Second Chances
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A/N: Got computer fix. I apologize for the horrible mistakes that were in the story. There are still a few, but not as many as before. If anyone is not satisfied with the way I fixed them, jump in a lake!
Embry
It was still early when we got home after stopping at Jacob's house to get Embry's clothes. I opened the front door and he followed me into the kitchen.
"It's still early, but you look so tired and exhausted, that I would suggest that you take a shower and go to sleep ASAP!" I said, placing my coat in the closet. Embry sat on the counter and nodded lethargically, placing a small duffel bag next to him.
"I'll get you a fresh towel and prepare your room." I added quickly as I rummaged through the cabinets and pantry, in search of materials to make us a quick snack.
I heard Embry hop from the counter and walked to where I stood. He wrapped his arms around my waist and rested his chin on my shoulder.
"Are you sleeping with me?" he asked, kissing my neck and holding my hands. I shook my head and tried to remove my hands from his grasp so I could get started in preparing a few ham sandwiches.
"Embry, I have to do homework and you need to go to sleep. You look tired and sickly. You'll be sleeping in the guest room. End of discussion!" I said, opening the forks and spoons drawer. I pulled out a butter knife and managed to start preparing the sandwiches as Embry still held onto my waist.
"Why do I have to sleep in another room? I like to sleep with you, Madie-baby!" he whined, stealing a slice of ham from the sandwich I had just finished preparing. "I want to sleep with you, beautiful." he said.
I shook my head with determination. "Nope! I have school work to do and you'll probably keep me from doing my job." I said rudely, pulling away from him, but he caught me quickly. He pulled me even closer to him and kissed my nose.
"Let me finish preparing the sandwiches so you can have something to eat." I said curtly, poking hard on his sides. He reluctantly let go of me and waked to the counter.
Embry leaned back against the counter and watched as I finished preparing the sandwiches. I placed them in a large tray and walked to where he stood. "Don't get grumpy with me, Em. I've told you that I have a lot of school work that needs to be finished before Thursday." I snapped, grabbing his hand and leading him to the table.
I placed the tray of sandwiches on the table and pointed at the chair. "Seat! Eat! Enjoy!" I ordered, walking back to the kitchen to get him something to drink.
I opened the fridge and got an orange juice carton and grabbed two plastic cups, and went back to the table. Embry sat with his arms crossed over his chest as he stared at the tray filled with sandwiches.
"Why are you angry? Is it because I don't want to sleep in the same bed as you?" I asked, setting the juice carton on the table.
"No." he said crossly. "I just want to spend time with you. I enjoy spending as much time with you."
"Oh." I managed to say, taking the cups and placing one in front of him. "Look, I'll stop by your room before I go to bed. I'll kiss you good night and I'll even tuck you in." I said teasingly, taking the chair that was in front of him.
He gazed at me and then took a sandwich in his hands. He gave it a small bite and continued to stare at me. He didn't look angry or mad. He was nonchalant, but I knew that he was annoyed that I wasn't going to spend time with him in bed.
"I'll stop by your room to kiss you good night, I promise." I said, pouring some orange juice into my cup. "Do you want some?" I offered. He nodded and handed me his cup. I filled his cup with orange juice and then passed it to him.
"Madie, I don't want a good night kiss! Well, I do, but I want to sleep with you. We don't need to have sex. I just want to have you next to me." he said dejectedly, taking a bite out of his sandwich.
"I don't know, Embry. I have to finish the last page of our Chemistry homework and at least start my English paper. I don't want to have any distractions." I said, taking my cup in hand and drinking some of my juice.
I removed the crust off my bread and placed them on the tray. Embry was carefully watching me as I ate and drank my juice. Embry was so cute when he frowned. I couldn't believe how gorgeous he was. I knew that he had a banging body, but he was extremely gorgeous. His eyes were so flawlessly adorned with perfect, thick eyebrows and long curly lashes, that I was envious. His face had strong features that characterized him as a Native American, but he was also handsome. His teeth were faultlessly white. The dimple on his right cheek was impeccably placed, that when he smiled his face would light up, making the honey-brown colors of his eyes shine radiantly.
