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Here is Chapter 41!
AN- I know what you're all thinking,"FINALLY SHE UPDATED!" I'm terribly sorry for the wait. I had a lot going on these past few months and it gave me no time to even try and get this chapter done. I have a good 6 weeks left of summer till my senior year of high school starts. To my lovely readers...you guys are awesome. And to those who have just started reading my stories...I hope you like what you've read so far.
Love,
~Dazzler 916~
Chapter 41
What I Did For Love
(Sasha's P.O.V.)
What the hell am I thinking? I'm about to break one of the biggest vampire laws of life and there's a very good chance that he's just gonna run.
I finally have Ella back in my life, but then there's Elijah.
The least I can do is give him closure.
I've been pacing back forth in the living room for the past hour.
"You okay?" I looked over to see Alice sitting on the couch right be hind me.
"Oh I'm great!" I said sarcastically.
"Sure about that? Cause you seem a little—"
"Nervous? Antsy? Regretful? Even more nervous?" I checked my phone again to see if I had any new messages from Ella.
No new messages.
"Don't worry it's gonna be fine." Alice assured me.
"Either you're saying that just to shut me up or you're actually saying that because you know." Her thoughts were a little unclear so I wasn't really sure.
"You'll see," She winked at me.
"You sure about this idea of yours?" Rosalie asks me as she saunters in.
"I don't even know anymore." I shrugged.
"If all else fails and it doesn't work out, you could just turn him into a snack." Emmett suggested.
"Emmett!" Rosalie, Alice and I all exclaimed with the same tone of voice.
"Aww c'mon I was just teasin'!" He shrugged
Suddenly the sound of my cellphone vibrating on the glass coffee table caught attention.
Ella's calling me.
"Oh God it's my sister." I say as I snatched the phone up.
"Here I'll answer it—" Emmett offered.
"No no no no it's fine," I assured him before hitting the answer button. "Hey sis."
"Seth asked me to prom!" She screamed at the top of her lungs.
Well that definitely wasn't the news I was waiting to hear. Yay for Ella.
"Aww cute—now what did he say?" I needed to know.
"Y'know that old little shack that sits in the middle of the woods between La Push and the Cullen's house?" She asks.
"Elle, I don't have time for this. Just tell me what he said!" I'm definitely starting to loose my patience with her.
"Then answer my question first!" She snapped back at me through the phone.
"Okay yes! Yes I do know where that place is. Why?" I rolled my eyes.
"All he said is that he wants answers and this better not be some stupid game. Meet us there at 4:30am sharp." She told me.
"That's all he said? Wait, are sure he didn't say anything else?"
"Sasha, that's all he said. I told him I would go pick him up—ugh, i'm gonna be so tired." She whined.
"Then go to sleep. Now!" I say in motherly tone.
"Yea yea whatever. G'night." My sister hung up.
If I had a heartbeat...it would be RACING.
He actually read the letter!
Oh God.
He actually read the letter...
Shit.
(Ella's P.O.V.)
Ugh! Why did my sister drag me into this?
Now I'm gonna have to sneak out and wake up super early just to go pick him up and bring him back near this area.
I'm tired, I just danced a perfect program tonight and I can't even sleep in the next morning because Sasha wants me to help her straighten things out with her ex-boyfriend who doesn't even have a clue as to what he's about to get himself into.
Emmett bet me twenty bucks that Elijah is gonna pass out and I'm pretty sure he won't. He's tough guy. He'll probably just stand there for five minutes with his mouth gaped open.
In the end at least I'll hopefully get twenty bucks out of this...and I'm in need of money since prom is next Saturday and I won't get my paycheck for another two or three days. I NEED TO GO SHOPPING.
But for now I might as well enjoy these next few hours of sleep.
(Chloe's P.O.V.)
Nora was fast asleep by the time we got to Gabe's house.
I guess you could say that we're practically moved into to his little two bedroom house. Nora sleeps in the guest bedroom down the hall.
