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I'm Not Used To This Kind of Pain
Within the first ten minutes of the ride we had to stop at a gas station for food. I was hungry like you wouldn't even believe.
Seth helped me out of the car and we both went into the gas station with Bella and Edward as Trace filled up the car.
"What do you want?" Seth asked me.
"Just a bag of chips and a soda…" I trailed off as I looked around. Seth looked at me a little bit stunned.
"That's it?" He seemed a bit shocked.
"Uh… yeah." I said to him as I pulled what looked like a Costco Extra-Family sized bag of sour cream and onion chips down from a shelf and skipped back to the fridges in the back of the store. I then pulled out a two liter bottle of Dr. Pepper.
"Oh. Now I see." Seth said with a smile and I laughed with him.
He ended up getting two packages of powdered doughnuts, a jug of chocolate milk, a pint of Ben & Jerry's Phish food and basically bought out the entire candy aisle. I just shook my head as I watched Edward pay for it all. Seth just shrugged at me and when we walked out of the store we saw the other cars pull into the gas station.
"If you don't mind, I have to talk with Carlisle for a second before we get going again." Seth said to Trace.
"Yeah, of course." Trace nodded, and we watched as Edward went with Seth over to Carlisle's car. I watched as they started to talk among themselves and I suddenly felt a cold hand on my shoulder. I looked over, and saw Bella smiling at me sadly.
"What's wrong Bella?" I asked her, immediately sensing that something was wrong.
"Oh, it's nothing about me Jetta. Calm down…" She smiled at me again.
"Then what is it?" I asked her slowly.
"I just hoped that no one would ever have to go through what I did. Trust me, the Volturi isn't to be underestimated. They will kill you and your child if they are given the opportunity. No matter what you have to do, do not let them have that opportunity. It's one thing to know that everything will hopefully work out, like in my case. But for you, I don't see things getting better for a long time." Bella said to me.
"Well that's a great thing to hear." I muttered under my breath.
"That's not what I was going for. But Jetta, you have to understand that we will never let you get hurt. You are with Seth now and that makes you part of the family. I know what you are going through, and I'll help you in any way I can to try and stop all of this from happening." She said to me again and then wrapped me up in her cold arms in a gentle hug.
I was a bit stunned for a second… Seth had really been the only person to hug me in… well… a long time. Let's put it that way. And to have someone tell me that I was part of their family and hug me, that was just a little weird for me. But for some reason, I lifted my arms and gently hugged her back. Like a friend would.
"Thank you Bella." I said to her softly as I pulled back. She nodded and then opened the car door and got into the back again. I closed the door behind her and leaned against it with my back. I looked around at where Seth was still conversing with Carlisle and the others, in what looked like a very intense way. And then I saw the girls coming over to me from the gas station store, tons of food in their arms.
"Oh My God! That was amazing!! Jetta! Look at all my food!!!" Danny screeched at me. I nodded to her and walked towards them.
"Yeah… I'll bet that guy in there is one happy man." I said and nodded towards the gas station store window. We could see the confused, but grateful look on the man's face. We all chuckled to ourselves and then looked around. The guys didn't really seem like they were going to be done talking any time soon.
"Well I'm tired of standing." I said loudly and sat down in my place on the pavement.
"Me too." Shawn said and collapsed on the ground next to me. The rest of the girls followed and we all just sat there and acted like we weren't sitting in the middle of a gas station drive way. I opened my chips and passed them around, and in return I got some candy from each of the girls. It was finally after all of the chips were gone that we started to get bored.
"What the hell are they talking about over there?!" I asked in an angry whisper.
"Who knows? But I'm bored! Let's have a contest!!!" Gibbs said to us all.
"Sure why not? It's not like we're going any where, any time soon." I sighed and lay down on my back.
"Okay… Let's see who can chug their drink the fastest!" Gibbs said to us and we all groaned. We all had at least 2 liters of drink in each bottle.
"Fine… Winner gets to choose the first bed where ever we end up!" Slater said and we all nodded.
