Ashley's POV
School has been weird to say the least. Knowing that we are still together without actually being together is hard. I am about ready to die!
Because I want to touch her and not wonder if it's too much. I want to be able to just drop by her house like I used to, before we lived together.
It has been almost a week since we had that talk in my apartment. And in that week, we have kissed 12 times and hugged 15 times. I kept count. Yes. That is how much she means to me. Every touch, every hug, every kiss, means the world to me.
I was so stupid!
Spencer's POV
Oh God, I miss her!
Watching her sat across from me, eating her apple and sucking on her drink every now and then is making me want to just have my way with her on the table right now, in front of everyone.
So we are out to lunch. It's a Saturday tradition. And it is just over a week since we had that talk in the apartment. I know what I am doing to her is probably really cruel and heartless, but if I don't get myself sorted out first, it will just cause us problems later, right?
I am this close to just saying 'I forgive you Baby' and then kiss her for days. But I still don't understand why she did it. Was she bored? Did I do something wrong?
"Spence?" she snapped me out of my day dream.
"Mmhm" I mumbled a reply, concentrating more on my burger then on her.
"You are so beautiful and perfect."
Ok, can she read minds?
"Ash,"
"Sorry. That look in your eyes, you are unsure about something." It was a statement. She knows me better than I know myself sometimes.
"I don't want to ruin this lunch."
"Spence, it won't ruin it. Just ask me what ever." She put her hand over mine but then quickly took it away. I felt sad that she didn't think she could touch me.
"Did… were you bored? Is that why you wanted to go and show someone else a good time?" Something ran through her eyes. I couldn't quite make out what it was. Sadness? Pity? Anger?
"Spencer," she said softly, "I didn't get bored. You know that I am a hopeless flirt. And that's all I meant by it. It was flirting. I did it because flirting is second nature to me. Now I wish more than anything that I didn't do it."
"Ok. What are you going to order?" I smiled.
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Ashley's POV
"So I guess I will see you on Monday?"
"Yeah," she sighed sadly, "unless… you want to come over tomorrow. I don't know, we could watch movies and stuff."
"Yeah I'd like that." I smiled. She smiled back. It wasn't just any smile, it was a smile like she used to give me and my heart melted.
"How have you been doing in school?"
I laughed. "Uh, you know, doing the minimum just to get by."
"Ash,"
"Spence, it's not really like I have a reason to study."
"Ash you are impossible!" she laughed as she took of her seatbelt.
"But that's…" I stopped, realising that it might not be the right thing to say.
She leaned into me and kissed me hard. "Yeah, that is why I love you."
When she didn't pull away, I cupped her face and pulled her into me. She was almost begging to go further into my mouth but I wouldn't let her. Not yet.
We pulled apart, both of us breathing heavily.
"Spencer, I'm sorry. I…" she stopped me with another kiss.
"Call me later?"
"Of course."
With that she was out of the car and running up her path. She smiled and waved at me before she opened the door.
Spencer's POV
"Spence, where's Ashley?" mom asked as soon as I walked through the door.
"She went home." I walked past mom and went into the kitchen.
"Why? She usually comes over. Well she did before you two moved in together."
"Mom, can we please not talk about this?"
"What happened Spencer?"
"Nothing."
"Spencer, I'm not stupid."
"Well it doesn't matter any more. Hey, do you mind if I invite Ash to Uncle Kay's Welcome Home party?"
"No of course I don't. But Spence, just behave yourself if you bring her ok."
"You caught us making out, in our own home, once and you think we are going to be all over each other everywhere!"
"No Spence, I just don't want you to get hurt. Remember, they don't know about this."
"Oh yeah."
"Do you want to tell them?"
"Not yet, no."
"Ok. Well I have to get to work. I will see you later, dinner is in the oven and your dad should be home in time to eat it."
"Ok mom. Bye." I called as I walked upstairs.
My phone vibrated in my pocket as I got in my bedroom.
Is it later yet? A xx
I smiled to myself. I think I am going to tell her I forgive her soon. She's just so cute when she's insecure.
It's been like 20mins Ash. S xx
I changed into a tank and shorts.
Oh ok. A xx
You goof! Since when do I tell you not to call me! And for the record, that 20mins is about 19mins and 59secs too long. S xOx
In seconds, my phone was ringing and I was looking at the familiar name on my caller ID.
"Hey." I said softly.
'Heya.'
"So my Uncle gets back from Iraq this week."
'Oh my gosh Spence! That's great! Do you know if he is ok?'
"Yeah, he's fine. Well, he hasn't lost any limbs or anything like that."
'That's great!" she sounded so excited. She knows that Uncle Kay is my favourite Uncle.
"Yeah it is. And well, we are having a party for him on Saturday."
'So you won't be able to do lunch? Its ok Spence, I totally understand.'
"No, I think I will still be able to do lunch, but I was hoping that you would come to the party. With me."
'Like with, with you?'
I bit my lip and started playing with my shirt. I know she can't see me but I am still nervous as hell.
"Yes?"
'I would love to Spence!' I knew she had a massive smile on her face. 'But Spence, your Uncle doesn't know that you are gay and he doesn't like me.'
"So? I like you, that is enough. And as for the gay thing, we are best friends remember."
'Yeah ok. I got to go, someone's at the door. I'll see you tomorrow.'
"Ok Baby. I love you."
'I love you too. And I'm sorry.'
"I know you are baby. But let's just forget about it, ok?"
'Fine by me. See ya!'
"See ya sexy." I smiled as I hung up the phone.
AN:: so I promised a friend of mine that if they did something for me, I would write two updates by the end of the weekend…
So here's the first… enjoy
And thanks to reviewers XD