Things have gotten even better with Gabe and I after all we've been through in these past few months.
I love him. I really love him.
It's so nice to have such a good father figure in Nora's life now. When I'm not around those two are inseparable.
There have even been a few times when Nora would wake up in the middle of the night from a bad dream asking for Gabe and not me. Then about a week ago Nora just started calling Gabe "Daddy" and the rest is history.
"Did I ever tell how even more beautiful you are when you dance?" Gabe asked me.
"Yea actually you did." I said as crawled into bed and snuggled up to him. "You've told me several times...eight to be exact."
"So you've been counting?"
"Well it means a lot coming from you." I blushed.
Gabe and I leaned into kiss, but right when our lips barely touched he pulled back.
"Hey, I was looking forward to that kiss." I told him.
"I have something even better." He assured me.
"Oh really," I tilted my head down.
"Close your eyes and then i'll be right back." He started to get out of bed.
"Babe where are you going?"
"Just close your eyes, this will only take a second." Gabe hurried out of the room.
I closed my eyes and waited patiently for him to do whatever he needed to do. I have a really good feeling about this for some odd reason.
"Are they still closed?" His voice was back in the room.
"I can't see anything!" I raised my voice.
"Shhhhh, don't forget Nora's sleeping." He said in a hushed tone.
"Oops." I whispered.
I heard the sound of the bedroom door close and the room got very quiet as Gabe got back into bed.
"Can I open them now?" I asked impatiently.
"Hold on a second..."
I let out a loud sigh, indicating that I was "waiting."
"Now you can open them." He said.
"Okay," I sighed in relief and opened my eyes. I looked around the room expecting there to be some ridiculous surprise...but there wasn't. "I don't see anything—oh my god." That's when I looked down and realized what the so called surprise really was.
It was right in front of me...in Gabe's hand.
A diamond ring.
"Oh my god." I put my hand over my mouth. Am I dreaming? Is this really happening?
OH MY GOD!
"My life has changed a lot in the past three years and it's been real tough. There were days when I felt like running away from all of this because what I am now is something I never wanted in the first place. Then I started getting used to it and it turned out to be not bad all. Then you came along and it was like I was hit with a ton of bricks...I mean...you're it. You're all I ever wanted and I'm never gonna let you slip through my fingers again."
I was already crying halfway through his little speech and I couldn't stop.
"So will you, Chloe Marisol De La Melena...marry me." He removed the ring from the box and grabbed hold of my hand.
"Oh my god," I started crying even more and he slid the ring on my finger.
"Seeing that's all you've said since you've seen the ring, I'm gonna take that as a yes." Gabe assumed.
"Yes." I barely managed to get the words out of my mouth and then I kissed him. "Yes yes yes yes yes yes!"
I held my up my hand so I can look at the ring on my finger.
"It's beautiful, and it fits perfectly!" I told him.
"Your parents helped me picked out." He explained.
"My parents' were okay with this?" I asked, wiggling my finger with the ring on it.
"I talked to them about this a few weeks ago, it was fine." He assured me.
"Oh good, for a second I was getting really nervous about how I was going to explain this to my father when I drop Nora off tomorrow afternoon..."I trailed off and took another look at the ring on my finger. "So now you're not my boyfriend anymore, you're my fiance." I giggled.
Fiance.
Then it really hit me...I'M GETTING MARRIED.
(Ella's P.O.V.)
I'm on my way to where Elijah's staying and I'm literally running on four hours of sleep right now. But of course my sister had me tag along and get stuck in the middle of this.
Lucky for me, I managed to get to Forks before I started dozing off. I parked right outside his sister in laws house.
At least he followed directions and was waiting for me outside at exactly at 4 am.
"You sure you wanna do this?" I asked him.
"You're kidding right," He slammed my car door closed.
"Hey take it easy on my car," I croaked.
