Another sad chapter but again vitally important.

This chapter is quite long so hope you appreciate how much I wrote
I Promise the next chapter will be happier, well a little bit (:

JACOB

Was this what our whole relationship was going to be like? We disagree and Nessie runs off into the woods? I can't cope with it. I wanted to go after her straight away but maybe she needed a little time alone, I decided I would give her a little while. I sat on her bed, trying to think but I couldn't relax, I couldn't think straight, I was edgy and something just didn't feel right. I waited for a while pacing up and down, back and forth. I couldn't even sit still and this was unlike me. It had been nearly twenty minutes now and that's when I heard, well more like felt something. I couldn't describe it but it felt like Nessie needed me. She needed me to come to her. It was a strange sensation; it was like the imprint was pulling us together, hinting to me that she was in need of me right now.

That was enough for me; I strode out of the house, still in my clothes from last night and marched right up to the Cullen's. I thought everything in my head so I wouldn't have to explain myself when I got there and true enough when I arrived outside Edward was standing there waiting, with Bella at his side and the rest of his family behind him. Rosalie growled.

'What did you do to her?' she snarled. It took every ounce of control I had not to jump at her and tear her throat out.

'Not now Rosalie' Edward spoke in authority 'come on, Jake feels something, we need to go and find Renesmee.'

They all nodded in agreement and they ran immediately into the woods whilst I quickly phased and ran up to join them. As I was running as fast as I possibly could I signalled the others to immediately forget what they were doing and head towards the woods to find Nessie. I heard Leah murmur horrible comments but I snarled at her warning her and she quickly shut up.

I told everyone to go straight to Nessie's favourite place in the woods, quite far in, North by the little creek and valley.

It didn't take us long to get there but when I arrived I was thrown back by the scene that awaited me. Nahuel, the hybrid like Nessie, the disgusting repulsive one leaning against a tree, fuming, anger pouring out at him, his eyes ablaze. I followed the directions of his gaze down to the floor.

There lay my reason for existence, my everything, my world, the love of my life on the floor. Her body was doing these weird things, like she was convulsing. The side of her neck was covered in blood. Her eyes were closing and her fragile heartbeat was racing heavily, trying it's hardest to keep beating. I can't describe the pain that drifted through my body right down into my very soul because there's just no words. My first thought was to launch at Nahuel and tear him limb from limb whilst he begged me to kill him but my reflex, my instinct was to go to Nessie. I phased back right there in front of everyone, I didn't care. I pulled my shorts on from round my leg and sprinted towards her.

I bent my head to hear her breathing. She was still breathing but it was shallow.

I didn't know what to do! She was dying!

'CARLISLE!' I screamed 'HELP HER NOW, SHE'S DYING' he came running over quickly and immediately got out the first aid kit he'd bought along with him but then he looked at her neck and pressed his lips to the wound.

'He's bitten her. He's venomous'

'She's going to be a full vampire?' I gasped aloud in horror

'No Jacob' Edward said from behind me bending down to listen to her heart 'the venom is poisonous to her, she's dying.' He looked so anguished, so pained but it was nothing that compared to my pain.

'Don't you dare leave me 'I shook her hard 'don't you dare Renesmee' I shouted, tears streaming down my face.

I leaned my face into her neck and cried and then I saw her open her eyes weakly. I gazed into her chocolate brown eyes and stroked her face.

And then the weirdest thing happened, her thoughts filled my mind without her even touching me.

I love you Jake, so much, more than anything, I'm so sorry I heard her say in my head, clear as a bell. I choked on my tears. She was not going to die, I would not allow it.

'I love you, you'll be okay Nessie, we'll make you better' I whispered, my voice breaking and that's when she closed her eyes. Her heartbeat was still beating but only faintly.

'DO SOMETHING, SUCK THE POSION OUT GOD DAMMIT, I'LL DO IT MYSELF' I moved to try to get to the other side of her neck but Edward pushed me back.

'You'll die, I'll try and do it' and he pressed his marble lips to Nessie's wound, sucking her blood. This was an image that would haunt me forever.

'My baby' Bella dry sobbed kneeling down by me holding Nessie's hands. I touched Nessie's hands aswell. The same hands that had been warm and soft earlier were now stone cold.

'Keep your heart beating angel, don't you dare give up, keep your heart beating for me' I chanted to Nessie hoping more than anything she could still here me.

Edward lifted his head from her neck, his lips stained red.

'Her blood is clean, the venom is all out'

'We need to get her back home' Carlisle spoke, also trying not to break down and keep his composure 'I need to check her head.'

'What's wrong with her head?' I asked, still crying

'Believe it or not that seems to be the main cause of her stature. It appears her head was smashed against this rock, he gestured to the rock behind her and I gasped aloud, sobbing even harder. My angel, my poor Nessie. It was all my fault. I had done this.

'No Jacob, it isn't' Edward said reading my thoughts.

Carsile ordered Edward to run back to the house to get the head and neck brace before we could move her and he was back before we could blink. Carlisle secured it around her and then we all lifted her gently and walked back to the house.

