This is my life

Chapter 27

JaredPov:

My blood ran cold when I heard those words. I knew that she was dead, but Carlisle saying it made it more real. My heard was breaking…my reason for living was gone.

"Bella…is…gone…?" I whimpered. My love was dead, died in my arms. By the hands of Victoria.

Victoria.

My wolf heart pumped fast. She was still alive. Fighting with Edward. I stood up, laid Bella in Carlisle's arms and took off my shirt that I had put back on.

"I want you to do something for me Carlisle" I said. He nodded his head.

"I want to be buried next to Bella when I die" I said.

His eyes widened and he slowly nodded his head.

"I will. Don't worry. You will be buried next to her" he said. I smiled, phased and ran over to Edward to help him fight Victoria. I leaped and landed on her back. Edward leaped back and then charged forward to help. I bit Victoria's neck and twisted. I was about to finish the task of killing her when something tacked me from behind me.

I fell down onto the grass and jumped back up. The vampire that had attacked me was on the grass crouched down about to pounce me again. I growled at him and he charged back at me. I jumped at him and punched his face. I felt my knuckles bruise and ache. Edward had finished burning Victoria before she could piece herself back together. Alice and Rosalie were still fighting and their husbands went to help. They were attempting to pull their arms off to render them helpless for a moment.

Jasper ran up and pulled off the head of one. Emmett grabbed the other two that were attacking his wife and tore them to shreds. He had no patience for those who attack his wife.

I stood where I was and held my ground. The vampire had gotten two more vampires and they were ganging up against me. I stood my ground and waited for them to attack me. I heard the voices of my pack mates and they were yelling at me to move. Edward turned and was about to run when I shouted in my head 'NO!'

He stopped and held his ground.

"Why?" he asked me.

"I want to die. My reason for living died. I don't want to live. I want to go down fighting. Leave it alone" I said.

"But I can't just let you die!" Edward shouted.

"You have to. I don't want to live anymore. I want to be with Bella. I love her and I want this" I said.

He just stared at me and I showed him how much my life would change without Bella in my life. He winced at my thoughts of suicide. Even if he intervened and saved my life, I would eventually try to kill myself.

"Alright. Good luck and thank you for all you have done" He said, although not sounding pleased. I smiled.

"Thank you for all you've done for Bella and I. I can never thank you for doing all that you have done" I said back.

"Thank you for taking care of her, when I couldn't" He said.

"Thank you for allowing her to follow her heart and love who she wants" I said back again. Edward frowned at what I said and I brushed it aside.

I ran towards the vampires, jumped and pounced. We fell to the ground and I phased. I grabbed one of their hands and pulled back. The arm from the elbow to the wrist and hand tore off. I threw it towards the others so they could make sure no one got it.

I charged again and because of my wishes, he didn't try to help. I tackled the vampire and was thrown back again. I stood my ground and he clashed against me and I flew back into the trees behind me. I got up and was met with a stinging sensation on my chest. I pushed the feeling out of my body and kept going. I felt a couple more stinging sensations but I didn't want to give up just yet.

I aimed for his head and snapped the neck off. The head tore off and the body collapsed to the ground. The other two had rushed me and I let Edward take the other one. I was getting weaker and he could tell I was. He tore the arms off and then went for the head. I just went directly for the head this time. It took me a while but I finally got the head to come off. The body, like the one I killed before it, collapsed.

I got off and Embry with Jacob both got the body and started a fire to burn it. I started to walk to Bella's body and I felt no different. I was a bit depressed that I wasn't killed. But there was something off…something different.

I felt weird…my body was shaking and I was having a hard time staying up on my feet. I was wobbling. Eventually I felt my body shut down and I collapsed…

The world went black.

EPOV:

After Jared went down I knew this wasn't going to be good. He wasn't getting up and I was getting worried he had gotten badly hurt.

"Edward, go check on Jared. Make sure he is okay" Carlisle said, picking up Bella and placing her in her arms.

I ran over to Jared's fallen body and checked his pulse.

"Jared…are you okay?" I asked.

He didn't respond and I checked his chest since he had phased back into a human after he had collapsed. He had a few bite marks on his chest, a couple near his heart.

"Carlisle! He's been bitten! Come over here!" I yelled.

He tucked Bella tightly in his arms and rushed over to us. I took Bella from him and set her down on the grass, making sure to keep one arm under her. The wolves ran over to us and kneeled down.

"Is he going to be okay?" Seth asked. I shrugged my shoulders. Seth, Brady and Collin looked at me with wide eyes. I could tell they were frightened.

"Shit"

I snapped my head up toward Carlisle. He never cussed. Ever.

"What's wrong Carlisle?" I asked.

"We lost another one. The venom from the vampire killed him" He said. The three boys burst into tears and the others got quiet. They had just lost Bella and now lost Jared as well as the baby.

Oh no…the baby.

"What about the baby?!" Rosalie asked. I knew that if the baby had survived she would have demanded to take the baby.

"It miscarried. Basically it died in her stomach from all the abuse to it from Victoria" Carlisle said. I turned towards Rosalie.

"Besides, even if it had survived, you wouldn't have gotten the baby" I said. She glared at me.

"Said who?" she snapped.

"Said us" Sam snapped back. He was getting protective over a baby who had died. I knew they were all mourning and grieving for the lost baby.

Rosalie wisely back down, knowing that if taunted, they would attack.

Turning back to Bella and Jared, I set Bella on her back next to Jared, with their hands linked together. I put Bella's other hand over her stomach. I knelt back onto my feet and looked down at them. They were lucky. They got to be with each other in the afterlife. I was left to walk the world on my own.

"Edward, we need to bury them. We need their bodies" Paul said. Sam went over and picked up Jared. Jacob went to get Bella but I snatched her from the ground. He growled and glared at me.

I didn't want to give my Bella back to them. She was mine. Jasper sensed my irritation, reluctance and possessiveness. He started walking towards me and I went to turn around to run. I didn't like the close to me.

"EDWARD!"

Stopping short I looked to see Esme standing right in front of me. She was glaring at me and gave me the mother look.

"Give her back Edward. They have a right to her. She was adopted into the family with Jacob and so they have the right to take her back and bury her. She is theirs". I whimpered in my throat and backed away.

"Edward, let her go".

She said the words I never wanted to hear. I didn't want to let her go. It meant accepting that she was never going to come back. I couldn't handle that. Backing away even more I bumped into Emmett's body. He reached over, took her from my arms and walked back to Jacob. He handed him her body and I felt my heart breaking.

"Here, take her. Bury her with Jared. They both deserve that much. They loved each other very much. I know they meant something to you all…but Bella meant something to us. Can you bury them both on the border? We want to be able to visit them and the baby. Can you do that for us?" he asked.

"Yes, we can. And we will. You all deserve that for all that you have done for us. We will be holding a ceremony for them both on the border and we will bury them then. For now they will rest in our house where we will pray to the spirits and the fates for them to be lead to heaven" Sam said. The others nodded and they turned away to head home.

I turned back around towards North, made sure no one was looking at me and ran. Ran away.

APOV:

Edward thought that we didn't see him. We did. And we understood why. He needed to get over Bella's death on his own. He had his own way of dealing with sorrow…that was it. Running away.

I knew where he was running to…but not what would happen after he reached the destination.

"Bye Edward" I whispered.

A/N: Hey everyone! Sorry once again for taking so long! The chapter after this one is the last one! Lol. XD I am sorry! I had so much work to do! And stuff for college and stuff like homework, projects, tumbling etc. Really sorry. Ill update the last chapter up soon. Hopefully in the next two weeks so please be patient. :D Thanks!