The next couple of day was weird, because I didn't feel like telling anyone about my new realization. Mikasa knew something was off, she asked me about it was on numerous occasions, when I didn't answer she assumed it was all about Sasha.

Christmas came and went and school started without anything being revealed. The only thing that happened during that time was that Armin started to date the girl from the bar, Christa. After every date he would either stop by or call me to give me a detailed report. It's weird, I met Christa once more and she seemed like a shy and quiet girl. I thought that maybe her giving Armin a handjob that night was because she was drunk, but according to Armin she's wild.

They hadn't had sex, but he had already received his first blowjob. It made me feel a little jealous. I sat on the couch thinking of blowjobs, when my phone rang. It was only a text. It was from Armin.

-Hey Eren, can I stop by?

-Sure

Armin came over within the next 20 min. He sat beside me on the couch and threw something at me. It was a muffin. That was one of the reasons I thought Armin had been gay, he loved baking, for some reason.
Long live stereotypes, I thought bitterly.

"What's up? You got more details for me?" I asked and laughed

"Well, if you must know… I went down on Christa yesterday." He'd stopped blushing whenever sex or pussy was mentioned. Guess it's not so embarrassing when you're doing it.

"So how was it?" I asked out of curiosity. A girls vagina has always seemed a little strange. But I always told myself, that every guy thought that, because they didn't have one, themselves. I bet girls think dicks are weird too.

"It was weird" He laughed "I had no idea what to do; I almost got a cramp in my tongue!" He laughed a little and I was about to ask something about the smell when he said "But that's not what I want to talk about." He gave me a look that said no fooling around, I want answers.

"What do you want to talk about then?" I wasn't sure I liked where this was going

"I know that you've been down lately, understandable with what happened." He took a deep breath as to gather courage to say what he said next "But it's not Sasha. Is it? I can see it, the way you act in school, around her. It's something else. I'm your best friend, talk to me." Armin looked at me with concern, which made me feel awful for not telling him what I was thinking. So I decided to come clean.

"Okay, but swear that you won't laugh, make fun of me" He nodded and I added "Or hate me"

"Why would I hate you, Eren? Did you murder someone?" Armin looked really concerned now. So I told him how Levi had implied I was gay at the club and how he later kissed me to prove it, or how he made me kiss him, smaller detail I didn't bother telling. When I finished explaining what happened I said "I think I'm gay. No I know I'm gay. I'm Gay Armin"

Tears stung in my eyes, never had I told anything so humiliating and private. But Armin was a good friend he looked at me and said "Eren, it's fine. If you're gay it doesn't matter to me, but you're sure?"

"Yeah"

"You don't think it's because Sasha hurt you and you don't want to deal with it?"

"You said it yourself, it has nothing to do with Sasha. "

"Okay, I just want to make sure. You told Mikasa anything?"
I shook my head and he understood that I asked him not to either. I wanted to tell her when I'm ready.

Armin suddenly smiled and whispered "So is that Levi guy, you're boyfriend?"

It was typical Armin to accept everything so fast, so I sucker punched him, because that is what he would expect me to do "God no. I don't even know him"

We spent the rest of the night watching reruns on TV and talking like everything was okay. I even felt that everything was okay.

It was Friday and Mikasa and I were driving over to Jeans. She'd forced me, even though my talk with Armin had made me feel a little better, I was still down.

She had walked into my room at noon exclaiming "Enough Eren, you spent most of you days either doing nothing or have Armin over. You're going out tonight. Jean asked if you'd like to come over. He will be having friends over."

I dreaded the fact that I would be forced to socialize. When we came over we were apparently the only ones who had arrived. I placed myself in the couch and got myself a beer.

More people came, some even tried to talk to me, but they quickly got the clue, when I didn't do anything to keep a conversation.

After some time, I got up and walked over to Jean who was standing in the other side of the room. As I was walking, someone passed me by, close enough to touch me. I turned around and saw it was Levi, he blinked to me and made me instantly blush.

I decided against talking to Jean and went outside, so I could be alone. I still didn't know what to think of all this. Not about me not about Levi, what did he want?

