RENESMEE

I watched as Jake's lifeless body fell to the floor. I stood still and listened hard. I couldn't hear him breathing. I slowly took a step forward towards him; my dad had released his hold on me.

I couldn't believe it, I wouldn't believe it. Emmett wouldn't do that, he couldn't be dead he just couldn't. Jacob could not be dead. It all started to come back at once, I was hyperventilating, I couldn't breathe, and I couldn't concentrate. I pushed my hands up to my head and raked my fingers through my hair. I was having a panic attack, I couldn't breathe properly! I started to move around in circles, panting, breathing heavily. It felt like the sky had closed and the air had been stolen from me. There was no way he was dead, Jacob Black could not be dead. I wouldn't survive. I would kill myself. It was in this moment that I truly realised there was no point to life without him, he was my whole world and he could not be dead. My mother approached me holding her hands out.

'GO AWAY' I screeched. Now I had found my voice I started to scream in rage.

'WHAT DID YOU DO? HE CAN'T BE DEAD!' I started towards Emmett, punching him everywhere I could but my dad grabbed me again.

'LET GO I HATE YOU SO MUCH YOU KILLED JACOB' I thrashed and screamed and then the realisation sunk in. Jacob was dead.

I sank to the floor and lay crumpled onto the floor and that's when the tears came. That's when the emotions came, the hurt, the guilt and pain. The tears came in floods and I was sobbing uncontrollably.

'Jacob, please, you can't be dead' I shuffled towards him. I stroked his face, his hair, his hands, he was still warm.

What had I done? Why didn't I turn my emotions back on? I was crying so hard I thought I was going to pass out. Everybody around me was silent but I wasn't looking at them.

'WAKE UP' I screamed at him 'YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP' I continued. 'Please, I'm sorry, don't leave me.'

Rose started to come over to me attempting to pick me up but I pushed her hands off me.

'YOU SHOULD BE SO HAPPY YOU HATED HIM ANWAY, GO AWAY FROM ME, I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN' she backed away hurt and I buried my head in Jake's neck.

'Please wake up, Jake, I'm sorry' I whispered in his ear 'you can't be dead, you can't leave me.'

And then I felt an arm tighten around me, a warm, strong arm. I must be dreaming, imagining things. But the arm that tightened around me was warm; it couldn't be any of my family.

My tears subsided and I lifted my face up, my hair was all stuck to my face from my tears.

'I'll never leave you Ness, never' he whispered into my hair. My eyes widened and I sat up. Jake's eyes were open and he was staring at me with such love and devotion.

I gasped.

'You're not dead?' I questioned as he started to sit up. My tears turned into happy ones as he pulled me in for a hug. He held me tightly.

'It would take more than a punch in the back from Emmett to get rid of me for good Ness' he said as he kissed my hair and I heard Emmett scoff.

I couldn't believe it, he wasn't dead, he was alive, he was here.

'B...But you weren't breathing' I stammered.

'Little trick there, some drugs from Carlisle. But man my back kills, yes he did really punch me, I'm gonna go have to go get healed up.' He stated as he stood up, pulling me up with him. He arched his back and winced in pain.

'Sorry man, but it had to be convincing' Emmett said.

So it was all a joke?

'It wasn't a joke Nessie, we had to be brutal' Edward answered my thoughts 'you had to really believe Jacob was dead and you did.'

I cried again and tried to wipe the tears from my face. Jake pulled me back to him and hugged me closely to his chest.

'It's okay sweetheart, I'm okay' he soothed me.

'Come on guys, why don't we go out somewhere? Leave Jake and Nessie alone for a while.' My dad spoke up and they all nodded in agreement.

'I'll be back soon Nessie, don't worry everything will be okay darling' my mom said pulling me into a hug. I just nodded.

'Rose, I'm sorry' I said through my tears.

'Don't worry about it Nessie, okay?' she said hugging me tightly and then they started to run back to get their cars as I turned back to Jacob.

JACOB

Man my back was killing me; I needed to get to Carlisle pronto. I held Nessie closely to me, never wanting to let her go. She was in pain, she was hurting, but she was back. Her emotions were back on. Her tears that had soaked my clothes were proof of that. I would help her through this, she was everything to me.

'Shh, Nessie darling it's okay, I'm okay, and everything will be okay.' I said rubbing her back soothingly.

'But it's not okay Jake, nothings okay, I was so horrible to everyone, I got drunk, I tried to take my clothes off in front of you, I'm so embarrassed' she cried.
'You weren't yourself Ness but were going to forget about all of that now and move forward okay?'

'I can't, I killed someone, Jake. I actually killed someone.'

I grew angry at the mention of that man she had killed. He had deserved way worse, he had deserved days of torture until he was literally begging for death.

'Maybe it would help if I told you that same man you killed had also killed murdered and raped 16 other girls. Carlisle looked it up for me. He was a serial killer and a rapist Ness and so were the others. He's dead and they're in prison. They deserved everything; you rid the world of evil. You know Edward used to kill murderers aswell?'

She looked up at me and her tears had stopped somewhat.

'They really killed all those people?' she asked quietly and I nodded. Her chocolate brown eyes were shining with tears; she was full of emotion right now. She was so beautiful. She was the definition of perfection. I just wanted to kiss her, to take all of her pain away. From her reaction today I could tell she truly did love me for whatever unfathomable reason. She was in agony when she thought I had died.

'Do you forgive me?' she asked.

'Of course I forgive you Nessie. Always.' I assured her as I tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. She smiled faintly.

'It's so good to see you smile' I said smiling along with her. And then I very hesitantly brushed my finger across her cheek bone and wiped away the teardrop that was there. She closed her eyes and breathed in and out.

I continued to brush across her cheek.

'I'll never leave you Nessie' I vowed to her. Her skin felt like velvet, it was warm and satiny. So soft. She was so beautiful.

I wanted to kiss her and show her how much I loved her. How I loved her more than anything in this world, more than my own life. But I couldn't. Nessie was so special, so precious. I didn't want her first kiss to be in the middle of the muddy woods, whilst she was still so upset.

'Come on, I really need to get to Carlisle sweetheart' I said. I hated to ruin the moment, but she was shivering and she needed taking care of. She nodded and I held her hand and lead us back to the house. It would only be Carlisle there so it was okay.