It's been five days since that day…
'If you just tell me that you love me Ran… I won't go…'
The last day that I can be with him… Rei…
Ran is staring blankly at the ceiling. Five days have passed and all she did is lie in her bed thinking about the regretful thing she did… and that is letting go the person she loved… Rei.
This is the very first time that she really felt something special for someone. And she didn't expect that it would be like this… so painful… that she has to experience something like this.
She turned to the other side… cuddling her pillow right next to her.
She let him go even if she didn't really want to. She hurt him. She let him be with other person's arm. And she feels hurt just thinking about it. If only she realized that Rei already loved him from the start then this things won't happen. Things wouldn't turn out like this
Tears fall from her eyes again. "I missed him…" she whispered. "… so much…"
How she wanted to feel him again… to be with him again there at his apartment… or in the park… or everywhere… anywhere just to be with him. She wanted to take care of him again… to joke with him… to laugh with him… and to love him over and over…
But how can that be possible again… They can't be together now… Now that she let him go…
Ran's hugged tightens on her pillow as she curled herself on the bed.
"It's all my fault… I'm so sorry…" she whispered.
She wanted to forget about everything. But when she tried to… she longed for him. She wants to see him again… to see Rei again. She feels so helpless. She can't do anything now. She finished everything with just two words… the unfinished words she was about to say to him. "… I don't…"
Sunrise hits her eyes, but she didn't even move… even one single muscle. She really can't get up. She feels so weak.
Weeping and tranquility might surround her on this day again when her door slammed on the wall creating a big sound, that everyone in that place can hear, breaks it.
"Where is she?" someone said. She tried to get up to see the commotion from her door. She try to open her eyes and see the individual in front of her, Mami.
"There you are freak…" said Mami, glaring at her.
"What are you doing here, Mami?" she softly said. Even speaking is too much for her.
"What am I doing?" Mami growled, as she marched towards her and grabbed her collar. "You're asking me on what am I doing?" She shook Ran. "Isn't that my line???"
Yuuya hurried to his girlfriend to stop her. "Mami, you know… now is not the right time for this…"
She smacked Yuuya on his face that throws him out of the room. "Then when will be the right time?" she growled again.
Miyu came for Yuuya, "Are you alright?" Good thing Ran's parent and siblings are not home. She's the only one left there to take care of Ran. And she didn't even notice that Mami and Yuuya came.
"I guess…" Yuuya said as stars surrounds his head. "By the way Miyu," Yuuya said when he's completely conscious. "… Sorry for intruding here all of a sudden without even telling you." She looked at her girlfriend who was like trying to kill Ran at the moment. "… When we heard about it from Yamato at the police station, Mami hurried here that I can't stop her. She's really upset you know."
Miyu nodded. "It's okay Yuuya… I understand how Mami feels right now… And we're all just the same…"
"Stop it Mami…" Ran smacked Mami's hands away. "… I'm no t in the mood to argue." She was about to lie again when Mami took her collar again and sat her up.
"Listen you…" Mami said, and this time, she's serious. Ran stared at her glares.
"Look at yourself Ran! This is not you! This is not very you…" she said angrily. "… What are you doing? Weeping on the things you've done?? You are never like that?? You're always sure to yourself. You never regret anything you did!!!"
Ran deeply stared at Mami's eyes, as if she's trying to listen in every word she says.
"You've never regret anything… Even if you did something wrong… you never felt sorry for it! And that's what I like about you… I like competing with you because of that spirit you have. You're always strong… no one can let you down… not even this!!!"
Even though Mami knew that it is really painful for Ran to let go of Rei, she has to say something. She has to convince her… right at this very moment. She will never let her rival-in-everything be like this. And she'll do everything for it.
"Mami…" whispered Miyu.
"Mami is affected too…like us…" Yuuya said. "… Don't' worry Miyu… I think Mami knows what she's doing… And knowing my girlfriend, she won't give up." Yuuya smiled at Miyu. Miyu smiled back. She kinda felt jealous towards Mami right now. Only Mami can do something for Ran at a time like this. Coz she can't for now, she can't be one-sided, when two of her best friends are involve in an awkward situation.
'I'm counting on you Mami…' Miyu thought.
Mami tightens her grip on Ran's collar. "I won't let my rival be like this… or my friend to be acting like this. It was very stupid!!! You really are stupid Ran."
