This is my life
Chapter 23
BPOV:
Airports…they are just like men in my life. Can't live with them, can't live without them. I personally did not see why we couldn't just get a ship and sail over. Besides the fact that Hawaii is about twice as long from her by boat as it is by plane…but still!
"Oh Bella, don't worry. Just take a nice long nap on the plane and forget that you are on it" Jared suggested calmly. I don't know how he was so calm about all this but whatever.
I settled for glaring at both him and Jake, who was currently trying hard not to burst out laughing at my expense. Smart man.
It's actually a good thing that Jared did suggest taking a nap…seeing as I needed one thanks to Quil and Embry keeping me up all night until about 3:30 in the morning while both Jared and Jake slept soundly in the next room. Then to top it off, Jake woke me up at 6 in the freaking morning to get ready for your flight. Damn them all. I hate them.
"Aw Bells, don't look at us like that. We both know about your fear of flying since you told us last week at my house and we decided to try and distract you so you could sleep" Jake said innocently.
"We were trying to make your life easier so you wouldn't be so scared on the plane because you would be asleep but the time we took off to the time we land. You understand right?" Jared asked.
"No. I don't" I snapped. They both pouted.
"Oh don't you pull the pouting thingy on me. I know you both" I scolded. They both chuckled and parked her car across the airport. I got out and grabbed my suitcase from the trunk and handed it to Jake, who took it along with my carryon bag, leaving me with nothing to carry.
"Alright so we have to go check you both in then head to security. Let's go" Jake said, leading us to the check in desk. Jared followed him and I just stayed where I saw and waited for both of them to be done. It took about thirty minutes before we finally headed over to security. Jake decided to leave us right then since he wasn't going with us on the flight.
"Alright guys, this is where I leave you. I'll be sure to pic you up here in two weeks. Have fun and take lots of pictures for me. Come here cousin" he said, grabbing me in a hug. I felt myself become teary eyed with just the thought of not seeing my cousin for two weeks.
"Bye Jake, see you in two weeks" I murmured.
"Alright bro, take care of my little cousin here. I don't want her to come back damaged or bruised. She too often comes to see me and has bruises on her. Watch out for her for me since I won't be there" Jake warned Jared, who just smiled and nodded his head. Jake hugged me one last time and headed out to his car, leaving us to get scanned by security.
"Okay love; let's get looked over by security. The faster we do this, the fast you can rest before the flight" Jared said, leading me to the security area. I set my cell phone and purse into the little boxes and walked through the metal detector.
"Let's go Jared, I need to rest. I'm pooped…no thanks to Quil and Embry. Paul even helped out a bit before he left!" I exclaimed "Never do that to a pregnant woman! NEVER!"
"Okay Bells" Jared chuckled. I sat down in the closest chair and leaned back, resting my head on his shoulder. I was so tired. All I wanted to do right now was sleep. But since we were boarding the plane in about 10 minutes Jared is making me stay awake.
"Flight for Oahu will begin boarding in 5 minutes. Please have you flight tickets ready for checking. Thank you" said the overhead voice.
"Let's go line up Bella. We are first class so we can board first". I smiled and stood up, following Jared over to the flight check in.
"Does this mean I finally get to sleep?" I teased. Jared made a face at me and just stood where he was, making me bump into him before I could stop. I humped and pouted.
"I love it when you pout. It turns me on" Jared whispered in my ear. I smiled and kissed his warm inviting lips. He set his hands on my hips and pulled me close. I pulled my lips away and leaned my head on his shoulder.
"I love you Jared. So fucking much it hurts. I never want to be without you in my life. Never leave me" I whispered in his ear. His arms slid from my hips to around my waist and scooted my body closer to his. Over his shoulder I saw two teenage girls about a year or two younger than me check him out. Their eyes moved from his back to his butt. I grew protective. He was mine; no one else's.
"Those two girls are really pissing me off" I growled. Jared chuckled and turned us so that the girls had a good look at both of us.
"I love you and only you. No one else could ever take the love I have for you away" and with that he kissed me, discouraging the two girls watching us.