"Someone's tired," Eli mumbled under his breath.
"Try running on four of sleep."
"I've got two kids, trust me I know." He laughed.
My phone starting ringing and I already know who it was.
I answered the phone quickly,"We're on our way." I said and then hung up. Eli watched me carefully as I put the phone back in the car astray that I never use since I don't smoke.
"Was that her?" He was curious to know.
"Yep, don't worry you'll see her in a sec." I stepped on the gas and sped down the road.
Not only do I want to get this all over with, but I would really like to go back to sleep and just not even have to deal with my sister's crazy reunion with her ex.
Why did I did agree to helping my sister if I knew I was gonna have to wake up in the middle of the night to do so?
"So what does she look like now?" He asked me.
"The same," I shrugged.
"Oh," He nodded. I'm pretty sure he has no idea that i'm not kidding when I say that she really does look the same.
By the time we got there I was even more tired I could barely keep my eyes open.
"Where are we?" Elijah asked.
"We're close to La Push, but not too far away from some friendly vegetarians." I told him.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Nothing. C'mon, she's waiting for us." I got out of the car, closed the door and started walking into the forest.
Funny how I turned around to see that Elijah hasn't even started walking.
"You coming?" I put my hands in my pockets.
"Oh, right." I waited for him to run to where I was and then we continued walking up to the shack.
"This is where we're meeting here?" Elijah pointed.
"It's completely safe, Seth and I come here all the time—" I began to reassure him.
"And do what?"
My eyes wandered around as I came up with a fake answer instead of saying to make out and or possibly have sex.
"Just talk and hang out." I said.
"You two must have a lot to talk about," He said in a tone that made me realize that he totally saw right through my lie.
"Mmm hmm," I raised my eyebrows and gave him a closed mouthed smile.
When we got to the door I opened it and then stepped aside so he could go in first, but judging by the uneasy look on his face I could totally that he was starting to freak out.
"Wait." He stops me. "What does she look now again?"
"I'm her sister. So of course she looks a lot like me...or should I say just like me." I told him.
"Well I don't see why she wouldn't." He scrunched up his eyebrows.
"Just go in." I snapped. Now I'm starting to get a tad bit cranky.
Who am I kidding? I'm tired and cranky.
Elijah finally stepped inside and I closed the door behind us.
"You can turn the light on now sis." My voice echoed through the room.
Finally we were able to see thanks to the lantern Seth got from his garage that his family use to use when they went camping.
My sister was standing in the corner diagonally with her back facing us.
"Sasha?" Elijah said.
"It's me." She said with her back still facing us.
"Turn around Sis." I told her.
"I don't know..." Her voice trailed.
"It's just us." I explained.
"Yes, I know that but...I'm not sure if I wanna do this." She said.
"Please." Elijah took a step towards her. "Sasha is it really you?"
She didn't say anything, but she slowly began to turn around.
"Elijah you're not gonna like this." Sasha said.
(Sasha's P.O.V.)
I slowly began to turn around so he could see me.
"Elijah you're not gonna like this." I told him.
When I finally faced him he gasped.
For the first time in years...Elijah was standing right in front of me.
But the look on his face didn't look so pleasant. I thought he would be happy to see me. I was expecting us to run into each other's arms and have it be one of those precious reuniting moments like you see in the movies.
Then I read his thoughts...
He can't believe his eyes, he thinks he's hallucinating, he's confused as to why I look like I'm still eighteen...but worst of all he's scared.
He's really scared.
"What the..." He didn't take his eyes of me.
"I know this may be a lot to handle—" I started to explain.
"Just stop talking." Elijah snapped back at me which to my surprised made me flinch.
"Okay." I kept my mouth shut.
He took a few more steps towards me until the two of us were face to face. I stood their very still as he looked right at me and examined my appearance from head to toe.
"I can't believe this." He brushed a strand of hair out of my face and lifted up my chin.
"You're eyes are so...yellow."
