I stared down at the lifeless body of Bella. It was all I could do. Just look. And stare. And see the horrible scene of what Jacob had done to her. See her white skin. See her stained clothing. See her bruised chest. And I remembered her forgiving eyes, her screams of pain and her whimpering. And all of that was because of him. And I would never hear her again. All I could do was remember. Because I had let Bella Swan die. I couldn't save her.

I sat there for what felt like hours but I knew it was only minutes. I held her hand and prayed inwardly that Bella would make it to heaven. She was always putting others first and she died a martyr. Bella had to get there.

Suddenly Carlisle placed his hand on my shoulder. He knelt with me and patted my back. I could not and would not ever forget the look on Carlisle's face when we heard Bella's heart stop. I knew he trusted me to look after his daughter, and I had let him down. I had let myself down. I couldn't protect her when she needed me the most. Of course he would never tell me, but I know he was disappointed. He believed I could help her. And I couldn't. I tried but I couldn't. I hoped he would not feel bad for looking at me differently if he did. But trusting Carlisle he would not judge me.

"We have to go, son," he said. He stood up and as his hand was sliding off my back I caught it. "Yes, Edward?" he questioned.

"You know what I want, Carlisle" I said bluntly. I wanted to die. I could not live in a world without Bella. He knew this too. We had talked about it many times. But I knew he would not do it. I was his first son.

"No, Edward." He said plainly. "Not now."

"Carlisle, please." I needed him to see. I needed him to let me go.

"I can't Edward. I can't do that to you. And I won't do it to our family. Say goodbye to them if you insist. But son, you can get through this, I know you can."

"Please, Carlisle please. You know I wouldn't ask you this if I didn't mean it. And I have thought about too. Please. Let me go Carlisle. Let me chase my life. Let me stay with her before she gets too far away from me. Before I can never find her again. Please dad. You have yours with Esme. Please let me stay with mine," I begged, barely even as a whisper.

I saw the mixed emotions playing on Carlisle's face. I knew I could find out what they where, if he was considering my plea but I wanted to hear his decision come from his mouth.

We looked at each other in silence for a few minutes. He looked away from me and his body started shaking. I heard his sobs. I wondered if he was crying for Bella, or me. Or for the both of us.

Carlisle turned back around to face me.

"I love you Edward. More than you know. I you will always be my son. You have no idea how much your life means to me and I'm so sorry to let you go. I will always remember you, for eternity and you will be in my heart."

"I love you too, dad."

Bella POV

"Death is easy," I breathed.

"Death is hard" I heard from behind me. I knew that voice. I would follow it anywhere. I was drawn to it.

I spun around to see Edward and I welcomed him into my arms.