"Let's go board the plane. I have to make sure the love of my life is safe" Jared said, pulling me towards the flight attendants and into the plane. He sat me on the first seat in first class and made sure I was comfortable. I was exhausted and all I wanted to do was sleep. Jared could tell and he leaned my chair back. A tall dark skinned man sat behind us and settled into his chair and soon others joined him and sat in their seats.
"Go to sleep Bella, I'll unbuckle your seatbelt and buckle it back up. Just close your eyes and sleep" Jared comforted, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear and kissing my head. I closed my eyes like I was instructed and dropped into dreams.
JPOV:
As I got into my car, I felt my heart crack a bit. Bella and I were always together now that we lived closer together. We made sure that we saw each other twice a week, just the two of us. It made things personal and easier. We would choose a day, do something and just talk. It brought the two of us together. We talked about everything; there was nothing to hide between us. We were basically making up for lost time that I never got to be there for her.
As I drove down the highway to Lori's house I contemplated my situation now. Seeing as Bells was not going to be here for two weeks I needed something to do during that time that she wasn't there with me. Lori knew and understood my need to see Bella twice a week; I needed her to know that I was sorry for whatever I missed out on in her life: her small cheerleading career, her constant beatings from Charlie and everything else in between.
I pulled into Lori's long driveway and turned off the car. Sitting here in the driveway reminded me when I went to meet her parents for the first time.
The fear of not pleasing her parents ran threw me the entire drive there, making me shake while driving. Lori sat next to me and was silently laughing at my irrational fear as she says. They would like me she tells me, they are easygoing parents. I had hoped she was right. And she was. As soon as I got inside their house, they welcomed me instantly. Making me feel wanted and respected. Her father was a nice guy, happy go lucky and protective. Her mother was sweet and accepting. This was just what I need to calm my nerves. I never regretted that day after that.
"JAKE!"
My head shot up and I saw the love of my life standing at the doorway, watching me in the car excitedly, waiting for me to come out and say hello.
I rushed out of my car and ran to her, taking her into a huge hug and kissing her soft mouth.
"Hey Lori, how are you my sweet?"
"I'm great now that you've showed up. How was Bella at the airport? I know you told me how she is afraid of them" Lori asked.
"She was fine, tired but fine. I could tell she would miss me. She's never gone this long without seeing me at least once or twice a week. I'm glad Jared snuck in her laptop, and then we can webcam chat when she wants to" I said, chuckling.
"Poor Bella, she's grown attached to you, making up for lost time" my love said.
"I know, and I'm willing to make up for it too. I should have been there for her. If only I went to visit her or something! I didn't think about it! Didn't even bother to remember that I had a cousin in Forks" I scolded myself.
"Jake sweetie, you never knew about what was going on over there. Never had a clue. It's not your fault. It never was your fault and never will be your fault. Bella has forgiven you, and so you should do the same".
"But I never even bothered to find out or care! Until we found out she had to live with us! I could have helped her!" I shouted out in despair.
"yea but think about this, Bella forgave you, and I think in a way she's glad that it happened this way…then she never would have meet Jared the way she did and then she never would have found out that Edward wasn't the right one for her" Lori said, in that voice that always made me cave into her wishes.
"Alright, I guess. Let's go eat, I'm starving!" I said, pulling her into her house.
BPOV:
"Bella…Bella? Wake up love"
I opened my eyes and focused on the owner of the husky voice. Jared.
"There she is! He sleepyhead! We just landed and are waiting for clearance to get off. How was your nap?" Jared asked.
"It was nice and now I feel rejuvenated" I said. In truth I did. That nap was so good. I felt wide awake. I sat up and stretched out my arms and squeaked when Jared poked me in my stomach.
"Gah! Why'd you do that?!" I exclaimed, laughing. Jared laughed with me.
"Because I wanted to that's why. And I love your stomach" he teased.
I giggled "you only love that I'm carrying your baby in there" I said, pointing to my tummy.
"Well there's that. But who couldn't love the amazing, gorgeous wonderful woman carrying it?" he asked.
"Hmm let me think. Oh I know, Charlie" I said.
Jared's frown left his face and I instantly felt horrible for being that way. "Bella let me tell you something. What Charlie did to you was cruel and hateful. I love you. Jacob loves you. Everyone loves you. Why should Charlie matter?" he asked, taking my small hand in his.
