All my life I've been good but now

Whoa I'm thinking what the hell

All I want is to mess around

And I don't really care if you love me, If you hate me

You can't save me baby

Avril Lavigne-WHAT THE HELL

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Jacob

After I took Nessie to the car me and Edward had to steal along the deserted road, we had been driving for half an hour and Nessie hadn't spoken a word to me. She just stared out of the dashboard, her face blank and cold.

'I know how you feel Nessie, believe me I do. But they were evil Nessie, you did the world good, you can't imagine the things they were going to do to you' and the hiss escaped my teeth. I had to fight to stay in control. From now on I wouldn't leave Nessie's side for a single second. She would never be alone, I'd sleep in her bedroom, I'd live with her. I would never risk losing my reason for existing again; I would never keep her out of my sight.

'Honestly Nessie you did nothing wrong, you rid the world of evil'

'Please just shut up' she replied, cold and dark still keeping her eyes ahead, she didn't even look at me. I too looked ahead. I have to admit that hurt, it really hurt. Nessie had never told me to shut up so harshly and coldly before. I would be quiet if that's what she wanted but I wouldn't go away, never. When we reached she got out of the car abruptly and slammed the door. It didn't just feel like she slammed the door, it felt like she'd slammed me in my heart. Tears threatened to escape my eyes again but I blinked them away and got out of the car and followed her into the cottage. I had taken her back to the cottage because I knew she wouldn't want to go to the main house where everybody would be. Bella had phoned me to say she met up with Edward and to look after Renesmee until she was back so I followed her but she stormed up to her bedroom and slammed the door. I banged on the door loudly.

'GO AWAY' she screamed at me, her voice laced with hatred but I ignored her.

'Open the door right now Nessie and talk to me' I demanded but she just ignored me. I could force the door down but that'd make her even angrier so I just sat outside the door deep in thought. About an hour later her door creaked open and I jumped up with a start and walked in.

'What the hell...' I started. She was sitting at her dressing table, her beautiful bronze curls had gone and had been replaced with dyed bleach blonde hair and she was in the middle of straightening all of her curls out. Her hair hung dead straight and blonde past her waist. Her eyes were covered in thick black eyeliner and her lips red and full. She turned off the straighteners and stood up facing me and placed her hands on her hips and smiled seductively. She had on black denim shorts, if you could call them shorts more like denim underwear. She showed off her long slender toned legs and had on a pair of ridiculously high heels and a scanty top. I just stared at her in disbelief.

'What the hell Nessie? What do you think you're doing' I demanded. I was furious. What was she doing? What the hell was she playing at? She'd just killed someone and now she was dressed like a… I couldn't call my Nessie that could I? But there was no other word than slut. What was wrong with her?

She just smirked again and turned to face the mirror.

'Hmm, I don't like this top' she turned to face me again as she lifted her top over her head and threw it to the side. She was just standing there in her bra. I genuinely think she had gone crazy.

'Put your clothes on' I said leaning over to the bed and throwing the top to her. She just laughed.

'Why Jake?' She asked, seductively walking towards me, 'does this bother you?' she gestured to her chest and she pushed me up against the wall. She ran her hands over my chest through my shirt and bit her lip. I was thankful when Edward burst into the room with Bella at his side and Nessie moved backwards away from me laughing. It wasn't a nice laugh; it was a horrible evil laugh.

'What on earth' Edward repeated my words from Edward earlier and I heard Bella gasp in horror as she took in their new daughter.

'What have you done to your hair? Where are your clothes?' Bella demanded, she was seething but Edward just stood fixed on Nessie. And then he sighed deeply as he turned to face me.

'She's turned her emotions off again.' And with that everything made perfect sense.

When Nessie was three well thirteen her dog died and she was devastated she couldn't deal with the pain and she went crazy. She turned her emotions off. We discovered that hybrids were able to do that because Nahuel could aswell. Turning her emotions off rendered her incapable to care about anything or anyone. She couldn't cope with the pain so she'd turned them off so she wouldn't have to feel that pain anymore. It had taken a month to get her to turn them back on again but this time would be different. She wasn't thirteen and she hadn't just lost her dog, she was sixteen and she'd just murdered a man and almost killed two others. Nessie with no humanity was a horrible experience and I had a feeling it would be ten times worse this time. I wouldn't lose the girl I loved to this horrible imitation of her. We had to come up with a plan.