For the rest of the day I had been watching YouTube videos, not half caring about the report that I had to write. I ended up watching videos from crabstickz, kickthepj and various other YouTubers. And it made me think: wouldn't it be fun to make videos like these? Dan obviously enjoys it.

But I'd tried it before and I was rubbish. I wasn't a natural like them. However I was sixteen then; would I be different now?

But maybe, just maybe Dan might be impressed if I made a video, then he might like me more. So I thought that I would try, just for the moment to make a video in order to impress Dan.

Letting out a long sigh, I racked my brain for a good name. Finally, I thought of 'tashlovesyou'. It seemed appropriate, as it was made for Dan. Then I had a thought; what if he didn't like my videos? What if I was bad?

Stuff it, I have to give things a go or I'll get nowhere in life. Everybody has to, or else we'd still be in the Stone Age.

Leaping off the sofa, I held my laptop under my arm and began a quick walk towards my bedroom. Closing the door so Rose couldn't hear, I put my laptop on my bed and began searching through my piles of mess for my camera. Literally, my bedroom was a mess of clothes, books and random band merch! Almost every inch of the walls were covered in posters. However it was quite cosy. I had my bed in the corner. This was starting to feel more like home by the day.

Aha, there it was , still packed in a box. I wondered where it had disappeared to. Getting it out of the box, I set it up on the post of my bed. Maybe I could talk about moving into the new flat?

So I pressed record, and awkwardly sat on the bed with all my band posters behind me.

"Hey guys... I'm Natasha. And I've decided to start making videos again. I made one once before, but it was rubbish and I deleted that channel. But that was when I was sixteen, now I'm twenty one and I want to give it another go. So don't hate me if this video is terrible!"

I gave a nervous swallow, continuing. "So recently I've moved to London with my best friend, Rose. It's been amazing! We've met some amazing... people. And the flat's amazing, and guess what, I got my job as a games tester! I love games, especially Guitar Hero, Mario Kart, Call of Duty and Skyrim. Yeah, I like boy's games. It's a really fun job, because all you do is play games all day long! Except the boring part is writing reports after them. Grr.

So I'll show you round! First of all, this is my room that we're in now. Yeah, you can probably see by the posters that I like bands. I love Muse and All Time Low," I picked up the camera and panned it around the room, showing them all my posters and merch. "That's my room, and yeah, I have a lot of posters. Right," I stood up and got off the bed, walking towards the door and into the hallway. I went into the living room, peering the camera around the corner. "This is the living room, where I sit on the internet all day. And there's the kitchen, which is connected to the living room."

Wandering back into the hallway I peered the camera around the slightly ajar door to Rose's room. "And this is Rose's room," I whispered. "She likes One Direction. Eww. However she does obsess over YouTubers like Dan and Phil, and Charlie and others."

Then I walked back into my room and set the camera down where it originally was. "So, that's it. I hope it wasn't too bad! And please subscribe and comment and I might reply! Bye," I gave a cute wave and stopped recording, letting out a relieved sigh. Hopefully it would be good!

So I uploaded it onto my laptop and started editing with iMovie. It took a good hour to edit, and once I'd finished I was quite proud of it. So I uploaded it, and just hoped that somehow Dan would come across it. If he didn't, I'd have to show him myself.

/\\\

The next morning, Rose and I sat at the breakfast bar discussing my video that I'd made yesterday. Also it was Sunday, so I could listen to Dan and Phil's radio show! I was excited as hell.

"So why did you suddenly decide to make it?" Rose asked through a mouthful of cereal.

"I wanted to give it another go," I explained, "After all these years of not doing it, I want to see if I'm any better now. Last night after I watched all those YouTube videos, I decided that maybe I could try again."

"Can I see it?" Rose questioned, pushing her empty bowl to the side.

"It's terrible, nobody will like it," I sighed, resting my head in my hands. "You make much better videos than me. I just can't do it."

"No, Tash, the reason is that you need to try hard. Work hard and make good videos, and people will like them. You'll get there," she placed a reassuring hand on my shoulder. I really liked Rose, this is why she is my best friend.

"But I'm no where near as good as people like Dan!" I whined, covering my face with my hands and sighing against my palms.

"Come with me," Rose said, getting down from the stool. I followed her reluctantly. "Let's go and see what people think of your video. I bet you they'll like it. Any money you like."

I could never argue with Rose and win, so I agreed as she led me to my room. Opening my laptop up I brought up YouTube, and checked my video. WOAH. Twenty comments?!

My eyes scanned over them all.

