Ch.6 You'll Marry The Music Man

Logan

The bad part about rising to popularity as a new person in the school is that you can fall from grace a lot easier because the truth is you didn't grow up with these kids, they could turn on you at any second. Kendall fell in with his own bad boy crowd, I fell in with the nerdy National Honor Society kids, Carlos and James fell in with the Jocks pretty easily but James never forgot about Tony. He tried to make the other guys stop beating on him for being an individual but it didn't really come off too well. I did what I could to make Tony less of a loner, he wasn't a bad guy. Why did they hate him so much? Why did we judge other people without getting to know them? I walk down the hall to Chemistry, it's now early February and love is in the air with Valentine's day just around the corner. Kendall has me pretty worried, he's been out all the time now and when I see him here at at school he looks tweaked, Gustavo's just about ready to fire him for being consistently late to recordings and rehearsals he better get his shit together or he won't be ready in time for the summer tour of Big Time Rush. I stop to talk to my new girlfriend Tracy on the way to Chemistry and she happens to be sitting with Tony on one of the stairs in the back stairwell that leads to a side hallway on the third had Cosmo across his lap and was pointing out a vibrant makeup look.

" I predict the runways this spring will be full of color-blocking trends, in make-up and fashion" he said

she proceeded to ask about color blocking.

" it's beautiful really, you see it's just blocks of bright contrasting colors all coming onto the scene" he said " mixing contrasting colors in outfits and makeup"

He Smiled " Hey Logan" He said

I looked at him "what's up?"

He nodded moving from next to Tracy to come hug me, he loved hugging people, he said hugs made everything feel better.

" nothing much Logan, we hanging out today?" he asked

I shook my head " James has to go shopping" I sighed " he's deemed his current wardrobe needed even more expansion"

he smiled "why don't I come with you guys? I need some new jeans"

I looked over him" it's always been just the guys though, you understand right? we actually talk about guy stuff like girls, not what's hottest in the new Versace collection" I said but then he looked at me and our eyes met. Maybe I went a little to far because then he turned and exited the stairwell swiftly. Tracy looked at me not saying a thing for a second until finally "Logan, that was kinda mean" she said before walking past me " come on let's hurry or we'll be late" she walked in front of me the whole way to class. She didn't speak to me too much in class but she didn't seem mad at me she just seemed a little annoyed.

After School James took us out of town to the nearest mall, the Benz slid a bit as James parked, he seemed distant. He opened the door, listening to me drone on about Tracy, and well how much she reminds me of Camille. He didn't talk about girls that much and he seemed a bit pouty but that was normal, he said it was because he couldn't get a good tan with all this snow. We entered the mall and spent some time walking around Macy's. James glided gracefully around the racks perfectly in his element and comfortable in the store perusing through things that caught his eye, completely in his element. "James, why don't you try this one?" I suggested tossing a navy blue V necklined shirt his way the material was soft and stretchy of a finer quality. He looked at it and shook his head "I have two many already besides it's not really me I'm shopping for, I want to get a friend a present, for Valentines day" he smiled nervously placing the item of clothing back on the rack. He appraised the clothes on the next rack, feeling the fabric of a charcoal grey cashmere jacket with a slightly military inspired look to it. He plucked it gently but swiftly from the rack by the hanger smiling like a kid in a candy store. " this one's perfect" he announced his fingers brushing softly over the fabric.

" feel this Logie" he said extending it out towards me I felt it and smiled "she'll love it I guess it's kind of manly though" I said. "well then we can pair it with something girly, what do girls like Logan" he asked looking at me as if waiting for the answer before looking back around the store and spotting the perfume counter. I smiled " well girl's like perfume, but scent is kind of hard to buy for someone since you can't tell easily what they will like" Immediately we glided towards the perfume counter where we were ambushed by sales associates selling the 'best romantic fragrances' all the sensual Victoria Beckhams and Britney Spears bottles were being immediately pressed into our hands. James smiled charmingly " none of those for me thank you, and I'll only need one of you to help us I'm looking for something for someone special" A tall wiry blond S.A. took James by the arm again pressing upon the 'special' qualities of the celebrity perfumes put out for the season. " I want something that won't be on everyone else though, my date's a very classic,elegant, and bold person" he stated as they passed the various Guerlains tucked into a corner table. His eyes lit up, as he rushed towards the small bottles elegantly arrayed in the display. The Saleslady sprayed one after another on a card until finally she stopped on a little glass bottle shaped elegantly like an urn with a blue stopper and tassel around the neck, the pink liquid inside smiled elegantly back at us, she spritzed the little card and passed it to James. He took a sniff and handed the card to me " do you smell that Logan?" he asked " smell what?" I asked taking a quick whiff,"Magic" was the one word he uttered before looking at the bottle " Shalimar" he read aloud. " can I get one of these?" he asked the woman and she gingerly swept away the sniffing cards and walked to the counter pulling the box out,"and an Acqua Di Gio pour moi, and a Nautica Voyage for Logan here, and thanks so much for all your help" he turned the charm on as he whipped his bank card out of his wallet and swiped it in the machine signing the reciept with a flourish as the purchases were put in a small Macy's bag. We went and paid for the jacket and as we walked out James looked satisfied.

We went over to a small chinese buffet to eat and as we sat at the table with our food I just had to satisfy my curiousity. "so who's the lucky girl?" I asked taking a sip of my mountain dew. James looked around nervously " what do you mean? I was just shopping for a friend". I looked at him"just a friend doesn't warant cashmere jackets and parisian eau de parfum." he laughed nervously but the color drained from his face. " James it's okay I'm not going to tell anyone who is she?" he shook a little more. "promise not to tell?" he asked like a nervous child caught stealing from the cookie jar by an older sibling. I nodded " I promise James" I said as I tucked into my sesame chicken. He took a drink from his pepsi and took a deep breath " it's not a She it's a He, Logan I think I might be gay" he whispered fidgeting nervously as he finished his pepsi in one gulp and I looked at him across the table shocked, " it explains a lot" I said bitterly "I'm losing my best friend to a queer, I was fine being nice when it was just hanging out but now he's turning you James, tempting you" I stood up my plate empty now "what is it with all the boys in this band? Kendall's fucked up in the head and you're a queer" I stormed out "I'll wait in the car" I said stepping out into the bitter chilly air as my hot angry tears froze to my face.