glued to his hand, catching every significant moment, "to show off when he starts skipping grades and grabbing scholarships." Angela and Ben got married that summer, and they even let my little prince jog down the aisle (yes, two years old and apparently channeling his father's speed since he runs like a six year old.) The rest of the summer passed easily and happily.

Right before my 21st birthday Angela surprised me with passes to a casino in Atlantic City. So after saying goodbye to Ben, and Luke we took off to spend a few days there. Renee came with us and brought Emmett so the boys could all go fishing, or something like that. That very first night Renee said she would stay back with Emmett, and we took advantage of my new legal status, since Angela had been 21 for months. I will not go into much detail, I'm not so sure I would be able to anyway, but it was an average girls night out drinking and gambling.

That was, until Angela went to the bathroom and left me to wander. Suddenly, I caught sight of a very small girl with dark hair sticking out in all directions. Even though a large part of me was screaming that there was no way in hell I was seeing her, the small part of me wishing it was her won, and I suddenly found myself stumbling and running across the room and tackling her to the ground with a fierce hug. She had hesitated for a moment, but then was hugging me just as tightly.

"ALICE!" I screamed, I was very lucky she had been standing outside by herself, otherwise someone would have been questioning us by now. "Bella!! I can't believe it's really you! How did I not--?" I cut her off quickly "Wait, Alice are you here by yourself? Where is Jasper, or Emmett or anyone for that matter?" Alice had pulled us to a bench by then, and was now staring at me intently, studying me.

"Well, Emmett and Edward are inside, and—" I cut her off again "Edward?!" my throat tightened, but not horribly "Oh Alice why didn't he hear your thoughts yet? Wait, didn't you see me finding you? I want to see them, both of them, all of them!" Alice looked at me strangely and also with a bit of frustration, like this was not the response she was expecting from me. "Bella, are you sure? Don't you hate us all for leaving? Bella I am so so sorry about that, I tried to reason with him, but he wouldn't listen Bella! It hurt so much" She was rambling now, in a guilty way that made her excitement settle a bit, and that bothered me.

"Alice please, I don't blame any of you, and I'm not angry. I realized that you all surely had a good reason for leaving, and it was probably something stupid like Edward thinking he was too dangerous, but I accepted that. I'm okay, and it doesn't hurt anymore. But I do have some things you should probably find out about before Edward does, but I miss Emmett so much can we go say hi? Then I am most definitely going to have to go talk to Renee, your going to have to come to the hotel. We both have a lot of explaining to do, and what about—" I wasn't really talking to Alice as much as myself now.

The panic was setting in, how was I going to explain the baby and Luke to them? That was only the first of a million difficult questions. Alice stopped me with a reassuring smile and said "I think, that if we want any time alone we will have to wait to see Emmett and Edward. What is it you want to tell me? We could leave now, I told the boys that I was calling Jasper and probably going home, they will believe me." "Alright, well let me go find Angela and we can go back to the hotel."

Alice looked at me one more time, with a loaded look full of emotions that all paled in comparison to the obvious excitement and joy she had at seeing me again. "Please just make sure that Edward and Emmett don't see you. Find Angela and wait out here for me."

A/N I'm horrible, I know. That's why this one is longer. School just keeps getting ahead of me, and basketball started, ergo my life is over. I never have any time to write, but I'll try harder, I promise. I'm not really used to dialogue yet, how did I do? Please review and make my day? -Caitlin