'Is that Rose Dawson? Omg'

'Ur so good at vlogging'

'U like Muse! U and danisnotonfire should totally meet up'

'ur cool'

'I like ur vids! Subscribed ;)'

Wow! This was such a positive response. And I loved the irony that one person said I should meet up with Dan. I already have met him! But how could I tell them that without them thinking that we were going out?

When I checked my subscribers, I was most shocked. I had thrirty subscribers already and I'd only made one video! This was amazing!

"Rose, I have thirty fucking subscribers," I told my friend in shock.

She leaned over my shoulder. "Told you so. That's amazing, well done Tash."

"I didn't even think it was that good," I chuckled, but when I turned back to my laptop I had another new comment, and I was desperate to read it.

So I clicked on it.

And got the fright of my life.

It was from Dan.

Dan had seen my video.

Dan had commented on my video.

Dan had liked and favourited my video.

"Rose, fucking hell!" I yelled, and her head whipped back round. "Dan has commented, liked and favourited my video! How did he even notice it?!"

Rose shrieked happily. "Oh my God! Really?!"

I read out the comment, "'Nice video, Tash ;) I told you that you can do it if you believe in yourself. Well done on 35 subscribers xx'"

My jaw went slack. How?!

Someone must've told him my name. And that I liked Muse. He must've recognised my name. That had to be how.

"Shit," I muttered under my breath, I couldn't keep the grin off my face. "Holy shit!"

"Tash, you lucky bitch!" Rose screamed happily. "Look! 45 subscribers now!"

"This cannot be happening!" I beamed, jumping off the sofa to grab my friend's hands. We squealed and ran around the room together. I could simply not get the excitement off my shoulders.

"Reply to him," Rose instructed and I did as she said. Sitting down and taking a few deep breaths to calm myself, I shakily typed in a reply,

'Thanks Dan. I'm so happy you liked it! Xxx'

Then I hit 'Post Comment'. Only then did I realise that comments were coming in by the seconds.

'I ship it'

'You two should totally date'

'perfect for each other!'

I couldn't help it, but a wide grin spread across my face. How could all of this happen, after I'd only posted ONE video?! My subscribers were going up by the seconds. I had sixty now.

"Well that escalated quickly," I chuckled under my breath.

/\\\

It was half seven at night, and Rose and I were watching Dan and Phil's radio show on the TV. We'd connected my laptop to it so we could watch it on the big screen. So far I was really enjoying it, it was actually really interesting!

"So, on Twitter I asked you if you had any questions to ask Phil and I," Dan said into the microphone. "And we got loads! So we're going to answer the ones which we thought were the best."

"Damn, Phil's looking hot," Rose said, staring wide-eyed at the TV screen. I chuckled, that was so her.

"Stop it. Dan's looking smokin'," I giggled, as he began reading out questions.

"'Why do you like Malteasers so much?' Well, you should all know that I love Malteasers! They are the best chocolates ever, and if you don't like them then you're a peasant. Does that answer your question?"

They took turns in answering a few more, until Dan read out a particular one which drew my attention.

"'Do you have a crush? If so, indirect her'." My heart skipped a beat. This was when I found out if he liked me or not. I was hoping he did. If he didn't, then my heart would be broken into a million pieces.

"I do in fact. I don't know if she's watching this," he looked directly into the camera. "but hopefully she is. I haven't known her that long, but she's so beautiful. She's funny and so nice to be around, but she still needs to believe that herself."

A smile crossed my lips. But he couldn't... surely he couldn't be talking about me?

"And she's really good at vlogging and making YouTube videos. I see her as a successful vlogger one day."

My jaw dropped even more than before. WHAT?!

"Yeah. Don't be jealous, ladies," he chuckled into the camera. "She probably doesn't like me like that anyway. I think she only sees me as a friend. But one can dream."

"No!" I screamed at the TV, hearing Rose's amused chuckle follow suite. "I don't, Dan! I fucking love you to bits, OK? Do you want me to phone up and tell you that?!"

"Go on," Rose said, "I dare you. Phone up and tell him."

I started sobbing, unable to control my own emotions. "How could he even think that?! I love him. I fucking love him!"

"Calm down, Tash," Rose wrapped an arm around my shoulders. "It's OK. I'll help you. You know I've got a technique with the boys."

"Shut up," I snapped, but I was unable to keep myself serious and let out a tiny giggle.

"Shh, shh," Rose said, letting me sob into her shoulder. "I can phone up for you if you want."

"Don't phone up," I warned her, "I'll get hate. Everyone will unsubscribe from me."

"But they all seem to think that you'd make a good couple," she countered.

By now I had splodges of make up running down my cheeks. "But there's always some that don't."

"It'll happen eventually," Rose sighed. "You both love each other. He's going to find out soon enough, don't you think?"