Authors Notes:

This chapter was hard I had so many ideas to play with. I decided I would bring Alice in, I wanted to show how close their friendship was how they were like sisters. Alice reminds me of one of my oldest friends, she was my partner in crime, I kept no secrets from her. That's how I wanted Alice and Bella to be!

Adult readers only

I hope you enjoy and once again reviews are always welcome! I can use some help with the 3rd chapter!

I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR ITS CHARACTERS…..

There was a knock at the door, yes Alice! I made my way down the stairs careful not to fall. She was standing on the stoop with several shopping bags filling her tiny hands. Her smile was beaming flashing hints of her perfectly straight teeth, she could have come in through my open window but Alice always insisted on entering through my front door, I made it to the bottom of the stairs without splitting my head open, good job Bella. I think Alice is having the same thought because her smile gets even bigger as I reach the glass door. I fumbled with the lock to get it open, damn old houses always shifting. "Gosh Bella took you long enough. Any longer and I would of froze out there" sarcasm filling every word! "It's a good thing you made it down those stairs in one piece Carlisle is still out hunting with Esme, Jasper, Emmitt and Rosalie." She pushed past me and made her way upstairs. What the fuck, Edward is home and hasn't come over, called or text me yet? I guess he was still pissed off. The anger that had consumed me all week long began to build up again. "I brought a mini spa, nail polish in every color possible, nail files, massage oil" she was talking way to fast I couldn't get a word in "pumice stones, candles, magazines, a few ingredients for this magical facial scrub, hopefully it will do something to remove those dark circles from under your eyes" she looked at me with a disapproving frown. I open my mouth to defend myself and before I can get anything out she cut me off again. "You know it's going to happen Bella I saw it, well, not IT" she giggled at the thought "but I saw enough to know that it will, but he's not going to do it until you're both married. He's very old fashioned, you know that" I love Alice but sometimes I wish she would step out of neutral territory and choose my side. "Oh and Bella… you do know that you can pay people to do all this for you." Holding the bags in front of her face, she winked then placed the bags on my desk and started taking items out. I smiled knowing that even though she is complaining she loved this kind of stuff and the fact that I'm doing it with her made it even better. "Yeah but where's the fun in that" I said and we both laughed!

I lay back in my bed with a sweet almond coconut facial mask plastered all over my face and the latest gossip magazine in hand. I've got to give a little credit to Alice the tingling on my face and the sweet smell was so relaxing I look over and to my surprise she had one to, for the life of me I couldn't understand why, she's a vampire they have perfect skin they never age never wrinkle never break out, but Alice is Alice. After a few minutes of silence I decided I really needed her opinion, "Alice"

"Hmm?" she hummed

"I love Edward, you know I love him, and I am ready to spend the rest of my life with him, I am just terrified at the thought of marriage. I know he won't sleep with me until I'm a vampire, and he refuses to turn me until we're married, but I won't, I can't marry him until he makes love to me. I don't want to sound selfish but it's not fair, I just want this one thing. I want to feel what it is like while I'm still a human. Agh, I just don't know what to do anymore." Just talking about it upsets me. I waited for her answer but she just laid there. I rolled over to my stomach, for a second I want to burry my head in my pillow and scream but I can't with this damn mask on. I look over to her and nudged her arm "Um… Earth to Alice" a sweet serine smile swept over her face. She rolled over to her side; she looked beautiful even with a white gooey mask covering her face. I probably looked like the Pillsbury dough boy with mine on! "Bella I don't know what else to tell you. If you love him, want to spend the rest of your life with him and you are willing to have him turn you then what is it that's keeping you from taking that step. Marriage is important to him just like it's important for you to have that intimacy while you are still human. You need to talk to him maybe even get him to meet in the middle somehow; you and Edward are two of the most stubborn people I have ever met." She shakes her head, rolls her eyes and flipped over on her stomach flipping through the pages of her magazine. She was right. Maybe he could meet me in the middle somewhere Alice you are a genius! A huge grin formed over my face and once again reminded me of this stupid mask. "Alice is it almost time to take this crap off?"

"Absolutely not, Bella you can't rush beauty so shut up, relax and tell me what happened between you two, Edward won't tell us a thing, and we all know something happened because he's walking around with this arrogant smirk that seems to be permanently glued onto his face!" I couldn't help but bust out into laughter either could she! I was so grateful for Alice, I couldn't really tell the girls at school these things and Renee oh god, my face turned red under this pile of junk on my face.

