Chapter 8
Callie and Arizona sat on the lounge, Arizona already had tears forming in her eyes as she knew what this was all about seeing Sofia's little Dora pack sitting on the floor.
"Callie, you can't please don't take her away from me, I've already lost you I couldn't cope if you took her away too." Arizona sobbed.
Callie grabbed both of Arizona's hands in her own trying to calm Arizona
"Arizona, Sofia and I are going away for awhile we will be coming back but I just don't know when"
"Please Callie" Arizona begged.
"I have to Arizona, I have to I need to get out of Seattle for awhile to clear my head and I'm taking Sofia this whole situation is not far on her please understand Arizona. I'm not doing this to punish you please believe that but I know it's for the best right now."
"Can't you just stay here we will work it out together and if you need space or time it's all yours but you're not taking her away from me" Arizona sobbed.
Sofia came running back into the lounge room with her colouring pencils, glue and the "Story of us" book.
"Why you sad Momma?" asked Sofia noticing Arizona was crying she reached up to give Arizona a hug. Arizona wiped away the tears and picked her daughter up giving her a tight cuddle.
"Nothing for you to worry about baby, Momma's ok, how about we stick the photo in the book and decorate the page we can do it together" Arizona said kissing her daughter on the head."
"I help draw?"
"Yes baby you can draw a picture of anything you want"
"I draw a picture of Momma and Sofia" both Mother and daughter smiled at each other and begin adding a new chapter to the "Story of us"
Callie got up and left giving Arizona some alone time with Sofia as she made her way to the bedroom she was on the verge of tears she then made her way to the bed and sat on the edge now the tears were starting to fall freely, she hated that it's come to this and she would never take Sofia away from Arizona she'll always be Sofia's Momma but she knew she had to do this.
After a bit Callie made her way back to the lounge room she could here Sofia and Arizona talking and laughing Sofia noticed Callie was in the room so she ran up to her excitedly to show Callie the new chapter in the book on double pages. There was a photo of Arizona and Sofia, Sofia had drawn a picture which she clams it is her and her Momma and Arizona has traced her hand on the next page and then traced Sofia's hand in the middle of her own hand, Arizona had written
"Sofia and Momma foreva" with love hearts around it and "Momma loves you princess Sofia"
"That's beautiful" Callie told Sofia then looking towards Arizona trying not to cry again.
"Baby Mami needs to talk to Momma so can you please go pack a bag of toys and books and when you finished we need to have a little talk"
"Ok Mami, can I pack this holding up "The Story Of Us"
"Of course baby, whatever you want" Callie sighed
Once Sofia was out of the room Callie turned to Arizona who was crying again.
"Arizona please understand why I'm doing this"
"I can't Callie, I know I fucked up bad but it doesn't have to come to this" Arizona sobbed.
"I'm sorry but it does I have to think of Sofia and myself I need to put us first and the only way I can do that is leave for awhile" Callie tried to tell Arizona but she wasn't having any part of it.
"No Callie it's not happening, who says you're not going to come back huh! How about you leave Sofia here with me?"
"We will come back I promise you that but i just don't know when, and no Sofia is coming with me no matter what" Callie told her wife or soon to be ex wife.
"Were you going?"
"That doesn't matter right now, but I will let Sofia Skype and call you, you want be able to contact me on my phone but if it's an emergency you can email me and I'll get Sofia to ring you when we get to our destination to let you know we arrived safely " Callie said.
"So what your taking my daughter away for god knows how long and you want even tell me where your going or I can't even contact my daughter whenever I want to say hello? This is bullshit Callie, so what am I meant to do just sit around and wait?" Arizona was starting to get angry.
"That's exactly what I'm asking"
"This is shit I would never do this to you." Arizona spat out between sobs and anger.
"But you did Arizona, this is all happening because you cheated not me, you" know Callie was getting angry.
"Fuck you Callie, Fuck you" Arizona spat out in spite.
"Fuck me are you kidding me, Can you hear yourself right now?" Callie said.
Before any of them could continue Sofia came back out.
"All done Mami"
"Good girl baby" Callie said.
"Come here baby" Arizona said reaching out for Sofia so she could lift her up on her lap, holding her close maybe just a little bit too tight as well. She looked at her daughter in the eyes while tucking a lock of her hair behind her ear.