"Cool cool! Let's do this!!" Gibbs smiled at all of us and we all opened our sodas and they fizzled a little over the top.
"Ready?" Gibbs asked and I took a deep breath and stared at my Dr. Pepper.
"I'm sort stomach." I said out loud.
"Go!" Gibbs said finally and I brought the bottle to my lips and tipped my head back all the way. I began swallowing all of the fizzy soda and my stomach started to feel funny but I focused on chugging it.
"Chug! Chug! Chug! Chug!" I heard Trace's voice laughing and then I heard two of the girls sputter and start laughing with him, but I continued to chug down my drink. I opened my eyes and saw that I only had a little bit left. I took a deep breath through my nose and then swallowed as fast as possible. When the bottle was empty I threw it as far as I could and let out a loud victory yell. Everyone started laughing.
"What???" I asked them as I hiccupped slightly.
"Makayla already won." Shawn laughed at me.
"Oh well. I feel accomplished now." I said to them as I patted my tummy. It felt all sloshy now and I knew I would be able to hear the liquid moving around if I started to run.
"Yeah, because it's every girl's great accomplishment to chug down a 2 liter bottle of Dr. Pepper." Slater sighed and played with the empty Sprite bottle in her hands.
"It is in my world." I said to her.
"Ah yes. And this is the same world where you turn into a giant dog I presume?" Slater said again and I maturely stuck my tongue out at her. She flipped me off and I returned it and tried to get up slowly. My stomach seemed to weigh a thousand pounds and as I got up I felt a warm arm wrap around my waist.
I looked over my shoulder at Seth who was smiling.
"Nice almost win." He said to me.
"Oh thanks. I try." I smiled back at him and then looked at the girls.
"I guess that I'll see you in a few hours." I said to them.
"Don't count on it! I'm planning on going straight through until we reach the West coast!" Trace said with a grin on his face.
"Easy for you to say! You don't have to sleep." Danny said to him and he started to laugh. We all chuckled and then went to our different cars. Edward got into the back again and then Seth and I got back into the middle seats. And once again we started to drive.
I settled in Seth's warm arms, trying to ignore the liquid in my stomach moving around in an unsettling manner.
"So what were you talking about anyway?" I asked Seth quietly. I felt him move a little and I looked up at his face. His expression was something like fear, but also sorrow and hesitation.
"It's nothing Jetta, don't worry about it." He said to me slowly.
"Psht. If there is anything I have learned in my life is to always worry. Now tell me." I said to him and he shifted uncomfortably again.
"Well… I was wondering to Dr. Cullen about what would happen if you just didn't have a child. We would be able to live without any interference with the Volturi. I'm completely happy without having a kid. You're all I need." He said to me with a slight smile on his face. But I could still see the sadness on his face. I sighed and twisted around a little bit so that I could wrap my arms around his waist and bury my face into his chest.
"I know what you're trying to do. And believe me, I understand. But Seth, I love you so much. And I know now that I want this child. I want to have your child. No matter what it takes, I will protect my child and I will always love you." I said to him and I heard a small sighing noise. I looked up at him and saw that tears were running down Seth's cheeks into my hair. I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed by sadness as well and I felt tears sting my own eyes. And so we sat there in the car, in silence, and in each other's arms. Crying for what seemed like forever.
.:*:.
I can't tell you when the last time I cried was before I met Seth. But I can tell you that the happiness that I found with him outnumbers all of the pain that he has brought. I wouldn't have traded any moment with him for anything in the world. He is my imprint, and my best friend, and my family. He is my everything. And even though it hurts, I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make sure that he stays with me for ever.
.:*:.
Apparently I fell asleep after we had our weeping fest, and I woke up in a sweat. Seth hadn't let go of me and he looked so peaceful. Even though it was completely dark in the car and the only light was coming from the lights on the dashboard.
I struggled to sit up a little more and look around. Bella was laying on Edward's chest in the back and I heard him humming a beautiful melody.