I didn't have time to turn back around to see what was going on. All I could hear was the screeching and begging from Nahuel and I could tell Rosalie, Emmett, Jasper, Alice and the wolves were taking care of him. Everything was like a blur to me and all I could focus on was Nessie. All I was listening to was her heartbeat, chanting to her to keep her heart beating.

When we arrived we layed her down on the operating table upstairs and Carlisle immediately started inserting needles into her. I was losing it, I was going mad, I needed her to open her eyes and tell me she was going to be okay. I needed her to tell me to stop worrying and that everything was going to be fine. I ran my hands through my hair.

'Jacob maybe it's best if you wait outside' Edward suggested

'NO WAY' I screamed loudly

'I think it's best if you all left please actually so I can concentrate on what I'm doing. Leave now.' Carlisle ordered.

Bella and Edward looked torn.

'I can't leave her you know that' I said trying to be calm.

And then a bleeper went off, loudly, echoing the room.

'HER HEARTBEATS FAILING PASS ME THE DEFIBRILLATOR NOW' Carlisle shouted loudly and Edward raced across the room to pass it to him.

Bella hid her head in her hands and fell to the floor screaming.

'SAVE HER CARLISLE' I screamed and rushed towards her.

'MOVE JACOB, NOW' He demanded but my feet were locked in place. I couldn't hear her hearbeat anymore and I sank to my knees like Bella crying uncontrollably. My eyes locked on her perfect face. As still as stone, all the colour gone and faded.

'Open your eyes, open them Nessie' I cried.

I felt arms prying me back and I thrashed against them but they were too many of them and they were too strong.

'You stupid mutt, do you want to phase right here and risk hurting her even more?' Rosalie growled dragging me back along with Jasper and Emmett whilst Edward and Alice grabbed Bella.

I was suddenly out of the medical room and I found myself thrown outside the house.

'Sorry Jacob, you can't lose control in here, you can't. You need to calm down and come back when you're in control.'

'I NEED TO BE IN THERE, SHE'S DYING' I screamed trying to run forward but Emmett just pushed me back again.

'And you can't help her Jacob' Alice said calmly 'Edward and Carlisle can'

I couldn't believe this was happening. I kicked my motorbike that was outside the house and sent it flying into the woods a mile away in anger and then I kicked a car, shattering it into a million pieces. The next thing I remember was feeling a sharp stab and then cold liquid coursing through me. My last thought was of Nessie before I fell to the ground.

I woke some time later. Disorientated and not sure of what time it was or even where I was. I awoke with a jolt and staring into my face was the unappealing face of Rosalie and the sympathetic face of Alice.

'What did you do to me?' I asked trying to get up but falling back feeling dizzy.

'You were going crazy so we tranquilised you' Rosalie stated simply.

'You started breaking and throwing things. It was quite scary' Alice whispered.

That bought me back down to reality and I suddenly remembered why I acted that way.

'Where's Nessie?' I demanded storming up the stairs and they didn't even try to stop me.

I walked into the medical room; Carlisle was still fiddling with tubes, his face a mask of worry. It was only him and my angel. I walked forward to look at her. She still looked the same, white face, cold. Completely lifeless.

I started to cry again and Carlisle sympathetically, quite awkwardly patted my back and grabbed me a chair to sit on by her side and I reached out and held her hands.

I could hear her heart beating rapidly and I sighed a breath of relief.

'How is she?' I asked after a few moments.

'She's in a coma Jacob. The poison is out her system, it's not that that's the main problem, it's her head wound. Half vampire or not a crack to the head with such force should have killed her. I honestly don't know how her heart is still beating. It's miraculous.'

I smiled weakly as I stared down at her still crying.

'That's right isn't it Nessie? You're a fighter. Remember what I always told you? You never give up without a fight.'

I turned back to Carlisle, 'she's going to live isn't she? She's going to be okay, tell me she's going to be okay.'

He grabbed a chair and sat next to me staring down at his granddaughter sadly.

'I would love to tell you that Jacob. I honestly would but I just don't know. Right now, she seems to be stabilised, we've got her heartbeat normal but things could take a turn for the worse or the better. The head injury was awful Jacob; part of her skull is fractured. And it's not just her head; it appears her body was also thrown against the rock.'

I winced at that. I didn't want to imagine it, the pain my angel must have felt. She needed me and I wasn't there, I was never going to forgive myself if I lived for a thousand years.

'There's bruises all over her body, some ribs were broken, her wrist is broken. She's very much broken Jacob.'

I had to try not to break down completely in front of him.

'I will do everything I can Jacob, I'll leave you to be alone with her.' He said as he got up to leave.

'Hold on, what about him?' I asked a growl in my voice, wishing it was me who had ripped him limb from limb into a bloody mess. But Nessie needed me with her; she didn't need a rage filled murderer of a soulmate.

'He has been dealt with. I believe the others and the wolves had a little too much fun making him suffer first. He is dead' and with that he left.

'Wake up Nessie' I cried 'please wake up I love you so much I can't live without you I just can't, I'm so sorry' I begged her as I leant down into her neck, crying my heart out. When would I wake from this nightmare?