Through all the good and bad times Chapter 4, an one tree hill fanfic

AN: So before you read this chapter I wanted to say 2 things. First of all thank you for your reviews and thanks for the people who put this on story alert or to their favorites. I am really honored. Second of all I am not a doctor so please understand that I can not guarantee for the correctness of the medical parts in this story. I just hope it makes sense. So I hope you enjoy this chapter because again I am not so sure about it.

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING! THE CHARACTERS IN THIS STORY BELONG TO ITS RESPECTIVE OWNERS MARK SWAHN AND THE CW!

The song belongs to Ollie Sloan and it´s called Friends are Family.

Chapter 4

There are words I've gotta say,
There are things I've gotta make way for in my life
There are things I've gotta change,

I look outside and the grass is green
My life is a mess but the air is clean
Will somebody please, explain this to me

The next morning Brooke and Peyton woke up by the sound of the door opening. A nurse came in "Good morning Ms. Sawyer. You and your friend might wanna wake up because the doctor is on his way to speak to you." The woman said. Brooke stood up "Okay . Do you want me to stay while the doctor speaks to you? I mean I'd really like to hear what's in front of us. Is that okay with you?" "Of course it is Brooke. I would be glad if you stay here with me. "

When you came along, my life turned upside down
I was all alone till you pulled me up from the ground
I lift my head, and you are smiling down at me
I guess that's what friends are for,
Coz friends are like, Family

They heard a knock on the door ant the doctor came in."Hello Mrs. Sawyer. I wanted to talk to you. Is your friend staying?" The doctor asked not knowing if she told Brooke the truth. "She knows. This is my best friend Brooke Davis. She is staying with me for this." Peyton replied. "Ok. Ms. Sawyer. I wanted to talk to you about treatment. Before we can operate we have to do chemo and maybe even radiation. The metastases have to shrink before we can remove them and the cancer at your ovary. So it will be a very aggressive chemo and you will be very powerless at times. I heard that you are living alone with Ms. Davis." He turned to Brooke "Ms. Davis do you think you can handle her on your own? Ms. Sawyer will have to come to treatment at least twice a week. She will feel nauseas a lot and sometimes she might not be able to move herself because of the pain. She will need someone to care for her almost 24 hours a day at least for 1or 2 months while her body is trying to adjust the new situation. We could let her stay in the hospital but I have a feeling that she would feel better at her own home." "Brooke looked down to Peyton. She knew the doctor was right. Peyton hated hospitals. But she was also scared for her friend. It did seem like Peyton was very calm about this, but Brooke feared that that was just a façade. "I can handle her. Jake, a friend of us is going to stay with us at least for 1 or 2 months. He can help. And I am sure after we tell our other friends they are gonna help out a lot." The doctor nodded. I don't want to waste any more time and would like to start with chemo today. Is that ok?" Peyton thought about the wedding which is supposed to be happening in about 4 hours. "I´m sorry doctor. My friends are getting married today and I am supposed to be a bride's maid. I don´t think I would be able to be there if I would start before the wedding. Is it ok to start tomorrow?" "Ok Ms. Sawyer but you have to come back tomorrow before 9 am so we can prepare you. I am going to tell the nurse to bring you the papers so you can leave for the wedding. I will see you tomorrow." With that he turned round and walked out the door.

And if you learn to trust your soul
The pain will end and you'll be whole
You'll find your way, you wont yearn for yesterday

Coz I'll be there to wipe your tears
Give you courage, and strike your fears
Take my hand and you will see
We're right where we need to be

"P. don't you think it would have been better to start today? Naley would have understood that this was more important." Brooke spoke up "No." Peyton said "I really wanted to go to their wedding. If I don't make it in the end at least I was there on one of their greatest days and they remember me by that. I want to go Brooke. I will tell them after the wedding ok? I will tell them tomorrow before I come here. But now I want to be normal just for today. Can you understand that?" Brooke hugged her "Of course I can buddy. But please take it easy. I am not leaving your side today. And can you please tell Lucas today? I would really like him to know so he can help us. I know Jake is there and everything but it's Lucas you know. I have a feeling that he may be able to save you, I mean us." Peyton nodded her head. She knew that she had to tell Lucas soon. He was her saviour and she wanted him to help her. She wanted him to hold her and tell her everything would be okay because he was the one person she might be able to believe. "I'm telling him today. I want you to drop me off at his place if that's ok with you. I don't want to ruin his day but I want to tell him before the wedding so he knows why we are like we are right now. Thanks again Brooke, for being my friend, for supporting me and for being there for me" she said and then she was crying again. She did that a lot of that these days. But what do you expect when you find out you have cancer right?

As the nurse came back with the papers Brooke packed Peytons things. Then they both left and drove over to the Roe household.

As she reached Lucas very own door she got even more nervous. She really had no idea how he would handle this so shortly after loosing Keith and telling everybody about his own disease, his HCM. She hoped he could be strong for her so that he could pull her and Brooke through this with his strength. Finally she knocked the door in front of her.