"That's not the only thing that's changed." I whispered. I cupped his face with my hand and he tensed up for a second.
"Why are you so cold?" Another one his questions.
"Where should I start?" I shrugged.
"Or do you want me to explain all this to him?" My sister offered.
"Ella I got this." I assured her.
It took me a good thirty minutes or so to get it all out, but I managed to tell him everything. But the best part about it was that he listened.
Occasionally his thoughts kept screaming "this is total bullshit" but I think me still physically looking eighteen is what started to help me realized that I wasn't kidding.
"You're not gonna kill me are you?" That was the first thing that came out of his mouth after I finished.
I shook my head and laughed.
"Remember what I told you about me being a vegetarian? I don't drink the blood of humans. I never have. Just animals." I told him.
"Right." He mumbled to himself.
"So there are other like you?"
"Oh yea, but there aren't many in this area except for me, a few friends—"
"Where those the friends who turned you into this?" He cut me off before I could say another word.
"No no no," I shook my head. "The Cullens' are good vampires. When I first became...this, I was so lost after I manage to get away from those vampires who took me away from everything I loved. Then I followed my family here, so I could keep an eye on them and protect them from becoming like me. And then the Cullens' found me along with some of Ella's shape-shifting wolf friends—"
"Wait, werewolves?" Elijah turned to Ella.
"Sasha!" She exclaimed. I obviously wasn't supposed to say anything about that. Oops!
"He knows about vampires, so he might as well know about Seth and all of his friends." I told her.
"Your boyfriend Seth?" He looked back over at Ella
"Yes. My boyfriend Seth who had it not been for him Sasha probably would have not been able to reconnect with me. So lets leave it at that." Ella glared at me.
"Don't act like you weren't mad at him when he told you that he'd known about me for a good three years before deciding to tell you. The only reason I didn't like him in the first place is because he wouldn't let me see you and I was losing my patience."
"You smashed him into a tree and almost shattered all the bones in his arm!" She raised her voice.
"I dislocated his arm, then broke it in 5 different places." I corrected her.
"Okay okay, can we get back to the conversation? I don't have a lot of time left ." He said to us.
"Sorry, now back to your questions about why I didn't come to you sooner." I didn't wanna waste any more time arguing with my sister.
"How did you know I was gonna ask you that?"
"She can read minds too. It gets annoying after while. I can never keep secrets from her anymore. It kinda sucks." Ella told him.
"You done Ella?" She was starting to annoy me with her side comments. Well, the one she actually chose to say out loud instead of the ones she just kept to herself...in her head.
"That's kinda cool." Elijah flashed me a smile.
God, I miss seeing that smile every single day.
"Yea I guess," I shrugged.
"So back to my question..." He trailed off.
"Right," I nodded. "I used to go keep and eye on you all the time. When I first got back home after everything that happened the first thing I wanted to do was run back to you and tell you everything. The only reason I didn't is because I didn't wanna hurt you. I was a complete wreck, I was thirsty and I was struggling to find another option of food since I didn't have the guts to even try and drink human blood. Then my family moved up here and I followed them. I remember coming back to your house after my family settled in to find you with your wife. And after that I just stopped coming by less because you had moved on—"
"I went looking for you! I searched everywhere I could possibly think of and you were nowhere to be found. And after I while I just gave up because I thought I was never gonna see you again and my parents kept telling me that I needed start getting my life back on track and there was nothing else I could do."
"It sucks because I can hardly remember a thing a about my human life anymore. It's just bits and pieces and there are days when I try putting them all together so I can at least have one solid memory of us when we were kids. But I can't put anything together. I miss my family and my friends and everything I had going for me. And it's never gonna be the same because I'm a bloodsucking monster! Nobody's every gonna see me again. I'll have to wait a good ninety years or so to go out in public and start my life over. Everyone already thinks I'm dead but lucky for me I still have my sister to talk to."
