Chapter 5

Mum had driven me to the councellors office to save me having to pay bus fare but I think the main reason she drove me is to ensure that I went and didn't go elsewhere. But right now the most important thing is that I get help in order to be there for my baby. Mum had wanted to come in and wait for me but I had insisted on going in on my own and she could pick me up after my session and she agreed reluctantly.

As I entered the building I turned and mum looked at me with a reassuring smile and put her two thumbs up to me, it was good having her here.

I sat in the waiting room for a few moments and filled in some forms and then the receptionist escorted me to the councellors office where she knocked on the door and gave the councellor my notes from the sheets I had filled in. I was then invited in and offered a drink and to sit down. I had a glass of water.

As we sat opposite eachother it was not how I expected it to be she did not sit behind a desk she sat on a chair like the one I was sat in.

"Hello Lauren, my name is Councellor Scott but you can call me Sandy"

"Okay"

"So Lauren do you want to tell me why you are here?"

"Yeah...um...well i... uhh I have a problem with uhh drinking and I now know that I need help".

"Okay, well you have admitted that you have a problem that is one step to conquering it" she replied.

"I hope so"

"Lauren, why did you start drinking?"

"There were various reasons, my Dad used to have affairs and now it turns out that he is married to some other women, my Mum suffered cancer and I had to keep it a secret, umm theres also my relationships that have contributed to it as well. But in general it all the lies and the secrets, I find a relief in drinking, I guess"

"Okay, it says here that you are pregnant"

"Yeah"

"When did you find out?"

"Yesterday, it was quite an eventful day"

"Really, why?"

"Well my ex-boyfriend, had believed his ex over me when I said that she had spiked my drink and she denied it so when it came to it he believed her and he broke up with me but then she admitted it to me and he overheard"

"Okay, well I can see that you have had a really tough time lately"

"Yeah, but it still doesn't mean I should be drinking to get through it"

"Okay, how do you feel about being pregnant?"

"I don't know really I... iI think that i'm okay with it but I am really scared. This is something that I can't mess up it's a life and thats the most important thing there is"

"Okay, does the father know?"

"No, he's the ex I told you about earlier"

"Right, so that just adds to the complication"

"Yeah maybe I should just leave go away and never come back"

"Do you want that?"

"No, but it's not about me anymore" I replied as I placed my hand on my belly.

"True, but you need to do what's best for all involved"

"Yeah"

"Okay why don't we leave it there for to day then?"

"Okay"

"Here is the time and date for your next appointment"

"Thank you for everything"

"Your welcome"

As I went to exit the room Sandy called me.

"Lauren, everything will be okay you just need time"

I nodded and left the room. I picked up my phone and called mum asking her to come and pick me up. As I left the building I felt a little lighter knowing that this was the right thing.