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'I think Renesmee, you should be okay to start trying to walk' Carlisle smiled over at me after just running my hourly checks. It had been about 8 days since my accident and he thought I should start trying to walk again but I was still in a lot of pain. I frowned and he laughed lightly.

'You can't stay in bed forever sweetheart, come on let's give it a try'

Just then Jake walked in flashing a brilliant smile at me, he'd only been gone about an hour but I'd still missed him terribly.

'Jacob' Carlisle greeted him 'I was just telling Renesmee I think it would be a brilliant idea for her to try and walk again but she's reluctant. I've done all her checks and she's recovering very fast now. Perhaps you can give her some encouragement. I'l be back in a little while, I've got to check out the hospital. I haven't been there in days, I think Renesmee is well enough to be left for a little while now. I won't be long' he smiled down at me. I loved my grandfather a lot. I don't know what I'd do without him. He bent to give me a kiss on the forehead and on his way out reminded Jake to encourage me. I scowled, I didn't want to be encouraged I had no desire to walk just yet.

He sat down on the chair beside my bed he had been practically living on since my accident.

'Hey beautiful' he said, his usual greeting. I smiled at him, my heart instantly warming whenever he was with me.

'Are you gonna try and walk today Ness?' He asked and that smile turned into a frown and I shook my head.

He laughed gently 'come on Ness, just a little walk yeah? For me?'

I was debating, I didn't want to but I knew I had to eventually, I couldn't stay in bed forever

'Il hold you, the entire time' he promised. Well that did sound more appealing and he must of saw the change in my face because he extended his hand.

'Come on I know you can do it'

Just then my whole family walked through the door obviously overhearing the conversion, smiles of encouragement plastered on their faces.

'You can do it Renesmee' my dad said gently smiling at me and my mom looked like she was about to cry again.

I looked at each of their faces and then finally at the face of the one I loved more than anything. He still had his hand outstretched and I hesitantly took it as he stood up. It took me a while (and a lot of help from Jake) to clamber out of the bed but I finally managed it.

I was standing next to him holding his hand whilst my family praised me and then I looked down at my outfit. It hasn't occurred to me I had no idea what I was dressed in. I had on designer tight fitted skinny black jeans and a baby blue sweater crystallised in diamonds at the back.

'Seriously Alice?' I said and they all laughed including her.

'Sorry, couldn't help it' she whispered.

After wards they looked at me expectantly waiting for me to walk so I nervously put one front in front of the other and started.

Jake kept a tight hold of me and held my waist and when I had done a full circle of the room they all clapped and cheered and told me how marvellous and brilliant and spectacular I was.

'Okay Nessie, your mom and dad and obviously Jacob will be here and Carlise is coming back but the rest of us have to go shopping for your party' Alice sang excitedly

'Honestly Alice you don't have to, I don't need a party' I groaned

'It's a celebration that your alive and your okay, that and it's your 17th birthday in a few days, remember?'

Ah yes I suddenly remembered. 17. Finally old enough for Jacob and me to get a little more physical

'Nessie control your thoughts please' my dad said wincing, pretending not to hear and I blushed red. Oops.

Nobody bothered to ask, they just knew I was thinking something along those lines and laughed, including Jacob. They all hugged me, Alice and Rose smothering me in kisses promising to buy me all sorts of stuff and then they left.

'You don't mind if we go over to the cottage for a while and then hunting do you Nessie? We're close if you need anything, and you've got Jacob.' My mom said hugging me lightly.

'Not at all' I answered quickly. I couldn't wait to be alone with Jacob.

My dad raised his eyebrows, kissed me on the forehead and then left. I was only too sure what they were going over to the cottage and hunting to do. I shuddered at the thought.

'Sorry Ness, looks like you're stuck with me' Jake said smiling sitting on the end of my bed.

'I don't mind' I leaned closer to him ignoring the pain I was in 'actually it's my favourite thing'

I leaned in to kiss him and he gently kissed me back. He tilted up my chin and kissed me deeper. It felt so good kissing him again when I hadn't kissed him for days. He traced his tongue against the bottom of my lip and I opened my mouth letting his tongue gain entrance and I felt him smile against my lips. And then he ever so gently pushed me back on the bed and hovered over me and trailed kisses down my neck. Fire coursed through me and there was a tingling sensation from head to toe and all I could think about was how much I wanted him at this moment. He moved back to my mouth and kissed me harder and deeper before gently rolling over to lay next to me whilst we were both gasping for air.