"Musical prodigy?" I asked him and he chuckled.
"To a point." He said to me in a quiet voice. I nodded and then looked at the front of the car. I saw that Trace had some ear buds in and was jamming out to a loud rap song on his IPod. Even though I should be worried about him because he was driving I didn't have the heart to tell him to stop rocking out. It was just too priceless. But when my gaze rested on Gemma I froze. She was looking out the front window with a terrified expression on her face.
"Gemma? Are you okay?" I asked her slowly. She seemed a little startled and her head snapped back to look at me.
"Oh, Jetta." She sighed, "I'm fine. Don't worry." She said to me.
"Does anyone know me!? God! I'm pretty sure that I already said that I always worry. Now tell me what the hell is wrong!" I snapped at her in a whisper. She took a deep breath and nodded at me.
"Well… I'm just afraid." She said to me and I nodded.
"Don't think you're the only one." I muttered to her and she sighed.
"Jetta, you don't understand. I already escaped the Volturi once in my life. They are terrible vampires Jetta. The things they do to humans is both disgusting and merciless. I escaped them with barely my life, and I hoped that I would never ever have to come into contact with them again." She said to me. Realization hit me like someone had slapped me.
"You… You what?" I asked her with a stutter in my voice.
"I know what you must be thinking Jetta. Especially now since you are in such grave danger. But I escaped for a reason. I didn't want to live like them. I left so I could protect people from them." She said to me with a pleading look on her face. I was breathing fast and I nodded jerkily.
"I understand… I think." I breathed quickly.
"Please, please try to, Jetta. I don't want any harm to come to you or anyone else. But I'm not sure if I can handle hiding from them again. I'm scared that they will find me and kill not only all those I've protected, but also me. I've betrayed the Volturi and I don't know how all of this is going to play out. I'm scared Jetta. For everyone's lives." She whispered to me and I couldn't remember how to breathe for a few seconds. Then the air came whooshing back to me in a rush.
"Gemma, I know that I haven't talked to you a lot… Actually, I haven't talked to you at all. But that doesn't mean I don't know what you're talking about. I'm afraid for Seth, and the girls, and hell, now that you've told me all that I'm afraid for you. But most of all, I'm afraid for this child that I'm going to have. It has no idea what sort of shit that it's going to be born into and I don't even know what it's importance is going to be in all of this. But Gemma, you have to understand that I will trust you with my child's life any day of the week." I said to her and she looked like she was about to start crying.
"Thank you Jetta." She said to me in a rasping voice that sounded like a dry sob.
"Oh I wasn't done yet." I said in fake offense and she smiled a little bit and I did as well.
"Gemma, I will trust you with my child as long as you trust yourself. I know that you'll do a good job I mean… Hell! You're freaking invincible! Even the best of mothers aren't invincible. But I know that you will be an excellent guardian. Just remember that." I said to her and she let out a dry sob again. I felt my throat close up and felt the unreal pain return to me as I tried to smile at her and leaned back into Seth's chest.
It grew quiet again after Gemma went back to staring out her window again and I focused on Seth's gentle breathing, when another musical voice spoke up.
"Jetta, if it's any use, I'm proud of you Jetta. I envy your bravery." Bella whispered to me. I sighed and nodded slowly.
"Thanks. If only I could actually feel it." I said to her shakily and then snuggled in closer to Seth's body. As if he realized this, his arms snared around my waist and I smiled to myself then slowly fell into sleep once again.
.:*:.
The next morning came faster than I had expected and we had all pulled in to another gas station only this one had a diner. Apparently we were somewhere in Illinois. Trace and the other vampire drivers had a knack for speed and we had reached Chicago by morning.
I sat at a booth with Slater and Makayla, with Seth right on my side and one arm around by my shoulders. Gemma and Trace sat in the booth behind me and every so often Gemma and I would catch glances and we would immediately find the understanding in each other's eyes. Seth threw me a couple of questioning looks but I ignored them and busied myself with shoveling more waffle into my face.
