Chapter nine

We made our way back to ms Erika's place and by the time we arrived saw Erika and her newly wedded husband in the living room holding hands. They weren't in the cheeky mood to do anything romantic. They sat there like if they were waiting for us. Paul just glared at his new step-father with his arms crossed.

"What are you two doing here?" Paul started.

"We are going to leave for our honeymoon soon. I just wanted to see you before we go." Erika replied as she sat up from the couch. "We will be back in two weeks."

"Like I care." Paul replied as he turned his back on his mother and started to walk away from the group.

"Don't you care about anyone Paul?" Erika asked in a soft voice. "If not me then who?"

I saw Paul stop walking away from us. He relaxed his arms and turned around. "I…" he started with a blush on his face and quickly looked at me. "I care for nobody." and soon walked off somewhere into the house.

"I don't believe he is telling the truth." Paul's step father began.

"What do you mean Sam?" Erika asked.

"He reminds a lot of me when I was younger." He replied as he brushed his brunette hair away from his face. "Stubborn but yet a softie inside. Trying to hide it from everyone else, wanting to solve problems on his own." he paused and soon continued. "That's was me all right."

That was true.

Erika's new husband, Sam, had said the words out of my mouth.

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"My father and mother never got along to begin with. They never liked each other to start off. I wasn't really meant to be made Dawn."

"What do you mean?" I asked as I grabbed his arm in concern.

"I was a damn accident. that's what!" Paul yelled. "I was always the one without the attention, dad always focused on Reggie, Mom raised me on her own with a hidden relationship behind my back and then I find out that dad is dead." Paul replied as his voice began to drop to a whisper which I never heard him said before. He kneeled on the ground and hit the ground with his fist. "I hate my life!" he yelled. "I hate it, I hate it!" Paul repeated once more as tears soon collided with grass.

"Is that why you act like you don't care then?" I asked as I kneeled down with him.

"I'm like this because of the way I'm raised. When Reggie lost to dad for the last symbol and gave up with one lost, I told myself that I will never lose, never give up and be better than him to show dad that I can be better than him but its too late for that." Paul replied as he sat down on the cold wet grass.

I don't know what came over me that night. I raised my hand and softly grabbed his face and turned it to face my direction.

"You have been like this for a long time haven't you?" I asked. "But that will change because I'm here."

Even when I think about it now, I still don't know why I did it. I dragged my face a little closer and then I locked lips with him. I could tell he was shocked at first. I mean who wouldn't? I felt him push me a little while we were kissing and that made us both fall onto the wet midnight grass but we both didn't care, well I didn't. I felt his warm body on top of mine. I felt our tongues touch at a few times. I wrapped my arms around him and he did the same. Soon I felt him push his lips off mine.

That's when I realised that I kiss him. The man that I hated so much.

He was still on top of my body. He just stared into my eyes with shock. He raised his hand I brushed my hair away from my face. He ran his fingers though my hair. He mouthed words that I didn't understand and soon stood up onto his own feet and walked away from my sight.

And that was the last time I saw him like that.

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I stomped into his room and saw him laying on the bed with a careless expression.

"Did you really meant that?!" I yelled.

Paul didn't reply at first and just started at my without a care in the world.

"Well?" I asked as I felt water building up in my eyes. I had no idea why this was happening to me.

He still didn't reply.

"Answer my dammit Paul!" I yelled and soon I felt water running down my face.

"Yes!" He yelled as he sat up. "I don't care about anyone, even you!" He yelled.

"So after that kiss we did? Didn't that mean anything to you?" I asked with tears running down my face.

"That kiss…" Paul paused and soon continued. "Was a accident. Nothing more."

I felt like a glass window has just broken and was echoing in my ears over and over again. I ran out the room and soon the whole house. I felt the tiny rain drops hit my body as I ran but I didn't care. Soon I felt my legs give up and made my trip over my own feet and hit a puddle in the mud. Face first. I just laid there in the mud without a care in the world.

I didn't knew how long I was there but it felt I was there for hours. I started to flick my eyelids on trying to stay awake but I couldn't hold my eyes open for any longer. I started to hear footsteps getting closer and all I could see was two shoes in front of me. I felt somebody pick me off the mud and carry me in their arms. I tried to look up to their face but all I could do was shift my eyes to their face. Their face was too blurry for me to recognised. I soon closed my eyes and fell asleep knowing that after what I have been through that I could confirm that I was in love with Paul. A man I thought I never would of fall in love with.

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