"I won't distract you. I swear." he said sadly, biting in to his sandwich. "You can leave the light on. I won't complain or protest. I really don't mind sleeping with the lights on." he said, giving me a puppy sad-eyed look. "I just want to be beside you, Madie."
"No, not tonight," I said firmly. I got to my feet and stared down at him. "Not tonight, Embry. I really want to finish my work. Please don't be mad at me. I want to pass this semester with good grades. If I do everything you want me to do, I would probably flunk and stay in the eleventh grade. I have a year and a half to finish high school and go to college in England." I said, taking my cup and drinking the last of my orange juice.
Embry's eyes opened wide as he stared at me. "You're going to England?" he asked incredulously, swallowing hard.
"Why can't you choose a college around Washington?" he asked, putting down his sandwich. "I mean- what's so great about England? Is it the accent? Doesn't the United States have great colleges and universities?" he sighed, wiping his mouth with his napkin.
"Can we talk about this later? I need to get my backpack and prepare your bedroom. I also have to get you your towel, so you can take a shower." I said, trying to hide my nervousness.
Embry didn't like the idea that of me going to England to study. It was written all over his face. His eyes darkened with sadness and I could tell that he wanted to say something. I walked to the sink and hand washed my cup.
He stood from his chair and grabbed the tray and his cup in his large hands. He waited until I had finished washing my cup and dried the border and counter around the sink. I turned around and found him staring at me. He gave me a despondent smile as he placed the tray next to the sink.
"Do you have a few sandwich bags to put the remaining sandwiches?" he asked sadly. I nodded and pointed at the cupboard. He got the plastic container and placed the four remaining sandwiches in it and sealed it tight. "This will do!" he said, showing me the plastic containers. "We can eat them tomorrow for snack or breakfast." he mumbled.
I grabbed a moist sponge and went to clean the table and organize the chairs. When I returned to the kitchen, Embry had finished -hand-washing the rest of the dishes. He smiled at me and began to towel dry the dishes.
"I can help you dry them." I offered, taking the rag towel that hung by the stove.
"Thanks." he said in a husky voice. "But you have to finish our homework. I don't mind helping out in the house. It's the least that I can do, when you're letting me stay for a few days." he said, glancing at me.
I watched as he silently dried the dishes and the counter. He looked so handsome and manly! It was a rare sight to see a man helping out in the kitchen. When he was done, I took his hand and guided him to the bathroom. Being next to him made the entire room warm. I was surprised that I didn't need to turn on the heater.
"Clean towels are in the linen closet next to the bathroom door." I said, opening the closet door and taking a large towel in my hands. "I tend to change the color scheme so here is a bright pink towel." I said jokingly, trying to get a smile from him.
"Thank you." he said, offering me a weak smile.
"Do you want a shower or a bath?" I asked, closing the door to the closet and stepping in to the room next to it.
"I'll take shower." he mumbled, hanging the towel around his neck. "You don't mind if I go to the kitchen to get my duffel bag?" he asked, taking my small hand in his.
"No, not at all. You go get it, while I get the water warm and ready for you." I said, winking at him.
He gave me sad smile and exited the bathroom. When he came back he sat the duffel bag next to the door. The water was already running and the temperature was perfect for a nice, rejuvenating shower or bath.
"I have some Dove brand shampoo and conditioner if you want to use them. I also have the body wash soap. It smells like zesty oranges, so I guess you'll smell all citrusy tonight." I joked, running my hand under the water to make sure that it was warm enough.
Embry took my hand and pulled me up closed to him. "Thank you!" he said, wrapping me in his arms and hugged me. "Thank you so much, Madie-baby."
"You're welcome. I'll do anything I can to help you... help you feel at home."I whispered, smiling shyly at him.
He pulled away and gently pushed me out of the bathroom. "A man needs his privacy." he mocked, slowly closing the door in front of me. I heard the clicking sound of the lock and wondered how sexy he would look with the water running down his perfect copper skin.