"Sofia, Momma loves you so much don't ever forget that ok I love you" hugging her daughter even closer.
"Baby, you and Mami are going on a big holiday for awhile ok and I will miss you so much but you can call me anytime you want ok baby, I love you so much" Arizona was trying not to cry but little tears finally slipped down her face.
"Why you not come" the little girl asked Arizona
"I'm sorry baby I can't"
"But you promised Momma we would spend lots of time together you promised" the little girl as she started to cry.
"Please don't cry baby, I know I promised but I didn't know Mami had planned a holiday I'm sorry.
"Please momma come" the little girl sobbed.
"I would love more than anything to come but I just can't plus you are going to have so much fun with Mami"
"This sucks" Sofia said she knew it was a bad word and she shouldn't be saying it but she didn't care.
"Sofia enough with the language" Callie said but she knew she was right this whole situation did suck.
Callie looked over towards Arizona
"Maybe you should go before this gets any worse and you break her heart more" Callie told Arizona.
"Are you kidding me Callie, I'm not the one who is ripping her away from her Momma"
"That's enough, Sofia baby say goodbye to Momma we have to get ready"
"No Momma come, Momma stay" the little girl cried, Sofia was now gripping onto Arizona tighter.
"No Momma please Momma" the little girl cried.
"I'm sorry but I have to go I love you so much" hugging her daughter trying to get Sofia to release her, now everyone was crying.
"Arizona please can you just go?"
"Geez Callie back off I'm trying, I'm not leaving until she's calmed down"
"Come on baby look at me I love you and will see you very soon ok" Arizona kissed the top of Sofia's head.
"No you don't love me or you would come, I hate you Mami and Momma" with that the little girl stormed off to her room.
Both mothers sat there in shock at what their daughter had just said.
"Um did she just tell us she hates us" Callie asked now having second thoughts about going away, she hated seeing her daughter like this.
"I believe so" Arizona sighed.
"What are we doing? This is affecting her so much which I didn't attend it to and it's all my fault it's killing me Callie, I'm sorry for everything" Arizona cried.
"But I think I need to go, it's for the best" Arizona sobbed.
Callie was lost for words she didn't know what to say or do.
"Maybe you should but go and say goodbye to Sofia first"
"Yeah I attend too"
Arizona made her way into Sofia's room she was sitting on her bed crying looking though the "Story of Us" book, Sofia might have only been three but she was very smart and understands a lot of things. Arizona sat on the bed next to Sofia watching her look through the book.
"Hey baby"
Sofia ignored her and continued flicking through the book.
"Sofia sweetie Mami and I, love you very much and we don't want to hurt you like this but as adults sometimes we have to make big decisions and right now Mami and you have to go on a holiday ok I hope that or one day you will understand but Mami needs this and she knows best ok" Arizona told her daughter.
"Momma me sorry I don't hate you or Mami I'm just sad and don't want to leave you"
"I know baby, I know but you will be back before you know it and we can spend as much time as you want together and I promise you that no matter what ok"
Sofia nodded reaching up to cuddle Arizona.
"Sweetie Momma has to go now ok but you can ring me when you get to your holiday Mami said that you can ok"
"Come on let's go see Mami"
Arizona picked up her daughter and headed to the lounge room with a now calm Sofia. Arizona handed Sofia over to Callie.
"Mami me sorry I don't hate you I just sad I love you"
"Love you too Mija"
"Ok baby Momma's going now" Arizona gave Sofia one last hug and kiss
"Baby I'll talk to you really soon be good for Mami and have lots of fun I love you gorgeous girl"
"Love you too Momma"
Then Arizona handed Sofia back over to Callie again, Arizona wished Callie luck and took the chance and leaned in to kiss Callie on the cheek telling both her girls she loved them and wished them both a safe trip the left the apartment with tears streaming down her face. She was a miss she stood outside the closed apartment door trying to compose herself all she wanted to do is go back in and grab Sofia and never let go this was destroying her and it was all her fault.
Callie and Sofia were both crying with Callie hugging Sofia close.
"I miss Momma already"
"I know baby me too, but hey we will be back before you know it" Callie kissed her daughter head before putting her down
"Come on baby we have a plane to catch very soon"
Once Callie and Sofia had got all their things together Callie ordered a taxi and they headed to the airport, on the way to the airport Callie decided to text Arizona.