"Well now you have me." He reached over and placed his hand on top of mine.
"No." I snatched my hand away. "Just stop it. Things won't ever be the same. You're married." I choked.
Even though I physically can't cry anymore. I really wish I could.
"You have such a good life, and two beautiful girls. You went on and did everything without me. And for a while I hated Sage. I hated her because she replaced me and I couldn't bear going around to spy on you anymore because I would be torturing myself." I said.
"Give me a year and it's not even gonna matter anymore."
"What do you mean?" I was so confused. He must have been talking about something that I don't even remember anymore.
"Remember how bad this got when I was younger?" He stood up, pulled his shirt off and turned around so his back faced me.
The brown and blotchy bruises he had etched into his skin made me squirm a little bit.
~Flashback~
I haven't seen Elijah since Monday and today's the day he finds out if the therapy worked this time around.
It hasn't got this bad since we were kids and out of no where he just started to get very sick again. These past two weeks of school have been a complete blur without him cause I've been so worried.
My car was getting fixed so mom drove me to the hospital. Not only do I hate the smell of hospitals, but I hate seeing my boyfriend in one.
A smile had spread across his face as soon as he saw me enter his room.
"Hey Beautiful," He grinned.
"Hi," I walked over to his bedside and gave him a quick peck on the lips. "So," I laid on the hospital bed with him and he wrapped his arm around me. "Did the doctor say if the chemotherapy worked this time?"
"I don't yet. They haven't told me anything yet."
"Well you look better." I ran my hand over his buzz cut hair.
"I feel better." Elijah kissed my forehead. "Especially now that you're here...so what did I miss in school this week?"
"Not much," I shrugged. "It's been kind of a lazy week. Everyone's wondering where you've been. Lucky for you I have them all convinced that you're up in Seattle visiting family." I told him.
"Well good...I'm sorry I gave you quite a scare two weeks ago."
"It's not your fault. I'm just glad you're feeling better." I assured him.
"I know I promised I was gonna cut my hair after prom—"
"What are you talking about? I think it looks sexy." I say.
"I missed you."
"I missed you to babe." I snuggled closer to him and rested my head under his neck. Shortly after the two of us got comfortable, his parents arrived and then the doctor walked in.
"So, from the looks of it the chemo actually played in your favor this time." The doctor told us.
"Does this mean our son can go home?" Elijah's mom asked.
"We wanna keep him for one more day and run some more test just to make sure he's doing alright. The bruises seem to be healing which is good. Other than that take it easy for the next few days and you should be fine."
"So the cancer cells are gone?" Elijah spoke up this time.
"Judging by all the test we ran after your chemotherapy, we didn't pick up anything." We all felt so relieved to hear the doctor say that.
Elijah found out he had leukemia when he was eight, it wasn't bad, but it started to get even worse in fourth grade. That was a very tough year for him. Then he went through a few rounds of chemotherapy and he's been fine ever since...until a few weeks ago when he started getting really sick again out of the blue and the bruises came back.
I've been really worried these past few weeks only because I haven't seem him get that sick for a very long time. I just remember him not showing up at school one day and then I got a text from him at lunch saying that he needed me to come over and I found him in the bathroom looking violently ill, pale and throwing up. I missed the rest of school that day and I drove him to the hospital. I hated seeing him so weak. For a second there I though the cancer was back for good and I was gonna loose him.
In the end I am just happy that he's okay.
"You're cancer free." I kissed him on the cheek.
"Again." He corrected me in a childish tone.
"I just pray that it won't come back again and try taking you away from us" I told him.
"I'm sure it won't this time. Besides I intend on being alive for a very very very long time." My boyfriend assured me.
~Flashback Ends~
I didn't have to read his mind to understand what he was trying to tell me this time. I just didn't know what to say. It was heartbreaking.
"I thought you didn't have to worry about the cancer anymore." I said.
