Second Chances
This chapter is just to let everyone know, how miserable Madison's life is without Embry. I just wanted to advance or fast-forward the story, so I can get to where I want this fanfic to be. Don't worry, they will get back together. I am just making Madison see how miserable life is without her werewolf. Anyways, just five more chappies and I should be done. I already wrote the epilogue and I cried. It's good.
Serenity
Two weeks
I sat in the lunch cafeteria eating my food quietly, when Jake, Quil, and Seth sat in the same table I was sitting. They were serious and didn't speak, but ogled my food. I looked down at my plate and at the lunch I had made for myself that morning and groaned. Since Embry left the house, to discover himself two months and two weeks ago; I had been eating more than usual. He wasn't there to tell me what to eat or suggest healthy choices that would help the baby's development. So, I, Madison Love, ate like a pig!
"Um," Seth began and gave me a quizzical look. "You are eating more than us." he laughed.
I growled at him and ignored him. "Leave me alone, Seth." I barked, as I shoved a bite of my tuna sandwich into my mouth.
"We are worried about you, Madison." Jake said worriedly, taking my small hand in his.
"Did Embry send you to ask how I was?" I asked annoyed, with my mouth full. Where were my manners? It had been a little over two month since he left and I was as bitter as ever. Plus, I was spending too much time with Quil, Jake, Seth and Paul. All their bad manners were rubbing off on me.
"No," Quil said, reaching for a piece of my sliced apple. I smacked his hand and gave him a pointed look. "Jeez, woman, what the hell!"
"You don't mess with a pregnant woman's food, Quil." Seth scolded.
I nodded at Quil and then smiled at Seth. We had become fast friends, since he always visited me after school and helped me clean the house whenever I was too tired. Plus, he was a great kid. His mother brought him up to be a caring gentle man. I wanted my son to be just like him!
"Here, Seth." I smiled. "I made you a tuna sandwich for helping me yesterday." I said, handing him a tuna sandwich in a Ziploc bag. He took it and thanked me.
"What about us?" Jake asked annoyed. "We are always at your house!"
"Liar!" I said, drinking some of my orange juice. "All you do is waste my electricity, playing Halo and Grand Theft Auto. And if you aren't playing, you are drooling over that Bella girl."
"Snap." Quil laughed. "She hit the spot!"
We high-five each other and I gave him my sliced apple and half of my tuna salad sandwich. Jake rolled his eyes and flashed us an angry look.
"Whatever!" Jake said irritated. "Are you also gonna tell me to stop hanging with her, even though she is married?"
"No," I muttered. Hell, I was not going to give my opinion anymore. I wasn't going to speak, unless it was necessary. Last time I shared my opinion, I ended up losing my sweet Embry.
"Cool." Jake said softly, as he stared at my salad. True, this was too much food for me. I sighed and offered him my orange juice and my barely touched salad. "Yum, yum!" he laughed.
"You can eat my food." I said softly, pushing the food tray towards them. "I'm not hungry anymore."
I reached for my backpack and stood up from my chair. Seth gave me a worried look and I forced a smile. "Seth, are we still on for the movie tonight?"
He nodded and gave me one of his toothy smile. "You bet!"
"Is Embry coming?" he asked, taking a large bite of his food.
"No, he is working late, again." I muttered. "But, it's alright. I haven't seen him in two weeks now and I guess, that I can survive without him. OK, I can live without him, as long as you idiots keep me company!"
"I won't leave ya." Jake said, chugging on the orange juice.
"You and I are best buddies. BFF something!" Seth grinned and winked at me.
"OK," I smiled, winking back at Seth.
Quil was munching on his food and was glancing at me. "What? What do you want to say Quillian Marie Rose?"
"Ha. Ha. Ha. Funny!" he said sarcastically. "I let you mock my name, because you can cook and give me food."
"Sure, sure." I said, shaking my head. "I'll see you guys later."
"Hey, Madie, he loves you." Quil said with concern. "He cares for you."
"Yes, he does." Jake said, putting down the orange juice that I gave him. "You'll be surprised by how much he loves you. He just needs time to think and find himself."
"Anyways," I said, trying hard to sound nonchalant. "I gotta go and see your sister. She wants to talk to me about wedding or was it color pallets… I really didn't pay attention. So, I will see you guys after school, right?"
"Yeah, um, sure, sure." Jacob said, as he stuffed his mouth with salad. "We'll wait by your car."