Ran looked down. Mami's right, she never regretted anything. When she decides, she means it. But this time is different; she knew that she really regret it... she knew that she wanted to turn back time and do things in the right way. She feels confused.
Ran took a deep breath. "You can't understand Mami…"
"What is it that I can't understand huh? What is it Ran?"
Ran glared at her. "Forget it…" she somehow, became irritated on her.
"No! I won't, unless you tell me…" Mami said.
"I said…" Ran smacked Mami's hand on her collar again. "You can't understand… because you're an idiot!!!" She stood from her bed and pointed at Mami.
Mami, immediately stood "Who's an idiot you jerk???" she shouted at her.
"Oh-OH! Do you think this is a good idea Yuuya???" Miyu asked worryingly, as the two gals argue with insulting words.
"I guess..." Yuuya chuckled as he thought 'OH NO! I knew things would turn out like this…'
"If you really want to settle this for once, then let's go outside!!!" Mami challenged her. "I won't be easy for you even if you're not on a good mood to argue."
Ran chuckled. "You're challenging me again Mami??? I warn you, I won't get easy on you." Ran said as her eyes blazed with fire.
"Count me on that, idiot."
And when they were about to make their fighting positions, Ran's stomach growled. They both looked idiotically at Ran's stomach.
Ran suddenly chuckled. "I'm sorry about this Mami, but it means that I can't accept your challenge for now." She headed towards the door, passing on Mami and ignoring her.
"What??? Are you saying that you surrendered? I'm warning you Kotobuki… I'll take Shibuya away from you…"
Ran turned around again and smiled at her. "Thank you Mami."
Mami, realizing what she meant, smiled back at her. "Anytime…" and gave her thumbs up.
Ran nodded and went outside.
Miyu looked at Ran who passes by in front of her. She sure is, somehow, back to herself and that is all thanks to Mami. She turned to Mami again as she approached her aching boyfriend.
"Sorry about that Yuuya… I'm just carried away."
"It's okay Mami… I know you really didn't mean it."
"Thank you Mami…" said Miyu out of the blue. "If it wasn't for you, Ran wouldn't get back to herself again. I know that it's my responsibility to help her recover from any problem she faced but now… " she was cut off when Mami squeezed her hands. "You don't have to Miyu… I know you're in an awkward situation. So I came here to help… Coz it's my pleasure to treat Ran that way… And I won't hesitate to do it!!!" she winked at her.
Miyu's eyes met with worry "Yeah. I know… but thanks anyway…"
'She's sure that she really wants to beat Ran at any cost…' she thought.
Miyu stood from the ground "Come on… I cook breakfast so why not join Ran and me."
The couple nodded at her and the four of them ate breakfast together.
After breakfast, Ran, Miyu and Yuuya went out. She asked them to accompany her again in wandering Shibuya. "I LOVE SHIBUYA!!!" she shouted. "SHIBUYA… YOU'RE QUEEN IS BACK!!! I'M HERE!!! YOOOHOOOO!" Everyone looked at her.
"Ran… What are you doing?" Miyu asked as she feels embarrassed.
"What are you so embarrassed about? I'm doing this for several years Shibuya but you're still bothered about it?"
"That's right… but still…"
"Gosh!!! It's been so long…" she said and look around. "I really miss this city…"
"Yeah! That's right Ran… it's really been a long time… but now that you're back… We should be having fun!!!" Yuuya suggested. Mami permitted Yuuya to join the two gals… Coz she knew that Ran needs them more than her, just for now.
Ran turned to Yuuya with a surprised in her looks. "That's right!!! Let's go to a karaoke."
"Let's go!!!" they all cheered.
I know that this will just be temporary. I can't forget about him, not even a second. And I already know that… but I gave so much agonizing on my friends and I don't want them to be worried about me. So for the meantime, just for my friends, I'll enjoy this time with them. Until I can hold back the tears that'll surely come out when I think of him… Rei.
Ran, Miyu and Yuuya went to a karaoke bar like what Ran had said. They enjoy it. They sing and dance like nothing has happened.
What is he doing right now? Is he laughing? Talking? Eating? Or what? I wonder what he's doing right now?
Yuuya bids goodbye to the two Gals after the karaoke.
"Since no guy is with us… Why don't we…" They looked at each other with excitement and cheered "… Shopping!!!"
The gals hurried to the mall and did what they planned to. They buy all the girly stuffs they want. They enjoyed themselves wearing and trying new clothes… buying jewelries… new accessories and for fashions. Shopping was really fun for the girls… coz that was Gals like them wants.