"Come on in" she heard a voice say. She opened the door and stepped into his room. "Hey Lucas. Can I talk to you?" She asked. "Of course Peyt. I am glad you are back from the hospital. What can I do for you." By now Peyton really hated it to repeat her situation over and over, because every time she was breaking down again. Every single time she was scared to die. She was scared that the person she was telling would leave her, because let's face it People always leave. But she could not handle people leaving her in her situation. That's why she was so hesitant to tell everybody. She took a deep breath trying to gain enough strength and then started "Luke you know that this summer was really important to me right? I am so glad that we became so close over summer and I would never trade that for anything. You know that right?" She wasn't brave enough to look him in his eyes. "Yeah Pey me too. So what is it that you wanted to tell me?" Luke asked "I am sick Lucas." "You want me to drive you back to the hospital? Do you have the flu?" "No Luke. I am sick. I have cancer. Ovarian cancer stage II to be exact." Then she fell down to her knees and began crying hard again. Lucas, who couldn't really realize what has been going on instinctive kneeled down and pulled her close into his arms while softly caressing her cheek. She continued while crying "It's just I don't know Luke. You remember that day in the library when you asked me about a good day?" "Yeah I remember" he said softly. "I told you about that snow day with Brooke. You know what's so sad about that? That is one of very few good days I remember. These bad things always happen to me and I don't know why. I want to be happy Luke just for once be really happy and now? Now I don't even know if I am able to ever get married and have kids. Hell I don't even know if I will still be there to graduate with you guys or graduate at all. I just I don't think I'm going to make it through this Luke." That was the first time she admitted that she really didn't think she could make it. "All I can think about is how all this bad things happened to me and I am still here. So why should I be able to come through this again? I am thinking about all this lost chances for being happy. I just I can't do this anymore Luke! I can't" And then she wasn't able to form any more words because all the worries all her fear of dying came out for the first time since she found out and she was glad she was with Lucas right now, because she was sure he could heal her just by holding her and make her forget about everything even if it was just for a few moments. Now even Lucas realized what just happened. He wasn't able to form words yet. But in his thoughts there was just one thing he kept thinking How can life be so cruel. Please God don't take her from me. Don't take her from me. We, I need her more than you. I Promise I am gonna make things right with her. Just please let her live He helped her up und lifted her in his arms. Then he placed her on his bed and lied down next to her. She rested her head on his chest and he pulled her close and held her while she cried freely. After he was able to control his thoughts again he whispered with a hoarse voice "I am not going to loose you Goldilocks. I am not ready for that. I still have so much to tell you and there are so many things we still have to experience together. I know that you can do this and I am going to do everything in my power to help you. You have to believe me you are going to live and I am gonna be there every step of the way. But for now I am just going to hold you as long as you need me to okay!?" And so she did. He was the only one she could believe everything because she trusted him more than anyone in this world. Lucas looked down to the broken girl in his arms. After he recognized that she cried herself to sleep in his arms he was able to finally let the tears fall that were desperately waiting to come out since she told him. Little did he know that his brother, who wanted to go over the details of his wedding with his best man one last time, heard everything Peyton just said.

I'm on the dark side of the moon,
Taking your time please get here soon
I miss your love and everything you do
For me

Nathan couldn't really handle the thought of loosing Peyton alone. Well he couldn't handle it at all but the thing is there was a person in his life that made everything bearable. He didn't want to disturb the moment the two blondes were having. He needed to hold his wife now and let her heal him after what he just found out. He got into his car and drove to their apartment. He rushed through the door and called for her "Hales?" "I am in the bedroom Nathan but you shouldn't see me before the wedding" he heard her voice say. He didn't really care right now so he opened the bedroom door and rushed in Haley's arms just letting the tears fall. Haley didn't know what was going on but she thought it was best to just let him cry for a moment and then he would tell her. So after a few minutes he managed to calm down a little and spoke up. "She has cancer Hales. Peyton might be dying. I just overheard her telling Lucas and she sounded so broken. Like she really didn't think she would make it. She has to make it Hales!" Haley couldn't really process what Nathan just told her. She held on to him tightly and whispered in his ear "It's ok Nathan. I'm here. I can't believe it. I really don't understand how this can be happening, especially for her. But there's one thing I know Nate. She has been through so much in her life, sometimes alone. But she is so strong, stronger than anyone I know and she has us, all of us. She is going to make it. If she can't make it than who can?" No one said anything after that they just held the other and cried together for awhile. After awhile they both released the other and they thought about today. Their second wedding didn't seem so important anymore. They decided to drive over to Lucas to talk about the situation and then decide what to do.

When they arrived they opened Lucas door without hesitation and saw two crying blondes holding onto each other lying in Lucas bed. They both looked up. When Peyton saw the look in their eyes she knew that they knew. She didn't know how but she really didn't care right now. She was just glad that the most important people in her life were there for her. Then Brooke and Jake entered the room. They wanted to make sure Peyton was ok. She was blessed with the best family anyone can wish for, her friends and that's all she needed to get through this. Nathan, Haley, Brooke and Jake came over to her und Lucas and then they all pulled into a group hug trying to show her support for the blonde and trying to comfort her because right now the only thing that mattered was Peyton. And she was so thankful for that. Now she could start her fight for life because she knew for sure she had something to life for.

You know the drill:-)