"How's things going, brat?"

He was standing just outside the door. Looking amazing. He had that look of disinterest he practiced so often, the one that both looked angry and thoughtful. How could a single person show so many emotions on the same time as showing none?

"What do you want? Are you stalking me?" He still annoyed me, even though I had to admit, he was interesting.

He laughed a little at that. "No I'm not. I didn't even know you'd be here" He walked over, so there was a hand width of space between us. He gave me that smile, the smile that told me he was playing with me, the smile that told me he knew I liked it.

It was weird, I didn't know the guy at all, but I still managed to get exactly what he meant by his facial expression. Not that he had many different. He always seemed hostile, except for moments like these.

He leaned a little closer, so his mouth was just in front of mine. So close I could almost taste him, but not close enough. I wasn't going to kiss him; he shouldn't have the satisfaction of knowing his game worked.
But that wasn't his only trick; without looking away, without moving his head. He placed his hand on my hip and got a firm grip before he led his hand onto my back and pushed me closer to him.
My heart was racing and I prayed that he didn't hear it, and then he lowered his hand down to my ass and gave it a hard squeeze before getting up and walking away.

He was teasing me. I hurried inside, hoping no one saw me or stopped me. I locked the door to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. My face was red as a tomato.

I couldn't go outside again, not while everyone could see my boner.

I would just wait till it went away, but I began to think about Levi. How he smelled, how sexy he was, how he looked at me. It got worse, so I pulled down my pants and started stroking my penis. First slow and then faster. As I got lost in the delight of touching myself, I started to imagine Levi being the one handling my cock.
I came in the toilet, flushed put my dick back into my pants and hoped I hadn't been in there too long.

I went to the kitchen to get something to drink.

I almost walked out again when I saw Levi standing there, but decided to go in anyway. He shouldn't know how nervous he made me feel.

"Hey kid" He got my attention

"Did you get rid of your erection yet?"

I ignored him and instead said "Why are you here? You don't strike me like the type who have friends" I paused before I added "You don't seem like Jeans type of friends either"

Which was true, most of Jeans friends were people from school. I didn't even know what Levi did. Besides he never really said anything, except when he tried to play me, he was just there. Like a shadow.

"True, but Jean helped me out" I hadn't really expected an actual answer, nor any further explanation of it, but Levi continued "I was a senior and Jean was a Freshmen. He saw me get beat up by a bunch of guys. He tried to help me, got beat up pretty bad. He might seem lazy and disinterested in stuff, but he has values. He knew they beat me up because I'm gay, and he hated seeing that"

"I didn't know you were gay" I bursted out. I still hadn't made up my mind of what I thought he was.

"Why do you think I kissed you back" he sounded like he thought I was a dumbass, which I probably was.

"I don't know. To play me to get some weird satisfaction out of seeing me react. Why did you kiss me?" I didn't realize I'd just told him that he actually made react, before he laughed and I started blushing again.

"True, but I'm very much gay. Ever since my parents threw me out at 15" He didn't answer the other question, which slightly annoyed me.

"Your parents threw you out because you were gay?"

He nodded. That must be one of the reasons why he always seemed so serious.

"What did you do? Where did you live?" I was outraged because parents had treated their kid like that.

"Little bit everywhere, lived some time on the streets. I didn't do very well, until I met Hanji, the girl from the coffee shop." He explained, as though it wasn't obvious "I was selling drugs on the street to get money, sometimes I'd take the drugs myself and sometimes I'd even prostitute, but then I met Hanji. She said I could live at her place. Her parents welcomed me, took care of me. I finished high school"

"Oh that's how you could have been a senior, when Jean was a Freshman" I had thought it odd that he was so old and still manage to be a senior same year Jean was a freshman.

"mhm" He looked lost in memories.

I didn't know what to say, he actually told me something about himself. I can see why he's always so serious, he had had a hard life.

If I, somehow, had found something to say, it wouldn't have mattered. He walked out of the room, he stopped shortly over to the door and said "To answer your question: I kissed you because, you're both cute and hot and like you said I like to see you react"

He left me standing in the kitchen wondering if he had meant that.