Chapter 7 Shuddered Heart

EPOV

I had told Bella all about me being a Vampire she had accepted it so quietly and not scared at all I was amazed I was kissing her at a rooftop I felt more happy than I have ever been in my long life.

Her phone rang….

Next thing I knew we were at the local police department, Charlie her father had passed away she broke down when they told her that and I was too shocked to catch next thing I knew we were at the morgue in the same place, and her mother was the unidentified body what could I do I can't revive them , they were already dead, I wanted to cry but of course I couldn't all I could do was support Bella.

I took her home and she fell asleep she mumbled how she didn't want to be in Forks anymore , she wanted to Bolt, I could do that with her but she would regret it later.

I laid her on her bed slowly as she was a sleep I managed to make some calls I gathered all the people she knew in Forks and called Phil Renee husband he already knew what happened I had prepared anything I know she wasn't going to be able to do that herself , so I arranged it , I also called Jacob who I knew was Bella's Best friend for what I could tell and I knew he was a werewolf, he agreed to come with his father of course being Charlie's best friend.

It was know 7 am and Bella was still asleep , I was wandering in her house looking at photos of when she was little I couldn't help to giggle but suddenly frown at what was going on.

I suddenly heard something moves upstairs she was awake and suddenly she started screaming she was Petrified and had a knife close to her wrists

Bella…NO!

I took the knife from her, what are you doing?

Edward all my family is dead and I want to be dead to I have no reason for living

I suddenly felt my heart hurt , was that possible I didn't know but something hurt but I just listen

I mean I have you Edward but you will get bored of me and then abandon me I will be all alone again , and and…she didn't cry but she was scared I could see it in her eyes.\

Bella…I will never ever abandon you because….I love you

And I know that maybe that's hard to believe and you don't but I do Love you

I feel like I've known you forever I do love you.

I….Love you too Edward

I couldn't help but feel some happiness but I was mostly sad and furious for her , she had not deserved this, she was good.

Edward…I have to get up , I need to get the service ready

Just stay here Bella everything is ready all you have to do is show up.

But how….who..you?

Yes I managed everything so just rest ok

No ….i can't sleep anymore Edward too many nightmares…if I could go without sleeping ever I would be better off.

Was she tempting me?

Im going to take a bath, I let her go as she went towards the bathroom , I suddenly heard her crying and screaming

I was so worried she would try something stupid again, so I got myself into the bathroom I sat in the toilet just listening to her , sobbing, crying, screaming, she suddenly said my name and I answered…like some kind of puppy I said yes, she opened the shower door and stared at me I could have left but I couldn't leave her alone , she came out of the shower , she was beautiful pale white skin, curvy yet not exaggerated body , she smelled delicious perky breast and then I looked down the most beautiful masterpiece created there just staring at me , I felt flushed but its not like I could show it since I don't blush.

She sat in my lap bare naked and hugged me whispering to my ear: Thank you Edward you will make a great husband some day ,she then took my hand and motioned me to stand up.

Ed… would you take a bath with me?

I knew she didn't mean sexually as in sex she just wanted me to hold her bare naked under hot steamy water.

I couldn't say no and so there I was starting to take my clothes of while she motioned me towards the shower, she hold me tightly under the hot water did she not feel cold with my ice cold body I has no idea what to expect, she suddenly started crying and I knew she felt alone I hold her as strong as human can be hold crushing her in my chest she suddenly stared at me and got on her toes to kiss me, her kiss was sweet it was sad but it was delicious I wanted her forever I wanted her only for me, as she parted I told her, Forever, I will be forever by your side, she suddenly smiled a little bit and kissed me again this was perfect well not due the circumstances but holding her there was like nothing else existed.

BPOV

Edward had stopped me from committing suicide witch I can't believe I even considered , Charlie always said to me: Bella my work is something hard and Dangerous if something happens to me or Renee you must move on you must be strong, death is something that eventually comes and if our times comes you must accept it and be strong, don't be sad cause you'll make me sad…ok Bells?

I could still feel as he was going to give me that speech again and that's when I decided I wouldn't cry anymore, I decided to take a bath and started remember all the things I've been threw with Renee and Charlie, I broke down again and cried, I promised I wouldn't cry so I mad this cry the hardest and last one I would ever have, I screamed and kicked and hit myself over and over and after a while in a sob I said Edward …to my surprised he answered he was sitting down on the toilet seat looking out for me.

How long had he been there?

I had no idea

I opened my shower and stared at him and remembered what he told me… he has said that he loved me was it possible for someone you know for short time love you.

