After some time on the dance floor, I saw that Levi was standing at the bar watching us goof around. He didn't approach me and I wasn't sure if he wanted me to say hi or anything, but then he caught my eyes and I couldn't pretend I hadn't seen him.
Not that I wanted to either.

"It's Levi, I'm going over to say hi" I yelled into Mikasas ear. She looked over her shoulder to see whereto I had gestured. She nodded, took Armins hands and disappeared deeper in the crowd on the dance floor.

I made my way over to Levi; he stood with a beer in his hand and looked thoughtful again. Damn sexy.

He greeted me with "What the hell was that?"

"You were watching me?" I said hoping to catch him off guard, but he's not that easy to fool.

"I couldn't not look at that. What do you even call those moves, brat?" He looked disgusted, but in a way, that made me think he didn't mean it. His eyes weren't as harsh as they usually were.

"It's called fun, you should try it sometimes" I countered.
We looked at each other for an intense 5 seconds, before he downed his beer and took my hand and dragged me onto the dance floor.

It was so unexpected I just laughed. I didn't even care that people could see us. The influence Levis body had on mine was instant. I longed for him to touch me. Even though he didn't do anything sexual. It was just the way his and mine body moved in sync to the beat of the music.

"I need to take a break" he couldn't hear me, so I just grabbed his shirt and pulled him with me outside. I needed to get air.

When we got away from the music, I heard him laugh. It was the first time I had heard him genuinely laugh because something was enjoyable. It was so different from his usual mocking and arrogant laugh. I laughed with him.
We laughed until we couldn't breathe.

"I didn't know you were such a great dancer"

"There's a lot you don't know about me, kid. But if you were impressed by that, I have bad news for you" His teasing was back, but he still had a little of the genuineness left in his eyes, which made them come alive like I've never seen them before. I've never noticed how bright of a green color they had.

Just like the first time we met, I had trouble looking away from him. I stared into his eyes, got lost trying to figure out the story behind all the emotions I saw in them. He was the one who broke off the eye contact.

"We should get inside again" he said looking away from me.

I followed him, as he walked away.

Mikasa and Armin sat at a table near the bar; they waved as we walked in. Mikasa had seen and talked with Levi before, seeing as she was always with Jean, but Armin had only seen him briefly last time we went out and I could see him taking a good look at Levi.

If he hadn't been with Christa I might have been jealous and suspicious over him staring so much, but he would probably like to know as much as possible about the person who made me realize I was gay. Typical Armin, he used his head way too much.

I walked over to them and was pleased to see Levi come along.

We talked about many things, I was delighted to hear Levi joining the conversation a few times, even though it mostly was to make sarcastic remarks, which neither Armin nor Mikasa seemed to mind.

At one point Hanji came over, she were on a break. It was fun and as the clock was nearing 4 in the morning, I could feel myself sober up. Didn't seem I would be having an unbearable hangover this time.

"I'll better go home, Christa is coming over later" Armin smiled

"Yeah, me too. We'll wait outside for you, Eren" Mikasa said. They gave me the opportunity to say goodbye to Levi. I wasn't sure if I wanted to leave, but much less sure if he would want me here.

"You can go home if you want. I'm not your mom, kid." I couldn't interpret his tone of voice. It seemed he had seen that I was thinking about something and interpreted it as me asking him if it was okay I left.

I leaned against him and whispered in his ear "Do you want me to leave?" I stayed so close to him, that he could probably feel my breath on his chin. I let him know that I didn't want to leave. Let him know that I wanted him to take me home.

He turned to me and I didn't move. Our lips were so close I was sure I had him. I was sure that he would kiss me, but instead he said

"I can't do that, kid"

He walked away and left me feeling just as rejected as the day I had seen Sasha and Reiner.

I said goodbye to Armin and didn't talk to Mikasa the whole way home.

That weekend was spent with Mikasa, who had cancelled on Jean to keep me company. I couldn't get over the fact that Levi apparently was tired of me, even though we weren't together as a couple: it still hurt a little.

Today was a Friday morning I got up and went to school. It was a shitty day. What was worse was that Sasha and Reiner had decided to go public this week. Deciding to tell everybody they were back together.

God I hate people.

3 months had passed and I had only seen Levi once, which was 3 weeks after he had rejected my offer. He was with Hanji at the club. We didn't talk, but Hanji kept sending looks my way, for thereafter to look worried at Levi. It was distracting and annoying.
I hadn't loved him, I told myself, so I wasn't devastated, but I got angry at him all over again.

Mikasa should be proud of me. In the past if anyone did anything to make me feel angry I would have thrown a punch at them, even though I knew I would lose. I didn't do that though.

Today was party night; Jean had pulled me to the side a couple of days ago, when I was at his place.

"You know Eren, I want to warn you. Levi is going to be there on Friday."

Jean had suspected something was wrong, because every time, in the past 3 months, he invited me over I would ask if Levi would be there. He had guessed something had happened and had asked Mikasa if something had been going on between us. She told him to ask me myself, which he did.
In the start I had denied, but he's so good at convincing people. So I told him and he had accepted that I didn't want to be there when Levi was.

He looked worried. I was glad that he told me, that gave me time to practice a I-don't-give-a-fuck- face which I could deliver Levi once in a while. But because it was an uncomfortable subject I instead acted like an asshole.

"So what? He's free to do what he wants. I really couldn't care less. I told you Jean, we weren't even a thing. It was just fun, until he stopped thinking that" I turned around.

I really dreaded tonight and I was right for doing so.