My heart swelled with pride and love. This man loved me more than anyone else ever could. What did I need Charlie for? I had Billy as a father and I had Harry Clearwater as a father. When I first meet Harry, we instantly became close. He understood my situation and was there to help. I could never ask anything more from them. Why should Charlie bring me down when I have tons of people who loved me instantly?
I reached over and took his hand "thank you" I whispered and kissed his cheek.
"Now unloading Hawaiian Airlines. Have a great stay on the islands. Aloha"
Jared looked at the speakers and raised an eyebrow "now that's just sad". I laughed and stood up. He handed me my carryon bag and headed out of the plane.
"Do we have a rental car?" I asked. He nodded and led me to the baggage claim area.
"Bridget's dad got us a guy to wait for us at the front with a car waiting for us. He's going to be our driver for this trip" Jared said.
"Wow I've never had a guy wait for me at an airport" I said in wonder.
"When have you ever gone on a plane?" Jared asked.
I thought for a minute "um, when Charlie's mom got sick, he took me with him to see her. She died later that week" I said.
"Charlie had a heart?" he asked sarcastically.
"Yea, he did for his mother. That's about it. She knew about what was going on though. She knew and didn't tell anyone. I had to wear long sleeved shirts and sweaters because I had bruises on my arms" I said.
"Bella, really, I think it's because he's her son and she didn't want to admit it" Jared reasoned.
"Yea maybe. At least she gave me money in her will" I said.
"Oh she did? You still have it? Or did Charlie take it?" Jared asked.
"I had to use it for clothes to replace the bloody ones or for medical treatment" I said sadly.
"I'm sorry Bella. That's the good thing about La Push. Good cheap medical service" Jared teased. I laughed and headed down to the baggage carriage. I expected to have a good time and I will. And I did.
JPOV:
As I ate lunch with Lori, I couldn't help but wonder how I got so lucky to find the right girl. Meeting Lori was the most amazing thing that could have happened to me. I had never thought I would imprint. I was wrong. Lori had changed my whole outlook on everything. It was eye opening.
I helped her clear off the table and before she could leave me, I brought her body to mine. She was everything to me. I didn't want to let her go.
"I love you Lori, so damn much"
She turned her brown hair covered hear to me "and I love you too Jake. More than I ever thought I could love anybody".
I lead her over to her couch and pulled her down with me "why don't we break this couch in?" I said, winking. Lori and laughed and collapsed on me.
"Yes, why don't we?" she asked, bringing her lips to mine in a deep passionate kiss.
My hands roamed down her sides to the hem of her shirt. They made their way under and up past her stomach to her chest. I gripped her breasts in my hands, massaging them. Her back arched into me, her breasts pressing deeper into my hands. I leaned my head down and nibbled on her neck. She moaned and sat up, her hands going under my shirt and taking it off me. I did the same to her shirt.
"Jake don't stop" she whispered.
"Never" I said.
LPOV:
Jake's hands, which were on my breasts, moved their way back down my body to the waistline of my jeans. I arched my hips up so he could pull my jeans down. My underwear stayed on. His fingers on his left hand made their way to my core and rubbed. Pleasure shot threw me and I moaned. He always had such amazing fingers. They could turn me to putty with just one touch on my face or waist.
Jacob moved my underwear down my legs to join my pants and replaced his fingers with his tongue. My hands clenched in his brown black hair and moved his head up. He replaced his mouth with his hardened manhood and pushed. His manhood entered me and broke my virgin barriers. We moved in sync with each other, my hips meeting up with his as he pumped into me.
I never wanted this night to end. Never ever. It couldn't get better than this…well it just did. We did it all threw out the night. By the time the day ended, I had probably lost about 5 pounds.
BPOV:
As Jared and I am off the plane I was shinning bright and happy with life. I was officially engaged! I never expected it all to go down like this, but I was glad that it did. Jared had finally gotten the courage to propose to me.
-flashback-
Jared and I sat in the outdoor Jacuzzi with our arms around each other and our heads resting against each other. This was bliss. Pure bliss. I enjoyed our time together, we never had to fill up the space with mindless and pointless chit chat. We were comfortable just being and that's all that was needed.
