Breaking the rule

The next few months were some of the best of my life. Every job I was put on, Lauren volunteered to help out. Most of our day included of making out though so the last hour or so would be us rushing around to get the job done.

Lauren had made so much progress with her treatment, she did get ill for a full week after her treatment had finished. She had refused to let me see her, much to my disappointment. She was constantly throwing up and in so much pain it had broken me to see her like that and I think she knew that's why she wouldn't let me see her.

She had completely changed me as a person, I was no longer this guy that thought any girl would be lucky to have him, I wasn't cocky or big headed. Lauren had changed that in me. I had fell in love with this beautiful girl, yes I knew I had broke the rule but there was nothing I could do about it. I tried my best not to fall in love with her but I soon realised it was pretty much impossible.

In the end I just accepted I was in denial, you can't just tell yourself not to fall in love with somebody, it doesn't work like that. The heart wants what the heart wants.

I had met Lauren's parents too, apparently they'd seen how happy she was and they wanted to know why. When Lauren told them it was because she has a boyfriend, they weren't very happy. After a long chat with me and Lauren they came around to the idea. They could see how happy she was and that's all they wanted for her. They'd spoke to me In private as well, explaining anything could happen to Lauren at any moment and if that was gonna make me leave then I had to leave now. That was never gonna happen though because she was the girl I loved, whether I was supposed to or not.

I couldn't tell her that though because it would kill her, she knew I'd only get hurt and I couldn't do that to her. After her last set of treatment she would find out if the cancer had gone or if it had spread.

Lauren had met my mum and Alice too. Mum adored Lauren, which delighted me, even if we weren't on great terms. She loved Lauren for the fact she had changed me as a person, a person to be proud of. She was proud of me before but extremely now.

Lauren explained everything about me whole relationship with Derek to Alice, basically everything that happened and Alice was horrified to say the least. She didn't know about how Derek treated me when I was younger just how he never paid any interest in me or how he treated mum.

That night when mum and Alice got home, Derek had a house full of prostitutes along with his friends. Alice was obviously disgusted and mum went mental. In the middle of my mum throwing them all out the police had turned up, raiding her house looking for drugs and they had found a lot too. Derek got arrested for dealing and got put on a murder charge too. He had sold some dodgy drugs to a girl, killing her instantly. Another guy had been killed for owing money, all linking back to Derek, of course.

So basically he would be spending the remainder of his life in prison, no love lost there on my account. Mum was pleased really and Alice ended up hating him as much as me. She apologised to me and mum over and over for bringing him back I to our lives.

So really it was thanks to Lauren me and Alice were good again, if she hadn't told Alice all that stuff then we probably would still not be talking now.
Pax and Tanya had convinced Lauren into letting me see her, she broke down in my arms.

Sally let me look after Lauren, signing It in as my community service. After that week of her being ill, she started to get better, a lot better. She started getting day releases and would always spend it with me once a got two days a week so one with me and one with her family.

I'd got my flat now too so we'd either spend the day there watching movies or we'd go to the cinema or out for dinner, we called it our date night.

Tonight was her first night release and with a lot of persuading, max and Tanya let Lauren stay with me.
"Ready babe?" I asked her as she sat in the edge if her bed waiting for me. "I've been ready for two hours, your the one who took ages to come and get me" she said.i laughed at how stubborn she could be "community service babe" I told her. "Shouldn't be such a naughty boy" she smirked. Smirking back at her I pulled her off the bed and towards me.

I pressed my lips on to hers in a heated kiss. "Please stop" max said from behind us. "Oh shut up max" Tanya scolded. I looked at Lauren, us both laughing. "Look after my baby" max told me, more as a warning though. "Dad! Seriously?" Lauren scolded. I chuckled at her "of course I will" I told them.

We got to my flat and we didn't do much just talked and watched films all night. Half way through the film I noticed Lauren drifting to sleep, I le her just sleep for a while as I thought about today. We hadn't done nothing special, just watched films and had dinner but we had so much love for each other even though we didn't admit it, that everyday was a great day for us. There wasn't a day we weren't laughing or smiling constantly, not a day I hadn't been happy. Funnily enough community service was the best thing that ever happened to me.

I turned the tv off and carried Lauren through to the bedroom. I took her clothes off and was mesmerised by her body, it's not just a beautiful face she has. I put her in one of my tshirt s and tucked her under the covers. I got into bed myself, pulling her against me, she wriggled closer into my side "I love you joey" she mumbled in her sleep.

My eyes widened, I sort of knew already but hearing her say it was amazing and I so badly wanted to tell her how much I loved her but I couldn't break my promise.

