Tiny Dancer

by therevolutionaryprincess

something terrible has happened to Kendall but he won't talk about it, meanwhile James is struggling to adjust to life outside of LA, the truth to helping all four of them is with 'the gay kid' at their new school, Rated M and Trigger warnings: Self-Harm,Angst,Rape, Homophobia, Alcohol and Substance Abuse. James/oc completed 8/8/13

14. Chapter 14 Lay Me Down

Author's note: just a small in between bigger chapters

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Ch.14 Lay Me Down in Sheets of Linen, You've had a Busy Day Today

James

We'd gotten back to the apartment and taken Kendall inside, gotten him into something warm and laid him down on the couch Tony made into a comfortable bed for him with a pillow and a warm blanket, he was fading in and out pretty fast. Tony told me this is what happens when an addict crashes they go into an almost comatose sleep for hours on end. We were sitting in the living room, Tony on the arm of the couch closest to Kendall's head his hands played in the golden strands, my hands rested on my lap in the chair next to the couch, I was silent, shocked, and observant of the scene before me Tony was staying the night and Logan was sleeping next door in Mrs. Knight's apartment. My sweatpants and old hockey jersey swam on Tony's thin frame as he looked with a motherly gaze down at Kendall in his crystal meth crash induced coma. I held his other hand in mine.

"Tony, do you want to get to sleep?" I asked he looked at me and nodded shutting the light off as he followed me into the bedroom I usually shared with Logan. I let him get into bed first so he was closest to the wall and more easily protectable and pulled him into me. His head lay gently on the pillow and I ran my fingers through his hair.

" What did you mean earlier, when you told Kendall you knew what it was like to feel hopeless?" I asked suddenly, I was kind of jealous he had been the one to talk Kendall out of suicide. He took a deep breath, "I've attempted suicide a few times back in the day, pills mostly, but each time something always saved me, someone always found me before it was too late, or I just didn't take enough" he said "it was like each time I'd tried to end my life there was an imaginary angel there telling me I was being ridiculous. It's like I always knew subconciously it wasn't my time yet no matter how badly I wanted it to be" I held him closer. " what's going to happen from here?" I asked in a soft whisper as Tony's hand grabbed mine " I'm not sure James, but there's no way to go but up" he said turning to kiss me on the cheek. A few minutes after that his breathing was soft and light and his body next to mine radiated warmth, and as I fell into my own deep sleep I played with his soft hair.