"I love you Bells" Jared said, turning his head to kiss my forehead. I smiled and leaned into him more.
"I love you too" I said.
That was another thing I loved about our relationship, we never got tired of saying we loved each other. Never. Every time he said it to me it feels like the first time he said it. Butterflies in my stomach.
"Let's go inside. I have something for you" Jared said, pulling me out of the Jacuzzi and into our room. I sat on our bed and stared at him for the longest time. All he did was pace up and down our room, mumbling to himself.
"Jared, is everything okay?" I asked, confused.
"Huh? Oh yea, everything's fine. It's just…I don't know how to word this correctly" he said. I just stared.
He came over and took my hand in his "Bella, you mean the world to me. I would die if something happened to you. Everything I am now is all because of you. Because you were there to help me change. I never did anything in the pack. I was just there. Never talked, never laughed, and never really lived. Until that day I saw you. When I saw you, my world shifted. Nothing mattered to me at all besides you. Even though you were with the leech, I still made sure that when you needed me, I would be there" and he paused.
"Will be do me the honor of becoming me wife?" Jared asked. I gasped as he got down on one knee and held up an engagement ring. I blushed red and nodded my head.
"Yes Jared, I will be your wife" I said, wiping the tears that were coming to my eyes and jumping him. We fell on the floor of the hotel room and my hands ripped his shirt. His hands went to my breasts and massaged them in his hands. I dragged my hands down his chest and slipped them into his pants. His penis was hard and it turned me on. I slipped it back out and untied his swim trunks. His erection popped out and I brought it to my mouth.
"Oh God! Bella don't stop! Please don't stop! That feels good!" Jared moaned
My head bobbed up and down his member, my hand grabbing what I couldn't. Jared's hands moved up my spine and into my hair and gripped it. His hips began popping up to meet my mouth. I took him out of my mouth and replaced my mouth with my hot core.
My body moved up and down with the rhythm he set. He head tilted back so my chest arched up. My breast was still in Jared's hand. When he realized this he replaced it with his mouth. His tongue licked and his mouth sucked. I groaned and panted and I felt my stomach clenching. I came violently and Jared followed a few minutes after, his muscles clenching and his body relaxing.
-end flashback-
I sighed in contentment and leaned back against Jared's chest, looking for Jacob among the crowd. I looked towards the entrance and saw him. He was looming in the corner of the entrance, looking around the room for us. He saw us and rushed over to us. He was grinning. Fuck.
"BELLA!!!!!!!!!" he yelled "BELLISIMA!!!!!" I stared at him and turned and ran down the hall towards the women's bathrooms.
"AHHH!!" I screamed, trying to gain a lead on him. It wasn't working.
"BELLA!" Jacob yelled, grabbing me in a bear hug and choking me till I turned blue. I was struggling to breath.
"JACOB! Let Bella breathe please. I don't wanna lose my fiancée" Jared teased.
Jake stopped hugging me and looked at him. Oh right he doesn't know I thought.
"Fi..Fiancée?" Jake stuttered out "When did this happen?"
Jared laughed "it happened during the trip. We were at the Jacuzzi and I took her inside the hotel room and I proposed. She accepted".
Jake sighed "I had a feeling this would happen during this trip. Oh well, that's great guys. Come here" Jake said, opening his arms to us, bringing both of us into our hug.
"Thanks for understanding bro" Jared said. I kissed Jake's cheek and stepped back.
"We want to have a native American wedding Jake" I said. Jake grinned and nodded.
"I know just who to send you to. Harry Clearwater, Seth and Leah's father. He's the person that does the La Push weddings. He should be able to do your wedding for you" Jake said.
"Can you take us tonight?" Jared asked him.
"Oh yea sure. He should be home by now so we just need to head over and ask. He'll do it for you because Jared's in the pack and he's your godfather" Jake said. I was stunned. I didn't know Harry was my godfather.
"I didn't know Harry was my godfather" I said. Jacob and Jared looked at me.
"Charlie didn't want Billy to be your godfather because he didn't trust Billy after he attempted to call the police about the abuse. He didn't say anything to anyone anymore. He let it slip to Billy that he was abusing you and so he tried to call" Jake said.
