Spencer's POV
Dylan is my fifteen year old cousin and has been one of my best friends, all my life. Actually, we are more like sisters than anything else.
"So what's up Dyl?"
"I just… I… when did you realise you were gay?"
Oh My Gosh!
"After I met Ash. I fell totally and completely in love with her."
"And you don't think it's just that you are good friends. Or that it's only like that because it's Ashley?"
"No, I know it's more than friendship. She wouldn't make me feel the way I do otherwise." I smiled at her and grabbed Ashley's hand. "Where's all this coming from?"
"I think… I think I like girls… but how do I know if I'm,"
"Gay?" Ash offered. "Hey Spence, are we going back to our… I mean my place or yours?"
"Uh… I think it might be best right now if we went back to ours, yours."
"Spence, why don't you just move back in with me?"
"I will think about it ok?"
"Fine." She pouted.
"You two are cute together."
"Excuse me! We are smoking hot!"
"Ash, you are hot, I'm just super cute. So my cuteness takes over this relationship baby." She rolled her eyes and put her foot down. "So Dyl, why do you think you are gay?"
"I have a huge crush on this girl in my class and I don't know, the thought of sleeping with a guy repulses me,"
"But sleeping with a woman seems interesting, hot or even turns you on." Ashley offered. I smacked her arm
"Ash! That last bit was totally inappropriate!"
"But Spence, it's true." Dylan blushed in the backseat.
"Exactly! That how I realised I was gay Spence."
"But you are always turned on Ash!" Dylan laughed as Ashley glared at me.
"Hey! I haven't had sex for like three weeks!"
"That's not my fault!"
"Of course it's your fault Spence! Who the hell else would I be having sex with?"
"Ooo Spence hasn't been putting out." Dylan joked.
"We totally would have earlier if Mom hadn't walked in!" we pulled into the parking lot of the apartment building. "But you were too busy telling me we couldn't."
"Spence, it was your Uncles bathroom!"
"SPENCER! That's gross!"
"But hot." I muttered as I linked arms with Ashley.
Ashley's POV
Spencer and Dylan are a lot alike. I mean, Dylan has long blonde hair and legs that never stop. She has piercing blue eyes just like Spencer, only they aren't as blue. And her hair is a kind of dirty blonde.
I handed Spencer a beer, Dylan a coffee and slurped on my own beer.
"But I have done plenty with boys and I didn't really like or enjoy any of it."
"Sounds to me like you need to get out there and experiment girly." I said.
"But I have been." She blushed.
"And?"
"And I enjoyed it. But I don't know if it was just the thrill of being with a girl or if I actually liked it."
"Well if you are feeling nothing with the boys, maybe it's just that you are scared to admit it, even to yourself because of how your dad might react."
"The more I talk about it, and the more I think real hard into it, the less real it seems."
"Real?"
"Yeah like… I start to think, don't be stupid Dyl, you can't be into girls. That's silly." She started to cry. Spencer sat next to her and put her arm around her.
"Dyl, listen to me. You are with two people right now that had a real hard time coming to terms with being gay. Ashley's mom disowned her just after her dad died because I woke up in Ashley's bed."
"And Spencer's Mom broke my nose because she hated me. But I have never really cared what people think of me, so it didn't bother me coming out. But I was in a really bad place when I was figuring it out." I haven't even told any of this to Spencer, why am I telling this person I hardly know. I looked at Spencer and couldn't read her expression but it was urging me to continue. "So I slept around a lot. My best friend got me pregnant and I got an abortion. But I tried to force myself to love him, but I couldn't. And then Spencer came along and she understood me and took the time to listen to me. I had a girlfriend or two before her yeah, but none of them ever made me feel as alive as I do when I'm with her."
"And I was having a massive internal battle. I moved to LA from Ohio, as you did, and met Ashley. She was the scariest but most interesting person I have ever met. But I couldn't like girls. I hadn't been raised like that. And I kept denying it and made myself really unhappy, my grades slipped and I even started pushing Ashley away. So I decided to stop trying to please my Mom and go for what I wanted for once."
"You guys make it sound so easy!"
"Easy!?" I laughed. "It was not easy for me. Up until three weeks ago, it was the worst time of my life."
"What changed three weeks ago?"
"I made a stupid mistake which nearly caused me to lose Spence. But she has put me through hell for the last three weeks and now we are strong as ever."
"And it was only easy for me because I had Ashley. I could be myself around her. And she didn't care if I let comments slip about girls being hot. And the night I told her I was gay was the scariest night of my life. I planned to tell her that night that I was in love with her, but I chickened out and told her at the beach the next day."
"I don't know what to do."
"Well I have a spare room that you can stay in tonight. I have drunk way too much to be driving anyone anywhere and I'm not letting Spence walk you back to that house. We will talk more about it in the morning, but it's late and we have school tomorrow."
"When did you get responsible Ash?" Spencer's tone told me that she was pleasantly surprised.
"About three weeks ago."
She kissed me before I went to get some PJ's for Dylan.
Dylan went into the guest room and Spencer just came and hugged me.
"I love you so much baby."
"I love you too Spence. Uh… if you don't want to share a bed again yet, I can take the couch?"
"Ashley, where were you earlier?" She grabbed my hand and dragged me into my room.
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