Carlisle had fixed Jake up nice and brand new and now we were back at the cottage by ourselves. No nosy all-hearing vampires. I had washed out all of the rest of the dye and brushed my hair. It was exactly how it used to be again. I had changed into light pink pajama shorts and a vestop and I was lying on my bed watching a movie with Jacob next to me. Things appeared normal, but I was still hollow. Emotions sucked but I was glad they were back on because there was one good thing about feeling and that was the love I felt for Jake. It was the only thing keeping me together, my undying love I felt for the boy right beside me. I loved him completely, more than anything. He had taken drugs and being hurt terribly just to help me and I was positive he would have died for me if necessary. Believing that Jacob was really dead had made me realise how much I loved him. I didn't just love him, I was in love with him and I wanted him to know but I was so scared. He needed to know. Jeez where was the Nessie that tried to strip naked in front of Jake when you needed her? Maybe I should stop being such a coward and tell him. Maybe I'd start a conversation up first, perhaps leading to it. Maybe he'd say he loved me first.

'Thank you, for doing what you did to help me today Jake' I said and my voice sounded small. Ugh.

He turned towards me looking me in the eyes.

'I'd do anything to help you Nessie.' He said smiling at me, with so much love. Ugh just say it already you wimp.

'I hope you're okay' really Nessie, really?

'I'm fine as long as you are' he said lovingly and placed his hand in mine. He was so warm; he was like my personal sun. I needed to say something; he deserved to know how much I loved him.

'I love you Jake' I blurted out. Oh gosh that was smooth. You sound like an idiot. I looked down, blushing beetroot red. Oh god. That was even worse. I mean it's not like I've never told Jake I loved him before but this time was different and we both knew it. Jake was silent for a few seconds and then he tilt my face up locking eyes with me.

'I love you Nessie. More than anything' he replied, his voice velvety. I knew how much he loved me but hearing him say it was europhic. This was it; maybe he would finally kiss me. My heart was beating heavily and I could hear Jake's aswell. He let go of my face and pulled me in towards him and wrapped his arm around me.

'It's been a long day, you look exhausted, let's go to sleep' he said rubbing my arm. I sighed. I was exhausted but not tired enough for him to kiss me.

He switched the light off and we both lay down, his arm still wrapped around me.

We'd just confessed our love for eachother and he wasn't gonna kiss me? I mean c'mon! Was he still playing the big brother role? Or was it the best friend role? I decided to ask.

It was dark so I didn't have to look at him so I was more confident.

He was stroking my hair gently, 'I love it when you stroke my hair' I told him. It was comforting to me when he played with it. He chuckled lightly 'I love doing it' he replied.

'Jake can I ask you something?' I said leaning in closer to him. He smelt amazing.

'Anything'

'You're my best friend right? You're like my big brother, my protector'

'Erm, yeah' he said, his voice was unsure. I took this as an opportunity to push it forward.

'Best friends and big brothers. They don't do what we're doing now do they?'

He didn't answer and his stroking of my hair slowed down somewhat. I didn't continue, I wanted him to answer this question.

His heart was beating heavily in his chest.

'No, they don't' he answered finally, his voice was husky and low.

We were both close together still, his arm still wrapped around me stroking my hair but our heartbeats were so loud. I could feel the tension. None of us knew what to say, I shouldn't have said anything. I'm sure my breathing had got heavier. I couldn't take the silence anymore.

'It's something lovers do' I blurted out and I felt him freeze. I didn't care though, we needed to get past this stage, it had dragged on long enough but I was still nervous all the same. Suddenly he shifted so that he was propped up on one elbow facing me.

'What is it you want Nessie?' he asked gently looking at me 'I will be whatever you want me to be, whatever you need me to be.'

At this point, I was ready. I didn't want him to be my big brother anymore. I still needed him to be my best friend but I needed him to be my boyfriend, my lover aswell. I needed him to be my everything.

I leaned in closer to him.

'I don't want you to love me like Quil loves Claire. I need you to love me like Sam loves Emily' I whispered.

