Can't you hear me crying?
Do you notice me in the corner?
Folded into a ball
Waiting for your help
I'm shivering Mommy
Because of what he did to me
Come back please
I'm begging you
No child should reside in hell
He did it again
Can you hear my screams?
The scars inside and on flesh
I beg for help
But Mom you're nowhere to be found
Mom is it true your world is sleep and sound?
The grass on your side is greener
But can you sleep at night?
That little girl you had
You could have loved her
And not leave
And now I am a shell
Of what I could have been
-AC
Brittany's POV
Dear Tana,
Since you did poetry and it helped I figured I should give it a shot because it's hard for me to explain how I feel out loud. Quinn helped me with the big words. I love you baby girl, my strong sexy woman. Think of me, I'll be thinking of you.
A day without San is a day without sunshine.
Flowers seem to bloom later
And the wind refuses to alleviate the sweat
Gathering on my neck.
Cats refuse to purr
And it seems my heart refuses to beat.
Water no longer feels fresh upon my skin
As it cascades down my body.
Because Santana is in everything.
She's in the water that heats my skin,
the air in which I breathe,
and the blood that pumps within my veins.
But I find myself in a petrified forest.
There's no sight of her here.
My body's suffering, shutting down from the attack of need.
No warm arms to set my nervous system on track.
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Ty's all healthy again, back on the block making money to support his family. I'm glad he made it. He's one of the good guys. Ty deserves all the world has to give.
"Hey my big chocolate bear." I pinch his cheeks and sit down on the stoop with him. I skuff my shoe against the concrete and think of Santana. This is the last place San sat before she got arrested. Ty notices my forlorn look and puts his arm around my shoulder.
"I miss her too baby B. I miss her too."
I curl further into Ty's chest and the tears start.
"I felt like there was a hole in my chest my whole life. Then I met Santana. My sweet, strong, loving Santana. She was the girl I prayed for all of those nights when I was a child. The girl that would eventually fill the void. Now that she's gone, the hole is there again."
Ty's crying silently I can feel his tears on my cheek.
"I feel guilty because it should be my in that jail, this is my corner."
"it's not you're fault Ty. She doesn't blame you."
Ty winces when he tries to shift his weight.
"I promise to pay her back for paying my medical bills. She's truly amazing."
"More than amazing."
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"You mean. Mother, as in the bitch who dropped me and my brother off on a doorstep?" Santana is fuming, but acting calm inside.
She smoothly takes the bundle from her bra and secures it in her sock. She tightens her ponytail and places her hands on the table in front of her.
"Y-you don't understand. You father was dangerous. A paid killer. I-I figured you both would be safer."
Safer? Santana thinks. She couldn't have been less safe.
"Do you know where you left us huh?" Her tone is getting more tense. "Only the home of Rick Vazquez."
She takes a deep breath, clasping her hands tightly together.
"Wanna hear a story? Mother? Until I was three he saved money on ashtrays and decided to use me." She pulls her sleeve up and shows Gloria the scars that litter her arms.
"By the time I was three he decided I was old enough for more extreme fun. Touching me. Making me touch him."
"My eighth birthday was one to remember. He tied me to the stairs and fucked me until I passed out. Happy birthday to me right?" She chuckles dryly.
Gloria is dumbstruck listening to this.
"But you had another gift for me and when you dropped him off. Did you hear me screaming and running down the fucking street! You just turned around and left us there. But there's more."
Gloria did hear her scream that fateful night.
"When I came home from school on my 12th birthday I saw Rick bending Santos over the couch in his underwear. And since, ya know, I'm family and actually love my blood. I snuck behind him and stabbed that fucker to death."
Santana is standing now. She's shaking with rage and about to black out and have no control of her actions. She's waited her whole life for this.
"The foster home we were placed in. The bitch made us pee in cups and get her drugs. When I turned 14 she put me on the fucking streets to turn tricks and I got addicted to heroin. I saw her beat my foster sister to the point where she had a miscarriage."
Santana grips the metal lunch tray.
"So is that what you consider safe!"
Santana grabs the lunch tray and smacks Gloria in the face. She then hops over the table and straddles the older woman on the floor and pounds on her face. At this point San is blacked out with rage.
"You fucking Cunt! You selfish bitch! You never came back! I prayed every night you would come!"
She starts banging Gloria's head on the ground until she's lifted off by the guards.
"I had blood on my hands by age 12 cuz of you! Rot in hell!"
She opens her arms towards the inmates.
"Look at what she made me."
The guards pull her away while Gloria lay knocked out in a puddle of her own blood, blood that somehow runs through Santana's veins.
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Santana lands herself in solitary confinement with nothing but her thoughts. They go straight to Brittany. She needs her touch and finally being in a room by herself she can find her release
Brittany's in the shower washing her pussy when she strokes it a certain way and Santana comes to mind.
Santana unzips her jumpsuit and glides her hand into her panties. She teases her clit and grabs her tit thinking of Brittany and her fingers.
The blonde props her leg up on the edge of the tub and follows the cascading water's lead. Her hand glides between her wet pussy and she thinks of San's tongue.
"Ughh fuck me Britt." Santnana envisions Brittany pushing her against the wall and pushing her fingers deep. Santana in turn plunger her own fingers into her pussy.
"Eat my pussy baby. Mm let me ride your mouth." Brtt rubs her clit furiously while thinking of holding the back of San's head and bucking her hips into her face.
She's getting closer. She's coming
She's coming
"Yes ugh Britt!"
"Fuckkk San!"
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2nd Year of prison
"Done being a bitch I see?"
"Still annoying I see?"
Rosa is on the floor doing pushups. She has medium length straight black hair. She keeps it in a ponytail. This girl is bad ass. She's like 5'8" and muscular as but tanner than her cell mate. San would think she was sexy if she was into the sexy butch thing Rosa had goin on. That chick is like something off the L word.
"You know you're not the only one that's killed for family." Rosa sits on the bed. "I'm in here for doin just that."
"Why'd you do it?"
"I killed my sister's boyfriend for almost beating her to death. This isn't the first time I've killed for family. Just the first time I got caught. Just 5 more years I'm already halfway there"
"Sometimes you have to do the worst things for the best people."
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Mi amor,
I ache for you in ways unimaginable. I'm glad Q's keeping you all safe. We're still going to Cali I have to keep up hope here. Tell Santi to be good and that I love him to death. You can tell him I beat the shit out of my mom too. He's graduating now and he's old enough to handle it. I wish I could watch him strut across that stage I never got the chance to. I'm so proud. Baby Rosa caught me rubbin one out last night. She told me to stop moaning your name and shove a pillow over my face. She's awesome you would like her.
Baby I dream about you every night. My puzzle is missing a crucial piece. You are my soul mate Brittany Pierce.
Te amo,
Tana
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It's midnight. Everyone is out of Santana's house a window breaks and 6 people file in
Brittany walks into the house first. Everything is thrown around. San's safe is missing. The lab equipment is gone. They left the plants though.
Quinn rushes in next and checks under the loose tile in the green room for San's secret stash. Gone.
Everything's gone.