"Yea and Charlie's the reason Billy's in a wheelchair. He pushed him down the stairs and Billy's legs became paralyzed. Everyone believed his lie about Billy tripping because he was the police chief and everyone thought he was serious. Not us though. We knew and we never talked to Charlie after that" Jared finished.
"How would you have become my godparent if you were my uncle? I don't get how that works" I said confused.
"I don't know either. I think Billy was actually going to have Old Quil be your godparent. He said he could or something happened. I don't know. We were just trying to get you from Charlie because we knew what was happening" Jake said.
Oh… I thought.
JPOV:
As Bella and I got into Jake's car, we headed straight over to Harry Clearwater's house. When we parked in the driveway, Seth opened the door and ran out.
"Hey guys! How was the tr-is that a ring!!!" Seth yelled, bringing his dad running outside.
"What's wrong Seth?" Harry asked.
"BELLA HAS A RING!" Seth yelled again. Harry's eyes widened and he smiled.
"Well congratulations! Can I assume that the wedding is going to be a traditional Indian wedding? Seeing as you are here? And you have a ring on your finger?" Harry asked.
"You guessed right Harry. We were wondering if you would do this honor for us and marry us" Jared asked. Harry beamed.
"I would be honored! I will. When will it be? And where?" he asked.
I looked at Bella and thought back to where we felt was most important to both of us. Then it hit me. I turned back to Harry.
"I want our wedding to be on the La Push beach. If that's alright with Bella" I said. Bella turned to me and I could tell that she was thinking the same way I saw. It was the place where we had our first kiss, where we first said we cared for each other.
"Of course Jared!" Bella exclaimed, jumping me and kissing my cheek.
"Alright so you all know what happens during an Indian wedding right?" Harry asked. Bella shook her head no.
"Okay so basically, you need to choose a few sponsors. When you do that then we can figure out the date and times" Harry said. Bella looked at him and nodded her head, smiling at him. I could tell she was thinking about our wedding…seeing as I was as well.
"I want Billy and Jacob to be sponsors" Bella said, looking at Jake who was standing next to her. Jake grinned again and kissed her cheek.
"And I want Sam and Emily to be our other sponsors" I said.
"Alright, now we need to decide a date for the wedding" Harry said.
"How about November the 20th?" Bella asked. I thought about. Since Native American weddings are very easy to prepare, we don't need that much time like normal weddings would need.
"Sure how about November 20th. I like that. We have about 2 weeks to prepare. Bella, do you know what dress you want to wear?" I asked her.
She nodded "Emily hinted at the fact that she could make a dress for me if need be. So I'll take her up on that offer" she said. I nodded and thanked Harry. Jake followed us to the car and got in, driving us back to our house.
We arrived and I picked Bella up, who had fallen asleep on the ride home "hey Jake, can you grab Bella's bags? I'll get mine as soon as I put her down in bed. She's exhausted" I asked. Jake went back and grabbed her bags. As I went into our bedroom, Bella stirred and went back to sleep. I set her on the bed under the covers and went back down to get my suitcases. I didn't have to because Jake brought them up into the room.
"Jake, you didn't need to do that. I would have gone and gotten them" I said, instantly feeling guilty. We had made him drive all over the place for us and here he was, bringing in our luggage.
"Dude, it's fine. Just get some sleep. You look like you need it. Both of you" Jake said, heading out the room.
"Bye Jake, and thanks" I said. He grinned and headed back downstairs to his car. I chuckled, went to Bella and undressed her except for her underwear and tucked her back in. I stood back, took off my shirt and pants so that I was in my boxers. I crawled into bed, grabbed Bella and pulled her to my side. I closed my eyes and drifted to sleep.
A/N: I am so sorry everyone. I have had no time to do anything. I have been filling out college applications, doing homework, going to tumbling, dealing with life and stupid issues and etc. I have had no time to even stop and breathe! I will try and have the next chapter up soon. I know what it's going to be about and what is going to happen..I just need to type it out for you. If you want to know whats gunna happen early then tell me in a message or review. And Ill reply back and tell you. please stay patient with me! ILL TRY AND BE FASTER ABOUT UPDATING! Don't blame me. Blame college apps!