AN: Hey guys I am so so sorry for the long wait. I just had so much to do with work and university and moving. And after that I had a big writers block. I am not sure I am hapy with this chapter but I thought I would let you be the judge of that :) Thanks again for all the reviews and story alerts. I really appreciate them.

Chapter 6

After her first chemo Peyton was shocked what kind of impact this had after only her first round. She had a feeling it would get worse with every round. Right now she felt dizzy and nauseaus all the time she couldn´t even stand up by herself. The nurse saw that and helped her sit down again, then she went to get a wheelchair for her. When she came back she helped her into it and then walked her to her friends. Brooke and Lucas where kinda shocked to see what effects this treatment had on Peyton. They knew she wouldn´t feel good after it but they had no idea how fast the side effects were. They just hoped that the main effect worked just as fast so Peyton would be able to recover. They both tried to be so obvious about their shock.

Then they took Peyton home.

At the Sawyer household Jake was awaiting them. It was late afternoon and he just came back from the grocery store with Jenny. He thought it would be nice to have a home cooked meal instead of just take out so he bought everything he needed to make his specialty for all of them – Lasagna.

When he heard the door open he took Jenny onto his arm and rushed toward the corridor to see if he can help somehow. When he saw Peyton he was really surprised to see her in a wheelchair. She looked like she had no strength left and could sleep right there. Hopefully she will be able to enjoy our movie night anyway he thought I just hope it gets her to forget about all just for one evening. Seeing her this way made him doubt it.

Peyton felt it coming. She took Brookes hand "Brooke, I think I have to puke could you please get me to the bathroom?" She felt very uncomfortable and helpless right now. She hated it to not do things by herself and it was very embarrassing for her to admit it in front of the boys that she felt so sick. She wanted to be strong and independent but she had a feeling that she wouldn´t be able to just do that. While Brooke pushed the wheelchair to the bathroom Peyton couldn´t help but think that something was off with her and Lucas. They hadn´t talked nor touched each other the whole day and Peyton couldn´t help but wonder what that was about. In a way she tried to distract herself from feeling sick with this kind of thought.

Hours later Peyton finally felt she had nothing left in her to get sick again. "Brooke, can you take me to the living room? I think I puked enough for today." It was very upsetting to see Peyton so lost and broken and hurt all the same. She doesn´t deserve this. I never thought it would be like this with her spending hours in the bathroom just after her first day. It´s not fair Brooke thought. "Of course." She simply responded and Peyton couldn´t help but feel ashamed for being so helpless. Of course after years of friendship and being more like sisters than best friends Brooke didn´t miss that.

"P. Sawyer you have nothing to be ashamed of. I love you and I am so so proud of you. You know your strength is inspiring right!? I don´t know if I would be able to fight like you do. I love you and Lucas, Jake and Haley and Nathan and all the others do too. We are proud of you and we gonna be there for you every step of the way. So don´t you dare to feel ashamed."

And then Brooke looked at Peyton and saw her first genuine smile in a long time. "I love you too Brooke. Thank you for always saying the right things just when I need to hear them."

"No Problem goldilocks. Now lets get downstairs I think I can smell Jakes Lasagna and the others gonna arrive soon." And so they enjoyed the evening together trying to make Peyton forget all the pain.

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The next morning Peyton felt a lot better and she craved to be on her own just for a couple of minutes. She was up before everybody else so she decided to leave a note and go over to the café. She could be alone for a couple of minutes and clear her head on the way. It just dawned her this morning that she hadn´t told Karen and she knew Lucas hadn´t because he wanted to give her the time to tell her on her own. Today she would do it. It was time to tell her why her son seemed so distracted for the last week.

When she arrived at the café it didn´t even take one minute for Karen to see her and approach her. "Peyton Honey it is so good to see you. Didn´t you have a big movie night sleep over? Where are the others?" The older Woman greeted the blonde. "Hi Karen, It´s good to see you too. Yeah the others are still sleeping and I just wanted a little alone time. I also wanted to talk to you. How are you doing with everything?"