And the I felt my heart I knew I love him

I wanted him here with me not in a let's have sex way but just in a hold me tight. I remembered he told me last night about him being a vampire

But I didn't care I loved him, so I took the courage and stepped out of the shower bare naked I was never really fan of my naked body but I thought it was ok, he stared at me all over I could see him start from my head to my shoulders as he stopped a while in my breast continuing down starring at my so called vagina it was nice and bare, courtesy of Miss Renee I felt sort of sad when I remembered her but I would not cry.

He continued going down until he saw my feet I had no idea what to do , and next thing I knew I was sitting on top of him, I told him thanks and that he would be a great husband some day but what I wanted to say was you'll be my great husband some day.

I got up and pulled him towards the shower, he took his clothes off and next thing I knew he was holding me naked under the steamy water, he did not feel cold he felt just right.

Could I be happy again…was it even possible without Renee and Charlie, the service was soon and I was still in the shower with Edward..

Bella?

Yes

We have to go , we have to get changed for the service

No, I mean just a while more, Bella we can't

Get dressed ill be back before your ready to go with you.

I was in a towel in my room as was he , his chest look beautiful as the sunlight hit him

Edward your like Diamonds.

Ding Dong, Ding Dong (someone was at the door) I was going to get it but Edward beat me to it but I was beside him before he opened it , we were both in towels what would whoever who is outside think, I didn't care.

Hi Bella

Ohh hi Jacob, ermmm this is Edward

Why are you with him? And why are you both in towels? BELLA?

Well Jacob , Edward is he's my . Edward is my boyfriend and he was just comforting me.

I saw how his face suddenly frowned down more than it already was.

Bella….did I mean nothing to you?

Jacob….you are my best Friend…and I love you but im not in love with you.

Besides when the service is over , im leaving Forks and I can't separate you from your family.

What about him Bella?

You will separate Edward From his

That's his choice Jacob

Then shouldn't I Take mine

Its different, How Bella?

Because I am In Love with him

Please Jacob , Its ok Bella I will always be here for you if you need me thank you Jacob

And by the way Bella….Im moving too

Im going to Asia …study Abroad

Wow that's great Jacob

Well I got to go , get ready for the service

I smiled at him, wow your smiling even though what happened

Im not made of stone Jacob and im glad we are ok. Plus Charlie told me to not hold things back to move on and smile, he will be taking care of me.

I wan't no tears in the service just smiles. He didn't live long but what he lived he was happy so smile ok , and tell everyone this isn't a goodbye this is a see you later and a celebration that he and my mother Renee have gone to a better life.

Ok…Jacob

He only hugged me while I grabbed my towel so it wouldn't fall

He let go of me and gave me a salut…I CAPTAIN!

I giggled a little

I got to get dressed

Bye

OK….see you later

Edward go to your house and get dressed soon the celebration will start and tell all your family to come , well if they feel comfortable and tell them that they are officially adopted.

Adopted Bella?

Yes Adopted. They are my new family , no one can replace my family so there not replacement there additions, and give this to Alice.

What is it? It's a necklace I wanted to give her because it would match the way she is

Bella? Yes? Do you even know Alice I don't remember introducing you.

Yes I know her I met her before I met you, she is really sweet and I met Jasper who looks like he's suffering, I know Emmet too he hugged me and welcomed me to Forks High…I think Rosalie Hates me and well Carlise is famous around forks.

Am I missing someone?

Esme….ohh I don't know her, you'll introduce me right?

Yes Bella I most definitely will

Edward ….can you fly?

What…im not superman Bella

Why ?

I was wondering if you could fly me to Port Angels

I have nothing black to wear, and I think a black dress would be the best

We could drive its three hours more till the service….celebration Edward

No , I don't feel like sitting in a car.

Ill see what I find I got to have something.

Bella put a pair of jeans and a shirt ill take you to my place. Alice must have something to fit you. He was taking me to his vampire family house I wasn't yet I was excited.

Would his family be nice or would they want to eat me, what if Rosalie attacked me and killed me I would be part of the service a.k.a celebration too.

Suddenly had my face in his hand as he landed a sweet kiss. Don't worry Bella we don't Bite

Humans at least, you will be very very safe, and my family will absolutely adore you, Alice is excited to see you

And how do you know? Ohhh I forgot to tell you I can read minds. Except yours

Well I hope you like it so far …ok I killed Charlie and Renee but it goes on,.,,hope you enjoy