A/N: Massive apologies for the wait. This chapter contains smut. You have been warned! Enjoy!
Chapter Twenty) The Final Problem
It was still awkward, for all of them were drinking and even Thor was swaying. At the end of the night, however, which would be around two in the morning, they resumed to their rooms downstairs, even Thor. Tony made Jarvis lock the elevator, so they truly had the entire top floor to themselves and the moment they had their own space, Loki climbed on top of Tony and smothered him in kisses. Tony grabbed him by the waist, not so drunkenly as it could have been. Loki had definitely seen the Engineer in worse states...
"I need to tell you something," Loki whispered to the man's lips, who kissed them.
"No... shh..." Tony spoke, pulling him back in again, his warm hands roaming over Loki's cool body.
"I really need to," he said, pushing Tony back a little, their eyes connecting on one another. "I have just tonight, before I give up my magic."
Tony frowned immediately. "Give up your magic?" Loki hadn't quite figured out a good explanation for it, as he felt awkward telling Tony what he had found to be the truth: he was a danger with his magic and he didn't trust himself with it, but more so: he wanted to be Tony's equal.
"Yes," he replied. "I don't need it and if I give it up I can stay on Midgard. That's what I want."
"In other words," Tony started, thinking his words over. "You're giving up your magic for me." That was exactly how Loki hadn't wanted to put it, but it was so, wasn't it? Above all else did he want to be with Tony and giving up his magic was the only way to ensure he could stay. He didn't dare go back with Thor to Asgard, afraid that he might never be able to leave again. Who knew what they would do to him? It wouldn't be the first time unreasonable punishment befell him, despite him having done only good. He would always be the token of evil and therefore he would always be the one called upon when the public needed another reminder of what not to do. He didn't want to be that person anymore, but knew it would never change. Yet, if he stayed here, with Tony, he could pretend for as long as it lasted that he was someone else. Perhaps he could even start to believe in his own happiness.
"Tomorrow I will lose my magic," Loki said, ignoring Tony's comment, knowing the other would pick it up as the confirmation it was. "You must have your requests."
"You're asking me what I want?" Tony asked, seemingly finding the situation stranger and stranger. "Just be sure not to always be this soft. I like you when you're an annoying brat, too."
"As long as it's not you I'm annoying, is that correct?" Loki asked, grinning.
"Well, without your magic I'm quite sure your pranks on me won't be half as annoying as the things you pulled tonight. I think Barton will never forgive you for this, even if he forgives you for all the other things you've pulled."
"I wouldn't be so sure about the former, Stark," Loki replied amusedly, but it wasn't about that. Tony would come to learn soon enough that Loki, in any state, was capable of the worst of pranks. He didn't need to convince the Engineer now, as there was no fun in that anyway. "Now, tell me, you must have some idea."
"Well, of course," Tony replied, laughing softly. "You think I've never thought about this?" He rolled them over, pushing the God into the mattress. Loki was strong and quite capable to fling him across the room, but Tony trusted him now and the thought didn't even run through his mind in a serious manner. Loki would not harm him.
He started to undress the God, revealing his pale skin to him. His fingers nipped at him, as did his lips, his teeth. He licked over the Gods neck, sucking softly to leave marks. Once the God was naked he, like at SHIELD, tied him to the bed, needing to put a little more effort into it than before. Loki let him, however, probably knowing that if he truly wanted to be freed, he could with his magic. Yet, it didn't seem his primary concern to get free, in the slightest. That amused Tony.
Slowly, he started kissing Loki's entire body, letting his lips and tongue roll over his skin. He then moved up to Loki's lips, his hand moving over the God's erection, slowly starting to rub. "Look at me," he whispered, smiling. The God did as he was told and slowly a frown formed on his brows, for it felt very good, especially as Tony's hands were so much warmer than his own flesh was. "Don't hold anything in, love, not tonight..." Tony whispered against the God's lips. He then started to kiss down the God's body, feeling how his legs tensed, though couldn't move, as they were also tied to the bed. He grinned, his tongue, lips and teeth teasing all the sensitive skin. Also, the room wasn't all that warm. Loki's already cold, naked skin was more sensitive, goosebumps covering his skin due to the cold air. Tony then slowly moved lower and lower, not having done anything like this since his crazy college years, but that didn't matter. This was Loki, and he loved him... This was their night of pleasure and it would last as long as they both wanted it to.
He took Loki's length, stroking it still, and, despite Loki's whimpers, he moved down to lick over his skin. He then continued, pleasuring the God with his lips, tongue, teeth even, his hands roaming over Loki's body, all while the God struggled to get free, pulling on the bounds, but at the same time moaned and bucked his hips up into the feeling, into the warmth and pleasure that he felt.