"I love food!" I heard Gibbs sigh through a mouthful of her sixth pancake. I laughed at her and then took a sip of orange juice and decided to talk to Makayla and Slater about what was going to happen. I mean come on! I was on a freaking role with all of these heart to heart, understandings that I had with everyone. Am I right? Yeah, I am.
"So, when it's time for Seth and I to leave for Alaska, I want you guys to stay with the other pack. I want you to help protect my baby." I said to them and they stopped eating and looked at me with their mouths open.
"What happened to sticking together?" Makayla asked with a piece of bacon hanging out of her mouth.
"Well…. I think that I want at least some part of me to be around to watch the kid grow up. I don't want it to smell completely of vampire stink. Do you?" I asked them with a raised eyebrow. Slater swallowed loudly and Makayla's eyes went wide.
"Oh don't look at me like that. You knew this was going to happen back at the house." I said to them, getting a little irritated now.
"Well yeah. But dude, we didn't expect you to exactly go with the flow so quickly." Slater said to me seriously. I shrugged at her.
"Well, my mind has sort of changed due to the fact that I now know that the Volturi is a serious force and I know that I want to have this child. Oh my god I'm sounding like a mother!" I said to myself with a small frown.
"Yes you are. And it's sort of freaking me out… I think I liked you better as an abusive mommy." Danny said as she walked by us to go to the omelet station.
"Who asked you?" I called back to her. She didn't turn around and I looked back at Slater and Makayla.
"Any way, I want to tell you guys that you are moving up in rank for now." I told them.
"So…. I'll be Alpha when you leave?" Slater asked slowly.
"That's traditionally how it works…" I said to her and suddenly there was the sound of someone dropping their plate.
"Say what?!" Someone shouted loudly. I looked over and saw Shawn looking at me with a horrified expression, "Did you just put my sister in charge? Are you insane?!" Shawn yelled at me and everyone in the diner was looking at us now.
"Dude, now is really not the time to be discussing this." Makayla said quietly as a bunch of locals looked at us with confused expressions.
"Enough said. Shawn, can we talk about this later?" I asked her in a tense voice.
"And by asking, I think that was a demand." Danny said as she walked by again with her plate loaded up with eggs and assorted ingredients.
"Yeah, basically." I nodded along with Danny. Shawn groaned angrily and then sat down again in her booth with the other girls.
We finished up breakfast and then got back into our separate cars and began driving again. For a few hours we all just talked. About everything we wanted to. Trace and I had an intense 'that's what she said' battle and that left everyone in our car in near hysterics, and after another couple of hours, Seth thought it would be funny to stick his head out of the window, with his tongue out… Like a dog. Obviously the vampires found that rather amusing, and don't get me wrong, I thought it was funny as hell. But I was a bit embarrassed when the people in the other cars on the freeway started to give us funny looks.
We stopped a few more times during the day and then night came again. I settled into Seth's arms, and unlike the night before, there weren't any tears, just silent, agonizing thoughts. I was sure that I would owe Edward at this point. I felt bad that he had to listen to me moaning about my intense problems and dilemmas of life.
"Don't worry about it. I've been there. I understand." I heard Edward whisper to me that night as I fell into sleep again. I was too tired to say thank you, but I was positive that he knew I was grateful. Now all I had to do was sort out the rest of the shit in my life…
Wish me luck….
.:*:.
By the second morning we had reached Wyoming, and after stopping for breakfast, Trace made a promise, I thought more to himself than anyone else, that we would reach La Push by night time. I didn't even want to bet against him… And I think by this point everyone knew I was a compulsive gambler.
But as promised, by the time the sun had been gone for at least three hours we drove past a small sign that said Welcome To Forks! I looked out the dark windows, trying to see some sort of building, but all I could make out was the dark, merging shapes of trees.
"Dear lord! Is there any sort of civilization here?" I asked myself and Bella chuckled.
