Because of you

Chapter 23

I honestly couldn't tell you how I was feeling right now; my heart was literally in my throat as I sat in the back of the taxi, which was taking me to the airport. I was finally going to see Shane and spend Christmas with him. My nerves were still very much there but they had calmed down a little over the last few days as I had constantly told myself everything was going to be perfect. This was going to be a week I would remember. It was currently a few days until Christmas and I felt like a little girl again. but this time, I had something to look forward to.

When I finally I arrived, I ripped open the car door, grabbed my luggage and tossed the money at the driver. I can tell you now, I almost took out a few by-passers, but I was too excited about seeing Shane to care. After ten minutes of wondering around I spotted a wavy haired guy, leather jacket, skinny jeans and high tops. I began running but my luggage got in the way so I just dropped it and jumped onto his back. "Holy shit" he cursed. I then got down and I swear his eye slit up. "Mitchie" he breathed, my heart melted. He cupped my face and brought me into a deep, long awaited kiss.

I knotted my small fingers in his hair and pulled him as close as I could get him. "I missed you so much" I muttered against his lips before kissing them again, and again, and again.

He chuckled as the numerous kisses came. "I missed you too Babe, not lets say we go find our flight"

"You still haven't told me where we are going," I point out.

"We're going to New Jersey" he smiles the smile I have become so fond of. "My parents still have a house out there so they said we could stay, I hope you packed a lot of coats and sweaters, its going to be freezing"

"As long as im with you" I whisper, claiming his lips once more before we walked hand in hand to our destination.

I had always hated planes, but somehow I thought it would be better having Shane here with me. Evidently I was wrong. Every time slight turbulence occurred, I thought we were all going to plummet into the ocean where we would slowly freeze to death. Watching Titanic really didn't help me get over my fear of water.

"Calm down" Shane says, obvious humour in his voice.

I close my eyes and take deep breaths. "We're going to die, I watched a documentary on turbulence, a lot of planes crash if it gets to bad, what if this plane crashes, I don't want to die yet, im 19, I have my whole life ahead of me, I want to have kids some day, have a husband, live in a pretty little house with a white picket fence and-"

"We aren't going to die" Shane said simply, cutting me off before I had a major meltdown.

"How do you know" I yell, a little to loudly, drawing some passengers attention, and they didn't look too happy. "Sorry" I whisper. "I just hate planes"

"I can tell," he says, taking my hand in his and giving it a gentle yet reassuring squeeze, and somehow, it seemed to relax me a little. Instead of closing my eyes in fear, I close them and drift to sleep. In my sleep I was imagining what this next week was going to be like. All things good seemed to come to mind and I think I smiled in my sleep.

When I woke up I saw Shane looking down at me with an amused smile on his face. "What?" I demand.

He snorts. "You were talking about granny panties in your underwear" I blush a deep crimson. "Also about sex"

"Erm, I had a weird dream" I lie.

He raises his eyes. "About granny panties and sex?"

Well done Mitchie, dig yourself in deeper why don't you. im going to have to explain to him other wise he will think I have some weird thing about sex and granny underwear. "Well, a few days ago, me and Amy were talking, about sex" he nods. "Well, I was worried about going away with you because, well, we haven't gone that far yet and we haven't even spoken about it before"

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asks curiously.

I blush again. "I don't mind, only if you want to"

"Well, are you ready?"

I nod, swallowing the lump in my throat nervously. "Yes, but im scared"

"We'll see how it goes on the trip, if it happens it happens, but if you don't want to then you can tell me, I can wait for as long as you need" he gently rubs his index finger up and down my arm. I smile and give him a small kiss before laying my head on his shoulder.

"What if you think im crap?" I ask, quietly so the people behind us couldn't hear. He laughs and I smack his arm. "Im serious!" I cry.

"Mitchie, you don't even have to worry about that, it's your first time, your not expected to be a goddess in bed, it wont change how I feel about you" he kisses my hair. "Well, if you horrendous them I might reconsider" he jokes. I smack his arm again. "Im kidding"

"I hope so" I think I feel asleep again because when I woke up everyone was standing up. "Are we here" I ask Shane.

he nods and grabs both of our hand luggage's. "Yeah, we're here, you better get out quickly before we get trampled" I nod and we walk as quickly as we can out of the plain. Once we are outside, the cold air attacks my arms. I shiver and run inside. Shane emerges a few minutes later. "I told you it was cold"

"Cold is an understatement for what it is out there" my shivers calm down and I open up my hang luggage and pull out a jacket, this would have to do until I get my suitcase. After hours of wondering around the airport we finally make it to where we were staying and I have to say, it was perfect for Christmas. I drop my bags and walk in slowly, looking around in awe and the cute medium sized house. "It's perfect" I feel arms wrap around my waist and I lean into his chest.