"So did I, then it all started coming back about a month ago and it scared the hell out of my wife. I took me nearly fifteen to convince her that it wasn't bad all, so I went to the doctor the next day just to calm her nerves." He explained.
"What did the doctor say?" Ella asked him.
"No." A sharp whisper escaped from my lips as I read his thoughts before he could even get them out. The worst imaginable feeling came over me as Elijah opened his mouth to explain the situation.
"One year." He choked. I could tell he was trying not to cry. The images of his wife and kids started playing through his head as he closed his eyes and tried holding back tears.
"I won't even get to see my kids grow up. I lied and told my life that it was nothing. I only said that so she would stop stressing out about me. I'm not sure how I'm gonna do this." I could hear it in his voice.
He's so devastated, as am I.
"There has to be something the doctor can do—" I started to say.
"This is the second time that the cancer has relapsed. You know that chances of surviving are even more slim now. There's nothing I can do. The leukemia cells are already starting to attack my body again."
"No, you have other options. I can help you get better." I say in hopes that he would start to get an idea of where I was going with this.
"I'm dying Sasha! There's nothing you can do, even if you tried." He reasoned.
"I can save you. I can make it all go away." I said.
"Sasha," I snapped my head in Ella's direction and she shook her head at me. She already knew what I was trying to offer him.
"It's the only way," I told her.
"Wait what are you two talking about?" He asked.
I looked at my sister and she gave me pleading look.
'You know good and well as much as I do that he wouldn't do it. He know he's gonna die eventually.' She said in her thoughts.
"I'm not stupid sis, I know that! I can't just let him die—" I tried to explain to her.
"If it's about me, then spit it out." Elijah interrupted us.
"It's his choice." I said to Ella before turning back towards Eli, "If you want...I can make you a vampire."
He gave me a curious look.
'Me? Become a vampire?' He thought to himself.
"Please." I begged. "Let me help you."
He was thinking about it. He tends to run his fingers through his hair when he's thinking.
"I should probably go—" Elijah stopped in the middle of his sentence and pulled his phone out of his pocket. "Hey I'll be back at the house in a little bit. I just went out for a jog and I didn't wanna wake you."
Obviously he's talking to his wife. Great.
"I'll be home in a little bit okay? Love you." He hung up the phone.
"I'm tired." Ella yawned.
"I better get home before my kids wake up." Elijah looked down at his watch.
So I'm guessing that was no.
Awesome. My sister's pissed cause I basically wasted her time that she could have spent sleeping but she's being smart and choosing not to say anything out loud.
"Well, I guess this is goodbye." I muttered.
"No, it won't be." He assured me. And with that he walked outside.
To be honest I'm feeling a little crushed. This definitely did not go the way I expected and or wanted it to go. At least he knows to keep this all a secret.
A secret he'll be taking to the grave.
"Hey," Ella put her hand on my shoulder. "You okay?" My sisters eyes were full of concern.
"I will be." I say reassuringly.
"You happy that he knows you're still alive?" She asks.
"I'm not so sure yet." Really I wasn't.
Nothing really changed.
Just when I thought he had this life and this perfect family, suddenly it's all slipping out of his fingers and pretty soon he'll be missing out on everything.
In the end I just need him to reconsider my offer. I can save him. Even Ella knows I can, but at the same time I understand why he would say no.
I mean look at me.
Being a vampire isn't easy. No one ever said it was. Then I started thinking about Carlisle and what he did to save Esme and Edward.
He did it because they deserved a second chance at life.
That's what exactly what Elijah needs.
A second chance.
A stronger body.
A new life.
And I was gonna be the one to give it to him.
Review! Thank you all so much for being so patient. I'm terribly sorry it took me this long to update. My goal is to have another chapter up by next wednesday. If you're still reading this story then PLEASE let me know, i feel like I've lost a few readers because it's been months since I updated. Once again thanks for reading! There's still more to come! Hope you all are having a great summer.
Love always,
~Dazzler 916~