"You get used to it." She said to me and I nodded slowly.
"I really don't think that would be possible, but whatever."I muttered and they chuckled again. After another twenty minutes everything changed. It was sort of weird, how I knew that we were finally there, and immediately Seth perked up and looked eager to get out of the car.
We drove along the same road for a little while and finally I saw some lights a little ways ahead. I squinted and saw some dark shapes. Only when we got closer I realized that they were people… Well…. Actually, they were extremely tall boys.
Trace stopped the car and slowly, Seth opened the door to the SUV and helped me out then we walked around the car and he immediately went over to the tallest man and grabbed him up in a big man hug. I looked at my side and saw that all of the girls had quickly joined my presence. We looked pretty damn good as a pack. I smirked to myself and then Seth turned around and smiled at me.
"Guys, this is Jetta. She's my imprint. And she is the Alpha of her pack." Seth said with a big smile on his face, and I felt the need to blush, but that was stalled when what looked like the two youngest boys started to laugh.
"What's so funny?" I asked them with a raised eyebrow.
"You're kidding me, right Seth? There is no way those girls are werewolves." One of them said. He was tall obviously and was quiet handsome with medium length black hair and a dark tan in the night.
"Wanna bet?" Danny stepped forward and asked with a growl. I put my hand on her shoulder firmly.
"I don't think they will believe you." I said to her.
"Well they'll just have to see tomorrow. Won't they?" Makayla said to us and we all half nodded. I looked at Seth again and he nodded.
"Right-O. Jetta, this is Sam Uley, the Alpha of the La Push pack." Seth introduced the tallest man to me.
"Pleasure to meet you." He said to me with a nod. I had to restrain myself from snorting. Who in hell said it was a pleasure to meet someone.
"I do… but I don't think that counts." Edward said from behind me.
"Shut up." I muttered to him without looking.
"This is Paul, and Jared." He indicated the next tallest boys. And then came the smart ass, "This is Collin…" He said and the boy looked close to laughter again. But then my gaze shifted to the other young one beside him. He looked just as cute as Collin did, but he wasn't really paying attention to the introductions. Instead, he was staring right at Shawn. I looked at Shawn and then back at the boy.
"Brady?" Seth asked as he waved a hand in front of the boy's face. But Brady wasn't really looking.
"Umm…. Seth?" I asked as I walked forward and touched his arm. He looked at me and I pointed at Shawn. Who was now sharing the moment with Brady.
"Oh crap." I sighed.
"Holy crap! Are you kidding me? She gets a god damn imprint before me?! But I'm older!! I thought Alphas had first pick!!" Slater jumped in and started arguing.
"It doesn't work like that, bud." I said to her slowly. Slater groaned unhappily and the other girls snickered.
"Well. I vote this an 8.7 on the awkward scale. Let's continue. I'm Gallaria, that's Danny. The lovey dovey one is Shawn. The angry one is Slater. The one who is falling asleep where she is standing is Makayla, and that is Jetta. Now can we please go somewhere to sleep?" Gibbs asked with a whine in her voice.
"Oh can it, runt." Slater said with a growl in her voice. I could tell that she was going to be pissed about the whole imprint thing for a while. But no one else was paying attention to that as Sam nodded and then turned and walked into the small house behind him.
Seth put his hot arm around me and towed me after the others and even before I was inside I could smell food. Amazing, and glorious food.
"Oh my lanta. I think that I will love whoever is cooking." Gibbs said as she walked ahead of me.
"She says that to everyone." I muttered.
"I heard that!" Gibbs yelled from around the corner.
"You were supposed to!" I yelled back. I didn't feel very hungry and without hesitation, Seth pulled me down on him on a very comfy looking couch. I couldn't find the will power to keep my eyes open any longer and I nestled my head in the crook of Seth's warm neck and slowly fell asleep with the feeling of Seth breathing in my hear and playing with my hair.
It seemed that I had escaped the pain. But I knew this wasn't the end of it.
My life ain't no fairytale…
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