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I hope somewhere someone likes this. . . don't hate me for the end of this chapter.
"What is it Stella? What are you not telling us?" Mac questioned as Stella gripped his hand. He could feel her trembling, trying to hold it together. Her other hand flew to her mouth to hold back the sob.
"Miss Bonasera"
"Yes, I am she"
"I am Doctor Todd"
"How how is Lindsay?"
"I am not going to sugar coat things Miss Bonasera. Things are not looking well for your friend. She sustained a lot of damage from the accident. Most of the damage is internal. I am afraid while she came though surgery well enough we were unable to save her baby. She was much too early in her pregnancy for the embryo to be saved. I am sorry. "
"Wha?" Stella questioned shocked thinking she heard the wrong thing.
"You didn't know"
"No no. Will-will she be alright doctor?"
"If your friend doesn't wake in the next 24 to 48 hours Miss Bonasera I am afraid she . . ."
"I understand," Stella nodded.
"Does she have any family-?"
"No her co-workers are her friends and family."
"Stella . . . Stella"
"Lindsay …was… Pregnant," Stella broke down sobbing.
Those three words made their way in the tried waking mind of Danny. His eyes widen in pain and shock. My Montana was pregnant; My Montana was going to have my child, our child. And Now, now. .He curled up on the sofa and sobbed. 'All I wanted ta do was tell her da truth. I didn't want our new life to start on a lie. Oh god I swear I never meant for this ta happen. Oh god please please I'll do anythin please don't take my Montana away from me please.' he prayed silently as he sobbed.
Stella noticed the sobbing Danny; she tore away from Mac and went to him kneeling down beside the sofa.
"I am so so sorry Danny"
"I never meant for this ta happen Stel. I only chased afterta her ta stop her. I swear Stel I. I. only wanted ta. Tell da. Truth. Before. I asked. Her. Ta. Marry. Me," he sobbed brokenly.
"Oh Danny it's not your fault," Stella whispered.
"What happened Danny? Why was Lindsay running away?" Danny clears his throat and wiped his face sitting up. Stella took a seat beside him. He frowned and swallowed a few times than looked at Mac.
"We were talking you know. Jokin around and she made some comment bout me ya know how I was. I had been tryin for a couple of hours to tell her something. I didn't wanna hurt her wit the news. It sort ta just came out."
"What just came out," Flack growled causing Adam and Hawkes to move toward him again just in case.
"Rikki called dis mornin." he swallowed. "she's pregnant"
"Sonofa-"
"It mine"
"Ya dead Messer dead," Flack tried to lunge across for the crying man but Adam and Hawkes grabbed him before he could. "Let me go . . . I'll killem"
"FLACK," Mac yelled but Flack paid Mac no mind.
"All this time Ima telling Linds to give ya time to give ya space and ya'll come to ya senses and ya were screwin your neighbor. I defended ya when she thought ya was wit someone else. Dats low Messer, Low even for ya. Let me go. I'll kill ya man."
"No one is killing any one Don man calm down," Hawkes bit out. Mac storm to the door and opened it.
"Leave Flack until you calm down I don't want to see you."
"Ya defendin Messer now Mac?" Flack stared at Mac for a moment. "Fine don't come cryin to me when he stabs ya in da back. I'll be at da hospital wit Lindsay" Flack stalked out of the room and took the stairs down.
Mac sighed and turned back to Danny. "As disappointed as I am . . ." Mac stopped. "Okay finish you told Lindsay about you and Rikki than what happened?"
"Um . . . Um she looked sick and left the room. I followed her and she broke for the stairs. I chased after her. I kept telling her to stop Mac. I swear I begged her to stop and listen to meh. But she kept going she was on the sidewalk we traded words than, than oh gawd. .maybe I should have let her go." 'I should never have told her about Rikki and da baby' he finished silently scrubbing his hands over his face.
A page from Flack had them rushing to the hospital. They arrived to a frantic scene around Lindsay's room nurses running in and out. Flack sat in front of the nurses' station looking miserable and clearly upset at seeing Danny.
"What happened?" Mac spoke trying to keep Flack from casing another scene. Danny stared in the open door-way at the doctor as he shocked Lindsay. He knew they where trying to get her heart beating again. He had seen it done a hundred times before. 'Please please god don't let this happen. Don't take my Montana away please'
He half listened to Flack, Mac and Hawkes as they talked about what happened. Vaguely he heard Stella crying. As he watched the unresponsive body of his girl-friend and prayed to anyone anything that would listen.
'This can't be happening' he thought. When just this morning he woke up with her in his arms. Those beautiful brown eyes of hers looking at him with her biggest brightest smile reflecting from their depths. Gawd he was even thinking about asking her to marry him and now she was fighting for her life.
Danny had to grip the desk to keep from falling over when the doctor exited the room with a sad expression. He looked at them spoke to a nurse and walked over.
"I am sorry. We tried everything that we could there was just too much damage from the accident."
"Can we . . . Um can we see her?"
"Of course give the nurse ten minutes can you go in?"
Danny didn't know how long he stood there after the doctor had left. He didn't see his other friends and co-workers walk into her room or exit. He only knew that his feet started moving, he was numb standing at her bed side. "Montana," he sobbed reaching for her hand.
The room darken as the clouds covered the sun, thunder boomed in the distance. Rain pelted the room windows . . .
I am not mad at you, I'm mad at myself because I've fallin in love you with and now i have to find out how to let that go.
I don't how much longer i can feel alone. It's messing with my work, its braking my heart
Do you have any ideal how hard you are to love?