"Hey, can we stop by your mom's house after the movie?" Seth asked. I nodded. "Cool, Elisha wants to show me his new car. He said it's a sick ride."
"Sure, whatever, anyways, gotta go." I said, waving at them.
I went to Rachel Black's classroom and sighed when I entered her room. Paul and her, were giving each other lovesick glances. I knocked hard on the door and she didn't even acknowledge me. She was too occupied with her imprinter. They did look cute together.
"I can come back later." I whispered closing the door behind me and walking down the hall.
It was strange how much life had changed for me. I missed so much and yet, I didn't feel like I was living. I felt stuck in a continuous cycle. Every day was a struggle to wake up and face the fucking reality. Life was empty and sad without Embry. Yes, he still came over and spent a few hours with me and then he was gone. I didn't get to see him as often as I did in the past.
We were missing so much time away from each other. But lately, I had a feeling that something was truly changing. He barely called me to check how I was doing. Two weeks had passed and I was nervous without seeing his gorgeous smile.
"Hey, bitch, watch where you are going." someone said, colliding against me. I was brought back from my reverie and I saw that Elaine and her two minions were galring at me. "Are you fucking stupid or blind?"
I growled inwardly and turned around. "Oh, she is afraid of us." she scoffed.
"Just leave me alone, Elaine!" I yelled, flipping her the middle finger. "Just fuck off and go back to your swamp, where you can leave me alone."
"I heard that Embry left you, too!I am so happy!" she laughed, as I walked away. "But I see that he didn't leave you completely alone. He left a souvenir behind. Now you can remember him all the time!"
"Fuck you!" I shouted over my shoulders.
"At least, I didn't get pregnant like you! What an idiot you are, Madison! Did you seriously think that he was going to stay with you forever. He is just like his father, a player. Ha! The bastard gave you another bastard to carry on the tradition. You should feel happy. You are gonna be a teenage mother. I hope that every time you see your child, you remember how much the two of you made me suffer!" she shouted furiously.
I needed to ignore her. My hands clenched into fists, as I continued to walk away. My child was not a bastard… Ok, technically speaking, according to society, he was; but not in my eyes. He was a gift to keep me company, while Embry found his way back home. I still had hope that we were meant to be together... I continued walking down the hall, when I came across Seth. He looked down at me and I ran (OK, I waddled towards him) and he wrapped me in a tight hug. I couldn't help crying. It was useless. I needed my boyfriend with me.
"It's alright, Mad." Seth said softly. "Let it all out."
I sobbed and wailed. It was unfair the way things had turned out. But, with me, life had always been cruel and harsh. It enjoyed making me suffer. There were a few things that brought me joy; Embry, my baby, my pack family, Mercy and my mother.
"Seth," I sobbed, pulling away from him and staring at him. "Can we bail school and go to my mom's house?" I asked him, hoping that he would say yes.
"I can't, Mad." he said sadly. "I have a test for my last class period. Sorry."
I smiled behind my tears and nodded. "It's alright. Can you tell the guys that I won't give them a ride home. I will still pick you up to go to the movies. Alright?"
"It's a date, then." he smiled, and hugged me again. It was a kind hug. I felt his warmth and silently wished that when I opened my eyes, it was Embry the person that I was hugging. I closed my eyes and wished that my life would soon turn around and I was back in Embry's arms.
When I pulled away, my heart sank in my chest. "I gotta go." I said giving him a weary smile. He nodded and took my hand in his and together we walked silently towards the car.
I drove down the highway and made a tuned on the exit that led to my mother's house. I could barely see the road behind my tears. It was useless to deny myself the simple act of crying. I had held back so many tears for the last two months. I just couldn't contain them inside me anymore. When I got to the house, I found my mother's figure standing by the window. She looked worried. When I got out of the SUV, Elisha and my new sister Cheyenne came running out of the house and hugged me.
"Seth called." Elisha said, pulling away to inspect my face. "Don't worry, it's all gonna turn out fine." he reassured me.
We walked together into the house and I cried when I saw my mother's pale face. "Mom," I whispered and ambled towards her. "Get me out of that school, please."
"We can home school her," Cheyenne said caringly. "I can teach her science, history and language."
I looked at her and nodded. "If that's what you want, sweetie." my mother said lovingly, kissing my forehead. "You can also come to live with us. That would make me happy."
"I'll think about it." I whispered, resting my head on the crook of her neck. "I'll think about it."