I turned on my side to face him.

'I want you' I said quietly and he faced me stroking my hair, my face, my cheeks.

'I want you too Ness, so much'

'Make love to me' I demanded and he laughed lightly.

'I will. We will. I promise. But not now, your still injured, you need to get better.'

I rolled my eyes and he laughed

'When I'm better?'

'When your better' he agreed

'And what if that was tomorrow? Or maybe even tonight'

'Then I'd scoop you up, take us somewhere completely beautiful and give you everything I have'

He leaned closer to me so that his mouth was by my ear

'I'd make you scream my name, but not out of fear this time. No this time I'll make you scream my name in pleasure'

His hot breath lingered there by my ear as I closed my eyes and inhaled his scent, processing everything he just said. And then I opened my eyes to look directly at him.

'Why are you doing this? Why are you agreeing now? Jake I don't want us to do this because I almost died and you think you owe me or something. I want us to do this out of love and because you want to.'

He listened and then he once more moved to hover over me again.

'Listen to me Renesmee Carlie Cullen. I love you and I want this. Trust me.' He gazed at me lustfully and then leaned down to press his lips softly against mine . I rolled over so I was on top of him, not breaking the kiss once. His hand cupped my ass pulling me tightly to him and I groaned at the contact. Jake had never done this before, he was definitely pushing the boundaries.

When he held me tighter I felt the stabbing pain run up my body and I couldn't help but wince. I didn't think he'd notice since we were still kissing but he did and stopped almost at once gently loosening his hold and placing me back on the bed as we both sat up.

'Ness? Are you alright? Did I hurt you?' He asked his face full of concern.

'Its okay Jake I think I just forgot how sore I still was'

He stroked my face 'I'm sorry, no more getting carried away until your better.'

I grimaced and he hugged me gently.

'Do you mind if I take my clothes off? I asked him 'it's just I'm a little uncomfortable'

I genuinely wasn't trying anything on right now with him, it was just these clothes were really starting to be a little annoying. The jeans were skin tight, sort of like Sandy's out of Grease and the sweater was making me hot.

'Uh, erm I guess not' he said a little hesitantly. I didn't want to make him uncomfortable but we should be able to do this now at this stage of our relationship and after what just happened I think we were ready for the next step. It wasn't like I was going to be sitting there naked.

I tried to take my sweater off but it was kind of difficult so Jake helped me. When it was off his eyes widened and he almost gasped. I looked down to see what was wrong and I realised he was staring at the purple and blue bruises that covered my shoulders and stomach.

He lightly traced the bruises on my shoulder blades and then a tear escaped his eyes.

'Im so sorry I wasn't there to save you, I'm so so so sorry Nessie'

I cupped his face with both my hands.

It was strange to see Jake cry because he rarely did. I could tell he was extremely hurt.

''Don't cry, you did save me, I'm okay now and were together. The bruises are already fading Jake. They'll heal and it will be as if they were never there'

It took a while to convince him I was okay but eventually he nodded and kissed me gently.

I also finally managed to get my jeans off and I felt a lot better.

His hand ran up my bare thigh sending chills through my body and he smiled.

'You're so beautiful' he said to me sweetly

'So are you' I replied

His eyes locked with mine before swerving down and lingering on my chest. I was aware I was only in a thin lacy black bra and I suddenly felt a little self concious. My breasts were not big and I wondered if Jake would of preferred if I had.

'For the record' he said slowly, tracing the outline of the cups of my bra with his fingertips 'I'm not really into the whole big chest thing, I'd like to be able to breathe and not be suffocated when I make love to the love of my life'

I gasped when I realised my hand had been on him so he was able to hear my thoughts. I blushed red.

'Don't be embarrassed, you're perfect'

'I'm not perfect' I disagreed with him still blushing

'You are to me, you are for me' he insisted

I smiled and he ran his hand along my thigh again. God I loved it when he did that. His eyes wandered to the ruffled lace of my underwear and it was only then I realised Alice put me in a brand new thong. Oh My God Alice.

'I like this' he lightly tugged at the ruffle

'Really?' I asked, surprised. I thought Jake liked innocent Nessie.

He chuckled softly.

'I love innocent Nessie but that doesn't mean I don't love her provocative sexy lingerie.' He leaned closer and whispered in my ear 'for my eyes only' he added.

