All or Nothing

6

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Scully peered through the glass before her. It had been two days since Mulder was shot in the back and he was transfered to the nearest hospital under heavy guard. Scully's eyes were slightly red as she stared upon Mulder's sleeping form, strapped and guarded. How on Earth could he have come to this?

"Scully?" Scully heard a familiar voice and turned to see Skinner walking towards her.

"Sir?" She was tired.

"How is he? How are you?" Skinner asked stopping next to her and peering in at Mulder.

"I'm ok Sir, Mulder on the other hand, I don't know what's got into him, why he kidnapped me and why he has changed so much." Scully sighed. "I don't know him anymore." Skinner looked sideways at her and pursed his lips.

"He never told you did he?" He asked, already knowing the answer.

"Told me what Sir?" Scully asked looking at him. Skinner stared at her.

"What a mess he was after you left?" Skinner replied looking back at Mulder.

"I don't understand." Scully also looked in at Mulder.

"Scully after you left, Mulder wasn't the same. He became irrational, misjudging situations and he became angry with fellow agents causing more fights than I have seen in all my years at the bureau. It was like life was taken out from underneath him" Skinner finished. Scully looked at him stunned.

"No, he never told me." Scully said just audible enough for Skinner to hear.

"He loves you, you know" Skinner looked at her expression for a moment and noted something in her face that told him she might even feel something more for Mulder, more that she's not letting on. He placed a hand on her arm. "Let him know how you really feel so he can move on," was all he said before he left her alone. Scully took in Skinners words as she looked at Mulder's sleeping form.

"Oh Mulder..." She whispered, just then she saw his eyes slowly open and his hands move. "Here goes." Scully moved into the room and asked the guards for some privacy for a few minutes. Scully stepped closer to the bed but not too close. Mulder swallowed and focused his eyes on her.

"Scully? Where am I? What happened?"

"I could ask you the same thing"

"I don't understand..." He pulled at his cuffed hands. "Please untie me, so I can leave"

"No Mulder, you are in custody for kidnapping an FBI Agent. After you heal from your gunshot wound, you will be moved to the local prison and stand trial, they tell me if you are lucky you will get a minimum of 5 years." Scully shook her head. "What happened to you Mulder?" Scully was torn inside, she felt things for this man but she also loved her husband to be.

"What happened to me Scully? You happened to me, you came into my world and made me feel things I never thought I could feel and then you ripped it all away, right out from underneath me. So I'm sorry if I have changed but remember I am not the only one" He accused her, turning his head away from her. Scully felt a pang in her chest, anger and tears mixed throughout her body. Why was everything with this man so hard. Scully swallowed hard.

"You should have told me you loved me." She said quietly. Mulder didn't look at her.

"I tried, you just didn't listen."

"Listen? You never said anything! A simple 'I love you Scully' would have been nice" Scully fummed. Thats when he looked at her, square in the eyes and she felt her heart stop for a moment.

"I love you Scully, I always have." Mulder saw something in her eyes, he could have swore it was something more than what she felt for her husband to be. Scully pursed her lips trying to hold back tears, she couldn't cope with this right now. Suddenly she started to back away.

"I have to go." Was all she said.

"Scully wait... Please, I'm sorry" Mulder pleaded but she had turned.

"You should have told me a long time ago, maybe then you could have had me." Scully replied as she walked out the door.

"Scully, come back! Scully! Damn it!" Mulder pulled sharply at the restraints. He let out a breath. He stared at the ceiling for a long while thinking. He would have her back, maybe not now but soon... that was one thing he was sure of.

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A/N

I am so sorry for the wait on all stories.

I have had such a mind block!

So hopefully the next chapter will be quicker

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Thanks for reading everyone!