Hey sorry this took a little while, family came over for a few days and I got to some what finish my many homework projects for school yay. Unfortunately break is almost over :( so here's chapter 8 in someone else's p.o.v.

Chapter 8: What am I thinking?

Ponyboy's P.O.V

Dear Journal and NOT diary

During auditions I was a little nervous okay okay very terrified But Carter calmed me down on our way to the stage. We got on the stage and took the positions they told us to take, I guess they wanted us to feel like it was the show because they dimmed them a little and put other colors on like blue, red, and purple. Boy did Carter look pretty, the lights made her eyes look brighter and twinkled a lot. She soften her face to make it look hurt but added a smile, and we began. I thought Cherry looked pretty but Carter was far prettier then her and she didn't wear any makeup. Soda and Two-bit joked we would kiss in the rain, but I saw how other guys looked at her, they were much more handsome and were soc's. I'm glad she never noticed that though she would finally realize she could have better friends then us and that we might be holding her back. I shook that thought out of my head and sang, Soda told me I had a good singin voice from the shower but that was just for fun and this was more serious. I know I'm gonna end up messing up. I didn't realize the song was over, how did I even sing with all these thoughts in my head? I was dragged off by my hand held by Carter -giggle-. AGHHHHH! I need to calm down. I'm soon gonna be droolin every time I see her, I found out my role which I hoped would have been Marius but I remembered Carter was trying to get Eponine and he only thought of her as a friend. And that is the COMPLETE opposite of what I'm feeling about her. Darry always thought I would be interested in girls one day, but refused to believe that until Carter came and now he was right.

Who could I go to for girl advice, definitely crossed Two-bit, Steve, and Dally for that. Darry? No the last time he liked a girl that I knew he liked was a few years ago junior year I think. Soda has almost every girl falling for him in Tulsa and he does have a girlfriend a good one too, he might give me advice like normally but might tease me about it and tell everyone else. Johnny I can tell everything to without being teased or anything but we never had a girlfriend before, he could still have good advice. I'm not sure, I can't keep this hidden, she practically lives in my house until 10:00 p.m on school nights, but on weekends she sometimes stayed over. I'll have to tell her, soon no scratch that later, then again sooner is better then later, but if I choose later I can think how to tell her. Isn't every second technically later? UGH its like algebra! She's the Y and I'm the X, she's gonna find out. Why did I bring school into this? Oh yeah she's in my classes. Pone focus, we need to focus from -giggle, blush- Carter giggle giggle to the musical which Carters in. At least she doesn't act like the other greaser girls, she's a little scary when she's mad but that's rare. Well homework time yay I can get to do algebra, English biology, and the rest of my classes and the "best" part we get like ten pages of worksheets in each class! Oh school, at least Darry helps me with half of it when I really don't need it and it makes me do even less work. I sorta annoy him and he eventually does it for me.

Bye JOURNAL

Sodapop's P.O.V

I saw my darling little brother writing in his "journal" that Darry gave him so he could have a place to write his feelings and such, incase he writes about his nightmare he use to have and we would be able to figure out how to stop it. Yeah because we are such great pyschriotrists or something like that. Pony went off to the lot with Johnnycakes and Carter, they are so going to make out in the rain or something Stevie and I have a bet. Please don't tell him. I sneak off into our room and look through his journal, lets see words, words, words, Carter giggle, words and words. Does this kid ever right anything about his love life? How does he think I actually know what's on his mind if he doesn't write whats on his mind UGH! Whoa whoa whoa he has a thing for Carter. Looks like wise older brother number two is going to magically know what's going on in his strange little mind and talk about girls. He feels a little unconfortable about that, but its my job isn't it? They finally get back that was quite short.

"Pony come here we gotta talk about something." His head fell and thought he was in deep trouble. I lead him off in our room and sit on the bed.

"Somethings on ya mind."

"Maybe." His ears go red, yep he's embarrised.

"You don't have to be embarresed Pone it's normal, you're acting like I'm talking about puberty or something. " He smiles at it.

"So we're not talking about-"

"NO" I quickly interrupt, he has a weirder mind then Two-bit.

"Then what did you wanna talk about my grades? I'm getting an A in almost everything-"

"Pone that's not what I wanna talk about." He looks at me confused

"I wanna talk to you about you know." I say pointing at my hair pretending to flip it and giggle like a girl.

"Oh, is it obvious Soda?" He asks with scared eyes.

"No, its not you just acted like I did when I liked Amy remember?" He has relief.

"Yeah, you would try to hold your energy in when you saw her. I like Sandy better though." he continues

"Yeah but we're here to talk about YOU here. You really like-"

"Don't say it so loud Soda!" He says shushing me.

"Relax it's alright, just give her some flowers on openin night for the play she'll like it."

"When do I have to tell her?"

"When you are ready. Don't rush it though alright."

"Yeah." He sighs and walks to the door.

"Pony's got himself his first crushy wushy." I had to say that, and add a goofy smile

"Shut it." He mumbles throws a near by pillow at me and his ears turn red. He walks out, baby brother finally has his first crush, I wonder if Johnny knew he told him every thing.

Carters P.O.V

I was home from the Curtis's and I could hear Cherry and Bob fighting again. I want them to break up and yet I don't. I want Cherry to be happy if it makes my "life" miserable, but just with a different guy. I could hear them reallly clear.

"BOB I TOLD YOU, I HATE IT WHEN YOU DRINK! THAT'S IT"

"WHATS IT CHERRY HUH? I DON'T GET DRUNK ITS NOT LIKE-" I could hear Cherry sniff a little and she looks down. Her voice softens

"Bob we need a break, we're not done we just see each other so much we're fighting. Maybe we shouldn't hang out with each other for a week or two."

"Cherry please."

"Bob this is hard enough to say, its not long just two weeks and we'll see how we're doing but for now please just go." She comes up the stairs and the door closes gently, poor Cherry. She knocks on my door. She's teary eyed and I let her come in.

"Cherry this is the right thing for now." I say. The next thing strikes me hard.

"Do you think Ponyboy Curtis likes me?" She says with a smile hidden in her hair.

"Wha- What? Cherry you just took a break with Bob, you don't even smile at him in school when you see him in the hallway."

" I know there's just something about him, like he understands. You dig?"

"I guess." Well of course I did, he's like Soda he understands people real well. I don't know what to say so she walks off saying thanks and goes to her room. I felt a little anger rush into me. One thing Cherry won't get this time is Ponyboy Curtis, he deserved someone better then me, but she broke his heart once and I won't let that happen again of course, that's not the real reason though.

I know he doesn't like like me but I don't care.

I like Ponyboy Curtis. That's right, I'm going to scream it to the world that

I LIKE PONYBOY CURTIS and nothing will stop me from that. I slowly breath to stop my self from shrieking, but it slips out. I silently jump around realizing for the first time that this is true and I don't mind at all.

I must be out of my mind since he doesn't like like me but that's one thing I don't care about.