It was only when Loki was closer to the edge that Tony started the teasing, no longer touching his crotch. It was then that he started to whisper in the God's ear, explaining a fantasy to him. "Do it for me," Tony whispered, breathing into Loki's ear softly. He could hear how the God wanted to protest, but it wasn't possible. Loki had said that he could do anything, ask for anything.
"It will take... a while," he whispered. "It's not easy."
"Take your time," Tony spoke, moving his hands to untie the God, his hand teasingly moving over his erection every now and then. Loki let out soft groans, then shut his eyes, concentrating fully, when Tony was down untying him. He just looked his lover over, seeing how he was breathing steadily, deeply. He wondered what was happening in Loki's mind and after quite a while, something started to happen.
First his body started to glow, a gold aura surrounding him. It was quite bright, and thus Tony's view of him was less clear. He did see how the God's shoulders became narrower and his hips slightly wider, his waist smaller and slowly his mass of muscles turned slightly softer and his face... rounder, though still recognisable as Loki. His entire body was changing, Loki's lips becoming fuller, hair longer and eventually, the glowing stopped and Loki's eyes opened, more feminine, slightly larger eyes, sparkling up at Tony, though still, so definitely, Loki's eyes.
Tony was amazed for a moment, not only because of the magic, but because of Loki's beauty as a woman. "You're..." he whispered, moving closer, his hand touching her hip, his hip, whatever he was supposed to call Loki.
"What?" Loki asked and even his voice had turned to a feminine one, though still sharp and hard like Loki's.
"Beautiful... you're so..." Tony was amazed by Loki's new form and slowly both his hands moved up his hips, to his waist, up and over his - her - breasts, moving up to the back of Loki's head. He brought him - her - closer into a kiss, feeling the different, but still incredibly similar lips. It didn't feel like he was no longer kissing Loki, just a different Loki...
Tony was amazed by the fact that Loki seemed so... normal, like this. He had expected this to be at least somewhat awkward, but it was not. Well, Loki clearly had been in this form before, which meant it wouldn't be fully strange for the God. Goddess. This was going to take some getting used to. On the other hand, it wasn't quite so difficult. Nothing was. They were kissing like the lovers they were and Tony was admiring Loki's body like he would do.
"So, have you ever before..." Tony started, though he was suddenly confused with how to end something like that. What was he wanting to say? Well, he knew what it was, but he was unsure whether he could make it come across in a descent manner. "Have you ever made love like this?" he asked then, figuring he didn't care for being blunt. He looked down into Loki's green eyes that fluttered open to look up at him. So beautiful...
Loki slowly shook her head, her lips parting in a soft, nervous sigh. Tony smiled a little, liking to be able to have the honour to do so. If... that was what Loki was going to allow. "May I?" Tony asked and to his surprise, Loki even smiled at that, then nodded, her hands slipping under Tony's shirt, pushing it upwards, revealing the soft glow his arc reactor gave off. Tony helped Loki undress him, for he felt Loki's tremble in his hands, still so nervous about this all.
Tony kissed her again, letting his now naked body press against Loki's, who let out a soft moan as Tony's hands ran over her body, touching all the new sensitive parts. They kissed and kissed, having the entire night still ahead of them. Okay, it was gone three, but that didn't matter, they had as long as they wanted.
Slowly, as Tony started to rub his body against Loki's, she started to spread her legs and pull him closer, Tony's crotch rubbing against hers, which made them both moan. Tony was very hard and Loki's arousal hadn't exactly disappeared either.
"I want you," she whispered softly, to which Tony nodded, gasping in the kiss.
It was amazing, simply amazing and Tony couldn't stop himself from smiling whenever he looked into Loki's eyes. Of course it hadn't gone unnoticed to Tony that in a way he was going to take Loki's virginity. That thought would've amused him if it wasn't for the fact that she was so incredibly beautiful and overwhelming. He felt nervous like he hadn't done in such a long time.
He spread Loki's legs more, to which the Goddess let out a soft noise and soon, he was giving her exactly what she wanted. Her arms were around the Engineer, holding him close to her and they kissed and moaned into each other's mouths for minutes and minutes on end, bringing each other closer and closer to a climax. The way they held onto each other was intense, the way their eyes glued on one another and the way that Loki was letting the noises out freely, her voice sounding beautiful.