"Im glad you like it" he kisses my cheek. "Im going to go get a shower, we'll figure out what to eat when I come down" he places another kiss before grabbing one of his bags and walking up the stairs. I watch after him with a smile before he disappears from view. I turn on my heel and walk into a random room. I switch on the light swift to see a cosy couch and a small TV; I also see a shelf of pictures. I notice there are a lot of Shane and his brothers and only a few of Frankie, they must not have been here for long after Frank was born. I drag my finger along the shelf, taking each picture in and laughing at many of Shane's portraits, he was mostly pulling faces or harassing his brothers rather than smiling, but in the odd few where he was, he looked adorable. I had to say though, his hair as a child was very, round. I giggle as his bowl cut as look around a little more. There are lots of little dragon statues on another shelf and I find myself chuckling when I see a note in a frame, clearly Shane's writing.

The scribbled note read.

Do not touch my dragons, or they will set your hair on fire, oh! and your eyebrows. So stay away!

I giggle once more before walking back out to my bags and grabbing something a little more comfortable. Jogging up the stairs I bounce into the closest door. It's completely empty, except for the double bed, simple wooden wardrobe and the plain painting of a sunset. I slipped off my tight jeans and pulled on a pair of loose shirts. Once I slipped my shirt off, I brought my hand to my bra clasp and was about to flick it when I heard the door open. I gasped and spun around to see Shane, dripping wet, with nothing but a towel around his waist. I can't help but bite down on my lip as my eyes quickly roam over his bare torso.

"Sorry, I didn't know you were in here" he wasn't looking at me; his eyes were fixed to my bra covered chest. I don't think he knew what he was doing when he began to move towards me, but when he was merely inches away from me he brushes his fingertips up and down my arm in slow but swift movements, and just with those gestures, he has my skin tingling and my nerves alive. I gasp when he places a gentle kiss on my neck. He kissed me everywhere but my lips, my eyelids, my nose, both my cheeks, the corner of my lips. But when he finally brought his lips to mine, I swear I had never felt so alive. Sure we had kissed before, but somehow, it was nothing like this, sexual tension made it more, exotic. His hands steadily ran from my face, down to my shoulder, where they slowly pushed down my black bra strap and he brought his lips to my shoulder, feathering it with delicate kisses. I closed my eyes as he kissed the top of my breasts. My nerves them started to kick in.

"Shane, I- I don't know" I whisper, my voice raspy and thick with nerves.

He pulled away and looked me in the eyes. "Please Mitchie, I love you, let me show you that" he pleaded. I swallow and look at him, hesitant. But then I realise, I want this too, it's just me being a pussy.

"Ok" I whisper sweetly.

"Ok?" he asks.

I nod. "Ok" I repeat, and once again his lips find the soft spot on my neck. A sigh escapes my parted lips as I throw my head back, giving him more access. He gently placed me on the bed and I did something that shocked the both of us. I took both of his hands and placed them directly over my breasts. I swallow, he bites his lip as he watches me, I close my eyes as he captures my lips while massaging my breasts. He then took one hand and snuck it up my back, un-hooking my bra. I gasp and by instinct cover my now bare chest with my arm.

He shook his head, kissing along my arm. "Don't hide" he kisses my hand. "You're beautiful" he slowly pulls my arm away and presses a kiss to each of my nipples; I shudder and knot my fingers in his hair. As he brings his lips back to mine he stars grinding his hips against mine. I gasp in ecstasy as he begins to move slowly down my front, trailing kisses from the valley between my breasts all the way to my abdomen. He looks up at me for a second, his eyes covered by his thick black eyelashes, as if asking me for permission; I nod nervously as he slowly slips of my back lace panties. I swallow loudly and close my eyes when he places his fingers behind my knees and pull them apart gently. My eye then fly open and I moan silently when I feel him between me. Arching my back I let a embarrassingly loud groan fall from my swollen lips. No going back now. This was it.

hi.. sorry it's been so long since i updated, since it was Christmas and all i had so much stuff to do, anyway, here it is, i hope you like this chapter, i'm sorry if this one was horribly awkward, i have never wrote a sort of sex scene before so i have no experience in putting them into words, but anyway's, REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW !