Hi everyone,
First of all, I'm sincerely sorry if y'all got excited upon seeing this "update" when in reality it is a bittersweet author's note. Since this is a big announcement, I decided to post it on my most popular story (so a lot of people will be able to see it right away) and eventually I'll get around to posting it in my profile description as well.
As you all may have noticed, this has been my first time being on my fanfiction account in a month or two. Ever since July I have been incredibly busy with college stuff- and now that I have been attending college for almost a month, I find myself having no more free time. My life literally consists of homework, sleeping, eating, and sometimes going to college events on and off-campus. Also, because of summer laziness, preoccupation and anxiety about college, and nothing new about Victorious (no finales or the ability to watch Sam and Cat regularly, which I can't due to college) since it was cancelled almost 8 months ago (wow, time goes by fast doesn't it?), I have lost almost all interest in writing, both original stories and my fanfiction. The only writing I do nowadays is write a poem every so often when I am really stressed and need to let off some steam or when I have a brilliant idea that needs to get out on paper. Given that what I have feared would happen has now become a reality, I am sorry to say that as of this point on, I am finished with writing fanfiction for good. I just don't have the time nor the motivation to do it anymore.
Before you all start to cry or protest that I left so many pieces of my work unfinished, I would like to say first off that I AM SO SO SORRY! I honestly didn't mean for this to happen- the change came slowly, gradually over time. At the beginning of the summer I was convinced I would be writing all the time, but things just changed. I had to grow up and take on more responsibility for my family and eventually, when I reached college, for myself. I had to put other priorities over others and all this responsibility immediately squelched out what was left of my creative juices and dumped them down the drain. I hate to leave things unfinished, but I have reached the point of no return at this point- and by this point I mean if I was even miraculously able to overcome my writer's block the chapter would still be complete shit because I haven't updated in so long. I'd rather end it here with all my good work surrounding my exit than put up sloppy chapters with half the effort in them just to please people with updates. Maybe I'll come back to my stories over breaks once in a while and update then, but that is even a rare case.
I won't be completely gone though because I am still writing Where's Robbie? with KnowMyNameNotMyStory. We haven't updated that story in a long time too, if I recall. I don't know if that's due to her being busy or that she knows that college is keeping me incredibly busy and god knows what. I'm sure she'll notice I'm alive and send me an update on where we stand after this update appears LOL. Just kidding, girl, I know you haven't forgotten about me- or, at least I hope you haven't hahaha xP
Before I make my dramatic exit I would just like to say thank you to you all who have followed me and put faith into me that I am, in fact, a good writer. Writing stories and fanfiction actually brought me out of a depression that I had after I quit gymnastics; I didn't know what else I had to offer the world besides my academic smarts once gymnastics was done. Having you all believe in me and compliment my writing made me feel like I had a purpose, that it was my duty to write and come up with bizarre, insanely different ideas that make people smile and say "Hey, that's something I have never seen before and that I really want to read." That was my whole point of writing- to open readers up to new perspectives, to open up about my life and have you see the kind of person I am, and to absorb myself in something that has made me who I am today. Yes, I will continue to be abnormally obsessed with Cabbie and to restrain myself from referencing Victorious whenever I'm talking to people. Yes, I will continue to be a hopeless romantic and look for my Robbie Shapiro out there (in fact, I almost found someone but it's not going too well right now- we've been stuck in this in-between stage for a while now and it's getting kind of frustrating). Yes, I will continue with my collab and posting random poems on my Facebook account whenever I feel the urge to. However, my main goal right now is to focus on my studies in college and use my work ethic to make a name for myself and secure myself a better future.
EDIT: I had specific shout-outs for people but for some retarded reason Fanfiction deleted them and now my words are gone. So maybe I'll post them in a different document or post them on my profile page. Again, thanks for your support, everyone; it means so much to me. And Victorious will never be dead to us! And as I always like to conclude my author's notes... Peace, love, and Cabbie x3. Love you all.
Sincerely,
Jess