Tony, with his hands roaming the Godess' body, felt so content, so good, so pleased, but too so loved. He couldn't imagine this being better; Loki's first time like this and Tony's first time with her and it wasn't too long until they were moaning loudly together, holding each other tighter, their eyes never leaving one another's. Then fell a silence, a peaceful, calming silence, in which they gained their breaths and kissed some more and simply just enjoyed each other.
They made love all night, all the way through the sunrise, which they watched through Tony's large bedroom windows, which spread over his entire wall, from floor to ceiling. They only ended up falling asleep at 9AM in the morning, tired out of their minds, but more content than ever. Tony managed to pull Loki's female form right to him and so they fell asleep, legs and arms entangled, sleepy kisses being planted upon each other's skin.
They only awoke in the late afternoon, both feeling muscle pain, and they bathed together, it being slightly too warm for Loki's liking and slightly too cold for Tony's but they survived. Tony was playing with Loki's long hair and was running his hands over the now familiar body of Loki's female form. He wondered whether he'd ever get to see this woman again, but it didn't matter much, for he'd always have Loki. It didn't matter in which form, as long as he had him, or her.
"Unless you want Thor to see you this way, it is probably a good idea to change," Tony said, before they'd get dressed. Loki smiled one of those perfect smiles and stepped closer to press a kiss to Tony's lips, who noted that Loki was indeed smaller like this. That was certainly a nice change, though he figured it best not to mention it and spoil Loki's mood. That would certainly be a shame after having spent such a perfect night together.
"I have the awful feeling he knows exactly why I wanted to keep my magic for one night, though, but let's keep his suspicions unconfirmed," Loki replied. Tony had taken a towel and had draped it over Loki's shoulders. They were drying off, Loki's long dark hair dripping and Tony wondered just how much of a hassle it would be to get dry, without magic, of course.
Loki stepped closer to him, a slender pale arm moving around Tony's shoulder and pulling him closer. Loki moved to kiss his neck and automatically Tony moved his head back slightly to grant her permission. Of course, he should've known better, with a smirk like that playing on the Goddess' perfect lips... Loki breathed out softly against his still wet skin, in his neck, and he felt the water freezing instantly, creating pearls of ice on his skin and instantly giving him shivers. He pushed Loki back, his hand moving to touch the freezing patch of skin. Loki chuckled, looking into Tony's eyes amusedly, green eyes sparkling with Mischief.
"Don't do that, that's horrible," Tony said, realizing a few of his hairs had been frozen and if he wasn't careful he might break them off. Loki laughed softly, before continued to dry off.
"I think it's rather funny," Loki replied and a moment later, before Tony figured what had happened, she had dropped to her knees before him.
Tony already shuddered and took a step back so he could lean against the wall. Loki moved with him and soon had Tony's hand firmly in her hair, pulling her closer to him. He felt her breath on his length, which was hot... still. Slowly he felt the wetness of her mouth surround him and he let out a loud moan, pulling her closer and guiding her with his hands, liking the feeling of her wet, heavy hair over his hands as he pulled her closer.
He enjoyed every second of this and knew that Loki wasn't all to displeased either. There must be something she was planning, then... right? Though right now, he couldn't care, for it felt so damn good and he was moaning and moaning, Loki's name leaving his lips and he was getting so close. He couldn't wait to feel himself finish into his lover's mouth, but suddenly, she moved back and he let out a whimper, then a loud groan as again, her breath moved over the wetness that was surrounding his length, turning it into ice and it hurt!
"Come..." she whispered when she stood up, pulling him along to the bedroom. His length was so cold and frozen and he couldn't even take hold of himself to soothe the pain, for his hand would stick to the cold ice. Still, he did as he was told and shut his eyes in front of the bed when she said so. Too, opened them when he was told and was welcomed with the sight of Loki lying on the bed, legs spread far enough for him to take her immediately, to let the cold ice melt inside of her because of her surrounding warmth. Oh... Loki was so irresistable...
Half an hour later, Tony was dressed and Loki was trying to change herself back to her usual form, which was taking a significantly longer time than it had done to change Loki into his female form. Tony didn't understand why, but after a while, Loki was sitting on the edge of the bed with a hand in front of her mouth. "What is it, love?" Tony asked, to which Loki shook her head.
"Nothing, I'm just... stuck..." she spoke softly. Tony frowned, which Loki avoided responding to and took to getting dressed, summoning the same kind of clothes as Loki usually wore, though this time while enhancing her female shape.
"Why...?" he asked. Loki shook her head, taking Tony's hand and soon they moved to the living room, where she abruptly stopped at the sight of Thor.
"I thought you said..." she whispered softly, having thought that the elevator was locked.