JACOB

'I don't want you to love me like Quil loves Claire. I need you to love me like Sam loves Emily' she whispered, her voice soft and velvety. I breathed in deep; she was so close to me. I could feel her breath on my neck.

'You're not as old as Emily' I stated, wrapping my finger around the end of one of her curls 'you're only sixteen.'

I couldn't possibly love her like Sam loved Emily right now. I mean for years I'd had direct insight into Sam's mind about what he and Emily got up to at night. I wanted to wait until Nessie was fully grown to make love to her. When she was eighteen, she was barely sixteen.

'Okay maybe not Sam and Emily. We'll invent our own one, okay? Nessie and Jake' she said tracing her fingertips lightly across my neck. Her touch drove me crazy; the feel of her skin on mine was the most amazing feeling ever. It was like little shots of electric currents, ones which were pleasurable.

'Nessie and Jake, sounds perfect to me' I agreed.

'And what is it that Nessie and Jake can do?' she asked lightly.

I leaned back and switched the light on so I could see her beautiful face. Her hair was tumbling down covering parts of her face in a really sexy way. I'd never thought of Nessie being sexy before but she really did look it tonight. Her hair slightly messy, she was in the tiniest shorts and vestop and her eyes were sparkling and she was smiling. I stroked her face adoringly. It made me so happy to see smile, nothing in this world could make me happier than to see Nessie smile.

'Nessie and Jake can do this' and I traced my fingers from her eyes to her neck and down to her arms. She was so soft, so beautiful. I was hesitant as what to do next but we both wanted this, she wanted us to do this. She needed me to be more than her friend and I needed it do.

'Nessie and Jake can do this' I leaned in slowly and placed a kiss on her cheek slowly, making sure my breath lingered there.

'And Nessie and Jake can do this' and that's when I closed my eyes and moved over to her mouth, slowly pressing my lips against hers. She tasted like sunshine, strawberries and roses. Everything that was beautiful. Her scent was intoxicating. She smelt like heaven, like every flower, everything that was perfect. She felt like satin and velvet. Her lips moved in sync with mine and I pulled her closer to me. There was no feeling that compared to how this felt; it felt like I was in a dream, a fantasy, surely real life couldn't be this amazing. She placed her hand on my face and suddenly my head was filled with all of her thoughts. It was like a burst of light, showing me how amazing this felt, how much she loved it, how much she was in love with me. It was like a flame had being ignited in my heart; I was completely in awe of her. She was the most magical, beautiful thing to ever grace this earth and she was all mine as I was hers. Her fingers knotted in my hair as mine did to hers. I wanted her as close as possible. I pulled her into my lap and she deepened the kiss. Her lips parted and I felt her tongue brush across mine as I granted her entrance. Oh god this felt so good. How was it possible to love someone so much? I was so happy I could now love her like this. But I was starting to feel things I'd never felt before. My body was growing tighter, she was sitting on me and I could feel myself growing hard at her touch and this kiss. Soon we were both gasping for air and we had to break away but I only continued trailing kisses across her neck. I was holding her waist and her vestop was riding up, I could feel her lower back, her soft skin. I could feel myself getting harder and I needed to get her off me before she felt it so I gently lifted her off of me but still held her close.

'I love you Nessie. So, so much.' I whispered into her neck and we both collapsed back onto the pillows. I truly was exhausted and Nessie must be even more tired.

'I love you Jake, more than anything' she said leaning into me once again.

I reached over and turned the light back off.

'That was amazing' she giggled lightly, stroking my face. I turned so I could face her.

'The best moment of my entire life so far, and all of my best moments have been and always will be with you.' I stated.

She leaned into kiss me once more lightly before she leaned into my neck and within minutes she was fast asleep. I lay awake for a while just to hear her breathing thinking that there was nothing that could be more perfect.

A few moments later I saw my phone flashing on the bedside table so I reached over to grab it. It was a message from Edward.

'Come down now, we need to talk.'