Alice sat up on the bed with her mouth dropped wide open as I shared every little detail, I wasn't embarrassed or ashamed. I knew I could trust her. I knew she wouldn't pass any judgment either. When there was nothing else to tell she pursed her lips together and stared at me "Bella that was hot, after all that he still had the audacity to push you away. Jasper would have been putty in my hands!" I blushed again at the thought of Alice and Jasper being intimate with each other. Then my thoughts of them turned back to Edward and I. "Alice I have to make this happen. NO, I am going to make this happen" I think she sensed my determination. She stood up and made her way to the door "First we have to take this stuff off our face! I don't think he'll be as aroused if he saw you like this." My laughter was cut short when I looked over at her. She stood frozen, eyes opened wide, it was a vision, she stood for minutes then looked over to me, she flew over the bed and grabbed my hands, "I got it Bella" her smile was almost as wide as face "I have a plan, the plan that will have him eating out of your… " She stopped and giggled then winked as she dragged me into the bathroom. "Bella, if you're gonna pull this off you're gonna need my help."

We washed our faces, I looked in the mirror and those dark heavy circles were gone, "What did you put in that gunk, holy hell it really worked" she popped up next to me in the mirror, "Uh I told you Bella, it was magical" she snickered and pranced over to the shower where she began to run the water. "Alice… Umm… What's going on?" My expression was pretty self-explanatory. I was confused. "It's part of the plan Bella now get in, and don't forget to scrub everywhere!" She winked again! "Alice! What? Why?"

"Damn it Bella just do as you're told I'll go situate your bedroom."

In a blink of an eye she was gone.

I closed the door behind her and started to undress. The water felt so good running down my skin. What in the hell does she know and why isn't she telling me a damn thing. I grab my loofa and squeeze a generous amount on it. I work up a soapy lather before I begin to rub my shoulders. As I work the loofa into a circular motion over my chest I closed my eyes and remembered that night, my nipples start to harden as the loofa braised them. I slowly made my way down my torso, then my hips. Oh Edward I would do anything to feel your body on top of mine again, I dropped my loofa and place my fingers on the outside of my vagina. My head falls back and the water rushes down my chest. My index finger enters between my lips, I slowly rub my clit, my lord this feels amazing. I slide my middle finger in next, with both fingers working together in unison why in the hell have I never done this before,

this is incredible. I gently pinched it HOLY SHIT WHAT THE FUCK. I speed up my touches, and with my other hand I cupped my breast and started playing with my nipple tugging at it, pinching it, between that and the work my fingers were putting in down low I began to feel something building in my body, my legs start to weaken, and my vagina starts to tighten around my fingers "oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck ahhhhhhhhh-yeah." I fell to my knees as the water cascades down my back. I think I just had an orgasm, I just made myself come. I remove my fingers and grab the side of the bath, panting heavily I realize just how powerful I felt. I jumped as Alice knocked on the door. Shit, I stammer to my feet and pick up my loofa on the way up, my legs still feel weak. "Come in" I yelled out as I finished scrubbing my body. The door opened slowly and I poked my head out from behind the shower curtain, what is she doing out there?

Fuck.

My heart began to race "Edward, uh what are you doing here?" I chewed on my bottom lip and looked into his eyes that were glowing a light amber yellow color as they usually did after a good hunting trip. He took a step forward and shut the door behind him. He opened his mouth to speak. I rolled my eyes and shut the curtain. There it was again the anger I worked so hard to bury. I squeezed my Strawberry shampoo into my hand and worked a lather throughout my hair. I look up at the shower head close my eyes and begin rinsing off my hair. I start to wonder what in the hell he was doing here, in my bathroom and where is Alice I try and tune out the sound of the shower to pin point his location but it's no use. Alice where are you?

Crap.

Her vision could this be it. I turn around to grab my conditioner and there he was standing in front of me naked and so gorgeous standing here in my shower. He moved toward me and I took a step back damn it; I was cornered against the wall and his beautiful body. He placed both his hands over my shoulders. I looked down trying to avoid eye contact. He moved closer my hard nipples grazing his chest. "Bella, look at me" his rough voice ordered me. As much as I wanted give in I couldn't he wasn't off the hook yet. The hot water showered us both. I see his feet move closer my breast pressed flat against his cool hard body His penis was fully erect and poking my belly. "Bella, I said look at me."