I have been trying to structure this out the best i can, bare with me.

How on earth anybody can use a time turner baffles me, ive been up nearly 7 hours and it only lession 3.

Being tired however is the least of my problems, everybody thinks im a bit of a slag because i was nearly raped.

Silly immature children they are, but why do i care what they think if i dont value their opinion, or so i try to convince myself and so far it hasnt worked one bit.

The only ones who do understand are the slytherins and i only think they do because snape must have lectured them on it untill they got it in their heads that he would kill them if they even spoke to or about me negitively.

I guess i cant stop rumors i guess, pathetic slags who open their legs to anyone need a new hobby coz they are just going to end up orange and alone, i doubt they can even read better than me and i started learning this year.

I pull my white hair up into a bun and go to lunch then im going for a nap, i can just turn back time later really cant i?

I sit down and draco cooly walks up to me and sits down.

I look at him and he smiles "Lee do you want to be my date for the yule ball?" the yule whatimabob? i think.

He must see the confusion on my face and quickly explains "So i have to wear a dress? and make up and heels?" "I guess." I smile, "Ok then sounds fun." The biggest grin erupts from dracos face and we talk about what we want to wear, he wants me to go in dark green or black or silver which all would suit me anyway to be honest so i didnt mind and quickly planned my first hogsmead trip.

"Oh lee you look great in this one." Ginny says as i look at this beauty in the mirror.

Her white hair curly and in an up/down do, her eyes dark and smokey which gave a surprised expression to them, her lips red and full and a light blush on her cheeks.

Oh this girl is beautiful, i admire myself in my dress from all angles, the short green dress reaching just above my knee, the silver pattern going over one shoulder, emphisising my figure perfectly and black glittery heels to match my beautiful outfit.

Ginny is wearing a short silver cocktail dress which goes to her nickers practicly and hermione in a pretty pink dress, wow shes so girly, id never realised before now how possible it is.

We walk down to meet the boys and their jaws drop when we come, poor nevile ginny must have made him rather uncomfortable with her not even there dress.

Draco kisses my hand and escourts me to the ball.

We dance for a while then sit to get a drink.

He dances a bit like a lady haha, nevermind whats the worst that could happen.

Leen is wanting me to dance more but id rather walk around a bit and just get some fresh air rather than being stared at by the boys, even fred and george are eying me up a bit, however they were soon shouting at ginny for her lack of clothing.

She just flipped them off in a way only ginny would.

I made my way outside and saw snape and karkaroff having a heated argument, both looking at their left arms, i look at mine and gasp, the mark... its getting darker.

I walk over and look directly at snape "Is he coming back?" He looks at me but says nothing, karkaroff looks at me with pity and shock and i nod, their reactions told me what i need to know.

"I dont want to go back severus." he pulls me into a hug and tells me he wont let me go back, a silent tear falls from my eye but i nod, beliving him completely.

karkaroff looks around and must have seen onlookers because he pulls us the direction to the dungons.

I sit down on one of the tables and they both pull chairs over and we start talking about our ideas "Running is the only option, its the only way we can live without complete fear."

"He will find us but you will get the easy way out, he will keep me with him, id rather die to be honest." my voice shook when i spoke and snape pulled out a cigarette and started smoking.

I look at him completely surprised "Since when did you smoke?" He looks and me and laughs histerically, i smile and he gasps out "After all this and thats what you want to ask me?" I nod and he laughs again.

"Probably since about 18 years ago." He said his laughter fading slightly.

I nod again, wondering what caused him to start smoking.

We carry on talking for a while but soon i want to go back, they both come with me and i make it for the last 3 dances, george got the first, zabini the second and i spent my last dance dancing with neville, who was really good at dancing and it was a plesent experience.

I wake up the next day, my feet hurt, my hands, my back and my head and a wierd cramp in my tummy.

I go to the bathroom and jump in the shower.

"Keep holding on, coz you know we'll make it through make it through" I sing as i wash my hair with my lavender smelling shampoo, all my bath things smell like lavender, the most beautiful smell in the world in my opinion and thats all i smell of.

I sigh as i see blood on my towel as i dry, my period... finaly.

I go to the cabinet and pull out the pms potion, basically it stops my periods coming untill im on the toilet where it all comes out at once, not pleasent but nessessery.

Since ginny started she told me what to do so it wasnt a huge deal.

Now that i look though my boobs are bigger than they were, i woop to myself and get dressed in a green top and white jeans with black pumps and go to the great hall for my breakfast.

"I swear lee, you wear slytherin colours more than griffindor!" I smile as harry sat down next to me giving me a one handed hug.

"Have you found out what to do with the egg yet?" He sighs and shakes his head.

"Well i heard cedric say he found out whilst having a bath so it might have something to do with water."

Harry smiles "Thanks lee ill try that tonight, what are you up to today because the gang are off to hagrids and he wanted you to come too."

I smile "Sure what time." he cocks his head trying to remember "Bout midday i think."

I nod and start putting omlette and bacon on my plate.