Because of you

Chapter 19

2 days later…

I was sitting there, in my car, parked in the grey's driveway just looking up at the large white house. Why was I even here? I heard a noise, which was coming from the front door and quickly ducked so they could see me, but then I realised that wouldn't make a difference, my car stood out enough. I groaned and slowly sat up to see Jason waiting at my window. I rolled it down slowly. "Hey Jas"

"I didn't think you would come Mitch" he said, a smile toying on the corners of his mouth. "Im glad you did though, Shane's going to be so happy you're here" he opened the door for me and I got out, looking around in the process. "No one's home, and I have to go out, but Shane will be back any minute so you can go wait in his room" he touched my arm in a kind gesture before running over to his car. Shutting my door, I slowly walked over to the slightly open front door. When I was inside I looked around with a small smile on my lips. Nothing had changed since I was last here. I took my shoes off before I walked up to Shane's room.

Like always, it was a total mess, I laughed slightly before sitting on his bed. I didn't even know if I was making the right decision on coming here, did I even want to forgive. Sadly I knew all the answers to them, I had made the wrong decision but I did want to forgive him because I loved him. i wouldn't have got much of a chance to even try and go back if i wanted to because I then heard a noise coming from downstairs, and seconds later Shane burst through the door, chest heaving and hair askew. "I saw your car" he panted. "What are you doing here?" he asked, a beautiful smile on his even more gorgeous face.

I shrugged, that is something I hadn't really thought out, I didn't know what I was even going to say to him. "Honestly" I said. "I don't know" he carefully sat beside me. I shook my head, "I know I shouldn't have even come, you don't deserve to be forgiven" I said, his face fell slightly as he bowed his head. "But that doesn't mean im not going to" his head snapped up and a familiar twinkle was in his eyes.

"You forgive me?" he asked, the hope in his voice made me smile slightly.

"I still don't trust you," I answered honestly. "You're going to have to work hard to earn back my trust, but" I nodded. "I do forgive you" the golden smile slithered across his face as he threw his arms around me.

He pulled back and cupped my face with is large hands. "I love you Mitchie" those words were enough to make me happy. Looking at him properly, he looked like shit.

"You look awful" I giggled.

He groaned. "Way to kill the moment Mitch" he sighed. "I know, I haven't exactly been sleeping well the past week" his eyebrows then raised. "Why aren't you in school?" he asked.

"We had like a teacher conference day so we didn't have to come in, so I'll have to leave LA tonight to get back in time" I sighed. He nodded, his eyes then fogging up.

"I really am sorry Mitch, I fucked up so bad, I don't even deserve to be forgiven" he bowed his head, taking both of my hands.

"I know you don't, but I cant help it" I sighed, he was my real weakness, I was always going to forgive him, and he knew that. "But there in one thing I am questioning" I said. He looked up at me, "I don't truly believe that you love me" his face fell and he was about to speak but I held my hand up to silence him. "If you really loved me Shane, you wouldn't have slept with my best friend" he bit his quivering lip. "I came here to be friends with you" I said, my voice thick with tears.

"I never forgot you know" he said, finally looking in my eyes. I raised an eyebrow in question so he continued. "I remember everything about you"

I shook my head. "Shane, Don't" I begged, but he went on anyway.

He shook his head. "I remember how you hate your laugh because you think it makes you sound like a guy, when it doesn't. I remember how in the morning you always take 5 minutes to fully get up and when you do you have a coffee before you do anything. I remember how you crinkle your nose when someone say's something that makes you feel uncomfortable. I remember how when I say something stupid you always agree with me just to make me happy. I remember the first time you told me that you liked me. I remember that whenever you cry, you force a smile onto your face because you don't want to seem weak. I remember that when I used to hold you, you would instantly bury your face in my neck and place a small kiss below my ear. I remember the day I fell in love with you, and I know you love me too" he finished, his hand running down my face.

I looked at him in wonder; he really did remember everything about me. I bit my lip and looked down, the tears threatening to fall.

"It didn't mean anything, it was a mistake" he repeated. I shook my head and sighed.

"that doesn't matter Shane" I shrugged. "We're just going to try and be friends" I swallowed back the lump in my throat.

"After everything we're just going to be friends?" he asked, I nodded. "Do you know how hard it was for me to just sit around and wait for you, I never stopped loving you Mitchie and you know that, I thought you did too but I slowly lost faith because you never once showed me that you cared" I went to protest but he didn't let me. "I thought you had fallen out of love with me so I just gave up, and I went to Caitlyn" I sighed. "But the feelings just came back twice as strong because I realised no one can ever take your place" he touched my face. "We can be happy again Mitch, we can do this" he whispered. The tears then began to fall freely down my face as he pressed his forehead against mine.

"Things have to be different"

He nodded. "Of course"

"It's not going to be easy," I warned.

"I know" he said softly. I closed my eyes for a few moments, I didn't respond but a tiny squeak slipped out when I felt his gentle lips graze mine. Keeping my eyes shut I allowed him to capture my top lip in a sweet, passionate kiss as he pulled me closer with one arm.

Pulling away I opened my eyes to see his watching me eagerly for a reaction. "Don't make me regret this Shane," I warned, a small smile on my lips. He didn't say anything, he just caught my lips once more. "I—I love you" I whispered, my voice small and weak. He looked at me with his caramel eyes and smiled.

"I love you to Mitchie" he smiled. "Do you want some ice cream?" he asked. I giggled and nodded. He slipped his had into mine and we walked downstairs. I felt Shane stop when we saw Nate. His eyes looked at us and slowly fell upon our linked hands.

"At least some of us are happy," he muttered bitterly before slumping into the living room. I looked at Shane who was watching after Nate with a creased up face. I gave his hand a gentle squeeze before pulling him into the kitchen.

"He needs to talk to Caitlyn" I said with a sigh. Sure she didn't even deserve Nate's time after what she did but Shane didn't deserve mine, yet I gave it to him, hell I just told him I loved him and here we were, holding hands. Maybe she deserved another chance too.

"I don't want that whore anywhere near my brother" he spat angrily.

"Shane" I said. "She deserves another chance, like the one I gave you" I expected him to say something but he didn't, because he knew I was right. "You both made mistakes, but if can give you a second chance, Nate can give Caitlyn one" I told him before getting up and walking into the living room where Nate was. He was staring at the blank TV, not moving an inch when I sat next to him.

"How are you?" I asked, gently touching his arm.

He shrugged. "Fine" he answered bluntly.

I sighed. "Don't lie to me Nate, we all know you're doing terrible" I said. "Just talk to Caitlyn," I pleaded.

"Just because you were stupid enough to forgive Shane doesn't mean I have to forgive her, she shattered my heart Mitchie" I winced at his words.

"Im not Stupid" I protested sternly. "I just have a heart, everyone deserves to be forgiven, sure they did a fucked up thing but it isn't the end of the world Nate, so, get off your ass, get in the shower because you look dreadful and you don't smell that good either, and call Caitlyn" I ordered. "You don't have to get back with her, just, give her a second chance at being your friend" I said gently.

He sighed. "Fine" he then looked at me before pulling me into a friendly embrace. "You're a good friend Mitch," he whispered. He then stood up and made his way to the door.

"Oh and Nate" he turned around. "Don't be so hard on Shane, he loves you and wants to make things better"

He nodded. "I know, and ok," he said before leaving. I let out a deep breath and flung my head against the sofa. My mind then drifted to Amy. Shit! She had a thing for Nate and I just basically told him to get back with Caitlyn. Ughh she's going to hate me now. I groaned and stood up. Only to almost smack into Shane. I laughed.

"Hi there" he smirked, dipped his head and caught my lips. "You're going to kiss me a lot now aren't you"

"At any chance I get" he mumbled against my lips. "Unless you don't want me too" he began to pull away but I shook my head and pulled him closer by his v-neck shirt. He laughed and put a little more effort into the kiss before puling away. "I don't really want my parents to walk into the living room to see us making out so, why don't we got upstairs" he wiggled his eyebrows.

I laughed and shook my head. "There is no way im going back in your room its horrible, I remember the last time I came here, it was a wreck, you could barely open the door". It was true, Shane was the messiest out of all three brothers, and by messy I mean he lived like a pig, he had clothes everywhere, empty food plates on his desk, hair product spilled everywhere (he took very good care of his hair).

He gasped in mockery. "How dare you!" his voice was an octave higher. I laughed and shook my head, beginning to make my way out of the living room. "And anyway, it's not even that messy" he shrugged and crossed his arms over his sculpted chest.

I laughed. "You're Shane grey, you're always going to be the messy one, and it's a tip in your bedroom, I couldn't even see the floor" I flashed him a sweet smiled before strutting into the kitchen. I saw Nate eating some cookies, I laughed and shook my head. "Don't eat too many and make sure you check your-" I began to say but he cut me off with a roll of his eyes.

"Yeah yeah, check my sugar levels, I got it mom" he huffed and finished the last cookie. Shane then walked in. Nate stood up slowly. "Shane" he said with a nod of his head.

Shane looked shocked to see that his brother was finally talking to him. "Hey Nate" his voice was soft and caring, showing that he missed his brother a lot. Nate walked over cautiously before pulling Shane into a brotherly hug. "I miss you Bro" Shane said into his shoulder.

"I missed you too" Nate said awkwardly, he had never been one for affectionate moments. He pulled away, gave me a crooked smile and walked out.

Shane looked at me with sparkling eyes. "Did you say something to him?" he asked.

I nodded. "I may have mentioned that brothers shouldn't fight over a girl, that's one main reason why families get torn apart, he agreed with me on that" I shrugged and was caught off guard when Shane engulfed me into a bone crushing hug, but it also nice in a way. I laugh.

"Put me down, you're killing me" I shrieked, my voice was strained. He chuckled and set me down.

"I love you Mitchie," he said affectionately. His smile seemed to make my knees go weak at the sight of it.

I smiled up at him, his caramel eyes boring into mine. "I love you too Grey" I reached up and gave him a small kiss before wrapping my arms around his neck and burying my face into his shoulder.

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