I had to stop myself from having such provocative thoughts. They were constantly dancing around my head, whenever he was around me. I took a deep breath and sighed. I needed to get myself occupied. I went up the stairs and in to my room. I grabbed my backpack and threw all my books on my bed.
I started my homework and when I was ready to balance the last equation, a half-naked Quileute Native American knocked on the door of my room. He was wearing green surfing-style shorts and a bright pink towel hanging over his neck. His hair was wet and loose strands hung over his face, making him look dangerous and sexier than possible.
My eyes wander to his sculpted, muscular torso. There were so many curves and dents around his chest, that for a second I got lost in them.
"Um, I see that you're done." I mumbled, forcing myself to look up at him. "I'll take you to your room." I said, scurrying to my feet.
"If it's OK with you, I'll like stay with you for a while. I won't bother you, I swear." he said, leaning against the door-frame. "I'm not sleepy anymore." he shrugged.
I nodded and sat back down on my bed. I looked down at the scattered books on my bed and made room for Embry to take a seat.
"You can sit next to me." I said kindly, shoving the papers in my Chemistry book. "I finished our Chem. homework. I guess that I can start my essay tomorrow. I still have two days to finish all my homework." I said, placing the rest of my notebooks by the night table.
"Thanks." he mumbled, walking slowly to the bed. He stopped when he saw the photo frames on my dresser. He slowly picked one up and stared attentively at it.
"Who are those five guys with you in the picture?" he asked, sounding a little jealous.
I laughed and crawled to the other side of the bed. He sat next to me and handed me the picture frame. I looked at him and smiled.
"Those are my five brothers." I said nonchalantly, running my finger over the picture. "This is Marcus, Miguel, Manuel, Micah and Mercury Ferreira." I said morosely.
"Wow!" he whispered, scooting closer to me. He took the picture frame from my hands and stood up. "All of your brothers' names start with M. How original!" he teased, placing the frame back on the dresser. "How old were you in that picture?" he asked, as he continued to stare at the pictures that rested on dresser.
"I was fifteen." I said, looking at his broad shoulders and his perfect backside.
"How old are you now?" he asked, picking up another frame.
"I'll be turning seventeen in four weeks." I said nonchalantly. "And you?"
"I'm eighteen years old." he said coolly, turning to face me.
"I'm a senior in high school. I like long walks by the beach and I love to ride my dirt bike and work in cars on my spare time. I want to own my own construction company or auto shop in the future. I want you to be the mother of my children and the only woman for me." he said teasingly, bringing the picture frame to his face.
His mocking smile quickly vanished and the scowl suddenly appeared on his creamy forehead.
"Who's this idiot with his arm around you?" he asked, pointing at the picture of Tom. "Is he the moron that called you today?"
I nodded, biting the inside of my lip, hoping and praying that he would not ask me any questions about my past relationship with Tom.
"You still like him, don't ya?" he asked dolefully. He looked down at the picture and shook his head.
"This guy has nothing on me! I look better than him!" he said, sounding proud and cocky. He turned around to face me, his eyebrow arched waiting for my answer. "Shit, I can kick his ass before he even knows what the fuck is happening around him."
"What is wrong with you? Why are you acting so stupid?" I asked angrily, walking passed him.
Embry took my arm and spun me around to face him. "Do you still like this asshole?" he asked, putting the picture in front of me.
"Is that why we do it, so you can forget him?" he asked somberly. "Or do you close your eyes and dream that he is the one shoving his dick inside you, instead of me?"
I tried to pry his hand off my arm. "No! How dare you talk to me like that? I don't fuck you so I can forget him! And I know damn well, that it's you shoving his dick inside me. I know it's you! I know pretty well, that the mother fucker that is fucking me is you Embry Call. I moan your fucking name! I know damn well who is thrusting his hips to push his penis inside of me. I'm not an idiot! Isn't that what you wanted to hear?" I shouted, pulling away from him, but to no avail.
