AN: Hey guys! First of all THX for your reviews i really enjoy them. Second of all:Sorry for the lack of updates but I had a bit of a struggle to write this chapter. I really didn´t know how to continue for days but today it hit me and I hope this is ok. I am not exactly sure about this because well It didn´t really write itself like the first 4 chapters. I would really like to hear what you think about it.

CHAPTER 5

The second Naley wedding was the perfect event for Peyton to get her mind of her sickness for a short time. She insisted that it was important to her that the wedding happened so Nathan and Haley were glad that they could at least give her that. But they cancelled their honeymoon because they didn´t think they could enjoy it knowing what their blonde friend was going through.

The ceremony as well as the reception went with no interruptions and almost everything was perfect for the happy couple.

It was now the day of Peytons first treatment and she as well as Brooke were very nervous about it. Lucas stood in front of the Sawyer household waiting for them to come out. He promised to drive them to she hospital and stay with Brooke while Peyton is getting her first chemo. Jake had to take care of Jenny but he was going to be there when they came back. Nathan and Haley promised to come over tonightand they thought that they would all sleep over this evening and make a big movie night with all of Peyts favourite movies. They wanted to give Peyton their support. It was really hard to think about Peyton going through this. Lukas had no idea how she could handle this treatment. He never knew anyone going through that kind of sickness but he heard things. He just hoped that it wouldn´t be to hard for her. She has to get through this he thought I just need her.

Brooke was waiting for Peyton downstairs. "! Luke is waiting we have to hurry" she called for her friend. Peyton was sitting on her bed. She didn´t feel ready for this but she knew she had to get up. She was just dreading what was about to come. She heard Brooke calling for her so she stood up and went downstairs. She saw Brooke waiting for her and she couldn`t help but be a little bit scared. "Brooke? Can you please tell me that this isn´t going to be as bad as I think?" The brunette tried to crack a smile and pulled Peyton into a hug. "I wish I could hunny but I don´t know. But I am going to be there and Lucas too and we will do everything we can to make it better. I promise. And tonight we will all be here together and try to make you forget a little bit okay?" "Peyton nodded "Thanks B." Then the both of them got out the door and into Lucas car. And so they drove in silence.

After they arrived at the hospital Peyton went straight to the information. The nurse brought her into the room were she was going to get her first chemo while Brooke and Lucas stayed behind in the waiting room. They both sat down and Lucas took her hand in his. They were too lost in their own thoughts to carry a conversation so they sat in silence and waited.

Meanwhile the doctor told Peyton everything about the side effects she was most likely to obtain. She didn´t even process all he told her about vomiting, headache and tiredness, because she was to afraid to really listen. Then he told her to sit down in a chair and then he attached a drip to her arm. She felt a burning at the point where the drip was and she felt dizzy soon after. She felt tired and when she closed her eyes an a tear fell from her eyes. Everything was so surreal and Peyton couldn´t help herself so she let the tears fall.

In the waiting room Brooke and Lucas were still waiting, worrying about how their friend would take it. Lucas was thinking about talking to Brooke since the rehearsal but he didn´t think that this was the right time. I can´t tell her now he thought She has enough to worry about. It´s her best friend in there. But I don´t know how long I can pretend. But I have to, I can´t do this to her now. Peyton wouldn´t be happy about it too. She is always afraid to loose Brooke and she needs her now. She needs all of us.

Brooke also has her own worries Should I talk to him about the reception? Or should I just wait till all of this is over? I don´t think I can hold this in any longer. Maybe I should just say it now. I mean we can not sit in silence the whole time till P. comes back. Okay this is going to be hard but it would be better for all of us to do it now. She looked up now searching for his eyes and when she finally found them she began

"Lucas?" "Yeah?" "I think we need to talk." He doesn´t even know what she´s talking about but he has a feeling that it will be about the one thing he wanted to talk to her about. "You know Luke I saw you with her at the reception." "What do you mean Brooke?"

FLASHBACK:

At Naleys reception the newly wed couple just had their first dance as husband and wife again and now the guests were joining them on the dance floor. Jake was dancing with Peyton while Brooke and Lucas danced right beside them. After two slow songs Mouth who was the DJ for the evening decided to take a look into the records Peyton brought and have something faster playing. "Well Ladys and Gentlemen" he announced "How a bout a short break from this love fest. Have fun with NOFX. I think my friend Peyton will like this very much. It´s called That's me inside your head!" Peytons head shot up and her eyes searched for the other broody blonde. When she found Lucas eyes she knew he recognized it to. This was kinda their song. Well at least the title was the first words Lucas really spoke to her. No one else knew but it kinda felt good to hear this song. She hadn´t listened to it for some time now. Lucas came over to her while Jake excused himself to get a new drink and Brooke went to the bathroom "You know that´s our song right?" He asked as he approached her. "Well I didn´t know we actually had a song" she joked "But I believe if any song belongs to us it´s this one" she smiled. Well and then they both began to rock. It was a very short song and Peyton looked in Mouth´s direction and mouthed a thank you. Then another song started. It was "My invitation" by Sara Slean and suddenly Peyton felt uncomfortable cause she didn´t know if she should be doing this slow dancing thing with him. He made the decision for her when he pulled her closer and put his arm around her waiste while his other arm hold her hand. And then they started dancing without saying anything but enjoying every moment of it.