I woke up in the morning, feeling Lauren pressing kisses to my lips. "Morning beautiful" I said grabbing hold of hear waist and pulling her body on top of mine. "I loved waking up in your arms" she told me. I smiled at her, tucking some loose hair behind her ear. "Soon we can do it everyday baby" I told her.

She pressed her crotch into mine, taking me by surprise. My eyes flew wide open, removing her off me and we both say on the bed. "Lauren what are you doing?" I asked. She sighed "joey don't tell me you don't want too" she asked. "No Lauren I don't" I told her. All emotions disappeared of her face and I regretted saying what I just did. She looked down as tears started to fill her eyes. "No Lauren, I'm sorry I didn't mean that" I told her picking her up and resting her in my arms as she began to sob.

"Please don't cry" I asked her, stroking her hair. "Why can't I be normal? I don't want to be like this" she sobbed. "I know but you'll be better soon" I told her. "Joey if I get bad news today, then that's it, it's over" she said. I didn't want to think like that I couldn't think like that. I pulled us into a lying position on the bed still holding her in my arms.

"I know you want this too" she told me. I sighed. "More than anything babe but I don't want to hurt you" I admitted. "You won't joey I promise" I thought about it for a minute "are you sure?" She nodded at me, staring deep into my eyes.

I flipped us over so I was on top of her, reciprocating her smile. I pressed my lips down onto hers as she found the bottom of my tshirt, with some help from me removing it off my body. I flipped us over again so I was able to pull my tshirt off her body, leaving her in just her underwear.

I laid her flat on the bed, stroking her through the material of her knickers. I unclasped the back of her bra, her removing it and throwing it onto the floor. I sucked one nipple into my mouth as my hand massaged her other.

"Joey" she breathed heavily. "Please I want, need you now" she said. I smirked at her while removing my boxers as she did the same with her knickers. "No regrets?" I asked her, just to be sure. "None" she smiled.

I pushed into her slowly, not wanting to rush things, this had to be special. She gasped as I sunk into her fully, hitting a sensitive spot. I set a steady rhythm, both of us enjoying being connected as one. It wasn't long before we reached our highs, us both hitting them together. We collapsed on the bed afterwards, this was a feeling I wanted to keep having and never forget.

Making our way into Sally's office I was so nervous but I was trying my up most best to keep it together for Lauren, who was actually quite calm, somehow. Max and Tanya were already sitting in there waiting for us.

"Someone looks happy" Sally said as we sat down. I squeezed Lauren's hand which was currently entwined with my own. "We are" I smiled.
Sally was talking about Lauren's treatment and her progress and then there they were those words, the words I'd had nightmares about.

"The cancers spread"

All of our heads snapped up in shock, this couldn't be happening, not now, not after she had done so well. I wouldn't lose her, I couldn't lose her. "But she was getting better" I said. "I'm sorry joey, that's just Lauren's body way of telling us it's shutting down" she said. "There's nothing more we can do now". A loud sob escaped Tanya's mouth as max tried to calm her down.

"But she can't die, there must be another way another treatment maybe?" Tanya begged. "Stop it mum, it's over" Lauren said. "Lauren don't say that" I told her, almost begging. "It's time to face reality, it didn't work joey" Lauren told me.

"How long have I got?" Lauren asked Sally. "Maybe tonight" Sally said sympathetically. "Tonight?!" Max snapped. I couldn't believe this was happening, this couldn't happen. "Now there's no more treatment to come and her medication has stopped, her body will slowly shut down over the next few hours, I'm so very sorry" Sally said.

We all left the office and went back to Lauren's room. I laid on the bed just holding her in my arms, still not wanting to believe she was going to die. Max and Tanya sat on the chairs beside the bed trying to keep it together for Lauren.

"Lauren I'm so sorry, I can't do it no more, I have to tell you before I do lose you for good" I told her. "No joey! You promised me this wouldn't happen!" She said, beginning to cry. Tanya and max knew about the whole rule thing and looked on through tear clad eyes. "I'm sorry baby!" I told her.

I pressed my lips down on to hers gently then releasing them again shortly after. "I've hurt you" she sobbed. "No Lauren! You've made me happy, the happiest I've ever been" I told her. She smiled up at me knowing what was coming next. "I love you" I told her, breaking our rule. "I know, I've always known" she told me, obviously I wasn't very good at hiding my feelings. "And I love you" she told me.

Max and Tanya smiled at us hugging each other as I pulled her tight to my body not wanting to let go. I didn't release her for five minutes and when I looked down, her eyes were closed and she was gone. I broke down in tears holding her, as did max and Tanya. My girl was gone all I could do now was love her in my heart, forever.

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