It's kinda odd for us to shop with only the two of us… since we're always together, the three of us… changing ideas for fashion, accessories or even jewelries. We're always enjoyed shopping… the three of us. Me, Miyu and… Aya.
But now… I know… that this is not the right time for us to spend time together… coz things are still difficult…too difficult that we can't even see each other.
But I hope that this time… she's happy and satisfied.
"I have to go now Ran…" Miyu asked. "Are you sure you're alright Ran?"
"Of course I do! Why would I be not?" she lied. She knew that when she's all alone, she can't promise to be ok. Now that she never really feel fine.
Miyu smiled. "Well then… good luck Ran."
And now she's all alone, waiting for the train to come. She really wants to be home now and lie in her bed. She sighed. Good thing there's Mami, Yuuya and Miyu… coz if it wasn't for them… she would end up boring herself in her room. She smiled at her thoughts. 'I really am glad to have my friends with me.'
The train came and the door opened in front of her. And when she was about to go all the way inside, she saw him with her. Her eyes widen.
Aya is hugging Rei on his waist. She froze at her place. She can't even move but just stared at them.
Her mouth was left open when Rei saw her at the entrance, staring at them. His eyes widen too. She can see her in that awkward position. Aya's hugging him and cuddling her head in his chest.
They stared at each other's eyes, shocked. Ran can't breathe. It seems as if she's losing air. She doesn't know how to feel at that time. In her eyes, they are acting like a sweet couple. It tears her heart apart as she looked at them. They seem so happy.
Ran and Rei can't utter a word. It's like their voice are gone.
But she decided… she has to let go. She let him go. So she doesn't have the right to feel hurt anymore. Now that they can never be together anymore
She nodded at herself and closed her eyes… looked down and stepped back from the train. She didn't even want to see what's inside that train anymore. The train's door closed and disappeared in front of her.
The train had left her already, but she didn't even move at her place. She's still thinking of that moment. "I know…" she whispered. A tear fell from her eyes "… I know…"
Rei is still speechless. The train already left the station where Ran is.
How he wanted to throw his arms around her again at that moment. It's been five days since he last saw her and it feels like a hundred years for him. He wanted to be with her again. He wanted to see her again… and love her again. Rei let out a big sigh.
Aya heard it and looked at him. "Rei? What is it?" she smiled at him.
Rei smiled back and shook his head. "It's nothing…"
"Okay!"
"Aya…" Rei called her. "… Can we go home now?"
Morning came but Rei's still in his bed. He's living with the Otohata now.
Rei's still thinking what happen yesterday at the train. He saw Ran again. It's good to see her again. "Ran…" he uttered.
"Big Brother!!!" suddenly someone entered his room, without him noticing. It's Rayven, her little sister. The girl climbed up his brother's bed and shook him. "Get up brother, mommy's worried about you!!! Let's eat breakfast now!! Please Big Brother…"
Rei chuckled. Somehow, this little sister of him eases the stresses he felt. "Alright… I'll be up in a minute…"
Rayven pouted. "No minute… right now!!!" she scolded her brother.
"I guess I have no choice ma'am… but big brother needs a kiss from his princess to get up."
Realizing what her big brother meant, Rayven jumped on her brother and kissed her many times. "Is that enough, big brother?"
"Hmmm… for now I guess…" And they laugh together.
Rayven climb down her brother's bed. "Okay… I'll wait for big brother at breakfast! But is big brother really feeling fine? Coz last night… big brother just came home but didn't say a word." She asked with worried eyes.
Rei smiled at her sister and pinched her cheeks softly. "I'm fine princess, Big brother is very fine."
"Alright!" Her sister cheered. "I'll tell mom, dad and sister Reika what Big brother have said coz they really are worried for you." And she run and left him.
Rei lied back on his bed. He brushed his hair with his fingers. "Oh Ran… if only…"
Rei pretended that he's feeling fine in front of his family. He doesn't want them to be worried for him also. He can't buy that especially with her little sister. Seeing his family in a good condition and complete is somehow, making him feel fine.
After breakfast, Rei went out. Aya and he got nothing to do today so he went out alone. He wants to be alone for now. He wants to reminisce… the moments they shared… him and Ran. He missed her so much… but the only thing they can be together now is memories…
But even so… just to feel her… he wants to feel her even just like that.
Rei first went to where they first met… that street where they first met.