'Always' I breathed heavily. This was a new side of Jake I'd actually never seen before and I adored it. He wasn't been so cautious, and I felt as if more of himself was coming out now, the real him.

He smiled softly at me and pulled me in for a hug rubbing my back soothingly.

'When should we get married?' I asked him after a moment, completely randomly.

'You want to marry me?' He asked raising his eyebrows

'Of course I do silly' I told him and he leaned in to kiss me lightly on the lips

'Whenever you want but not yet sweetheart we should wait a few years'

I nodded my head agreeing with him.

'I love you Jake'

'Aw aren't you being incredibly nice today?'

'You saved my life. You brought me back to you'

'We saved each other'

I smiled before another thought popped into my head.

'I want to go back into my own room do you think it's okay?'

'Shouldn't see why not, we'll ask Carlisle when he comes back okay?'

I nodded. I was fed up of this medical room I needed normality.

'Can we go downstairs?' I asked him

'Can you make it?'

I had to ponder that one slightly

'Better not risk it, come on' he said smiling and getting up holding his arms out for me.

He carried me downstairs and into the living room and placed me on the sofa.

We watched a movie together, me leaning into him and his arm wrapped possessively around me.

Just as I was feeling warm and content and happy his phone rang and he awkwardly tried to get it whilst still holding me. I could hear the conversation easily. It was Paul.

'Hey man what you doing?

'I'm looking after Ness' he replied 'what's up?'

Paul sighed heavily 'sorry to disturb you man Jake but Leah's going crazy. She's having another one of her fits' his sentence seemed unfinished, Jake noticed it too.

'And?' he prompted

'This time the rage is aimed at Nessie. I'm not gonna say exactly what I don't want her to find out and she can probably hear but it isn't nice. You've gotta get down here'

He closed his eyes shut and breathed hard 'I'll be there in a few' and he hung up quickly.

It was no secret Leah Clearwater hated me and it wasn't unusual for her to have tantrums and fits either but I hated that Jake had to be the one to control her. She'd only ever listen to him.

Everyone knew Leah crushed on Jake but that's all it would ever be and she needed to get over it, because he was mine. All mine.

I looked up at him 'I'll be fine Jake' I insisted even though I was scared out of my wits to be left alone. Leah needed help though and I didn't want to be responsible for always holding Jake back.

He faced me and opened his eyes

'You honestly think I'm going to leave you? Seriously you're crazy sometimes Nessie.'

'Then what are you going to do?' I asked

'You're coming with me' he replied 'I'll be two seconds hold on'

He quickly dashed up the stairs and before I even had time to register the fact that he was gone he appeared downstairs with some lose sweats and one of my more baggier tshirts.

I didn't know if I was well enough to be out but I trusted that Jake would take care of me.

He helped me put on my clothes and then lifted me up and carried me out into the car, holding me like I was a doll that was about to break.

'I'm sorry Ness for bringing you out, but she has to be controlled I've honestly had enough with her'

I nodded and we started to drive.

When we reached the reservation we saw Leah in wolf form now and the others in human form hesitantly round her trying to calm her down, she looked angrier than I've ever seen her before, her teeth were snapping and snarling.

'Stay here' Jake ordered before getting out.

But I'm just as stubborn as my mom so naturally I got out and went to stand by the others. Leah had ran off now at the sight of Jake and he had changed to wolf form follow her.

'Hey Ness' Seth greeted pulling me into a hug and draping his arm over my shoulder.

'We've missed you, are you okay?'

'Still in a bit of pain but I'm getting better'

'Good' and he kissed the top of my hair.

'What's wrong with Leah?' I asked

He looked hesitant to answer but Paul wasn't shy at all, he came over and leaned on a log in front of me crossing his arms.

'She loves Jake and I'm afraid that you're just in the way Ness'

I already knew that, there was something else they weren't telling me

'What else?' I insisted

'She wishes that you were still ill Ness' he answered sympathetically

'So basically she's angry cause I'm not dead?'

They all grimaced and Seth tightened his arm round me

'Sorry Ness, I don't know what's wrong with her, I know she's my sister and all but she's screwed up with the way she thinks. We all love you just ignore her.'

Just at that moment she appeared back in human form, eyes blazing, focusing on me.

'Don't even start Leah, leave her alone' Seth said moving to stand in front of me protectively as the rest of them did.

'Oh how beautiful, of course, everyone is always Team fucking Nessie. Even my brother.'

