This one shot is when Jasper teaches Alice how to fight, well sort of.

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I can believe she talked me into this, out of all the things she could of asked of me, why this. She insisted that I taught her how to fight, why she wanted too I will never know. But as always, I did anything for her, because I love her, but that was also the same reason I didn't want to do this. It could only end badly.

"Come on Jasper, I'm ready" she said from a distance, we were out side the house near the forest.

"Are you sure your ready?" I asked her, trying to make her change her mind.

"Yes I'm sure."

I took a deep breath.

"Ok" I muttered, and I ran towards her. She jumped out of the way easily, I turned on my heal and lunged at her, and she gracefully stepped aside and let my fly past her.

I could tell she was looking into the future as I felt her emotions change so rapidly as she came in and out of reality, just like I had taught her she was using her visions to decipher her opponents next move. It worked for a while, as every quick decision I made she managed to avoid.

Every jump I made she dodged, every turn I took she was gone, every hit I intended she would gracefully defend.

It was going well for the first few hours that we practised, until.

I could feel myself slip away, and my instincts take over my body. With out thought I jumped over her and turned before she could turn to face me, and I wrapped my arms around her body, locking her arms in place. The monster inside me came out.

I tightened my grip around her, causing her to gasp in pain slightly. My jaw opened and lunged for her throat. Luckily I managed to gain control just in time, I froze. My lips touching her cold delicate skin, my teeth only a millimetre away from her throat.

My body filled with fear as I realized what I was about to do. I let out a sharp, painful breath that I didn't realize I had locked in my chest.

Alice was still, I couldn't read her emotions, even if I could I wouldn't be able to tell as the shame and guilt filled my entier body and soul. I felt my dead heart sting as it realized how close I came to hurting my lover. And that thought scared me more than anything in my entire existence, the thought of Alice bearing a scar on her neck caused and inflicted by me, her husband, her soul mate, her protector.

I clenched my jaw tightly and tried to control my emotions so they wouldn't betray me when I spoke.

"Do you know why that happened?" I asked her through clenched teeth, she shacked her head slightly signalling a 'no'.

"Because, I didn't think. I let my instinct take over, any vampire or newborn trained to kill doesn't think, they only act on instinct…" my jaw was still tight as I spoke into her ear, I loosened my grip on her and took a few steps away from her. I turned my back to her so that she wouldn't see me in this state. I hated myself, even more than I did all those years ago when I killed all those newborns and innocent humans.

We were silent for a while. My shoulders stiffened when I felt her light hand touch my arm. I lifted my head so she couldn't see the pain in my eyes.

"Jazz?" she whispered softly, she was standing in front of me, I could feel her there. She lifted her hand and touched my cheek. I instantly turned my head so she couldn't force me to look at her, I dint want to see the shame that would be plastered on her lovely face.

"I'm sorry" I whispered weakly, my voice was crackly as I said this.

Alice didn't say anything, she just pressed her body against mine. She nuzzled her head in my chest. I almost chocked to prevent any tearless sobs from happening, I knew full well that if I was able to shed one tear I would be crying my heart out.

"I'm so sorry Alice, I never meant to…" I couldn't finish, the dry sobs started filling my lungs, making me unable to talk.

"Jasper, I know you would never mean to hurt me. This is all my fault, I was the one to ask this of you." her voice was soothing, but it didn't help. The sobs didn't stop, instead my body became weak, and my knees gave way. Causing me to fall to the ground, I was on my knees trying to control myself.

Alice knelt down in front of me, wrapping her arms around my shoulders and bringing me closer to her. I buried my face into her shoulder and continued to gasp and whimper, letting out all my emotions in dry, tearless, painful sobs of guilt and agony.

"Jasper its ok, its ok" she whispered to me, pressing her lips to the top of my head. When I had calmed myself down enough to speak I lifted my head so that I could look into her eyes. Her soft loving golden eyes.

"I love you, so much" my voice was still shaky, but at least I was able to say something.

"I know, I couldn't ask of anything more. You have know idea how much I love you." and with that she pressed her cold pale lips against mine, I wrapped my arms around her pulling her impossible closer.

She pulled away and rested her forehead against mine. One of her hands gently caressed my cheek. We didn't move all night, we didn't say a word, we just sat there in each others arms listening to each others breathing.