A/N: I apologise for any mistakes in this as I'm sure there are some but I always miss them! This update is for Taeny1! I am pleased you like it ;-;
The couple of weeks that followed that evening were silent. Kai and Sehun never spoke other than the mandatory greeting in the mornings and the usual second of emotionless eye contact in the corridors. The intimacy between them was never discussed and Kai was just treating Sehun like a stranger. Sehun wanted to confront Kai about the situation but he didn't feel as though it was his place to; he just had to wait.
Maybe it is because of the way Luhan is being around me? Sehun thought one lunch time in the cafeteria. Luhan's head was nestled in Sehun's neck as he lent against him. Sehun welcomed this though, he liked it when Luhan was like this around him. He knew Kai would disagree however.
"Sehunnie, what's up? You seem like you have been really distant lately." Luhan used his index finger to turn Sehun's head towards his gaze as he spoke.
"I'm sorry. It's really nothing. I'm good," Sehun reassured and plastered a large grin onto his solemn face.
Then it happened. It was more of a blurred whirlwind than anything else but it happened none the less. Luhan leaned his face in closer, still keeping hold of Sehun's face, and pecked the younger boy on the lips. Sehun's face was an image of pure shock yet he couldn't deny that he had longed for Luhan's lips on his. He wanted those foreign lips back on his but something was stopping him kissing Luhan himself. The images of Kai in the back of his mind were stopping him. However, when Luhan rejoined both their lips together Sehun still welcomed it and pushed the images aside. This time the kiss went on for longer, the older boys tongue caressed Sehun's lips, begging to enter his mouth, but Sehun couldn't bring himself to oblige Luhan's want. Luhan eventually pulled away, gasping for air, not at all defeated by Sehuns lack of cooperation. His face was a picture of joy as a ear to ear grin crept across his face. Sehun was still in shock and his face wouldn't smile on the outside no matter how much he was smiling internally. His face was purely a mirror of the shock that had shrouded the entire cafeteria at the sudden, unexpected, public display of affection. But then the part of him that wouldn't cooperate with Luhan overrode everything and sent his legs into action. He found himself running from the cafeteria at full pelt even though he wanted nothing more than to be back with Luhan telling him that he loved him. Why couldn't he stop running? But deep down he knew why he was running and it was because of the one person that was overriding every single thought in his mind. He was running because Kai was running as fast as he could away from the cafeteria, the kiss showing that he was finally breaking. Sehun eventually caught up with him.
"Where are you going?" He panted, completely out of breath.
"Away from you! What the fuck even was that, Sehun?" He spat aggressively but his voice was purely laden with hurt.
"What do you mean? What does it matter to you? You tried to kiss me and then didn't even speak to me for 2 weeks! What do you expect me to do? Just wait for you to get your head out of your fucking ass and stop moping about Luhan and I? How do I know what you want if you don't tell me?" Sehun shouted the words without even realising what he was saying.
Kai's fists were balled tightly at his sides, his knuckles were bone white and drained from blood; Sehun thought he was going to hit him, but he did the complete opposite, causing Sehun to stumble backwards into the green metal lockers in the hallway. Kai held Sehun's face in his palms and aggressively brung his lips to Sehun's. Kai pushed Sehun roughly against the lockers in lust and pressed his steaming hot body against the younger boy's. Sehun was struggling to breathe and he wasn't even sure whether it was because he was tightly pressed between Kai and the metal, or whether it was because of Kai's soft lips grazing against his. He had felt nothing like this when Luhan had kissed him, nothing like the dizziness he now felt and the longing for it never to end. Kai was still aggressively smothering Sehun's lips with his and this time Sehun welcomed the tongue that wished to caress his white teeth and his began giving back as much as he was receiving. Kai's moans rumbled against Sehun's throat and his eyes were tightly closed. Kai then began to move his hands slowly up the younger boy's shirt and his hands were icy cold despite the heat between them; Sehun flinched as Kai moved his frozen fingers slowly up his torso. Sehun then began to feel something hard pressing against his thighs and Kai realised he had gone to far. He let out a painful sigh and rested his head on Sehun's pounding chest.
"I'm so sorry," Kai choked out against Sehun's shirt and stood up angrily. He turned to face the door and stalked out of the school building. Sehun just remained rooted to the spot, still gasping for air in utter shock.
"What the fuck was that?" He mumbled to himself and slumped down against the lockers as his knees finally gave way. What was he going to do? Was Luhan going to be pissed that he just ran away from him? Was Kai going to ignore him again, even after what had just happened? Sehun hid his head in his hands. How was it possible to love two people so much at the same time?
Kai rammed down the acceleration pedal in his car, letting out his frustration on the vehicle as he yelled to himself about how much he just messed up. His hands gripped tightly around the wheel as though to strangle it and hot salty tears streamed down his cheeks.
"What the fuck, Kai? Why did you do that? You'll lose him even faster you twat!" He shouted to himself and slammed down aggressively on the car wheel. Kai absolutely resented the way Sehun made him feel. His relationships had never been like this before. It was usually about the sex or making people jealous with how good someone looked with him. His was arrogant like that. He could have anyone he wanted and use them how he wanted; he'd gotten used to that. This time though, Sehun didn't want him and this time he thought he actually cared about the other boy. This time he actually loved someone and he understand the pain of not being loved back.
He completely hated Luhan. He hated how perfect and beautiful he was. He hated how intelligent and loved he was. He hated how he had Sehun and Sehun loved him back. Kai was purely jealous of Luhan and the truth was he didn't really hate him at all. He wanted him but he knew he couldn't have him either. He was too much of a coward to ask him out so he gave him shit instead. The two people Kai had ever really had feelings for didn't feel the same for him and Kai was in so much pain because of it. Kai was in so much pain because he knew it was entirely his fault.