I was angry, I'd had it with her, I wasn't going to put up with it anymore. I moved so I stood beside Seth.

'What's your problem? I don't understand why you hate me so much and I don't understand why you think that even if I was dead Jake would ever pick you. He loves me Leah; he doesn't love you so get over it.'

She bared her teeth at me and edged closer but Seth stood in front of me again, daring her to come closer.

Then Jake came bounding through the woods, looking angrier than I've ever seen him before.

'Move from her, now' Jake ordered and she turned to face him

'Or what' she said bitterly

Everyone gasped, no one had ever refused the alpha before, it just wasn't done. Ever.

He edged closer to her, he didn't look like my Jake he looked scary.

'Pack member or not, my best friends sister or not, if you ever lay so much as a hand on her Leah Clearwater I swear to god I will kill you. This ends right now. I've had it with you, I'm not interested in you, I will never be with you okay? I love Renesmee, get it? Renesmee. Now I said MOVE.'

She had tears in her eyes as she ran back through the woods. I stepped forward as if to follow her but I stumbled back as I realised she'd appreciate absolutely no source of comfort for me. I didn't realise I had tears in my own eyes until Seth pulled me close into a tight embrace.

'It's okay Ness'

Jake looked at each members of the pack, none of them quite sure what to say.

'Sorry you all had to see that. I best get going, come on Ness' he said with no emotion in his voice.

He leaned forward to lightly pull me from Seth and we turned to leave. He helped me in the car and then we were off. The car journey was silent, he didn't say anything and neither did I. When we reached I got out the car myself but I stumbled and fell hard.

Jake was immediately by my side and he lifted me up carefully and that's when the tears came and I started crying.

'Shhhhh' he said carrying me inside and sitting on the sofa with me in his lap.

He rubbed my back soothingly murmuring words of comfort in my ear.

'She hates me, so much' I cried, I wasn't used to people hating me, the worst part was I hadn't done anything to her.

'She doesn't hate you, nobody could hate you, she just hates that she can't be with me'

'She does' I insisted 'I just want to talk to her, try and make things better'

'You're not going anywhere near her, sorry Nessie, she can't be reasoned with.'

I didn't say anything but I was determined to talk to her at some point to try and get through to her.

After a while when I had stopped crying I looked up at him.

'Feeling better?' He asked

'A little.'

I studied his face and decided to just tell him everything that was wrong

'I'm sick of feeling like this. Earlier when I was with you upstairs and when we were watching a movie I actually felt happy. I just want to be happy, I just need to get away from Forks, away from everything and just be with you. I can't take it anymore I just want to smile, and laugh and be happy again.'

'I will do anything for you. I promise we'll go away together, I'll do anything to make you happy again. That's all I want, is to make and to see you happy.' He replied

'When Carlisle gives me the all clear we'll go yeah?'

'And it will have to be when those bruises are gone' he added

'Yes, I can't wear a bikini with those'

'And I'd hate for you to have to cover up' he said stroking my arm and I smiled.

'I love you so much' he said 'I just want to go and scream to the world how much I love you'

I laughed, 'okay but don't do it when you're with me'

He laughed 'I think I will'

'Where are you taking me?' I asked 'I want to go somewhere sunny and hot'

'Wherever you want babe, your wish is my command'

'We could go to California' I suggested I'd always wanted to go there but I couldn't because of my accelerated growth.

'Wherever you want' he said as he leaned in to kiss me. The kiss was slow and deep and passionate and I was completely absorbed in it.

So absorbed I didn't notice my mom, dad and Carlisle walking through the door.

My dad cleared his throat and we immediately broke apart but I still stayed rooted straddling his lap. We both looked up at them. Carlisle pretended not to notice and walked up to his study and Bella smirked and carried on into the kitchen. Edward stayed there and Jake slowly removed his hands from my waist.

'Nice to know you're feeling better Renesmee' he raised his eyebrows. I blushed and scrambled of Jake's lap and smiled at him weakly.

'Hey dad'

'Hello, Carlisle is here to do your checks if you'd like to go on up'

'I can't walk up the stairs' I stated

Just then my mom came zooming back

'Come on my little princess' and she scooped me up before I even had time I blink and I laughed

'Jake will be up momentarily, were just going to have another one of our talks'

I looked over at Jake sympathetically. I knew my dad was about to give him a sex lecture again.

I rolled my eyes at Edward just before my mom carried me up...