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A/N: Finally got this one out. Enjoy! :)
Chapter 9 – All Over You (Josh's POV)
"I had decided to track her. Keep in mind that I'm not necessarily good at it so I often got lost and followed false trails. Soon I was deep in the process and I'd forgotten to be careful of where I was and who was around me. Then I found myself in Alaska with a dead end. I came to make sure Bella had found her way here but I had been planning to leave right after I confirmed she was safe." As Krista spoke, every set of eyes in the room were focused on either her or Bella. Bella was obviously trying to ignore the attention while Krista simply acted as if she didn't notice. I didn't like the idea of Krista being so close to that lee- … vampire. But then again, she was much more durable than she used to be. So I could afford to expose a bit less of my overprotective nature.
The question on my mind was if Krista still loved me. I knew I loved her. But maybe, now that she was a vampire, that she didn't have any feelings for me any more. And maybe she wasn't rejecting me only because she felt bad for me or she was leaving soon anyway or she was just being nice. Maybe she'd fallen for some bloodsu- … vampire. Every thread of my existence hoped not but I couldn't be sure. I couldn't read minds or anything.
So then I decided I would ask her. I loved her enough that if she didn't want to be with me, I could let her go. I could let her go and never let her see how badly it hurt me. As I thought, my eyes strayed to Krista's face. I didn't know if she could love a werewolf, nonetheless me. I finally found my voice, "Krista, can I talk to you outside?" It was still hailing like hell but I didn't mind and neither would a vampire. Her black eyes shifted to look at me. She didn't answer, she only stood up and walked out to the front porch. I followed after her.
"Look Josh, I -" she began as I walked outside. I interrupted saying, "Let me say something. You know that I love you more than anything and I always will. But if you don't feel the same way any more then,
I had to pause to steady myself, "Then I won't stand in your way if you want to leave." She looked me in the eyes, her gaze penetrating. "What do you mean 'if I don't feel the same way'? Ever since I left I've been sick with missing you. You can ask Bella. Every time I told her anything that had to do with you I could barely speak. I left because I thought you wouldn't want me if I was a vampire. That I would disgust you. Or that maybe I would break your heart. I didn't want that so I left. But you have no idea how sick I've been. Plagued." Then her voice broke and she looked as if she would be crying if that was possible for a vampire. "I love you Josh. I always have, always will, and still do." she said before she broke down again. Instinctively wrapped my arms around her and pulled her against me. "It's okay Krista, honey. It'll be fine." I said soothingly. She pushed away. "No it won't. I can't stay here. I kill people Josh. I have and I still do. I kill animals too. Innocent animals that have never done anything wrong. I need to leave. I can't stay here and let you hope. Let me hope." she said, loud and shouting at first then she whispered at the end. My face became grave. "Krista, I don't care. Sure I wish you only ate animals but I still don't care. I love you more than the anything in previous, current, or future existence." I said, serious. "But you can never have babies or anything else that a human could give you. Anyone but a vampire could give you." she said, her voice trembling. "That doesn't matter to me. You're all I'll ever need. If you want, you could go stay with those Olympic Peninsula vampires. You can visit us and we can visit you. In fact, we could stay with the Olympic werewolves. The ones in La Push." I said. She took a deep breath and nodded. "After we deal with the vampire trying to kill Bella." she said with a smirk. I smiled and nodded.
Musical Influence: All Over You by The Spill Canvas