You are what they call the human season
You are all the alphabet in one
You are every colour of confusion
You are all the silence I've become

He couldn´t look her in the eyes right now, because he was afraid he would loose control when he did. She rested her head over his chest and the both closed her eyes. Peyton felt so at peace in that moment she couldn´t even describe it. "You are so beautiful tonight Peyt" Lucas whispered in her ear. "she blushed a bit an then replied "Thank You." "You still can´t take a compliment without blushing, can you?" he joked trying to lighten the mood. It was awkward for them to be near each other like that but at the same time it felt so right. Like it always should have been like that, like it was supposed to be them so close forever.

Love me for
Stupid reasons
I like those most

Wide-eyed but
Worth believing
God knows

Then his tone turned serious again "How come this feels so right?" he asked. Peyton knew what he meant but she wasn´t really ready to go there. "We´re friends Luke. What should be wrong about it?" She answered. He knew that she was aware what he meant but instead of pushing the habit he just decided to enjoy this and not say anything.

Damn the angry voice that keeps us quiet
The editor whose work is never done
Keeping pretty words between my teeth and
Sweet confessions underneath my tongue

Then there was silence. But silence between them was never uncomfortable before. Peyton couldn´t hold it back so she put her head up and looked him in the eye. "Because it is Luke. That´s why it feels like that." she simply said and then rested her head back where it was before. He was kind of speechless after that, because he really didn´t expect her to reply at all. But he was happy she did, because that meant maybe it was still hope for them after all of this is over. He kinda figured where is heart really lied in that moment.

Drowsy contemplation
Do I let you in
This is my invitation
But how do I begin?

Meanwhile Brooke came back from the bathroom. She was looking for Lucas when she finally spotted the two blondes closely dancing on the dancefloor. They looked like a couple together. Happy and content but tortured at the same time. They looked at peace together dancing so close, but the moment they pulled apart when Peyton started to say something they were like two people so close but so far apart. It just hit her then, that these two were destined to be together and the both of them seemed to not even know it, because she was standing in the way. Brooke decided then and there that she would not do that anymore. She wanted both of them to get a chance to be happy, even if it was her own heart that was breaking for that. She would be okay, she figured, she would be okay as long as Peyton was happy and Lucas too.

She has such an awful lot of soldiers
Quite a lovely army all her own
Night and day they stand before the fortress
Very safe but very all alone

The song then ended and Peyton pulled apart again "Thank you Lucas." She just said "I´m going to get me a drink and start looking for Jake again." And then she turned around and walk a way. There were so many things he wanted to say but he couldn´t. Not now. But someday. That´s what he promised himself. Someday he is going to say all the right thing to her.

PRESENT DAY:

"I saw you two dancing Luke." Brooke said. He looked a little confused but she continued "I saw the two of you together and it kinda hit me hard when I realised that the two of you are so in love with each other. I don´t know if the both of you even realize it yourself but what I saw that day, was that you two were meant to be together. And I´m okay with that Luke. I just like to see you happy, the both of you, because you deserve it. Peyton sure as hell deserves it actually. And I am gonna be okay. I love you Lucas. And I know you love me too. You´re just not in love with me. And that´s okay because the person you´re in love with is the one person I would do everything for. But please promise me to get things right with her ok? I know it may not be tomorrow or the day after but promise me you will make things work and make her happy in time." Lucas was speechless. He was so thankful in that moment and he couldn`t believe how selfless and graceful Brooke was in that moment. "I promise Brooke. And I want you to know that I really do love you. But thank you for doing this for me and for Peyton because within this one dance I realised it too. Are you sure you gonna be okay. I really didn´t want to hurt you and I would be very sad if you would pull away from us now especially Peyton" He was cut off by her "No Luke, don´t worry I am not gonna pull away. My needs me now. And she is my best friend. I need her too. Everything is gonna be alright at least I hope so." She said while looking in the direction of where Peyton should be coming back from her treatment soon. "I hope so too Brooke." Is all he had to say after that. And then their was silence again and waiting for Peyton Sawyer to be back with them, cause that is where she belonged.