Here is chapter 16. My friends love this chapter and I like it to.
R.P.V=
I'm standing at Lissa's door debating to knock or to run far away.
What I was about to do could be the end of me and Lissa's
relationship or the beginning of a greater bond. I need to tell
her now I owe her that much. "Rose what are you are you doing
here? Lissa looked very surprised but then again I haven't
visited that much since we have both been so busy. "Lissa we
really need to talk" I tried to keep my voice calm but it shook a
little. Lissa looked more concerned. "Of course come in and sit
down" she sounded scared but her face revealed nothing. I
moved and sat on the couch she sat on the other end. What the
hell was I about to do? I had no clue where to start.
L.P.V=
Rose look frightened she really hasn't been herself she has been
so deep in thought. "Rose you can tell me anything" I tried to
comfort her I hated the bond not working. "Lissa I've come a
point in my life were I need to set priorities. I'm going to be a mom
and I'm worried about Jacen and Amelia- especially Amelia
hating me for not being around to raise them. Lis you know how
much awkwardness and tension is between me and my mother I
made a promise it would never be like that if I had kids. What I'm
trying to say is Valissa Dragomir I resign as your guardian." Rose
finished quietly. I felt like someone had punched me. Why was
she quieting?
R.P.V=
Lissa looked so hurt and confused. I can't believe I told her the
truth. "Dimitri wants you to quit right so you can be a stay at
home mom?" she looked very pissed. "Where the hell would you
get an idea like that? I'm doing this for me and my family. Lissa
you may have grown up with your parents but I didn't. I don't
have a clue who my dad is and a mom who sends card on my
birthday and holidays an only checks in twice a year" my voice
was raised I could feel the tears in my eyes. Lissa could be such
a bitch. "My families dead Rose your all I have left" she was livid
I could tell without the bond she was holding back the tears.
"Dimitri well still be your guardian well see more of each other than if I was your guardian. I'm scared I need to do this for me." I said threw clenched teeth.
No one knew how scared I was to be a parent not even Dimitri. I
had no clue how to be a parent I raised myself no one taught me
anything and I hated my mother for that. Little kids scared me
and I was far from nurturing. I felt the tears in my eyes realizing
the truth behind my words. "Please leave Rosemarie" her tone
and face were blank. "As you wish Princess" I replied coldly and
removed the rosary bracelet she gave me and set it on the desk
and walked out. As soon as the door closed the tears started I
ran. I ran all the way to my room which is a little hard when your
pregnant and bawling. I ran into my room and slammed the door I
couldn't move any more I collapsed in front of the door, crying. I
felt Dimtri's strong arms around me and him pulling me into his
lap. "Roza, don't cry sweetheart its ok" he kept whispering and
rocking me back and forth. I couldn't take it anymore things were
not ok I stopped crying, stood up, and was furious at him he
would never get it.
"Dimitir, stop saying things are ok there not. "Lissa hates me, I have no clue how to be a parent, and everyone is mad at me." I screamed. The little control in my life was slipping away.
"Rose calm down Lissa will come around" he looked taken back.
"You will never get it. My life has changed so much from what I've wanted and thought it would be. I never wanted kids now I will have two. I never wanted to fall in love then you can and changed all that. My life is over. My control is gone. Face it Dimitri, I'm seventeen, knocked up, and don't know where the fuck my life is going." I felt empty and non-existent my life was in
pre-set mode like I had no choices anymore. "Roza I think we
calm down and need to go to bed." He was trying to comfort me
that was the final straw. "Your right can you go find Adrian I
need to talk to him." I said blankly I was furious at Adrian and
honestly didn't want to be near him but I needed Dimitri out of
the room. "Sure Roza" he gave me a kiss on the cheek and left
the minute the door closed I grabbed my backpack and empty
it I started shoving my clothes in until it was full. I grabbed his
car keys, my secret money stash, and a pen and paper.
Dimitri,
I need time to myself to think. I love you more than anything but I'm empty and confused. This is for Amelia and Jacen as much as it is for you. In the long run it will be the best for all of us. I want to be a stable mom and companion. You don't want to marry someone like me. I will be back soon but I don't know when but it will be soon. Don't hate me for this.
Love,
Roza
I took off my ring and put that and the letter in the envelope
holding back for the millionth time tonight. I grabbed my
backpack and ran to the car I didn't have much time I left the
letter at the door. The guardian let me threw with no question I
have a free pass since I'm pregnant . The person I need right now
was one I never need before. Just how, to talk to her was hard.
That person was the one I regretted most: My Mother.
What do you think. I know that was really on unexpected but I as I was writing it became more clear she need to leave for a little bit. I will finish the next chapter and post it very soon. Please review and thank you to all who reviewed last chapter greatly appreciated.