"Well I am good considering. But I am also very happy. I am pregnant I just told Lucas after the reception but I didn`t tell anybody else yet. You know I still miss him every single second of every single day" Karen spoke now with teary eyes "but at least now I have a part of him with me to remind me everyday of the love we shared. I think you understand my loss better than anybody. Are you okay honey?" She had notices the pale face and Peyton did seem kind of broken like she had the weight of the world on her shoulder. She really loved Brooke but she had always hoped that Peyton would become her daughter in law. There was a special bond between her son and the young girl in front of her and Karen always felt like Peyton and her had one too. She was almost like a daughter to her even though they didn´t know each other very long. And now that she took a closer look she was really worried. "You kind of look pale Honey. Has this something to do with the reason you wanted to talk to me?"

Peyton knew now there was no going back.

"Karen I have to tell you something. There is a reason why everybody came over yesterday."

Normally that statement wouldn`t worry Karen but Peytons voice sounded like she was about to break down. And she was. Everytime she told someone she broke down again. It was just so hard. When she told her father she thought her world came crashing down and now telling Karen was that all over again. She was like a third mother and Peyton was sure Karen kinda felt the same for her.

"Karen yesterday I was in the hospital for a treatment of chemo because I have a very bad cancer." She saw the horrified look on Karens face but she continued without missing a beat.

"I have known since short before the second Naley wedding and the others know too. I just thought it was time now to tell you because you are the only mother figure I have right now and I really didn´t want to worry you so soon after everything but I just I need everyone to know and to support me so I am not allowed to give up. You know? Because I really don´t want to stop fighting but I also don´t know how much more I can take after yesterday." She was crying, again and she was aware that it would come to that because she herself could not understand why this was happening to her.

Karen just pulled her close and let her cry on her shoulder her mind racing.

Oh my god. Why her? Why out of all those people in the world did it have to be Peyton. What has she done to deserve all these horrible things happen to her? Two dead mothers, an absentee father people leaving her alone and being shot. And now cancer?

She really felt bad for Peyton and everybody around her because she knew they would be broken too. It was not fair and it was horrible for her to even think about Peyton not being there because she was like the glue that put her group of friends together and she was Lucas first (and probably only real) love and she was like her daughter that she loved very much.

She instantly knew that Peyton would not be alone in that big house anymore. She also knew that neither Brooke nor Jake even together couldn´t handle this situation alone. Hell they were all teenagers still and Jake had Jenny to think about. So she decided in an instant that she and Lucas would move in with her too. The Sawyer house was way bigger than Karens and she knew Brooke wouldn´t leave Peyton alone now. So when Peyt stopped crying Karen spoke up.

"Honey I am so so sorry. I cannot believe that this is happening. But you are right. You´re gonna need everyone helping you so Lucas and I are gonna move in with you. And before you even think of saying no I am gonna have to tell you that there is no way I am gonna let Jake and Brooke take care of you alone. Yesterday was just the beginning honey. It is about to get worse with every treatment and I know that sounds harsh but you have to understand that I can not stay in my house and or sleep at night without knowing that there is at least one adult there to take care of you. And I believe I am right when I think that your dad can not make until at least another month right?"

Peyton knew she didn´t even have a chance. " Yeah Karen he can´t come for at least 3 month and by then I should have the results of treatment back. So he probably won´t need to come if I make it." Karen saw that it was making Peyton very sad that her own father couldn´t come to help her but she also knew that Peyton was the most understanding daughter in the world when it comes to her father. "It´s gonna be okay Honey. I am here. I am going to get you through this. I love you honey" " I love you too Karen" And so she hold on to the woman that she looked at like family for dear life and together they held each other to make the other better

After another hour Karen decided to take action. She saw that the blonde was exhausted so she let her waitress take over and brought her back home. Ove at the house the others were worried sick about Peyton but they knew she was at the Café and probably talking to Karen so they wanted to give her some space. When they heard the front door Lucas and Brooke jped on their feed and hurried to the door. "Peyton is everything ok?" they both aksed in unison. "Hey Brooke, Hello son."Karen answered instead. I think t was a little bit much for her today and she needs some rest."Lucas instantly took the girl from her and Brooke got her wheelchair so it would be easier to get her around the house. Luke was relieved that his mom finally knew. "Lucas you have to come home with me. We are going to pack our bags and move in. I can´tlet you all take care of her alone she needs me as much as she needs you and when something happens there are enough people around to help. Brooke?" she called out "Yeah" "Can you prepare Larrys room for me and a room for Lucas?" "Of course Lucas can stay in the guestroom. Jake is staying in the other one and I stay with her. Is that ok?"

"It´s perfect honey thank you"

Hours later everyone was settled and the move was finished. And so they would all be together for as long as Peyton needed them.

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