Mental Health Week
I spent the next week staring at the ceiling, deciding when I'll tell him and watching re-runs of the Hills. I had twenty missed calls from Jake, of course he was worried. I usually called him back the moment I got his call. Ten of those very important calls were from today. I listened to one of those messages.
"Bella, if you don't answer my phone calls, how will I know you are still alive? You promised you would try to stay safe, don't you dare forget that!" Jake yelled, obviously frustrated by the fact that I haven't answered his calls. "Bells, I need to know if you are okay. You are my only true friend. Please." He spoke the last sentence in a begging tone. It killed me to hear him in so much pain but if Edward didn't love me, I would die anyway. I figure I am doing him a favour.
It was Wednesday when Scarlet decided to try to make me go back to school.
"Bella?" she opened the door and entered my dark room. "The teachers think you dropped out. Will you please just come back to school for a day, and prove that you are alive?" What she really meant was to get up and come back to school now, or else. But I think that I will take my chances with her today. She seems to be in a good mood.
"Scarlet, I am not going back to school until I decide what to do about Edward." I was mentally calculating what would be the best time to tell him and where to tell him. This is going to be extremely hard. What is a girl to do?
"Well, decide quickly before your bad luck catches up to you." She was right. The wedding was this week and I hadn't tripped or fallen all week. My clumsiness was always one of my most comical traits and I thought that it would disappear when I became immortal but I was wrong. I was still very clumsy and now I just made a bigger mess.
Last week when I went hunting with Scarlet I was just about to attack a herd of deer when I tripped and rolled down the hill. In the end, it looked like a rock slide where I had fallen. The locals thought it was a new hiking trail but Jonas, Scarlet and I knew better. Now I can't even go for a walk without Jonas joking about me and my comical traits.
I was losing my train of thought.
Before my mind started to wander I was thinking was thinking about my options.
I was thinking of my three main choices.
These were my options:
Tell him at school
Not tell him
Talk to him before the wedding
Well, option number one sucked since I think I have decided that Maria will not be attending school anymore. After the conversation with Scarlet, I think the idea is flaw proof. I will tell Jonas and Scarlet to spread a rumor that I have moved back to Alaska because I missed the cold. So, option one was a no go.
Option two. Hmmmm. I don't think I could live an eternity thinking my vampire love was married to another vampire. It was not something I could live with. If I didn't tell him and he did marry her, I guess I could beg the Volturi to kill me because I know Jonas and Scarlet wouldn't help me.
That leaves option three. It was the only reasonable one. I am going to tell him a day before the wedding so, it will give me some time.
THURSDAY
FRIDAY
Today was Saturday and apparently tomorrow was the wedding.
I was watching Canadian Hockey when Scarlet had a vision. Her face went blank and she stared out into space. Then she was back, staring at our confused faces with a mortified expression. After a few seconds her face turned green. She looked like she was going to throw-up, if that were possible.
"Scarlet what did you see?" I asked impatiently and soon regretted it when she didn't answer immediately.
"Bella, the wedding," she stuttered trying to phrase it properly, "has been changed to today. It's starting in a few hours. Don't freak out, okay?" I was in shock. TODAY I would have to tell him. I think I am going to be sick. "You'll just have to tell him in the next hour," she said, still waiting for my reaction. My whole body went numb.
"Okay, I'll get ready," I said, not knowing if I could move ever again. I got up and slowly I walked through the long hallway passing by the pictures of our little family.
I stopped at the empty one near my door. This picture frame was always empty. I dreamed that one day it would hold a picture of me and Edward. That dream felt so right at this moment. I was definitely going to get him back. I pushed open my door and let out a sigh. I would have to look good without Scarlet's help because her and Jonas were a little preoccupied. They had a very physical relationship.
I could hear them now but I tried to focus on my closet. My closet was the size of a master bedroom and I had a single bedroom. It was sort of funny when you think about it. Scarlet had designed this house so I had no say on what my bedroom looked like other than the colour.
I had to look presentable.
Authors Note
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