Note 5

Mace Windu,

But why do you even bother telling me anything about the Jedi Order if you never want me to be in the Order. Just leave the information to yourself. I don't want it! It will only make me angrier and more frustrated! You never had your life-long dream crushed. I can never be an apprentice, so I'll never get to take the steps to gain Knighthood. :( :(

How can you not have decided yet? It's not fair. You can't keep me waiting to learn about my future! How come you said you are sure that I am thinking the worst? You're the one who told me I couldn't be a Jedi before.

Yeah, I did whatever Watto, my master, told me to do, even when he hit me.

You mean you thought that Padmé had another identity? How'd you guess?

What's wrong with being a Jedi and being in love? Qui-Gon said it was possible. He told me that Jedi can marry and have a relationship as long as they bring it before the Council. Or did Qui-Gon just tell me that and lie? I don't understand.

Ummm, Qui-Gon told me that I needed two parts to build a lightsaber that are hard to find. I would build one if I could find those parts, believe me!

I overheard some of the Jedi Council members talking when I was back on Coruscant. They said that the tests have to remain confidential. Why do the tests have to remain confidential between the Council and yourself? It's not fair!!! When someone gives you a test, don't you want to know how you did on it? It's okay if I completely failed the test. Just tell me. It's killing me not knowing.

Someone said there are many options available on Coruscant…options of what I can do with my life now. What are these options? Who would accept a 9 year old to work for them? And why would the Jedi Temple care whether I roamed the galaxy or not? You're all selfish and stuck up and won't let me train. You don't like me, so you don't want me to be a Jedi. I would think you'd actually be pleased if I died, because I would be one less mouth to be fed. And don't bother looking for a home for me. No one would want a former slave, and the only home that I want to be in is my mother's! No one could replace my mother, ever. Why would it be any of your business to get me a job? You have to have other things on your mind besides finding me a home. But…guess what Senator Palpatine talked to me, so I'm okay now.

I want my mom!

Yeah my former master used to beat me. But he was a nicer master than my master before that. My first master was a Hutt, and I broke my leg when I was 1 year old, and they refused to treat it, so my mother had to. The Hutt's the one that broke my leg.

Qui-Gon said you usually choose Jedi from birth. How can you choose a Jedi from birth? I don't get it. I don't like babies anyway. They're so cute and everyone wants to be around them…I can't stand them. It's not fair that they get to be Jedi and I don't! And how can you raise a child and not expose them to violence? It's impossible. And even if you did, the child would be sheltered and wouldn't be able to deal with the real world. You're stupid if you prefer infants over children. You're so mean!

Before we left Coruscant, after you rejected me, I went and sat in a corner all by myself and started crying. I've never been on my own before, and I've never been away from my mother! I don't know if I'll die soon or what will happen to me. I was sitting there alone, and Senator Palpatine came up to me. The first couple times I saw him I was scared of him, and I was scared of him when he came up to me and tried to put a hand on me. I'm not sure why I was scared. Maybe it was because when I was little I had this reoccurring bad dream where there was this old man that wanted me dead…and he would chase me around, but the old man had yellow eyes, and he was mean. I used to wake up crying, and my mother would always tell me that it was a silly dream, and that no old man would ever want me dead, and that no one looked like that. Ever since that dream, I've always been afraid of old men…and for some reason Palpatine reminded me of the old man in my dream. I know it's silly. Anyway, I was scared of him. He started talking to me, but he was really nice. This was our conversation:

He went up to me and asked me, "What's wrong, little boy?"

I said, "The Jedi Council won't let me become a Jedi, and they're mean. They said I'm too old. And I miss my mother…she's still a slave. I don't know what's going to happen to me. I don't know if I'll die."

He said, "Oh? You're the little boy from Tatooine then? The former slave? I've heard all about you. Your name is Anakin Skywalker, right?"

I nodded.

He said, "Well, Anakin, it is a pleasure to meet you. I'm Sepr…I mean Senator Palpatine. So you're Force Sensitive?"

I said, "I guess. I don't know….Qui-Gon thinks I am, and he wanted me to become a Jedi, but I don't know if I passed the Council's tests."

Palpatine said, "That's interesting. The Council members are fools if they won't let you train. But don't worry, Anakin…I'm a politician. Perhaps I can find something for you to do. You could work for me…I need assistants. It was a pleasure meeting with you, and I look forward to talking to you later. Sadly, I must go and see what my informants have to say."

And he left me there. He is so nice! So that means that Palpatine will let me work for him in politics! He's the nicest grown-up I have ever met (besides my mother.) He doesn't look down on me for being 10 years old, and he can give me a job!

Of course I think the incidents on Naboo are injustices! Anyone that would ever hurt Padmé is mean. Well anyway, I begged Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan to let me go with them to the palace. They let me. When we got inside the hanger, Qui-Gon told me to stay away from the fighting, and to find somewhere safe to hide. One of the Naboo pilots got shot and killed, so I climbed into a fighter. R2 was close by and got pulled into it too. From the cockpit I watched what was happening. As they hit the door that connects the hangar from the main part of the palace, that ugly red and black thing (the same thing that was on Tatooine that Qui-Gon had to fight before we left the planet) stood in the way. He took off his hood, and he has SPIKES on his head. Ew…it was gross. I don't like whatever he is. He had a double red lightsaber. I'm scared of him. Luckily, he didn't see me. Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan ignited their lightsabers and started fighting the THING.

Padmé and the others started taking the long way, but two droid deckas stopped them. Droid decakas have shields, so blasters can't get through and destroy them. I was trying to think what I could do to help them. I knew Padmé and her friends were defenseless against it…so I started looking for the trigger button on the fighter. I hit the wrong button, but I eventually found it. I got those things, and knocked them down. Ha! Ha!

Oops, this ship is taking off. I can't stop it. It must be on automatic pilot. Maybe R2 can override it….well here I go, off into space.

Anakin