Girl, it's been so long
Since I held you in my arms
So I picked up pen and paper
And decided to write you a song
She was so cute back then that he can't stop teasing her. He smiled. That's the very first time he saw her, and he already fell for her. She's so beautiful. She may be loud that he hate from most girls but her being loud makes her cuter.
He tightened his grip. If only he could turn back time, he'll confess to her at that very moment.
Things just ain't the same
Since you took your love away
All I have is dark and lonely days
Cuz the sun don't shine my way
How he wanted to see her again… that cute face again that will make him fall for her over and over again…
And tell her how much he loved her even if it takes a million times…
Wish that I can find the words
To say to show you love is real
The words just can't express the way I feel
Next, he went to the amusement park where he and Ran had their first so-called-date-for-him and where they last spent it before they bid goodbye to each other.
Rei saw a bunny that has the same feature as that one he gave her. He smiled. 'I hope that you really kept it Ran…' he said in his thoughts.
Then he saw the machine where Ran and he took pictures, just the two of them, for the very first time. He took his cell phone from his pocket and look at its back. It's kinda odd for stoic guys like him to do this, but he can't help it. He really liked the picture posted on his cell. He touched it by his thumb and smiled. He was holding Ran's shoulder there and they were very close, smiling…
You're my angel
My sun up in the sky
We've been through hell and back together
Why you wanna leave me now
Only you can ease the pain I feel
And wipe my tears away
Won't you fly back home and make me whole again
As he looked around, he saw the Ferris wheel. After a few minutes, Rei is already riding it. He watched the sunset. He closed his eyes and leaned his forehead on the window. He imagined Ran laughing, running, and calling him while the sunset hits her and makes her shine beautifully.
Rei smiled softly. She's always been beautiful to him. But when will he see that beautiful face again? He took his seat, relax his self and think of her again.
"I missed you… Ran." He said.
Baby not a day goes by
That I don't want to cry
When I think of what we had
And how you walked out of my life
"Brother Rei!!!" the children called out. He went to the orphanage next. Ran was the very first person he took there. That's because she's very special to him.
"Huh? Brother Rei's girlfriend is not with him?" The children asked as the gloom on their faces showed.
Rei frowned. The children, like him, already love Ran in a little time they spent together.
This orphanage means a lot for the both of them. This is the first time that someone acknowledged them as couple. It really felt good for him though, even though it's just a lie.
All I had was yours to take
Till my heart you chose to break
Still wish that I can make love to you
Just one more time for old times sake
Rei looked around the orphanage. Every corner of this has a memory of her for him… the backyard where they use to play… the dining room where they spent meals with the children… the living room where they use to chitchat or tell stories with them… everywhere… everywhere in this place has memories of them… together.
If only I could find the words
To say to show you love is real
The words just can't express the way I feel
Rei looked up at the sky. "I want to see her…" he muttered. "… right now…"
"Mom… can I help you there?" Ran said as she approached her mom in the kitchen.
Her mom blinked several times. "Really?"
Ran nodded and tried to fix the washing area. "I might help you in washing the dishes mom."
"It's kinda rare honey… helping me with the chores?"
Ran grinned at her mom. "It's okay mom… I've got nothing to do by the way… so what do you want me to do?"
Ran's mom chuckled for a bit then pointed at the paper bags near the stove. "Can you fix those groceries I bought?"
Ran nodded and headed to the paper bags. She took the vegetables and fruits on the fridge while the canned goods on the cabinet. And as she looked closer to the paper bag, something make her pause…a box of chocolate.
Her mom looked at her and realized that she stopped. She saw her holding a box of chocolate. "Your father asked me to buy that. Do you want it sweetie?"
Ran didn't reply. She didn't even heard what her mom just said. This box of chocolates made her remember the chocolates she made for Rei. He liked it of course, and he was so thankful for it.
Ran's mom tapped her shoulder. "Are you alright sweetie? If you're too tired to help, it's okay. I can handle things here."
Ran shook her head and smile on her mom. "No mom, I'm okay. I'll just put this on the fridge so it won't melt." Then she did what she said.