"And yes," I paused, staring at him fearlessly. "I still care for him! We dated for almost five years. He was the first person I fucked! The first person that I said 'I love you' to! He was the first person that shoved his dick in me and made me orgasm and moan with pleasure. I can't forget something like that so soon!" I yelled furiously, hoping to hurt his manly ego and tried to break free from his hold.
I felt anger and hurt at his words. I didn't fuck him to forget Tom! I enjoyed being with Embry. I felt safe in his arms. Yes, the sex was great, but there was so much more than just a warm body next to me. There was a silent agreement, an invisible connection that united us. It was difficult to explain, but I knew that it was there!
"Do you love him? Do you think it's him when you and I do it?" he gritted angrily. I stared at him defiantly. I wasn't going to take any shit from him.
"I don't have to fucking tell you!" I shrieked. "Even if I tell you the damn truth, you won't believe me!"
"Oh, fuck, Madison, tell me! I need to know!" he said hurt. His face twisted into a pained expression and his eyes were filled with melancholy.
He ran his fingers through his hair and turned away from me. "Madison, can't you see how much I care for you?" he said, spinning around to face me again.
"Damn it, baby girl, I didn't fuck you! I've never fucked you! I've made love to you since the first day we met. I've only loved you." he said desperately.
I looked down at the floor, trying hard to find the correct answer or logic behind each of his words. How could he say that? Why was this boy so strange? How could he say he loved me when we'd only known each other a few days, not even two weeks?
"I have worshipped your body and I have made love to you. Damn it! Damn it, Madison! I shouldn't be so dramatic, but if you only knew how I feel about you. If you only knew how twisted the world is, when I'm not around you. Just imagining you, naked in that asshole's arms gets me angry. I want to kill him with my bare hands." he yelled, throwing the picture frame against the window, pieces of glasses flying all over the floor. Embry's entire body began to shake and tremble.
"Fuck you, Embry!" I cried, taking a step back away from him. Fear began to possess me and the need to find shelter away from him was growing stronger. I should've never opened the doors to my house to him. Unshed tears threatened to fall. I blinked them back and covered my face with my hands. "Get out of my house if you're going to be acting like an idiot."
I ran out of my room, down the stairs and out the kitchen door. I needed a breath of fresh air. I wanted to be alone. Everything was happening too suddenly. I needed time to gather my thoughts and think about what exactly was going on. Why did Embry have to get so jealous of Tom? He wasn't here in La Push.
I wasn't going back with Tom! I didn't even know what kind of fucking relationship I had with Embry. Everything was happening too damn fast! Seeing Embry so mad, made me fear him. He'd always shown me his kind, gentle and benevolent side. He always wanted to protect me and maybe... just maybe, I had been too blind to see his true color. I knew that deep down, Embry wasn't that type. He couldn't be! My heart would break if he wasn't the person I had come to like and appreciate.
I ran to the woods behind my house and I knew that my dog, Siobhan would soon be running behind me. I heard his steps get near me and I continued to run. I needed to run away from everything. Even if it was for a couple of minutes; it was just enough time to cool off.
"Siobhan, where are you?" I shouted in the darkness. Everything around me was pitch black and I couldn't see anything around me. I heard the approaching steps of an animal and began to panic.
"Siobhan, buddy, it's not a good time to start playing with me." I said softly, closing my eyes to adapt to the darkness. I was hoping to hear my dog barking, but all I heard where the crushing of twigs and the ruffle of the leaves. I opened my eyes and could at least make the difference between the shadows of the trees.
A low growl came from the trees behind me, making me spin around to see what it was. A large figure emerged from the trees in front of me and my agitated heart began to pound hectically. This wasn't my dog. It was something ten times the size of my Siberian Husky.
Oh, gosh! It was one of those large wolves, Embry and my uncle M, spoke about. It was tall, looming over me. I could hear the low gnarl that came from its mouth.
"Please, go away!" I said desperately. "Go away!" I whispered, taking a few steps back, as my tears fell freely.
The beast got closer to me, until I could feel the heat of its breathing. "Please, go away." I muttered, closing my eyes. "Embry, help me." I silently cried. "Embry"