"Loki...?" Thor asked, looking his brother - sister. At least he had seen Loki like this before, but it certainly didn't help keeping secret what had happened last night. They both looked at one another a little uncomfortably. Tony tried a casual 'morning', though that was hardly enough to relieve any of the tension here.
"In case you wondered, Thor," Loki spoke, "I do not willingly present myself in this way, to you."
"Then why have you not changed back?" Thor asked, though knew before he'd finished talking what the reason was. "Oh, you can't."
Loki remained silent, while Tony was still as confused as anything and was hoping that Thor might be able to come up with a solution, when it became apparent that the Thunderer knew exactly what was going on. It was almost like they were speaking without words and didn't think to include Tony in their conversation. It was silent. And they were merely staring at each other for a moment, before Loki looked away, letting out a sigh.
"You did not think this could happen before you...?" Thor asked, letting the question die out before he'd spoken the end of his sentence, obviously not wishing to refer to his brother's sexlife.
"No," Loki said. "Yes, I have... but I didn't... How was I supposed to know this could happen?"
"It happened before," Thor said, though that clearly was an event Loki didn't wish to recall.
"Thor!" she said angrily.
"Guys..." Tony tried to butt in, but he received quite a hard shove from Loki that had him stumbling through the hallway before he regained his balance. "Alright, I get the hint, I'll just go to the kitchen and get myself something to drink."
"Tony, don't overdo it," Loki told him and Tony bemusedly thought of Loki as an overprotective housewife, before simply stepping away from whatever it was that was going on. Of course he was worried, but he also knew, somehow, it wasn't as bad as he previously thought. Thor wasn't worried, he was merely somewhat... confused. If only Loki would just tell him what was going on. it would help the matter so.
"Loki," Thor turned to his brother, gone sister. "Perhaps you did not consider the option for it could be meant to be."
"What are you telling me?" Loki asked. "That this might mean something? That I and Tony Stark-"
"Yes," Thor replied and actually let out a soft laugh.
"It's not funny," Loki told him, though figured that she could hardly expect Thor not to laugh at the situation. "I'm... I don't think I can do this," she confided then, which had Thor's smirk wipe away immediately.
"Why not?" Thor asked, stepping towards Loki, who was now in comparison even smaller than he usually already was to Thor. "You love him, do you not?"
"Yes..." Loki replied, not looking into Thor's eyes as it was hardly something she wanted to admit, despite how it was quite clear that it was love that had Loki engulfed.
"Is this not the perfect bound between lovers?" Thor asked.
Loki let out a soft sigh, shaking her head a little, as she had no idea whether she agreed with Thor. Her hand moved up to her forehead. "I can't stay like this for nine months..." she spoke, looking up at Thor.
"You can," Thor spoke. "You were a hor-"
"Sh!" Loki replied, letting out a sigh. "I want... I want to be with Tony, but..."
"It may seem too soon, Loki, but maybe it's exactly what you need," Thor stepped closer, pulling his sister into a hug, which was a little strange, before kissing her forehead. "Congratulations. Now go and tell Tony before he drinks all the alcohol he owns."
And this was the hardest part, of course. Well, the hardest part in close proximity. Loki hesitantly stepped towards the kitchen, where Tony was filling what was probably his second glass of scotch. Tony looked up when she entered and took a sip, before letting the question sink into his face, eyebrows raising slightly.
"Anyone going to tell me what's going on?" he asked Loki, who slowly stepped closer. Thor stayed back out of respect, though could see them and was probably listening in.
"It's not that bad," Loki said, as Tony was continuously sipping his drink.
"You are certainly making it seem that bad," Tony said and the frustrated tone didn't go unnoticed. Loki could hardly blame him for it. "Since when do you have such difficulty finding the right words?"
"Since I don't have a clue what your response might be," Loki said, realizing that for all she knew Tony might be out of her life if this wasn't what he wanted. And one thing was clear: it wasn't Tony's thing to want children. That obviously meant the chances were that Tony wouldn't want to have anything to do with this.
"Well, if you don't tell me, you'll never find out."
"Right," Loki said and she stepped closer to Tony, taking hold of one of his hands, before going on. "When we made love, we were doing more than sharing our feelings. We were creating a bond."
"Yes," Tony said, though clearly still had no clue where this was going, which made the Engineer only more nervous.
"A bond that might not be everlasting. I am not known to be loyal, after all," she spoke, with a quiet dread in her tone of voice. Hopefully Tony would be determined to prove her wrong on this one, but that wasn't the point of this conversation. "A bond that might wither, but simultaneously will always live on. Now."
"Loki, you're even worse with the riddles than usual," Tony stated.
"I carry a child. Yours." That should be clear enough for him to get it.