You're my angel
My sun up in the sky
We've been through hell and back together
Why you wanna leave me now
Only you can ease the pain I feel
And wipe my tears away
Won't you fly back home and make me whole again
After the chore is done, Ran went back to her room. She headed towards the table to get something but instead, her eyes softened. She saw Rei's bag with an R.O labeled on it and the bunny beside it. She took the bag from the table. It's been a long time since this became her belonging. She snatched this on Rei's shoulder when they first met. She chuckled. She did it to boast on her friends. This bag of him has been with her for a very long time. And she'll keep it. For this is a memory of him…
Suddenly, the wind from the outside stopped her thoughts. "It's cold" she whispered and saw that her window is open. "I should close it before my room became an igloo." She joked and walked towards it. And when she was about to close the window, she noticed someone standing near the pole. And as she looked closer her heart beats faster.
It's Rei.
Ran took a deep breath. It really is Rei beside the pole. But why?
Come back home
Rei is standing there… watching her… looking at her… and longing for her. Just by looking at her from the window, it makes him want to jump there at her window and hug her tightly that she can't go anywhere.
"Ran…" he muttered.
Come back home
Ran's face softens. "Oh Rei…"
Her heart can't stop from beating. Maybe, she really missed this person. Or she really did miss this person.
Right now, all she can think of is hugged him… and tell him that she loves him back over and over.
Cuz without you here beside me, girl
They stared at each other, eye to eye, hearts can't stop from pumping and panting as if looking at each other is breath taking. They really missed each other… longing for each others' warmth… How difficult it is to see the one you love but you can't do anything to feel that person again…
My house is not a home
If only they met in a different way… things would probably be easy for them.
Only you can ease the pain I feel
"Come back to me Ran…" Rei whispered. He wanted to say it out loud so that Ran can hear it but he won't.
And wipe my tears away
Ran leaned closer to the window to see more of him. "Oh Rei… How I want to be with you again…"
Won't you fly back home
But it's now very impossible for Ran. Things will never be the same again for them. Ran had already decided. She has to forget about him.
And for Rei to realize it, she smiled at him as he smiled back. But to Rei's disappointment, as his smile turned into a frown, Ran shook her head, saying that they can't be together for now. And so, she closed the window which Rei's only way to see her.
And make me whole again
Ran slide her back on the window and sat helplessly on the ground. Tears that are meant to flow a while ago came. It's very difficult. It's very difficult to hurt the one you love the most. She can't even tell him how she feels about him.
Coz you're my angel
My sun up in the sky
She took Rei's bag beside her and hugged it tightly. She buried her face on it and cried. "Sorry… But I really love you… I love you so much… I love you Rei… so much"
We've been through hell and back together
Why you wanna leave me now
Rei panted for breath. It hurts! It hurts to see the one you love is hurting too. If he didn't tell her his feelings, maybe things won't be worst than it is now.
She glanced on the now closed window again. But seeing her once again is enough for him. Just a glance… is enough.
"I love you… don't you forget that… Ran…" he whispered and left the place with a slight disappointment in his face.
Only you can ease this pain I feel
And wipe my tears away
Won't you fly back home and make me whole again
Rei opened the door for his apartment. Even though he already left the place, he still has the key. He examined the now empty apartment. This place is the most memorable place of them together. He imagined him and Ran playing around the apartment, doing tutorial together… eating every meal that both of them cook… and the moment when she kissed Ran on his forehead because of the chocolates she gave him.
You're my angel
My sun up in the sky
We've been through hell and back together
Why you wanna leave me now
Only you can ease the pain I feel
And wipe my tears away
And as he imagined the table at the center of the living room, he saw Ran there… sleeping. He chuckled. Even Ran on his imagination is very beautiful.
He leaned on the wall and slid himself to the ground. He sat and took his cell from his pocket. He looked at his and Ran's picture at the back of it. He touched it again and stared at Ran. His face turned into a frown.
You've been gone too long
So won't you come back home
"Come back to me… please…Ran…"
Yiiiipppeee!!! So I really did it!!! It's almost a year and a half since I last updated… sorry about this everyone… being a 3rd year college is really difficult that I can't even update or write fiction… this fiction was done in two days… And I didn't double checked it…. Because I really want to update right now… so please… just tell me if you didn't understand something and I'll make something about it… okei??? Just leave a review…
And I know that you'll hate Aya more because of this chapter…
And me too of course… coz u waited for a year and this was all u've got right???
But still I ope u like it!!!
And for those readers who sent reviews, I won't reply to you here in this chapter… coz I really want to post it right now… I'll just reply to u on the next chapter with ur next review…
BTW… the song I used in this chapter is "ANGEL" by Dru Hill.. it's a very good song… so u shud download it okie???
Better go now Minna… I'll be oping for your comments!!! ^8^
~cryptid_wonka~